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"I thought you really missed me."

"Oh, co-authoring for a long time. Are you acting the American version of Prison Break? Or did you disappear on New Year's Eve and return to China in a flash. You are not afraid that Commander Li will whip you with a pointer."

"Li Zhengchuan, how old are you, why are you still so confused. What day is it today? Brother Sen will kill you when he comes back. You don't have a sense of family honor."

Now that Ji Yuan finished counting, he left Brother Chuan's suitcase next to his closet.He leaned against the desk with his hands in anger, his mind was full of romantic fantasies, and all of them turned into bullshit.

Lizheng Chuan is a man of action, and he must do it when he thinks about it.He doesn't keep the bottom line like Ji Yuanxian, looking forward and backward.It's not like Gu Xi is in control of the overall situation, seeking perfection in stability.The little army commander and his father had a virtue when they were young, and they believed that men who were indecisive were cowards.

Ji Yuan now says that he misses him, and her boyfriend says that she misses him, so do you still need to think about it?He directly took his passport, booked a plane ticket, and flew across the ocean with his suitcase.

Lizheng Chuan did not inform his family members, because requests for instructions would be rejected.It's not that he doesn't know that today's New Year's Eve is the reunion of thousands of families.Li Zhengchuan came back from this trip with another important purpose.

He rejected his parents' arrangement by action, and defied Lisen's "good intentions" for the first time.

Li Zhengchuan didn't want to go to America to study, he wanted to stay in China and accompany Ji Yuan to take the college entrance examination.With his current grades, as long as he keeps working hard and never slacks off, it is not impossible to study 211 and 985 in the end.

The small army commander wanted to speak with his own strength, but was unanimously opposed by his family.

"Anyway, after four years of university, you will still go abroad. There is a freer environment abroad, cutting-edge ideas, more opportunities and interesting talent pools. What are you not satisfied with?"

Li Sen couldn't figure it out. For the first time in more than ten years, the two brothers had a huge disagreement.Although he didn't want to control Li Zhengchuan, anyone with a discerning eye knew who was bigger.

No matter how much you want to prove yourself, you can't afford to lose a watermelon.

Lizheng Chuan's reasons are untenable and not convincing.He was in opposition to his family, and no one bowed.Li Jianying didn't bother to take care of him, because under the power, there will be rebellious sons.

Mrs. Weili knows how to save the country with curves, and she tries to persuade her youngest son from the perspective of a businessman.Tell him the pros and cons, the pros and cons.Unexpectedly, this kid has been in business school for a few days, and his abilities have grown tremendously.There are not many words when opening and closing, but they are clear and logical.

"You can only gain if you give up. I gave up the road of studying in the United States. I want to get something in China."

"Mom, can you stop interfering with me?"

Mrs. Li was noncommittal, and Young Master Li almost kicked him.Li Xiaowang tried to prove himself on the one hand, and on the other hand tried to be independent ideologically.He doesn't think studying abroad is suitable for everyone, at least not for himself.

The conversation ended in "filial piety" as a deadlock, and Lisen cleared his brother's door.Maybe it's not easy to say anything, but as long as Master Li is mentioned, the spikes all over Li Zhengchuan's body are softened.

This is a ridge in his heart, a mole, a symbol.Li Zhengchuan is the most reluctant relative.

"I just want to take the college entrance examination."

Li Zhengchuan left these words and left without hesitation.

What he didn't finish was, I want to accompany Ji Yuan to take the college entrance examination.

The youth without the college entrance examination is half-and-half, and the college entrance examination without Ji Yuanxian is boring.

"Why don't you agree to go to the United States?" Ji Yuanxian also didn't know Li Zhengchuan's true thoughts, thinking that he was just used to the domestic lifestyle and the familiarity of the country. "If I were your brother, I would smoke you too. What a great opportunity, others can't go if they want to. Why are you so stupid?"

Li Zhengchuan was silent for a while, and did not defend himself.He collapsed on Ji Yuanxian's bed, and suddenly asked, "Yuanxian, have you considered your future university and career path?"

"Talk about your matter well, why did it involve me." Ji Yuan smiled, expressing that he didn't like discussing such serious issues on New Year's Eve. "Where I am admitted to study, which major is suitable for me, and which major to study. Anyway, I will graduate in the end, and it is unlikely that I will be able to match my major."

"It's better to be in the capital city. If it's not possible, you can stay in City S. My mother is alone now, and I want to spend more time with her."

Li Zhengchuan said: "I want to go to the same university as you, it doesn't matter what major you are in."

"Hey, are you being too sloppy?" Ji Yuan realized something was wrong, and walked over to sit by the bed.He pulled Li Zhengchuan's arm that blocked his eyes, asking him to face his own eyes.

