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Ji Yuanxian doesn't quite remember when was the last time he had a long conversation with Gu Xi.Calm down and think, their way of getting along has always been one-sided humility.

The only time Gu Xi got angry with him was when she graduated from junior high school two years ago.In the blink of an eye, in his second year of high school, Ji Yuanxian never asked: Why did you choose to leave at that time.And why, choose to come back.

It's not that Ji Yuan didn't care, he felt that there must be a tacit understanding between the two.Gu Xi wanted to leave, so he let him travel.When Gu Xi wants to come back, Ji Yuanxian will always give him a place to stop.

They are brothers, and this relationship cannot be broken.It can develop into family affection, but it will never be love.

What Gu Xi wants, Ji Yuanxian will not give him.I can't afford it.

The floor-to-ceiling windows of the VIP room are shiny, and the rain is gurgling like a river.It reflects two teenagers who are similar in age, temperament, height and shape.They grew up here since they were young, and this glass window is like a camera, slowly watching the two of them grow taller and taller.From once sharing a sofa to sitting opposite each other now.

The years are almost cruel.

Ji Yuan now wiped his hair with a towel, he said he wanted to talk.Gu Xi hesitated for a few seconds before nodding in agreement.

"Misha, you have always known my sexual orientation. To put it bluntly, I can't go back in this life. I can only like boys. Even if it's not Lizhengchuan today, it will be other boys."

"I mean, you see."

Gu Xi paused, and raised his eyes sternly.And a little hurt, complicated and sentimental.He pursed his lips and said, "I don't understand, Yuan Bao. What's so good about him."

"He's good for nothing," Ji Yuanxian said, "He's good for everything."

"At best, the two of you are too close and have the same goal, so you mistook sympathy for love. Yuan Bao, Li Zhengchuan is a straight man. What if he wakes up later and wants to walk back after slapping his ass, what should you do? To put it a little closer, What are you going to do after high school?"

Gu Xi was irritable, he turned the water glass in his hand.Suppressing his unwillingness, he tried to reason with Ji Yuanxian.

They have no emotional experience at all, and they perceive purely by animal intuition.Gu Xi does not have the impulsiveness and decisiveness of Li Zhengchuan, and the relationship of more than ten years has become a stumbling block instead.

Lizheng Chuan's gamble is very simple, if the confession is successful, they will be together.Unsuccessful, the worst is to forget each other in the rivers and lakes.But Gu Xi couldn't afford to gamble, he had already rubbed and smashed his heart.Boil into a bowl of bitter water, thousands of days and nights.Deep into the bone marrow, there is no cure for medicine and stone.

Gu Xi was afraid that she would not be able to be a lover, nor could she be a brother.He hesitated, only looking at Ji Yuanxian.He didn't want to be like this either, thinking that he was too twisted, grumpy, and a bitch.

But he dared not.

Ji Yuan now reminded very clearly: We are brothers for life.

Even if Gu Xi wanted to fight for it, she couldn't find a gap at all.Emotions do not come first, first come first, whoever appears the most suitable is the winner.

Ji Yuan now understands Gu Xi's worry, he doesn't refute or deny it.I can't be sure to say anything-Li Zhengchuan will never leave.The future is boundless and unknown, who dares to speak lightly of the people around him.

"I haven't thought about it, to be honest, I haven't thought about it that far. Milkshake, I'm different from you, I live one day at a time. What will happen after the college entrance examination, I don't know. I don't want to know now."

"Whether Li Zhengchuan was still by my side at that time, I hoped, but he might not be. There are many factors that control fate, and we cannot decide."

Gu Xi wiped her face and couldn't help taking out the cigarette case from her bag.He turned around and chose to smoke a cigarette.The scarlet cigarette butt flickered on and off, and Ji Yuanxian's brows became blurred.

"Yuan Bao, you can try something new. But it has to be now? It has to be Lizheng Chuan?"

Can't I.

"It's not fresh," Ji Yuanxian interrupted him, keeping calm, "Milkshake, I like Lizheng Chuan. It's not for freshness."

