Is the director bent today?

【Open yourself, and choose a mask; hate weakness, and choose to escape——Flowers and Boys】

The two returned to the house and silently cleared the dining table.Gao Xiaotian felt a little embarrassed in the room where there were laughter and laughter just now, but suddenly there was only the sound of cups and plates colliding. Fortunately, Chi Luyang, who had been as quiet as a chicken all night, finally spoke: "You didn't eat, just stay with my dad Drinking."

"Eat well, eat every dish."

Chi Luyang poured the garbage on the table into the bucket: "My dad doesn't usually drink like this, so I'm really happy today."

"Well, I see."

Gao Xiaotian put all the tableware in the dishwasher. The two of them used to eat, and the dishwasher was not full. It is really a waste to wash three or five dishes in the dishwasher. In fact, it can be washed by hand. Now that I think about it, maybe This is also Chi Luyang's care for him.

After washing the dishes, he habitually went to the balcony to smoke.The New Year is coming soon, and there are lights and festoons everywhere. Many people also hang red lanterns and colorful lights in their homes, twinkling in the night.

Chi Luyang came out with two cups of black tea and handed one to Gao Xiaotian, and the two of them just leaned on the balcony to smoke and drink tea.

"Is it cold?" Chi Luyang asked casually, thinking about how to send out the finished things and express his confession by the way. It would be perfect if he could also enter the bridal chamber.

"It's okay, it's not cold."

Chi Luyang took out a small cloth bag from his pocket, and handed it to Gao Xiaotian: "This is for you." He didn't look at anyone after delivering the things, but stared down at the cup in his hand, as if the things he gave were no big deal at all.

But he knew in his heart that this was just covering up his nervousness.This is the result of his ten days of continuous work. Every time he cuts a row of thread holes, every time he passes through hemp thread, and every time he polishes the edge of the leather, he has a heart of innocence. He is not so serious about making things for himself. Pass.

Gao Xiaotian stared at the small beige cloth bag for a while, and asked, "What is this? It's for eating and taking, is it suitable?"

Chi Luyang smiled lightly and said, "Look at it first, and treat it... just as a New Year's gift." He said it lightly, but in fact he kept scanning the movements around him with his peripheral vision.

After pulling the drawstring of the cloth bag, Gao Xiaotian's eyes lit up. It was a caramel-colored wallet, which was very clean and simple.There are white stitches all around, and the leather is very thin and soft to the touch, even if you put money and cards on it, it will not be too thick.I really liked it in my heart, a dimple formed at the corner of my mouth, which was caught by Chi Luyang keenly.

"You did it?" Gao Xiaotian asked.

"Just for fun, didn't your wallet soak in water at the beach last time?"

The heart is too thin.Just kidding?This handicraft can be exhibited in boutiques.Gao Xiaotian held it in his hand and raised it, but did not refuse him: "Then thank you!"

Chi Luyang asked: "It's going to be a holiday, do you have any arrangements?"

Gao Xiaotian: "I don't have any arrangements, I might go to Cao Lei's. What about you? You want to stay with your family."

"In fact, they don't need me to accompany them, they can play very well by themselves."

"How can you say that, they are your parents."

Chi Luyang said with a smile: "Why do you suddenly become such a mother-in-law? It's not like your style at all."

Holding the teacup in his hand, Gao Xiaotian said lightly: "Actually, I am quite envious of you. There are so many people in the family, and it becomes lively when we get together. Our family has never been so lively."

Chi Luyang wasn't sure what he was going to say, so he pulled himself together.

"I can feel that your family loves you very much. They have loved you since childhood. The relationship between family members is also very harmonious and tolerant of each other. But not all people are as lucky as you and have such good parents and siblings."

"There are still many people who may not know who their parents are when they are born, or catch up with stubborn parents, which is more painful than having no parents."

Speaking of this, Gao Xiaotian suddenly smiled: "I think you may not understand."

Chi Luyang said quickly: "I can understand, you say."

Gao Xiaotian turned the teacup on the window sill, and read out the lines he had been brewing for several days: "People are different, with different backgrounds, different families, and the future road will not be the same. Just like those cars on the road , each car has a different destination, some for spring, some for winter. We are not the drivers, life is, we are just a wheel or a screw on it, the car goes into the mud, the tires It will get dirty, the screws will rust, the car will fall into the abyss, and the wheels will be smashed to pieces."

