Enough

"Go, change the battlefield."

Ji Yuan's lofty ambitions will be expressed to a certain point, when he walks out of the hotel, the cold wind rushes towards him.Suddenly, a flash of inspiration flashed through his drowsy brain, and Jiu Jin was much more sober.

What the hell am I doing, playing wild guns?

Li Zhengchuan quietly added behind him: "Whoever dares to run will be impotent."

Ji Yuanxian: ...

In order to prove that he is not afraid, Brother Xian followed Master Chuan to pick up the car.Although many years have passed, when Ji Yuanxian saw the poisonous snake, he still felt palpitations for a few seconds inevitably.

It's not a new car, and it doesn't look as amazing now as it did when I first saw it.There are many good and beautiful cars on the market, and the Viper can only be regarded as a classic model from many years ago.

Ji Yuan is standing still and not talking, not getting into the car.He thought of all the previous things about this car, and felt a little sad because of his hometown feeling.Li Zhengchuan sat in, lit the ignition, and the headlights flickered domineeringly twice.

"boarding."

"I'm used to driving Volkswagen, but I can't get used to such a good car for a while."

Ji Yuan laughed and got into the co-pilot.He fastened his seat belt and found that the interior and aroma in the car had not changed.It's like getting on a space-time shuttle and going back to eight or nine years ago in an instant.

Those days were youthful and invincible, wanton and wild, and the dogmas and rules of the world were never looked down upon.Driving without a license, drag racing on the track, racing on the second ring, there is nothing they can't do.

But now you don’t run a red light, give way to pedestrians, keep your speed within [-] yards, and brake suddenly when you encounter a yellow light.

What is gone is not passion, but a lonely and brave young heart.

Ji Yuan now opened the window to sober up, with two hard candies in his mouth.This kind of small candy tablet is like taking drugs in your mouth.Imitation satisfies a certain psychological need of Ji Yuanxian, who used geese as meat in those years.

Missing is not so painful.

Large tracts of night are not clean, and there is no sign of snow in early winter.The color of the sky is like black paper rubbed with lead dust, with different shades of each piece.In the distance, there seemed to be a bit of deep red mixed with blue, and the street lamps illuminated half of the vault.

The neon lights in the city never go out, and in the middle of the night, many billboards go on strike, presumably in response to the call for energy saving in recent years.

Li Zhengchuan was not driving fast, and even braked steadily, Ji Yuan now squinted his eyes comfortably.I don't know how long, when he woke up, he felt that the building in front of him was very familiar.

"How did you get to your studio?"

Ji Yuan rubbed his neck now, while Li Zhengchuan lay on the steering wheel and smoked.

"You said to change the battlefield, I wanted to take you home..." Lizheng Chuan couldn't hear his voice clearly through the smog, "Later, I remembered that there was something I wanted to show you, so I turned to the studio halfway. "

"I've wanted to send you off for a long time, go and have a look."

Ji Yuan now said that it was a lie that he didn't look forward to it, so he didn't act awkwardly and got out of the car as he said.Lizheng Chuan walked in front and did not turn on the light when he entered.He turned on the flashlight of his mobile phone and led Ji Yuan to the second floor.

"I just want to show you one thing tonight, so I won't turn on the light."

"You only need to pay attention to what I want to give you. No matter how good the other things are, I don't want to catch your eyes tonight."

Li Zhengchuan stood still in the open work room, and went to the lounge to pour two glasses of wine.Ji Yuan is now standing in the darkness, seeing the light source go away and approach again.Li Zhengchuan handed him the wine glass, which turned out to be whiskey mixed with Coke.

"I used to disdain this way of drinking, but then I got older and you were not around."

"I just... inexplicably like to drink something sweet and numb."

Ji Yuan didn't answer now, and waited for Li Zhengchuan to turn on a bunch of overhead lights, which shone in the center of the workshop.A tall sculpture was covered with a thick white cloth and gradually stood out from the dark shadows.

