light in the north

Although his younger brother's hair-raising voice and smile have been wandering around in his mind, after all, he consciously left Shen Bei today instead of sticking around him all the time, so Shen Bei finished what he should have vomited and felt a little relaxed After a while, he just wanted to go home, because there was still someone waiting for him at home.

He walked back to the bar, explained the matter to the bar manager, and was about to leave.

In a small place, the music is in full swing, some people are intoxicated, some people are drunk, and some people cry because of their hurt feelings.There are always nostalgic people who come here every day to remember some old stories.

"The high school student from before sang better."

When a guest left Shen Bei, he deliberately held him back.He is a familiar face, but this year he always likes to sit alone in a corner, order a glass of black Russian, and leave after drinking quietly after listening to the music.

"Although the person is gone, don't close this bar."

Now I don't come here as often as before, but I still appear here every week, maybe... It's also Don Juan's old acquaintance.

As he said this, his eyes were full of regret and emotion.

Shen Bei looked at the guest, nodded seriously, and said, "Definitely."

When Shen Bei returned home feeling unwell, he almost stepped on the cat's tail resting at the door.

"You're back."

Jiang Nan was sitting in the middle of the living room without lights, Shen Bei didn't see Jiang Nan's existence, but he knew that Jiang Nan would be waiting for him at home, so the sudden greeting did not scare Shen Bei.

He threw the key on the shoe cabinet, and the Russian new gray cat he picked up lazily stood up, stretched his body, then licked his front leg, and walked gracefully in front of him.

"Have you taken your medicine?" Shen Bei asked.

He went over and turned on the light in the room, and saw Jiang Nan sitting on the ground, with a pile of large sheets of drawing paper beside him, and rows of pens and paints everywhere.

Jiang Nan raised his head and glanced at Shen Bei, then lowered his head and continued painting. His hands were already dyed colorfully, and he didn't care much about this issue. In some places, he even used his hands to create on them.

"have eaten."

He answered, as if perfunctory.

Shen Bei felt something was wrong, he walked slowly to the opposite of Jiang Nan, and sat down as well: "Why don't you turn on the light and draw."

Jiang Nan didn't stop moving his hands, but if you look carefully, he was just scribbling on it with various paints.

"Come... I don't like light very much."

Jiang Nan raised her head and smiled, her eyes filled with mist, "You know."

Shen Bei frowned, and continued to ask: "Jiang Nan, how do you feel after taking the medicine recently?"

Jiang Nan looked straight into Shen Bei's eyes sensitively, this action made his eyes sharper and looked a little scary.And Shen Bei didn't avert his eyes, but also directly met Jiang Nan's, showing his inner emotions to Jiang Nan without reservation.

Perhaps aware of Shen Bei's worry, Jiang Nan's eyelashes moved, put down the things in her hands, and sighed.

Shen Bei: "What's wrong? Are you feeling unwell?"

Jiang Nan shook her head: "It's okay, I can't find anything to do at home alone, didn't you want to watch me draw? I thought, I will take the opportunity to surprise you when you come back. Who knows that you haven't come back, I draw When you paint, you forget the time."

Shen Bei looked around again, and asked with some doubts: "I forgot the time, so I drew so many?!"

The drawing paper here is almost covering the living room, some of the paint on it is dry, some is still wet, sticking together, making it stained.And these paintings don't seem to have any rules, and Shen Bei can't tell what's wrong, it's just... very strange.

He carefully observed Jiang Nan's every expression and movement, and found that his current reaction seemed a little lax.

Shen Bei knew that the medicine he was taking now had this effect, it would distract the patient's attention, and this was one of the functions to restrain his excessive excitement and nervousness.And Shen Bei went to consult a doctor again, these are normal phenomena, and now after taking the medicine seriously, there will be some physiological reactions.

It just needs a process of adaptation, just like their relationship, it needs to be done slowly and managed slowly, otherwise it is very likely that the success will fall short.

After all, this mental illness is not like other, long-term chronic diseases that will accompany him for four to fifty years.

"Let's take a shower and go straight to bed. The company still has a lot to do tomorrow."

Shen Bei seemed to be coaxing a child.

