Enough

Sending Qin Yu home, Ji Yuan was exhausted and half died.He settled people down and returned to his home in the middle of the night.

After taking a shower, I didn't feel sleepy at all.Ji Yuan now simply pours a cup of coffee, burns a stick of incense in the study, and copies the Prajna Sutra by hand.

Among the [-] Dharma-doors taught by the Buddha, the Prajna Dharma-door is the most excellent.The connotation of the Prajna Sutra focuses on emptiness, and through the understanding of emptiness, troubles and obstacles can be cut off.

To put it bluntly, "all four are empty".

Ji Yuanxian didn't have any great skills in the past few years, but recited Buddhist scriptures for himself.He is not a pious believer, but after thinking about it, he is not indulged in beauty;

At first glance, it seems to me that I am a Buddhist.

Ji Yuan became more and more enthusiastic about copying, and even laughed at himself as a self-made practice.After a long time, the big and small pieces of Prajna can be easily grasped; if he is in a good mood, he can sing a Prajna Paramita Heart Sutra with a tune.

Living in this world, cultivating people, cultivating nature and cultivating mind, in the end we still have to examine ourselves.Open the conscience to see if it is still as red as blood.Ji Yuan is now very casual in his beliefs. On the surface, he is enthusiastic about Mahayana Buddhism, saying that people have Buddha nature, and they need to practice seriously and see their nature clearly.

But his essence is biased toward Theravada Buddhism, the so-called Hinayana Buddhism.Human beings are human beings, and Buddhas are Buddhas. Humans can only liberate themselves, not become Buddhas.Ji Yuan is now a sensible person, he himself is only two knives, how can he surpass others.

One of the hates of modern youth, you can accept pointing, but you can't accept pointing.

Once the habit of copying Buddhist scriptures by hand is maintained, Ji Yuan now feels as if he has escaped into Buddhism.Seeing a pure and cute little boy on the road, he didn't dare to look up.I always feel that it is against my heart and insults Buddhism.

Qin Yu couldn't understand him, and was afraid that one day Ji Yuan would say, "The benefactor, Amitabha."

That's death.

The Buddhist scriptures were copied until dawn, and the world outside the window gradually came alive.A few beams of morning sun cast on the glass windows, glowing with soft light.

Ji Yuanxian didn't sleep all night, after drinking coffee, he finished washing in the bathroom.He changed into casual clothes, and today he is going to the Chengbei Theater to listen to a play.The male singer wanted to sing Wang Baochuan, so he sent a special message to Ji Yuanxian.

Brother Xian drove the Volkswagen to go out, remembering the last time Qin Yu said that he was out of his mind.He thinks it's good, the more he lives, the less desire he has.

The temperature dropped rapidly this day, and the weather this year is very abnormal.Spring and autumn have almost disappeared, and summer comes early and leaves early.After a burst of heat, I was so tired of playing, I threw the world to the winter.

There was a bit of a traffic jam on the weekend, Ji Yuan is now in neutral, trying to get a thin coat from the back seat to wear.The phone rang for a while, he caught a glimpse of the name and quickly connected.

"mom."

Mrs. Ji's voice hasn't changed much, but it's getting old day by day in the past few years.There are indeed a few more wrinkles at the corners of the eyes, and there is a faint sense of beauty in the twilight.Ji Yuanxian has been rebellious for eight years and has successfully exhausted the entire family.

Forget it, he loves marriage and marriage, and loves men as much as he loves men, so don't count on it.

Ji Laozi was furious back then, and threatened that he would not be filial to his grandson.Later, Xue Yunqi lived in the country for a long time, slowly doing ideological work for the elderly, and slowly dredging up relationships.

Xue Yunqi contributed a lot, and Ji Yuan took advantage of this situation to learn the cello.

Occasionally, I would go to Xue Yunqi's band to help.

"There's a banquet tonight, come here early if you're free. At the Xiangsheli Hotel, they are all your father's comrades-in-arms and friends. The uncles have a party, and you have no reason to be late."

Mrs. Ji is not far from retiring. She has been transferred in the past two years and started to provide for the elderly with idle work.A few years later, she also became enlightened at will, and took Ji Yuanxian's matter lightly.

No one will not change. Smart people know how to follow the trend.Since Ji Yuan now likes men, let him like them.Now he is independent, his wings are hardened, and he speaks confidently.How many people can control his sexual orientation.

Ji Yuan responded now, he had long since stopped getting angry with his mother, he learned to adjust the relationship between relatives.In fact, that's the way it is between people.

"Are you going tonight, do you need me to pick you up?"

