light in the north

It looks very handsome.

Francis looked at him, smiled too, and said, "Yeah, I'm going to cry after what you did."

Aaron was stunned when he heard that, a little dumbfounded.

what metaphor...

"sorry."

Francis squeezed Aaron's hand lightly and said seriously.

Apologizing all the time, Aaron is not in a good mood now, too lazy to deal with his guilt, so he was silent for a long time.

"But I'm curious." Francis said tentatively, "I don't believe that you are mentally ill."

This sentence is insinuating, but Francis is now equivalent to half of Shen Bei, so Aaron has nothing to hide from him, but he doesn't want to say too much.

"I know someone."

Francis blinked his eyes, his expression looked jealous: "You never told me about this person's existence? Why, lover?"

Aaron smiled and shook his head: "How is it possible."

Francis got down on the ground in disappointment, and accidentally touched Aaron's wound. He hissed, and Francis got up vigilantly again.

"fine."

Aaron fondled Francis' blond hair, pressed him against his chest, and held him.

He knew that if Francis didn't know about Tan Yufan, he would definitely have a lump in his heart.And Tan Yufan was far away from here, so he didn't need to worry too much about these problems.

"He's from the South, and we don't have any relationship. He sponsors my life here, and in exchange, I'll work for him when I return home."

Francis looked dark, froze for a moment, and said, "Then are you working for him now?"

Aaron: "To be precise, when I was a sophomore in high school, I was assigned by him to do things. Unfortunately, I didn't do very well. I almost messed up everything. I just came to the Northland."

"Then you screwed up. He still treats you so well. I don't believe he has no plans." Francis said half-jokingly, "It seems that I will only go to the Southland with you when the time comes."

Aaron played with Francis's hair, his pale fingers running through the spikes of the golden hands: "Someone loves him deeply, and I can't even like it."

From Aaron's side, he could only see the top of Francis' head, not his expression.

Francis asked seemingly unintentionally: "Someone likes him, does he like that person?"

Aaron was silent, he didn't know how to answer this question, he thought for a long time, and said, "I don't like it."

"That's fine." Francis hugged him a little tighter, "That means anything is possible."

As soon as Aaron pulled hard, he pulled out a hair.

"Ouch!" Francis looked up, "You're crazy!"

Aaron said lightly, "He's a straight man."

Francis suddenly realized, and nodded in agreement: "If it's straight, it's impossible."

Aaron paused his hand and asked, "Why?"

"This is the truth that everyone knows. Movies and novels are just to satisfy our wishes so that everything is beautiful. In fact, it is basically impossible for a straight man to bend, unless he is bisexual himself." "Falling in love with someone of the opposite sex never ends well," said Francis.

Aaron didn't comment on it, didn't know what he was thinking, or didn't think anything.

Aaron stopped playing with Francis' hand, and he pushed him lightly, saying, "Get up, I'm tired."

Francis: "What's wrong?"

"fine."

Francis found that Aaron had returned to his previous ice-cold appearance.Although it seems to be gentle to him.

Aaron took the opportunity to change the subject: "What are you looking for today?"

This sentence was a bit sharp. Although he still had that flat tone, it made Francis unable to react for a moment.

"Forehead......"

Francis thought for a long time but couldn't figure out why he came here.

But my friend was injured and hospitalized, so why couldn't I say such a simple reason to visit?

What's more, this is not an ordinary friend.

"look at you."

Francis finally hecked, looking a little silly.

Seeing that Aaron didn't speak, he explained: "I wanted to come on the day of your accident, but I couldn't get through to you on the phone, and I couldn't find anyone. I only heard that you were sent to the hospital, but which hospital and which ward I don't even know, it took a while to find out, that's why I came so late."

Aaron shook his head: "It's good that you didn't get bullied at school."

Francis snorted: "No one would dare to bully me openly, that is, someone would wink at me, but it's not as serious as you."