"Li Zhengchuan, what do you want?"

I want you.

The words stuck in his throat, and he felt very hypocritical.Lizheng Chuangang exhausted 17 years of hypocrisy in front of the Yizheng Shrine Building.He avoided his eyes and replied, "I don't want to go abroad. It's nothing good."

"Don't play your temper," Ji Yuan laughed and pushed him, then went downstairs to the kitchen to get two cans of beer.My lord is staying at Xue's house to watch the New Year's Eve tonight, no one cares.

The teenagers took off their coats and changed into Ji Yuanxian's home clothes.They sat on the ground, leaning against the panoramic glass windows.After zero o'clock, the fireworks continued to rise into the sky, and the warm colors of red and yellow burst into the sky.The smoke that did not dissipate in time blurred the night.

After a long time, Ji Yuan felt bored with half a bottle of beer. He hesitated and said, "Brother Chuan, I think so. It's better not to be impulsive when it comes to reading. People go to high places to see a wider landscape, don't you want to ."

"I remember that you like sculpture and art. You should go abroad to see and get the truth."

"Sculpture is a hobby, and you can learn it anywhere." Li Zhengchuan paused, "If I go to America, can you come with me?"

"Are you kidding, I have no such plan. My mother wanted me to go to Tu'ao before, but it was too late to refuse."

Ji Yuanxian waved his hands again and again, he didn't realize that the spark in Li Zhengchuan's eyes suddenly dimmed.Never pay attention to the expectation and disappointment on the lover's face.Brother Xian is telling the truth, boys are always straightforward.

"Brother Chuan, the college entrance examination is my only chance. It can prove that I can be awesome without relying on my parents."

"This is a relatively fair battlefield. I want to win with my own strength a year later. I used too many connections and spent too much money before. Now I don't want to."

"I just want to prove that as long as I, Ji Yuanxian, want to do it, I can definitely do it."

"Me too," Li Zhengchuan said, holding Ji Yuanxian's shoulders.Their foreheads touched, like a pair of lions about to compete for the throne.The fiery breath sprayed on the opponent's face, aggressive and lingering.

"Me too, Ji Yuanxian. I want to prove myself, and there are more important reasons."

"Reason? What reason."

Ji Yuan held him now, the heating in the room was sufficient, and the steam made their palms feel hot.

Li Zhengchuan asked: "If I go to the United States, what will we do?"

"What do you mean."

"Long-distance relationship, are you sure you will be separated for four years, or... longer?"

Li Zhengchuan only said four years, which is a conservative estimate.Grandpa's condition fluctuates from good to bad. He may pass away tomorrow, or it may drag on for ten or half a year.

Once others leave, the possibility of returning to China in a short period of time is very slim.Lovers in passionate love seldom think about the future, Ji Yuanxian did not.Li Zhengchuan didn't either at first.

But now he has to face up to this problem.Face up to giving and receiving.

The Buddha said, don't be sad about the past, don't be greedy for the future.Focus on the present moment, so you can be at peace.Master Li likes to give Li Zhengchuan lectures on Zen and Taoism.Therefore, he cultivated his temperament of not contending with fate, but when Ji Yuan appeared, all the Buddha's words became a thing of the past.He was still restless and confused.Life is alive, if you don't fight, you can't do it.

Ji Yuan is a little confused now, he really hasn't considered the situation of long-distance relationship.According to Li Zhengchuan, he will not come back in a short time.Whether the relationship between the two can stand the test.

Brother Xian thinks he can, at least he can.But there is no guarantee.Commitment to this matter is like taking off your pants and farting, or a monk chanting without intention.

"We can... take one step at a time. Lizheng Chuan, it's impossible to bite the future to death. You know it's unrealistic."

"Why is it unrealistic?" Li Zhengchuan was a little anxious, he thought that at least Ji Yuan would appease him and favor him. "You also come to the United States after graduation, or to develop a career. I can wait for you there, or I will stay and not go anywhere!"

"I won't go abroad. I don't plan to go abroad. It's impossible." Ji Yuanxian interrupted him, "My mother only has one son, and I'm the eldest son. I have the responsibility to take care of the family's future."

"Li Zhengchuan, can you understand me?"

"Then can you understand me? Why do I have to go abroad? What do you mean by pushing me out?"

"Who pushed you out! Isn't that the road paved by your parents! Obviously you have better resources than others, you can embark on a promising road, and you can show yourself on a bigger stage. Such a great opportunity , don’t you fucking say no?!”

"I don't want it, I don't want it! Did they ask me what I wanted when they gave it!"

"Are you an idiot? What do you think you're squandering! We didn't have parents, we weren't even a fart! What are you doing, ah. Let me ask you, what exactly do you want?!"