After Gao Xiaotian said these words expressionlessly, he turned his head and looked at Chi Luyang: "So, don't waste time chasing cars that are going in a different direction from yours, and only follow the established goal to move forward."

The more Chi Luyang listened, the more he felt that something was wrong. His throat seemed to be blocked, and it became extremely difficult to even swallow his saliva.

What is wasting time?What does it mean to be broken into pieces?What kind of nonsense logic, he doesn't want to hear it!

Chi Luyang tried his best to control his emotions and stared at Gao Xiaotian. For a moment, Gao Xiaotian felt that sparks were about to burst out from his eyes, as if he could throw himself down and eat him in the next second.

However, Chi Luyang just raised his neck, drank the cold black tea in the cup with difficulty, and put the cup heavily on the window sill, as if what he drank was not some imported black tea, but a cup of coptis water.This cup of bitter liquid finally extinguished the fuze in his body, Chi Luyang looked at the bare branches outside and said: "You think too complicated, you are punishing yourself, feel sorry for yourself, you have the right to choose yourself The life you live and the way you live it is up to you."

"No, it's because you think things are too simple. Of course, your life is very simple. But I'm different from you. "

Chi Luyang turned around suddenly, grabbed Gao Xiaotian's collar with both hands, and dragged him in front of him: "Gao Xiaotian, do you really think you are made of stone?" The volume increased several times, Gao Xiaotian turned his head away, but Chi Luyang pinched his chin and forced him to face himself, "Your heart is so hard? Have you forgotten who was holding my wrist on the plane? Who was using the strength of alcohol to tell me Wet kiss on the bed? And who is lost on the phone? Don't think I don't know, and don't think you don't know!"

Gao Xiaotian's face turned red immediately, and his heart was beating non-stop.He was frightened by Chi Luyang's sudden attack and froze in place. He forgot to hide or push back, and could only passively accept the other party's raging anger.

The two of them were already close to each other, but the more Chi Luyang talked, the closer he was to him, and his whole body was on top of him.

"Can you have some courage, dare to face your sincerity? I really should let you see your expression now, what are you panicking about? What are you afraid of? Director Gao, you are a coward, I misunderstood you!"

After Chi Luyang finished speaking, he pushed Gao Xiaotian, with a look of disappointment in his eyes, he opened the glass door of the balcony and went back to the room by himself.

Gao Xiaotian was left alone on the balcony, and Chi Luyang's words pierced into his heart like knives one after another, leaving him torn apart.

He raised his head, his eye sockets were hot, and a liquid from his nasal cavity flowed into his throat, salty.

There is no brightest star in the night sky, only a lonely crescent moon.Gao Xiaotian took out the cigarette case, took out a cigarette tremblingly, and lit it a few times.

After a while, he returned to the room. At first glance, there was no one in the room. After a closer look, he found a fluffy hair protruding from under the quilt.

Gao Xiaotian coughed lightly: "Thank you and your family for the hospitality, I'll go back first, and I'll take the chair too."

No one answered.

Chi Luyang in the quilt heard the sound of chairs colliding with each other, and then the sound of opening and closing the door, and then the room fell into silence.

He sighed, he was all screwed!

On such a good night, he didn't say a word that had been brewing in his heart for so long, yet he even got into an argument with the National People's Congress.He really shouldn't have let Gao Xiaotian go, he should have held him in his arms and kissed him forever.Chi Luyang got up and got out of bed, searched around the room, but he was relieved to find no wallet he gave to Gao Xiaotian.

When Director Gao returned home, he slid down the door as soon as he entered the room, as if all the strength in his body had been drained.He covered his face with his hands and rubbed it a few times, what a mess.

He suddenly remembered something, and took out his wallet again. He didn't look at it carefully on the balcony just now, but when he looked again, he found that there were his initials on the lower left corner of the front of the wallet, which was similar to the effect of a steel stamp.

Gao Xiaotian doesn't know much about this kind of handwork, but he vaguely remembers that the material and color of the wallet are the same style as Chi Luyang's own backpack and notebook, and he probably made those by himself.

He put the wallet close to his nostrils and smelled it, which was very similar to the smell on Chi Luyang's body.

