Do nothing

On Saturday, Ling Lu accompanied Yan Ke to the brain disease hospital according to the appointment time.The follow-up visit was much faster than the initial visit. Yan Ke frankly told Director Lin how he felt in the past month, and expressed gratitude that his mood has improved a lot.

He also mentioned the vomiting of blood, which he attributed lightly to his own carelessness.Director Lin attaches great importance to it, because although there will be gastrointestinal reactions during the period of taking the medicine, it will not be so serious and rapid.And Yan Ke didn't have any obvious discomfort before vomiting blood, which shows that his body has begun to feel numb.

"Has the headache improved?" Director Lin asked gently.

Yan Ke honestly replied that the headache and insomnia got worse when he first started taking the medicine, but after he insisted on taking the medicine, it began to gradually decrease.

"now what?"

Yan Ke thought for a while: "Probably in a state where there is no pain at all."

He felt a twitch in his head, but it wasn't too painful.Compared with the splitting headache before, he is already very satisfied with the status quo.

Director Lin looked through the previous medical records and said, "I suggest you try to reduce the amount of painkillers, because anti-anxiety drugs can also relieve headaches."

Yan Ke showed hesitation, but still nodded.Director Lin adjusted the medication for him, and then asked him to call his companions in.

When Ling Lu came in, Director Lin saw that it wasn't Zhang Xingduan, so he didn't ask any further questions, but asked Yan Ke to wait outside first.Ling Lu said that he was a colleague of Yan Ke Hospital, Director Lin smiled kindly, and then sighed.

"His drug dependence has worsened, and I'm sorry."

Ling Lu was taken aback for a moment, only then did he realize that Yan Ke had been taking large doses of painkillers.

"His headaches were also caused by anxiety. After taking the combination medication, he could feel his mood improved, but because of his fear of headaches, he still took the same amount of painkillers as before, and even increased the amount when his mood fluctuated. This is actually It's unnecessary." Director Lin looked very worried, "I suggested that he try to reduce the dose, although he agreed to me, he obviously resisted."

Ling Lu said: "I will persuade him."

Director Lin shook his head: "This is not a problem that can be solved by persuasion. His mind is delicate and sensitive, and it is easy to over-interpret the meaning of the other party. If you persuade him to take less painkillers, he will immediately understand that you are worried about him, and he will know This is not right, and then quickly began to blame himself. On the surface he will obey, but deep down he thinks that he is restraining himself for you, not that his body can really bear it. He will because of physical pain, In turn, they secretly take medicine without telling you, and then fall into an endless loop of self-blame."

Ling Lu was surprised, but at the same time felt scared.Fortunately, Director Lin explained it to him, otherwise he would rashly advise Yan Ke to reduce his medicine, and Yan Ke would be harmed instead.

It turns out that depression is not as simple as he imagined.

"What should I do?"

Director Lin smiled: "Companionship is the best treatment."

Ling Lu pondered for a moment, and thanked again.

After bidding farewell to Director Lin, Ling Lu accompanied Yan Ke to get the medicine.Another big bag, a month's supply.

Yan Ke didn't ask him what Director Lin had explained, but only said that he was going to the supermarket to buy some food.Yan Ke had his blood drawn on an empty stomach in the morning, but he hasn't eaten anything yet.Ling Lu helped him carry the medicine bag, watching him choose food from the shelves, still thinking about Director Lin's words.

Yan Ke walked towards the cashier with a bunch of snacks in his arms, and suddenly turned around and said, "Xiaolu, help me get some chewing gum."

"Which?"

"The red one."

At Ling Lu's hand was a colorful candy stand, he picked up the box closest to him, and asked, "Is this it?"

Yan Ke glanced at it, smiled and said, "No, put it back quickly, it's a balloon."

"what?"

Before Ling Lu could react, Yan Ke snatched the box of "chewing gum" and whispered in his ear, "Condoms." Then he threw it back on the shelf.

Ling Lu instantly blushed to the base of his neck.

Yan Ke couldn't hold back when he walked out of the supermarket, hahahaha all the way.Ling Lu was already so ashamed that he couldn't even speak when he laughed, and followed him stiffly like a robot.

Parking is across the road.When he reached the intersection, Yan Ke said with a smile, "I can't tell, you're still good."