Jiang Nan glanced at Shen Bei: "You know, I can't control myself many times now, but I still know what I'm doing."

He lowered his head and rummaged through the pile of papers on the ground, his movements were a little rough, making Shen Bei not sure what the situation was, and he watched Jiang Nan looking for things all over the room in a daze.

"what!"

Jiang Nan took out a painting from the ground, stepped on other papers, walked to Shen Bei, and handed it to him, "The first one is the one with the most heart."

He said, raised his left eyebrow, seemed a little embarrassed, and then smiled.

Shen Bei took it and looked at it for a long time.

"This... isn't our dormitory at that time."

he muttered.

Shen Bei didn't know how to draw, so he always admired Jiang Nan.He remembered the first time he ran into Jiang Nan in the dormitory, Jiang Nan was sitting in the middle of the dormitory, facing their beds, drawing lines.

And it was summer, and the sun was shining.

He remembered, remembered the light coming through the window sill, when he walked in, he could see the fine and small fluff on Jiang Nan's beautiful neck.

It may be because of the refraction of the light. At that time, Jiang Nan looked at his pupils, which were light brown.It seems to be a light brown color that has been dried by the sun after the traditional black eyes have been washed and left to dry on the roof.

It's just that it may be because of his temperament, the color that could have been very warm in him did not convey the original warmth, but unexpectedly cold.

Now that Shen Bei thinks about it, he seems to have a different feeling.

The large piece of dark blue on the paper is Shen Bei's bed, which is extremely messy, and the bulge in the quilt is probably Shen Bei's, with a long leg hanging down from the edge of the bed.

It is slender, with extremely beautiful lines, and has muscles, but it is just right, because it may be asleep, so it doesn't use force, and it looks like it wants to hug and nibble.Of course, this was Jiang Nan's idea.

For the only exposed part of Shen Bei, Jiang Nan painted very carefully, even the scar on the calf was perfectly copied.And even if it is painted, you can still see the handsomeness of the protagonist.

"Who is this?"

Shen Bei raised his eyebrows and asked him teasingly.

In the picture, looking along the lump of unknown object, you can see the covered top, that is, the head of the bed, with yellow and black overlapping, a little hair.

Jiang Nan took a deep breath, bit her lip, approached Shen Bei, kissed him lightly, and said, "I used to be wishful thinking."

Shen Bei looked deeply into Jiang Nan's eyes, there was a kind of tenderness that was lingering with each other that had never been seen before.

He put one hand around Jiang Nan's waist, touched Jiang Nan's hair with the other, and murmured: "It's all grown."

With the tips of her hair still curled up on her fingers, Shen Bei slightly opened his lips, exposing the tip of his tongue, and Jiang Nan swallowed it.The two kissed deeply, so cautiously, they didn't want to hurt each other in the slightest, because the softness and closeness allowed them to feel more carefully the feelings that the other could bring to them.Delicate, subtle trembling, and some messy breathing due to the itching brought by the tip of the tongue.

It seems to be the most profound time after so many years.

Shen Bei pampered Jiang Nan's lips, signaling the end of a kiss.

Jiang Nan was a little bit reluctant, and moved forward.

Shen Bei pulled him back, and said softly, "That's all for today. I've been exhausted recently, you should take a good rest."

Jiang Nan was a little dissatisfied, but obediently went to wash up, and lay on the bed with Shen Bei.

Shen Bei never had the habit of wearing pajamas, so he basically slept half naked.And Jiang Nan seems to be very displeased with naked body since she was a child. For boys, it is quite a strange thing.Fortunately, Jiang Nan is not a sissy, so this has somehow become one of his cute spots.

But Shen Bei was not happy that what he hugged every night was a lump in thick pajamas.And basically every time after doing it with Shen Bei, Jiang Nan doesn't have the time and energy to wear pajamas again, but even so, under the close contact with Shen Bei's skin, there is a kind of pajamas that can bring Give him a sense of satisfaction and security.

So gradually, as long as he shared the bed with Shen Bei, he would sleep naked just like Shen Bei.

"Hey."

Shen Bei hugged Jiang Nan on the bed, sighed, "You are so sexy, I really want you to be unable to get out of bed if you do it every day."