Bear Diary

Wednesday, August 2009, 11

Recently, I almost stay at home, and I tend to become more and more at home.Apart from working to catch a case and watching movies at home, Xiaotao tried to pull me out several times to play, but I didn't go.Seeing his more enthusiastic appearance than usual, it seems that he saw that I was depressed recently and wanted to comfort me, which touched me very much, but I really didn't have the mood to run around.

Serena still hasn't contacted me, but Xiaotao seems to have called him, saying that he went back to live with his mother.This reassures me somewhat.Several times I took the phone, or texted or dialed, and even wrote the content of the text message, but I didn't press the send button in the end.

This is not entirely out of the so-called self-esteem.I thought about it carefully, Serena is lively and cheerful, likes to make friends, and can quickly get along with anyone.Like the bet he made with me, dare to play and dare to be crazy.And since I was a child, I was not very extroverted, so that the calmness and steadfastness in my work has become my advantage.We are really different.My life would feel empty without him, but he has so many friends that I probably wouldn't feel as strongly without one as I do.Maybe he has forgotten me now, maybe he already has a new partner...

Heh, even though I wrote it so lightly, actually thinking about all these makes me feel unspeakably uncomfortable.It's just that sooner or later, these problems will always exist. Even if this incident is over, there will definitely be other flashpoints.Now that Glasses Wu let go of him, I have nothing to worry about. I have no doubt that he can find someone better than Glasses Wu and me.As for my so-called discomfort, it is nothing compared to his happiness.

I have a lot of time, not in love can be used to work and waste, it will be a good healing medicine.

On Monday, I ran into a netizen whom I hadn’t seen for a long time.The two of us knew each other very strangely, he added me, and then asked me who I was.Usually, I just blacked out like this, but that day I was probably bored to a certain level, he said to open the video to watch, I opened it, and it turned out that he was a handsome muscular guy, so I was not willing to delete it.He doesn't surf the Internet much, but he likes to video with me every time, and loves to show me his chest muscles, abs, etc. in front of the camera, and he never forgets to ridicule my figure.This time he said he worked as a fitness trainer in a gym.

He said I seemed to be fat, I said maybe.I've been nesting in the house recently, and I don't eat less snacks.So he asked if he wanted to go to his place to exercise, and he could get me a cheap annual card.

Although I am not dissatisfied with my figure most of the time now, Serena's figure was my dream for a long time when I was a child.Chatting with friends on the Internet, I often say that I want to go to the gym, but I have never really acted. This time I have such an opportunity, I will be too sorry for myself if I don’t move.So taking advantage of the excitement, I went there that afternoon, got a card, and got acquainted with the equipment.This is the first time that the muscular man and I have met in real life. He is stronger than in the video, and he also has dark skin. When he smiles, he shows two rows of white teeth. He looks a little bit like Serena...but The whole person is a circle bigger than Serena, and it is quite appropriate to describe it as a hunchback.

I don't lack perseverance, so the muscular man praised me on the first day, saying that it won't be long before I can train like him.I smiled on the surface, but in my heart I’m not sensitive, I don’t want to practice like you, just lose a little fat for health.

What I lack is the switch that triggers my perseverance, so I haven't been there since Monday, sweat one.Just now the muscular man called and asked me why I didn't go today, because the appointment is every Monday, Wednesday and Friday.I said I was a little busy working overtime, so I didn't go. I didn't expect him to call to chase after me.He said that of course, he was responsible for the students he led.I hurriedly said I was sorry, and he told me to make it up tomorrow...