Li Zhengchuan said, "Go and uncover it."

He didn't move his feet, but the answer in Ji Yuanxian's heart was ready to come out, he was a little afraid.Li Zhengchuan gave a slight push behind him, signaling him to be bold.Brother Xian gritted his teeth, with the sweet and spicy taste of whiskey and Coke in his mouth, his heart was beating fast.

The moment the white cloth fell, the light shrouded the marble, so holy that all descriptions withered.

It's a portrait sculpture.

Ji Yuanxian's 16-year-old face is engraved on it.

There was a stinging pain in his eyes, like a needle prick, which could not stop stimulating his tear ducts.

Ji Yuan's eyes were red and his nose was sour.

"When I was a freshman in high school, I had several dreams in a row. There was a boy's face in the dream. I was fascinated by him and never forgot him. But when I woke up, I couldn't remember the real face."

Li Zhengchuan walked up to Ji Yuanxian and raised his hand to touch the eyes of the statue.

"I had this dream after I met you. It took me a long time to realize that the person in my dream was you. I drafted and drew many pictures back then, but I was always dissatisfied. I started to do it in the first volume of the third year of high school, and I sculpted very slowly. This is a graduation gift , it was not completed.”

Ji Yuanxian was taken aback, and suddenly remembered that Li Zhengchuan was making sculptures when he was not studying, but he was not allowed to peek.It turned out to be from then on, and the idea was at an earlier age.

Li Zhengchuan turned his head and looked at Ji Yuanxian unobstructed, "After graduation, all these things were shipped to the United States. I didn't continue to complete it in the first two years, and I felt that I couldn't make it through, and I felt uncomfortable when I saw you."

"One day the teacher suddenly told me that if a sculpture based on someone appeared in a dream, it proved that he valued someone or something, which means that there is room for recovery of the lost relationship. The statue is frozen and lifeless. If the statue can If revived, the relationship can be salvaged."

"I've never been superstitious. I think Feng Shui metaphysics, horoscope and fate are all nonsense. Only in this matter, I believe in it like crazy."

Ji Yuan now covered Li Zhengchuan's eyes, two lines of warm liquid rolled out there.His palms trembled, almost burned by tears.In reality, Ji Yuan dared not imagine what kind of mood Li Zhengchuan had, what kind of obsession he had, facing his statue day and night during the eight years.Use chisels to replicate the appearance of the young man bit by bit.

This is a kind of torture, no less than the suffering of Ling Chi.

"...I should say something," Ji Yuan said leaning against the huge statue, still covering Li Zhengchuan's eyes.His voice was trembling, a little choked up, "I...can I take it home."

I...I want to take you home.

Li Zhengchuan was neither wronged nor felt guilty.He just breathed a sigh of relief, like studying hard at the beginning and looking forward to the results after each big exam.He worked hard day after day conscientiously, and now he handed in the answer sheet, only asking for a satisfactory score.

The cat-like mood of uneasiness, tossing and turning, and unwillingness to eat finally fell to the ground.

Great, Li Zhengchuan thought, he likes it.

"Whoever paints or sculptures should respect or like people is generally based on the principle of being larger than ordinary people."

"With me, Ji Yuanxian, you have always been bigger than ordinary people."

You are a unique existence, the boyish dream I dream of.

For eight years, the wind and rain were like darkness, and the cock crowed endlessly.Seeing a gentleman, Yunhu doesn't like it?Ji Yuanxian only needed to nod his head, and Li Zhengchuan's pain disappeared instantly.

Ji Yuan now pulled him closer, the overhead light was a bit dazzling, but fortunately Li Zhengchuan covered most of it.Ji Yuan now wraps his arms around his neck cautiously, and then puts his upper lip together.Slowly and gently kiss Li Zhengchuan.

No fanning the flames, no extra emotion.

"Does it still hurt?"

Ji Yuan now groped for Lizheng Chuan's chest, and his questioning voice was a bit vague.