"No, I have other things. You should pay more attention to your body, the temperature will cool down too fast, don't catch a cold."

After rambling on for a while, Ji Yuanxian hung up the phone.In fact, no matter how powerful a woman is, she is also a mother, an ordinary and ordinary mother.Ji Yuanxian never blamed his mother for blocking him back then, it was because of his lack of strength, he had no one to blame.

Now Mrs. Ji is urging him instead, seeing that he is getting older, he must find someone to make a decision.

His thoughts split again, and Ji Yuan now thought of Li Zhengchuan again.He quickly took out a jellybean from his bag and held it in his mouth before he dared to continue thinking.The habit is as fierce as a tiger, and Ji Yuan found that in recent years, he has become less complacent and bitter, and his habit of sugar addiction has improved.

He remembered that Gu Xi said that Li Zhengchuan would come back in December, and Qin Yu said that that kid was eager to make money with red eyes.Just listening to the description, he is far from an artist, he is a philistine businessman covered in money.

Ji Yuan suddenly felt sad, those youths who were high-spirited and insisted on walking the world with their swords, after the years passed, they also mixed in among the vulgar people in the market.

Volkswagen taxied at a low speed, fortunately arriving at the theater before the opening.Ji Yuan took his seat now and didn't go backstage.When the male dancer came on stage, he saw him in the crowd, his eyes lit up, as if he had a good look.

Ji Yuanxian quietly made a gesture to let him sing easily.So as soon as the voice of the male singer was opened, the sound of the piano was supported tightly, and every sentence was brilliant.

Fancier cheered, Ji Yuanxian stretched his legs and continued to let his thoughts wander.

In fact, he has no interest in the play, he just thinks it is beautiful and should not disappear.He didn't want to find a quiet place in the midst of the hustle and bustle. When others were listening to the opera, he hid in the crowd and wandered far and wide.It's really degrading.

Ji Yuan now has no interest in that male role, he is as beautiful as a flower, and the two of them are only half friends.I once heard the general manager of the theater say that the child loved singing since he was a child, and he could come to Beijing opera and Kunqu opera.

During the most difficult years in the theater, he traveled around and sang open-air operas.If you can earn a little, you can help those who can't eat enough in the pear orchard.

"When we break up, the play will end. Once the play ends, no one will listen to it. Over time, everyone will forget that our ancestors still have such a good thing. Is it worth it?"

When Nan Dan said this, he had just performed a scene of picking up jade bracelets.The rain was falling, and there was only one fancier left in the audience.After the performance, the two faced each other for a long time and looked at each other for a long time.Then, when Nandan bent down, he bowed at ninety degrees.

Based on this, Ji Yuan admired him now.Even if he plays a female role, he is still an authentic man.

He never had the lonely courage in others, so he envied him.Others had the determination to fight, but he never had it, so he envied it.Others dare to love, dare to hate, and have clear desires, but he has never had it, so he is envious.

Ji Yuanxian walked all the way, and seriously reflected on himself.

He thought to himself, I really am still unwilling, I really still love Lizheng Chuan.

But time has passed, and the other party has moved on.The only thing left between the two is the confrontation between their youth.Maybe when we meet again, we will still fight each other and retort.

not always.

Whether we can meet again is not certain.

Therefore, Ji Yuanxian, who was in a disheartened state of mind, really never expected that this gathering of the younger generation would be separated by a crowd of people, who were drinking and drinking.When he raised his eyes, he saw the person who had occupied his heart for eight years.

Qin Yu was coming tonight, but Gu Xi didn't come.The Gu family's business went smoothly, so they asked Gu Xi to go back to the south to work.

As the number one shit stirrer, Qin Yu secretly prepared ten MB boys.He told Ji Yuanxian about this, which made Brother Xian's evil come from his guts!

If Qin's father hadn't been at the banquet, Ji Yuan would have committed murder on the spot if he didn't keep it all together.

He turned away, pressing the fire.Fate came too suddenly, brother Xian ran into Li Zhengchuan without putting on a good face.

About five meters away, the lights are gorgeous and the voices are buzzing.Ji Yuan now thought that he was wrong.Not that it's only coming back in December.

Lizhengchuan has changed even more. He was not sociable in the past, and he is as arrogant as he is too lazy to pity the world.But now he is at home, with a formulaic smile on his face, and charming as hell.

He lifted his chin slightly, laughing wildly.This memory instantly overlapped with the high school year, Li Zhengchuan was against the light, and the outline was outlined with golden lines, handsome and elegant.

Ji Yuan now regained his composure, and secretly scolded himself for being stupid.Since the other party didn't notice him, he was planning to sneak away without anyone noticing.