Ling Lu was a little annoyed, and couldn't help but want to refute what's wrong with being a virgin, but suddenly realized——by saying that, Yan Ke meant that he was no longer... right?

with who?Remaining journey?

A strong emotion exploded in his chest.He really wanted to ask if it was true, but when he looked up, he saw a car speeding from the corner.

"Be careful!" Actions were faster than words, Ling Lu instinctively grabbed Yan Ke and pulled him to his side.

"Oh!" Yan Ke staggered and crashed into his arms.

Ling Lu hugged him tightly, stepped back a few steps, his heart pounding: "Are you okay?! You didn't touch him!"

"No...the car is still far away from me." Yan Ke was still in shock, "It was you who surprised me."

The two looked at each other and laughed.

Yan Ke pushed him away naturally, straightened his clothes, and said casually, "What were we talking about just now..."

Ling Lu blushed: "Condoms."

"Oh, yes." Yan Ke said with a smile, "After all, Xiao Lu, you are still young, and there is nothing to be ashamed of being a virgin. And this is also good news for your fans."

"..." Ling Lu suddenly felt a little lost, unable to speak.

When the two returned to the car, Yan Ke was about to fasten his seat belt when he suddenly remembered something and said angrily, "It's over, I forgot to drive, I just took medicine..."

Anti-anxiety drugs have a sedative effect, and you cannot drive for a short time after taking the drug.It was only now that Ling Lu thought of this, and his heart was filled with self-blame.

That's right, if he hadn't set Zhang Xingduan a trap, Zhang Xingduan should have driven Yan Ke here today...

Yan Ke sighed, took out a hundred-yuan note from his wallet, and said apologetically, "You still have to read, so take a taxi back by yourself first, I have to sleep in the car."

Ling Lu hurriedly said: "It's okay, I'll accompany you."

Yan Ke suddenly lost his patience and threw the money on him: "If I tell you to go, just go!"

Ling Lu was stunned, and before he had time to react, Yan Ke's expression quickly changed from irritability to panic, and then deep guilt.

"I'm sorry—" He tried to breathe calmly, holding the steering wheel tightly with both hands, and even made a joke, "...It's true, the medicine can't be stopped."

Only then did Ling Lu realize that he was ill.But he was smiling so brightly a few minutes ago, teasing him—could it be all fake?

"I'm sorry, I..." Yan Ke covered his face with his hands, as if trying to control his emotions, "Don't worry about me, I've already taken the medicine... I'll be fine soon... You go back... I'm sorry... ..."

No need to apologize.

You are just sick.

Ling Lu was so distressed that he suddenly remembered Director Lin's words: He is already addicted to drugs.In fact, he must have known.He is a doctor himself, how could he not know that he is addicted.But the more he tried to get rid of it, the more he found that he couldn't get rid of it.

Vicious circle.

How to do it?

Ling Lu hesitated for a moment, then unbuckled his seat belt.When Yan Ke heard the voice, he thought he was going to leave, his shoulders trembled slightly, and his body curled up even tighter.

If you leave him alone, he will shrink himself into a conch.

Ling Lu stretched out his hand cautiously, and hugged the little conch into his arms.

He didn't know what to say, so he didn't speak.Yan Ke didn't resist either, because he really needed a hug right now.

An environment that reassures him, allowing him to wait for the medicine to take effect and his mood to return to calm.

Ling Lu felt that he was sobbing.Too skinny, bone everywhere, hard.It made him feel bad.

After an unknown amount of time, Ling Lu came back to his senses, and suddenly found that Yan Ke had stopped crying.

Fell asleep?

"Teacher Yan?" Ling Lu called softly, and the only response was his light and even breathing.

The little conch has become a baby again.

Ling Lu showed a gentle smile unconsciously, then carefully placed him on the seat, and slowly lowered the seat.

Falling asleep like this is so cute.There are still tears on my face.

Ling Lu took out a tissue and lightly pressed it on his face a few times.Yan Ke moved, and Ling Lu was so frightened that he quickly sat up straight.Unexpectedly, he just changed his position, turned on his side and continued to sleep.

Ling Lu played with his phone solemnly for a while, but still couldn't help but peek at him.

Peeking like this makes it impossible to notice the passage of time at all.

I can't even feel the tenderness in my heart.