Li Zhengchuan leaned forward, biting Ji Yuan's lower lip with his teeth, "It doesn't hurt."

The broken ribs can be rebuilt, the statue that has been suspended can be rebuilt, and Ji Yuanxian, who is separated from the two countries, can also return to him, and the pain will be gone.

Ji Yuan now opened his eyes and looked at Li Zhengchuan's browbones and eye sockets, he felt that this person was really good-looking, why did he fall in love with him all these years.Back then, he was domineering and had a very stubborn temper.He doesn't listen to reason, insists on seeing red with a white knife, and breaks cleanly.

It's easy to think about it. That year, the family's fortunes fell, and the trees fell and the monkeys scattered.Ji Yuan appeared behind him empty-handed, stubborn on the surface, but terrified on the inside.The huge family seems to be dying, and the young people are unwilling to show weakness and shoulder their responsibilities.

He had an epiphany about what stupidity is, and when he showed his claws and teeth, he was bound to be reborn, and he wanted to be a person who would not succumb to fate.Then, by mistake, she fell into an embrace that was not generous or mature.The man told him, I am here, don't be afraid.

Ji Yuan's reliance instantly became like a vine, entangled the other party in an airtight manner.He didn't think too much about it, he just took a companion and helped him walk for a while.He thought it was wind and rain, that was a huge change.

As a result, many years later, when Ji Yuanxian looked back, he didn't feel it was unforgettable.Even the downfall of the family is not more worrying than the departure of Shang Lizhengchuan.

"Actually, I wasn't a gentleman back then..."

Ji Yuan found his back against the hard sculpture, and his front against Li Zhengchuan.One before and one after, one fire and one heat, the lethargy and paralysis that made a comeback hit the nerves.

"I wasn't sure if you were gay, and I wanted to provoke you... Maybe it would add a little more fun to the boring high school life. Hiss—you lighten up."

Lizhengchuan's breath was in a state of confusion, and he had held it back for eight years. When he approached the entrance, he even forgot how to untie his belt.Lips and teeth were close together, their eyes collided in mid-air, Ji Yuan now leaned up to hug him, and gently pinched the back of the other's neck with his fingers.

The object was full and hot, and there was no time to make extra preparations. Ji Yuanxian bit his lower lip and remained silent, letting Li Zhengchuan split the wall with his blade.Having not greeted each other for many years, the two couldn't help but growl at the same time.Sweat dripped down his forehead, Lizheng Chuan felt it quietly without moving.

Ji Yuan rubbed his hands now, and deliberately smiled and whispered in his ear, "You're so hot."

These words made Li Zhengchuan tremble all over, his eyes were clouded with mist, like waves roaring in the dark night.He bit Ji Yuanxian's shoulder and sent him ups and downs again and again.Probably unable to support it, Ji Yuanxian twisted him and supported the sculpture with one hand.

He is not a gentleman, and neither is Li Zhengchuan.Interlacing bodies when there is nothing to do is a somewhat secret thrill.Master Chuan gradually took the initiative, and his smile began to be unbelievably bad.

He said: "Ji Yuanxian, from now on, you have to be prepared. Except for normal sleep, this matter between us is definitely not in bed."

He said: "I made a list, you can see it when you have time. See what poses you like and what flavors you like."

Ji Yuan hummed and didn't answer now, feeling so comfortable that he almost melted away.He raised his head to kiss, his teeth accidentally hit his lips, and he tasted the blood in his mouth.He shouted happily, but was blocked by Li Zhengchuan again.

"Fuck you, beast."

The voice was muffled and couldn't be heard clearly during the passionate kiss.

Li Zhengchuan didn't want to stop, he just slowed down and chatted with him about things.

"Ji Yuanxian, I really missed you back then. For several years, I thought that when it rained in the United States, there might have been a heavy rain in China. In this way, the water bodies we have seen before eventually flowed into mountains, rivers, lakes and seas. During the years when you met, we met again in the rain."