He had never seen Chi Luyang having an attack like today, it was like a different person.He didn't say a word wrong, he's just a coward...

The night was still long, and sleepiness was far away for anyone, and the two tossed and turned on the bed, unable to sleep alone.

On the weekend, Gao Xiaotian went to Baofu Temple to buy four boxes of cream rolls, and then drove back to his parents' house.He took two boxes and put them on the table. At home, the attitude of the Great Wall will never fall, and the sound of mahjong is endless, and the game doesn't end until after dinner.

Gao's mother fried a few random dishes, unexpectedly not very salty, not fried, and did not add strange ingredients, Gao's father did not pick and choose, and the meal was quite harmonious.

Gao Xiaotian washed the dishes, watched TV in the living room with his mother, and Gao's father went to the bedroom to watch the Shredded Devils.The show on TV was a skit, and the actors tried their best to scratch the itch of the audience. Gao Xiaotian only felt embarrassed and didn't want to laugh at all.In contrast, the audience in the audience has better acting skills, and the timing of the belly laughs and the timing of the actors throwing stalks match seamlessly.Maybe that's what's really interesting about the skit.

Gao Xiaotian was not in the mood to watch TV, but just accompanied his mother. Gao’s mother was staring at the TV, and suddenly said without looking back: "I have been with your dad for so many years, and your dad has never gone out to eat alone with me. meal."

Gao Xiaotian: "?"

Gao’s mother watched the TV expressionlessly, and she didn’t know if she was talking to herself or to Gao Xiaotian: “He can’t play with me in anything other than mahjong. Let him learn poker and chess. , never learn, don't even play checkers with me, just so colorful!"

here we go again.Gao Xiaotian has been listening to these words for almost 30 years, and her mother seized the opportunity to talk about them. Today, Gao Xiaotian was very annoyed by this conversation with no beginning and no end.

He really wanted to say, leave now!Don't dislike each other anymore, don't pick each other up anymore, what do you like to do every day, those who are willing to play mahjong go to play mahjong, those who are willing to play poker play poker, why are you two talking to me?Will you solve the problem by telling me?

it's useless.It's no use talking to him, even if they both talk to each other.Those deep-rooted habits, prejudices, and preferences have been dissolved in their blood, and it is impossible to take time off and will not change.

Under the ravages of years and years, both of them have become cancerous tumors in each other's bodies. It will hurt if they are dug out, but the venom will slowly penetrate if they are not dug out.

Decades have passed, it seems that they have never had any joy in their married life, and they have never known what it means to be equal and respect each other like a guest, like two enemies who have lived a lifetime.

Why?Why is this so?

Gao Xiaotian looked at his mother, her mother was tall and a little fat, the old lady who was standing there was very imposing, but now she was sinking into the sofa, her shoulders were hunched, her eyes were dull looking at the TV, her whole body She was stunned, and her whole body was covered with a layer of lifelessness brought about by a failed marriage.

He watched it for a while, forced back what he wanted to say, and silently turned his head to the TV. Suddenly, he felt that the sketches on the TV seemed a little funny.

After dinner, Gao Xiaotian drove home. He was standing at the door of Chi Luyang's house with two boxes of cream rolls. He didn't knock on the door for a long time. If you come uninvited, you may have to ask him to be rejected.

Gao Xiaotian spent a long time trying to build his mind, but in the end he failed to build an iron wall, but luckily he was a coward to the end.He put the handbag at the door, and sent Chi Luyang a WeChat message: I bought two boxes of cream rolls from the cake shop I mentioned yesterday, and put them at your door, give them to uncles and aunts to try.

When Chi Luyang received the WeChat message, he ran to the door. The door opened and closed at the same time, and there was no one outside the door except for two boxes of cream rolls.

The author has something to say:

Well, I heard that someone even prepared a bus card, so I'll show you this... put on the lid and run away.

Having said that, I did mention driving in the article.

Can you write about the small theater?

Chi Luyang: This wallet is my token of love for you. Please choose your thank you carefully. If you waste time or something, just say it once in the text.Don't make me sad, you can't coax me when I'm sad, don't make me crazy, it's said that when I go crazy, it's epilepsy.Have you thought about what to say?

Gao Xiaotian: I don’t want the wallet anymore, give it to whoever you like~