Bear Diary

Tuesday, December 2009, 10

I have to admit that when Serena said that he broke up with Glasses Wu Zhen that day, although I didn't show it on the surface, I was a little happy in my heart.It is impossible for me not to think that there is my reason for their breakup, but I still feel like this, I feel like an asshole myself!That's why when I saw Glasses Wu appearing in Serena's ward again, I felt like being tricked. I deserve it.

I wasn't mature enough, or even brave enough to face it.

The 18th happened to be Sunday, and I arranged the party in the cafeteria of a hotel I knew well, which would save trouble.Many old classmates are out of town, only a few came, and most of them are related to work and my industry. This birthday party is like an industry gathering.After dinner, we set up a venue for the big brothers and sisters to play mahjong, while myself and the young ones went to sing karaoke.I was fed miserably, and then they sang, and I fell on the sofa to take a nap. When I woke up from some wine, it was almost eleven o'clock in the evening.I let them who were playing high continue, and slipped away first, anyway, the blame is on my head.

If you dare not drive, just walk.The cool night wind blowing made the heat in my body subside a little, but my mind turned more and more like a revolving lantern, thinking of some messy things.Are these really the life I want now?

When I was young, I wanted to be a doctor, hoping to save lives and heal the wounded. When I grew up, I found that the doctor became the spokesperson of the black heart. , My goal has become vulgar, I just want to make money, and with money I can buy "a lot" of things.Heh, different people have different meanings, but I’m not too evil. From the first day of work, I made a promise to myself—save enough money to travel around the world before the age of 30.Of course, it would be best to find someone who would go with me.

Now I am a so-called "golden collar" in the eyes of others. With the savings of the past few years and the results of small investments since middle school, I think I should be able to fulfill my promise to myself immediately.Sometimes I really want to leave all this hypocrisy behind and embark on the journey of my dreams with a backpack on my back.But now I am far from being so chic. I still have a lot of things that I can’t let go of, such as my old and frail grandma and other relatives, and the company status and industry network that I have finally obtained.There may be another point, that is, I have never given up the extravagant hope of finding someone to go with me.

There are still 5 years left, don't worry!As I was thinking, comforting myself like this, I had already arrived at the gate of the community before I knew it.

I didn't pay attention to that figure at first, thinking it was a homeless man, but when the man raised his head and called me, I realized that the person sitting on the edge of the flower bed, whose body was submerged in the shadow of the trees, was actually Serena!

"Damn it! Where did you wander off?" These were his first words.

"You..." I was still surprised.

"I'm so cold!" Serena stood up and stretched her numb legs. "I thought you had been kidnapped. The phone was turned off after calling for a whole day, and Xiaotao couldn't get through to you. Why don't you turn off your phone?"

"Ann?" I quickly took out the phone.Convulsion again?No wonder it hasn't rang since this afternoon, but I was busy with entertainment, so I didn't think of it at all. "Maybe my phone was automatically turned off. Why are you sitting here alone? It's so cold... You shouldn't have run away from home again..." That's how he suddenly appeared at my door last time, sitting in the same Location, it makes me laugh a little bit when I think of him at the time.

"Cut~ You think I'm just going away and talking nonsense?" It seems that he's been here for a long time, and he looks like he's holding back his anger.But his tone softened immediately: "It's your birthday today."

Why does Serena know my birthday?Did Xiaotao say that? "Uh... um..." He wouldn't blame me for not telling him, would he?

Unexpectedly, Serena continued to say softly: "Use your birthday to work, are you a workaholic?" I heard similar words from MM Yang, no matter the tone or the expression I imagined MM Yang, it was the same. It was exactly the same as the Serena in front of me.

I didn't know what to say, I just smiled awkwardly.

"Ha Xiao Sa Zi (smirking what)." Serena walked up to me like an awkward child, took my left hand, and stuffed a small box into my hand. "Happy birthday." Then he checked the time on his phone. "Fortunately, it's not yet 12 o'clock."

It was a small dark blue box similar to a proposal ring. I opened the lid, and inside was a pair of shiny earrings.

"I think you should wear it well, but don't wear it when you go to work, but when you are playing." Serena said with a smile, a little complacently.

This pair of stud earrings were really shiny, and my eyes were a little blurred. I held the box tightly and stood there blankly, but my heart was full of overwhelming feelings.

"It's so late, why don't you go back, and I'll go back too. I'll take it for a look some other day, I think it must look good." Serena emphasized his aesthetic vision again, and then said to leave.

"What are you thinking?" I said quietly.Reflection along the way did not allow me to find out a clue, but it gave me a way to find out.

"Want to piss off?" Serena turned around in bewilderment.

"What do you think of me? Think of me as a child?"

"My friend, what did you say?" There was a strange look in his eyes.

"Serena, I really like you so much. But you have a BF, so I said we are friends. And even if we are friends, I still care about you. If you are afraid that I will not care about you if I know you have a BF, It’s really useless to say that to me. No matter you need me when you’re kidding, just call out and I’ll definitely come.” Maybe it’s because the wine hasn’t sobered up yet, my brain seems to be unable to control my mouth, it’s just so cold It was cold, and he said it lightly. "You flirt with me like this, it really makes me feel very uncomfortable." I couldn't see Serena's face or his expression clearly with my blurred eyes, maybe it was better this way.

It took a while to hear back from him. "Brother Chen, I don't know what you are saying for Sazi, do you not believe that I broke up with Wu?" He seemed to be trying his best to restrain his voice from choking. "I know you're nice to me, so I want to be nice to you too. I don't want you to spoil me. I thought you'd be happy, but I didn't expect you to feel uncomfortable instead." I heard him laugh, but there was nothing The cheerful feeling on weekdays turned out to be a bit bleak. "Oh, I get it. In the future, being a younger brother won't be ambiguous, and won't make you feel uncomfortable." After a pause, he seemed to have made up his mind before saying, "I've always felt so sorry for you." , because you are such a good person... met me for the first time..." He took a deep breath. "You just ignore villains, don't be angry with me as a younger brother, ha ha..." Xiao Wei laughed again, trembling, but still only laughed twice and couldn't hold on. "I am leaving."

When I got home and checked my phone, I found out that I had missed so many calls. I returned one to MM Yang, chatted a few words without nourishment, and called my mother again, telling her that I bought her a coat.My mother complained that I wasted money again, but I could feel her smile with relief.I should have laughed too, but I felt two hot tears dripping down, so I quickly covered the microphone to keep my mother from knowing.My mother may still have heard it, but she didn't say anything, she just called me by my nickname softly, but my tears became more and more flooded...