Gu Xi breathed a sigh of relief, and was instantly choked up by the cigarette, making her jealous.He didn't expect Ji Yuan to be so honest, it was too honest.It's like an ancient knife sinking into the heart, and then slowly withdrawing it.When Gu Xi thought this was the end, Ji Yuanxian pushed it to a deeper level.

The blood couldn't flow out at all, it was all wrapped on the blade and seeped into the blade.It looks like weathering rain on the surface, but the inside is already on the verge of drying up.

Gu Daochang felt that he might really be flying, and there was a roar in his ears, and the residual sound wave of the racing car was still there.He was a little flustered, blinked, and smiled wryly: "I really hope you take this back."

"Okay, I take it back. But I like Lizheng Chuan, to be honest. I won't lie to you."

Ji Yuan didn't confront him now, but patted Gu Xi on the shoulder and put on a serious expression.

"Milkshake, after a year and a half, I'm not sure who is by my side. But you must be here, do you understand this?"

Classmates will be separated, and friends will go away.Even the unpredictable misty love of adolescence may go away from him.But Gu Xi must be there, because of their different identities.

Sometimes I am reluctant to change friendship into love, probably because I have seen through the long-term nature of the former.

Gu Xi shook his head, he thought Ji Yuan was implementing a comfort policy.Teenagers all have the desire to compete, so how can Li Zhengchuan get it.

"I will be by your side, Yuan Bao. I was there before, I am now, and I will always be there in the future. You know I'm here when you need me."

"But why, why can't I? I—"

"do not talk."

Ji Yuan frowned, and suddenly interrupted Gu Xi.He had a hunch that if he didn't stop her, Gu Xi would definitely shake off his true thoughts.

That thin, smoke-like veil will burn away completely.

Everything will be irreversible.

Ji Yuan stood up now, pinching Gu Xi's shoulder.He squatted down again, meeting the other's eyes.Ji Yuanxian said word by word, "Gu Xi, use a sentence you once taught me, let's make a knot today."

"Let's stay on the front line, see you in the future."

Gu Xi's eye sockets instantly turned red, and the blood in the eyeballs was densely covered with cobwebs.He felt that his eyes were covered with water, and those grievances, unwillingness, and anger were about to fall, and he couldn't ask them aloud.He always wanted to be the one who was accommodated.

Those who are favored are always so confident.

Ji Yuanxian didn't allow him to speak out at all, and didn't even give him a chance to confess his affection.The talking point is at the end, everything that needs to be said has been said, and the position is very clear.

Gu Xi can be in the category of brothers, or in the category of relatives, but not lovers.

He shook his head, his voice trembling almost uncontrollably, "Ji Yuanxian, why didn't you notice it before. In fact, you are quite cruel."

"That's what I learned from you. Back then, I left me alone and went to N City to study without a sound. Then I pretended nothing happened. Milkshake, do you think I feel better?"

"You care about this, I can explain. I didn't learn the cello at the time, just because of jealousy..."

"Needless to say," Ji Yuan was still laughing now, he stood up straight, and looked out of the window with his head tilted.At this time, the headlights in the track were all turned off, and it was pitch black.The sound of rain rushing into my ears, like a pipa plucking strings, is noisy. "I don't care about explanations. With me, you will always have the right not to explain. Then I will understand you and cherish you."

This is like a promise, but it has nothing to do with love.Ji Yuanxian said to Gu Xi: When I grow up, I will protect you, just like my family.Protect the Ji family, protect the Gu family.

In fact, he has been protecting others since he grew up.Ji Yuan found that the bowl of water was level, except that occasionally he would tilt a little towards Gu Xi.Now that Lizhengchuan was out of the way halfway, he disdained the points, but directly snatched the bowl and took it for himself.

Ji Yuan now acquiesced.

But he still wants to protect Gu Xi and Qin Yu, which is not on the same level at all.

Ji Yuanxian never believed in gods, but he hoped that someone could escort Gu Xi, Qin Yu, and his close relatives.

For example, himself.

Gu Xi moved her lips and finally blinked.He couldn't control it, and rolled down a tear with his head bowed.Gu Xi immediately wiped it off with the back of her hand, raised her head and smiled at Ji Yuan: "I understand."