"I want you! I want to be by your side! I want to stay with you and not go anywhere!"

Li Zhengchuan let go of Ji Yuanxian suddenly, he stood up and threw the can on the ground.The light yellow wine was spilled on the marble floor, and the white and yellow intersected, making it dirty and embarrassing.

It's like the cracks quietly appearing between them, like those differences that can't be healed.

After falling in love, this is the first face-to-face quarrel.Like a raging fire, it ignited the entire dry grassland in an instant.

Ji Yuan looked up at him now, regardless of the cold water splashing on his hands and face.Ji Yuan found that his chest was heaving, and it took him a while before he changed his shocked eyes into compassion.That's right, he felt that Lizheng Chuan was ignorant, so it was boring.

Ji Yuan now wiped the wine on his face, and moved slowly.He shook his head and said, "Lizheng Chuan, you can't be like this. You can't just think about yourself, you have to learn to care about and understand others."

"If I were your brother, I could beat you until mom doesn't even know you."

"But I'm not you, Ji Yuanxian," Li Zhengchuan slumped his shoulders, leaning against the glass door, his voice trembling unprecedentedly.He was also a little aggrieved, "I'm just like this, I can't be like you, a bowl of water is level. I'm good to everyone, and I'm patient with everyone."

"My balance will be tilted. If you stand alone on the left, I will rush over."

"Ji Yuanxian, you don't understand."

Anger comes quickly and leaves quickly.As soon as Li Zhengchuan was subdued, Ji Yuan became wilted now.Who said he was not partial, he also resolutely rejected Gu Xi's hints for the sake of standing up.

If it's not biased, it's a fucking ghost.

"Brother Chuan, come here." Ji Yuan opened his arms now, and when Lizheng Chuan bent down and fell into his embrace, he pressed the back of the opponent's neck, rubbing his ears together. "It's Chinese New Year today, can you change an interesting topic?"

"Isn't the college entrance examination still one year away, I don't think about it now."

"But do your best, don't ask about your future."

But Li Zhengchuan secretly made up his mind. When he hid in this embrace, he couldn't think anymore.He understands that this is what he wants, and maybe it's ridiculous to give up his future for one person.

But when he was young, he couldn't think about grand plans and ambitions. Li Zhengchuan asked himself, he is willing to let go of his arrogance, and go wrong for a tomorrow.

There are very few long-distance relationships that go to the end, he knows.If you have a lover, it's really just day and night.

Ji Yuan wanted to speak again to persuade him, but the words on his lips changed to: I'll go downstairs to get some wine, I'll get drunk tonight.

Li Zhengchuan hugged him and kissed him deeply for half a minute, until the tip of his tongue became numb, before withdrawing from the other party's mouth.

The two gasped heavily and smiled at each other.Lovers don't have overnight feuds, so they tacitly opened up this topic.

On the eve of the New Year's Eve, relying on parents not returning home, relying on relatives to be far away from Chongyang.Ji Yuanxian and Li Zhengchuan opened three bottles of red wine, drank freely all night, and sang wildly together.

Lizheng Chuan was particularly presumptuous because he had resentment in his heart.He hugged Ji Yuan and kissed him, then stripped off his clothes.The thin sweater was pulled up to his chest, and Li Zhengchuan poured down the bright red wine.

The red and white are bright and dazzling, and the little army commander bared his fangs, ruthlessly gnawing at every inch of his skin.Green and black, sultry and sexy.Ji Yuan is now yelling, telling him to drink it up.

Li Zhengchuan grabbed his ankle, and clasped the palm of his hand tightly with the ankle bone, like a perfect match.

His voice was hoarse, as if hiding a cello.The smell of wine stimulates the senses, and a mist hangs in front of my eyes.

"I've had a good time."

"do you have."

Ji Yuan now understood what he meant, and his eyes were swollen and painful.Quite want to cry, but also want to laugh.Tonight, all kinds of emotions surged like a frenzy, surprise and joy, doubt and anger, and finally all were washed away by deep love into a flat river.

He used the back of his hand to cover his eyes, Li Zhengchuan's burning gaze, the bright overhead light, and the complicated mixed feelings.

"I have."

He said.

"I'm very happy."

It is very happy to be in love with you, it is very happy to be presumptuous with you, and it is also very happy to be without thinking about the future with you.

When Xianyi Numa was a teenager, he once said that he would be his companion.Just be a companion.Anyway, the world is full of mortals and the world is dangerous. You and I are nothing but returnees from the abyss.

But now that he has lost lovesickness, he puts his sword back into its sheath.

They don't want this river and lake, so what if the world is vast.