He was not ready, the heart that had been silent for many years suddenly beat rapidly, as if it was finally alive.Bang bang, bang bang.His back was sweating, but he couldn't die, and before his feet moved, Li Zhengchuan looked over with a tacit understanding.

stab-

When the eyes of the two met, a hole was torn open in the surrounding air immediately, filled with shock.

Now I can't hide even if I want to, otherwise it will be nothing.

Feel ashamed, or have ghosts in your heart.

Ji Yuan is now standing in place, his language system suddenly collapsed.He wanted to strike first, but until Li Zhengchuan stood in front of him, he didn't utter a word of nonsense.

Li Zhengchuan, on the other hand, quarreled immediately.Sure enough, the two fought fiercely with each other.The language system that was on the verge of collapse was not only automatically repaired, but also updated by the way.

When Qin Yu chased after him, he was yelling about the duck.And when he saw Li Zhengchuan, it was like seeing a ghost.Qin Bangchui hissed, "Your mother, didn't you say you won't be back until December?"

Why is the script different? !

The three maintained their superficial demeanor and complimented each other very dishonestly.Qin Yu kept winking at Ji Yuanxian, thirtieth floor!You fucking dare to run, you are not human!Not gay at all!

And Li Zhengchuan, who was the ex-boyfriend of his current brother, was naturally not included in Qin Yu's invitation list.Why go up, discuss posture and technique?

Ji Yuan found that he was too lazy to argue with him, so he turned around and refused to leave.With the pastry stuffed into Qin Yu's mouth, Ji Yuan suddenly made a mistake on purpose, it was a temptation.

He said, "Gu Xi and I have business to do tomorrow, so we can't go home late."

With food wrapped in his mouth, Qin Yu stared at him in confusion.

What the hell, brother Xi didn't go back to the south.Just left this morning.

Ji Yuan now stared at Lizhengchuan from the corner of his eye, and the man's eyes were full of undercurrents, expressing his dissatisfaction clearly.Li Zhengchuan has been misunderstood, he thought that Gu Xi had been by Ji Yuanxian's side for the entire eight years.

Gu Xi is a thorn, it was so in the past, and it is even more uncertain now.

But Li Zhengchuan covered up his emotions well, only sneered and didn't speak.

Ji Yuan now doesn't know what he is secretly proud of, like a petted kitten.After he tried his best to turn the tide, he patted his ass and left.

Qin Yu didn't dare to join in. Which of these two uncles is the fuel-efficient lamp?His eyes were full of grievances, he was thinking of the ruined MB boy, and he watched Ji Yuanxian walk away.

Just 2 minutes after the predecessor left, Lizheng Chuan rushed to catch up.He didn't know what kind of mood he was in. Li Zhengchuan held back some words for eight years, and couldn't bear it anymore.

After chasing to the hotel entrance, Ji Yuan is now going down the stairs.He put his hands in his pockets, his hair was blown by the evening wind, his eyebrows and eyes were moving, and he was very youthful.

Li Zhengchuan was smoking a cigarette, but he didn't know if it was smoked or what.Suddenly, there was pain in the eye sockets, and his vision was a little blurred.

Ji Yuan looked up now, seeing Li Zhengchuan puffing out clouds, seeing his tough outline and deep eyes.The suit is straight and taller.Ji Yuan now has to admit that it was the same eight years ago, and it will still be the same eight years later - Lizheng Chuan has this ability, so if he had a look at it, his heart would be moved.

Ji Yuan now wants to ask, when did you start smoking, and is your addiction serious?

How long will you stay here this time, or will you leave?

Did you have a good time in those eight years?Anyway, I'm not good.

Do you still like me.

But there wasn't a word he could say, and Ji Yuan felt timid when facing Li Zhengchuan.

Why did he ask, and in what capacity did he ask.Eight years is still too long.

But Lizhengchuan suddenly had a thunderbolt, which shocked Ji Yuanxian to death.

Just like your mother dreamed.

He said: "Ji Yuanxian, do you still remember what I said. Whenever I come back one day, you can only be mine."

"I want to start over with you."

Ji Yuanxian's eyes widened suddenly, and suddenly he felt that the heavens treated him kindly.Always remember, there will be reverberations.Looking up at a vast moon, it was his undying determination to give up.

He was speechless for a moment and couldn't speak.

Li Zhengchuan added: "But I'm not here to get back together with you, you have to be prepared."

"I'm going to take you away to get married."

Those young loves, the wasted years, every night we cried bitterly.

During this miserable time, he wanted to find them one by one.

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Miserable Green Years: Refers to youth in prime of life.