"It's okay, I'm fine."

The saddest time in the world is actually not feeling sad.He will only tell the other party over and over again, I'm fine, I'm fine, so you can go if you want.Really, I'm fine.

You don't have to worry and don't feel guilty.

Being gentle with you is a little bigger than the world, a little bigger than the universe.

And much bigger than me.

Ji Yuan looked back now, bent over and supported his knees, shaking his head.He was so tired tonight and had been trying to keep himself awake.He asked: "Will you still go to the Future Business Leaders Summit?"

Gu Xi didn't hesitate: "Go."

"There is Lizheng River."

"I said, I will go."

Gu Xi stared at Ji Yuanxian, but her thoughts wandered a bit.He suddenly reached out to touch Yuan Bao's face, and suddenly laughed at himself.

Impatient, he was really anxious this time.

Dormant for more than ten years, and endured for such a long time, how could it be wasted in one day.

"I won't show him face, don't worry."

Ji Yuan was a little dazed, it was not what he expected.Li Zhengchuan and Gu Xishi belong to the same kind of people, they are both very proud.The difference is that Gu Xi is introverted, but Li Zhengchuan is flamboyant.

He originally thought that Gu Xi would not be involved in this incident.Why are you here, to make things difficult for yourself?

Gu Xi suddenly laughed twice, he straightened his legs, and leaned on the sofa with a relaxed body.He figured it out, a little enlightened.

Not to give up.

It's far from the time to say give up.

Ji Yuan couldn't figure it out now, and didn't have the energy to think about it.By the end of the night, he really wanted to go home and sleep.

"Okay, then I'll take you home. Get up quickly and don't go to school tomorrow. Will Gu Mama scold you for your smell of alcohol?"

Gu Xi sniffed her clothes, then shook her head indifferently: "I'll stay here tonight, there are plenty of rooms in East Wang. I'll find someone to take you back, huh?"

"Hurry up, I'm really sleepy."

Ji Yuan waved his hand now, and waited for Gu Xi to call to arrange a driver.

When sending Yuan Bao away, Gu Xi had been standing by the window.He crossed his arms, his eyes were filled with the darkness of night.Gu Xi exhaled, and suddenly realized that she was far less magnanimous than imagined.

He didn't give up, he just stopped clinging to the present moment.Ji Yuanxian is right, the time is still long, and it is not certain who will be the final winner.Gu Xi thought to herself, I have kept my mother for 17 years, so what if I keep it for another 17 years.

He didn't believe it, he didn't believe that Li Zhengchuan had the ability to go to the end with Ji Yuanxian, he didn't believe that Li Zhengchuan would come out with his family.Including Yuan Bao, they might not dare to be honest about their sexuality in front of Mrs. Ji.

Good people will also have ulterior motives.

Gu Xi felt that he was the one, and he suddenly didn't want to cultivate immortality, and he had to become a demon immediately.Until Ji Yuan got into the car now, the driver was out of his sight.

Gu Xi raised her hand, facing the line of sky and earth, the end of night.Made a shooting motion.

Gu Xi thought, it would be a good idea to wait another ten years.

He will wait until they break up.

Ji Yuan didn't know that the conversation tonight was far from unraveling.

On the contrary, Gu Xi was deeply trapped and rushed into the abyss.

When Ji Yuanxian returned home, Li Zhengchuan was still waiting for him in the living room.The hanging heart of the little army commander finally fell.He glanced at the time, it was [-]:[-] in the morning, and he didn't sleep until dawn.

Li Zhengchuan walked towards Ji Yuanxian, and just squatted down to help him change his shoes.

Unexpectedly, brother Xian suddenly grabbed the back collar of the little army commander and lifted him up.

"Don't be busy." Ji Yuan said now.

He finally relaxed, all his rationality, calmness, sadness and helplessness fell like a thunderbolt.

really tired.He thought he was still a little sad.

"Brother Chuan, I don't want to walk, so you carry me in."

Li Zhengchuan saw that he looked tired and turned pale.No nonsense, squatting down manly.

"Okay, it's up to you."

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Everyone loves Milkshake, don't worry, he will be there.