He frowned and cursed: "Seeing that you are a southerner who is easy to bully, you bitches."

"Go back if you have nothing else to do. I'm fine, it's class time."

Aaron interrupted him and ordered the eviction.

But Francis didn't seem to understand what he meant, and said, "It's okay, anyway, this is an elective course, it doesn't matter if I go or not, I'll accompany you one more time."

Aaron took a deep breath.

"Let's go back."

Francis blinked a few times, stood up, scratched his hair: "You don't want to see me."

Aaron smiled and said, "No, I'm just a little tired and want to sleep."

Francis looked at the ground for a few seconds, then looked up and said, "Okay, I see."

Tired, tired, these ordinary words to send people off, a fool knows what it means, and Francis' disappointed face is clearly shown.

Aaron is too cold, as if nothing can get into his heart.His appearance provoked Francis to really want to love him.Of course, Aaron's appearance and not-so-short size are a small part of the reasons why he has always been nostalgic for Aaron. What's more, is his hot and cold personality. Even when he is very close, he can feel far away .So Francis has a desire to conquer, and to get closer to him.

Some people often say that they are attractive only when they are not available, and they are cherished only when they are lost.

But the result of all the trial and error is still rejection, which is indeed very hurtful.

If we talk about Francis's attitude towards Aaron now, it can only be said that he already likes him. From the beginning of his physical attraction, he can't help but think of him often.

Indifferent eyebrows, mysterious black pupils, thin lips and a clean white shirt.He pours water, reads a book... Every little detail reveals his own taste, delicate and enjoyable.

He knew that Aaron would not fall in love with him.

He knew it from the start.

But I still can't help but hope that if I can stay by his side for a little longer, maybe a little longer, maybe one day it will change?

Originally, he didn't provoke Aaron for everything.

He was, destined to be with Aaron.

But he also knew that he and Aaron would not be together forever.

This picture-like man will not belong to him.

"Also, don't laugh, it doesn't look good when you smile."

Francis finally said to Aaron.

Then he closed the door gently when he left.

Aaron returned to his expressionless face the moment the door closed, he pulled up the quilt, and it was a bit cold with his shoulders exposed just now.

To be honest, when he saw Francis came to visit him, at least he was happy for a long time, and I have to say that it made him very happy.But Francis was too ignorant, he never seemed to be able to tell what to say and what not to say.

Fuckbuddy has the rules of fuckbuddy, two people are friends, only talk about sex, not love.

But he knew that line could easily blur, especially now that Francis had grown fond of him.

Sometimes he has a heart-wrenching feeling towards Francis, and he is very clear about that feeling. He just regards Francis as Shen Bei.Of course he hoped that Shen Bei could have something to say with him and care for each other as he is now, just like... couples.

And Francis made up for this regret.

Aaron knew that Shen Bei was dead, and his ashes were scattered into the Yangtze River. There was no chance of bringing him back to life again. He should try to accept this relationship. Anyway, it's not for nothing, and it can fill the vacancy in Shen Bei's heart.

But he couldn't ignore another stronger feeling besides the heartbeat when he was with Francis.

betray.

He always felt that if he accepted Francis, it would be a betrayal of Shen Bei.So no matter how he lied to himself, Francis was Shen Bei, the reincarnation of Shen Bei, and it was a gift from his pity.But he still couldn't completely treat them as one person.

So when Francis said that falling in love with heterosexuals would never have good results, he suddenly felt sad that he had stabbed himself.

He was not angry at Francis, but at himself, and he still couldn't face what happened.Even if they told him that Shen Bei was dead, deep down in his heart he still had some extravagant hope that it was Tan Yufan who lied to him.

But so what?I am alone here loving to the death, but the person who is really dead will not have any feelings, he will only hate himself, hate himself fiercely.

No one else could bring Aaron the kind of pain that pierced his bones.

And the person who gave him this feeling was dead.

It's time for him to wake up to reality.