"right."

"I seldom said such hypocritical things before, and now I don't like to tell others. Only with you."

Li Zhengchuan was talking sweet words, but the sharp blade under his body desperately wanted Ji Yuanxian's life.He took it lightly, and stuffed the surging love back.

In those days when we were not together, the four seasons in the world were filthy.

Ji Yuan listened now, trying to focus his energy on answering, but was too tortured by the embedded things.The thing slowly carved for a while, and rushed like a storm for a while.It's like playing dead.

Li Zhengchuan asked solemnly: "Then I go out?"

"Are you willing, Brother Xian? How regretful you should be if I go out."

Ji Yuanxian tore off Li Zhengchuan's tie, pulled both ends, and forced Li Zhengchuan to get close to him.He tore and bit the opponent's neck, seeing that Master Chuan's clothes were not messed up, only he released the ferocious leopard below.And I was not a single thread, messy.Ji Yuan's eyes were red now, he thought to himself that if he was not a sage, he would be a beast.

This makes sense, so it pays off.

The sky turned white, the street lamps were turned off quietly, and gray was sprinkled into the dark studio, giving brightness to all the darkness.The sculpture was stained with mottled liquid, and the cover and paper were scattered all over the place.The person was already on the big bed in the lounge, but he was not asleep.

The high and low, thin and broken shouts stopped, and Debussy was standing in the room.In his composition method, the harmony is unconventional, not bound by the tradition, and he pursues the hazy poetic flavor of impressionist painting.Those timbres range from dull to clear, and then from blank to colorful.

The sound of the piano is like this night, floating and sinking in the sea of ​​desire.There are water waves, loud chords, and passionate kisses like the dawn.

"Achuan," Ji Yuanxian said in a soft, nasal voice.My throat hurts like hell, and my heart is so sweet, "Actually, there is only one thing I regret eight years ago."

"It's just that I didn't have more patience to explain to you why I told you to go."

Li Zhengchuan hugged him, and his fingers gently slid into Ji Yuanxian's hair.He lowered his eyes, "It was difficult to calm down at the time, and I am not angry anymore."

Not angry anymore, Ji Yuan felt a sharp pain in his heart.

Thinking about it carefully, Li Zhengchuan may understand that he gave up his immature love for the sake of his family; he can understand that he chooses to ignore the current opportunity in order to go further; it can understand that he pushes away immature lovers in order to become stronger.

Li Zhengchuan could understand these things, but he would not agree with them from the bottom of his heart.The choice is up to oneself, the road is chosen by Ji Yuanxian himself.Back then when he jumped and lost his temper, he said, "You all forced me"!

In fact, it is equivalent to farting.

No one can force him, Ji Yuanxian finally understood after many years.That's when you are young and have no assertiveness and determination. When encountering difficulties, you will only talk about being strong.He clearly could choose a gentler way, but he hurt his lover because of lack of patience.

Li Zhengchuan didn't pursue the matter, but Ji Yuanxian endured the pain silently, so he was considered a man.

"This time, can I be the one who tolerates you and supports you. I'll take care of your life," Ji Yuan is now buried in Lizheng Chuan's neck, and said in a low voice, "Let's be more patient and slower. Don't If you are in such a hurry, don't love so much."

"I want to enjoy life with you. It's okay to quarrel, but never break up."

"I won't want you anymore, and neither will you, don't want me."

Li Zhengchuan asked: "Then what are we now?"

"You didn't come back to get back together with me," Ji Yuanxian muttered twice, feeling a little sleepy.He half-closed his eyes and smiled lowly, "Just... half a friend with a gun."

Li Zhengchuan "hissed" and kissed him on the eyes, reluctantly agreeing.

Ji Yuan was about to fall asleep now. From last night to this morning, he was so tired that he was sometimes in the clouds and sometimes in the world.He said confusedly, "Also, let me tell you something."

"I have already applied for the visa."

"When will you take me to get married?"