Do nothing

go to hospital. "

Zhang Xingduan made an appointment for him with a leading expert in the province, a gentle and kind old lady surnamed Lin.Yan Ke's grandmother died very early, so he has a good impression of the old lady.

After Zhang Xingduan introduced him to Director Lin, he left the consultation room.When he was called back an hour later, Yan Ke's eyes were already swollen from crying.

"Preliminary diagnosis can be made." Director Lin didn't say those three words, but said gently, "But we still need to do a few tests to rule out other organic diseases."

"Do you want to be hospitalized?" Zhang Xingduan asked

"It's okay to stay, or not to stay." Director Lin patted the back of Yan Ke's hand lightly, with a kind voice, "My child, you are also a doctor, so decide for yourself."

Yan Ke lowered his head and said nothing.Zhang Xingduan said: "Stay, he can't go to work like this."

"No, you're wrong." Director Lin stopped him with his eyes. "This kid is very responsible, and he won't leave his post easily. But he can't be overworked, so he needs to be taken care of properly."

Zhang Xingduan showed embarrassment: "Director Lin, you know that their respiratory department..."

"I don't want to take a vacation." Yan Ke interrupted him in a low voice.

Zhang Xingduan frowned.

Director Lin sighed and told Yan Ke to go out and wait.Zhang Xingduan sat down at the desk and asked politely: "Director Lin, how far has he developed?"

"According to the rating scale, it is moderate. His physical symptoms appeared early, repeated headaches and insomnia, and he was drug dependent. He admitted to committing suicide and self-harm, but they were all prevented."

"I know he hurt himself, but he committed suicide..." Zhang Xingduan frowned even tighter, "That would be troublesome."

Director Lin nodded: "These few days are his onset period. The onset period of depression can be long or short. It may be fine in a few days, or it may last for a few months. It is best for him to be accompanied by someone now. I will give He prescribed some medicine, and you have to supervise him to take it."

"Of course."

"Drugs are prone to adverse reactions in the early stage, and may even aggravate his headache and insomnia. I have already told him, and he also expressed his understanding." Director Lin smiled helplessly, with a pitiful tone, "After all, we are colleagues... the prognosis of this disease Anyway, he knew it in his heart."

"Will it be okay?"

Director Lin sighed: "It's very difficult. It will be repeated frequently, and the medicine cannot be stopped."

Zhang Xingduan nodded: "Okay, I understand, thank you Director."

"Xiao Zhang, you also have to pay attention." Director Lin looked at him sincerely, "Not only you, but also his parents, and people close to him. You must know that depression is a physical disease, not a simple disease. Depressed or unable to think about it. His pessimism and pain were not chosen by himself, but pathological changes in his brain. He didn’t want this either.”

"Okay." Zhang Xingduan also sighed, "Then when shall I bring him for a follow-up visit?"

"A month later. If the side effects are serious, come to me anytime."

"it is good."

Zhang Xingduan was about to leave, when Director Lin suddenly said: "By the way, Xiao Zhang, I advise you to keep contact with that friend you mentioned earlier."

Zhang Xingduan smiled: "It's okay, I have a measure."

Director Lin shook his head and said, "This is the only disease that cannot be controlled and treated with drugs. It is even impossible to improve the symptoms. This is a congenital disease and a physical defect. Do you understand?"

"I understand." He said with a smile, "I will be responsible for my actions."

Director Lin was taken aback, speechless.

Zhang Xingduan walked out of the consultation room and saw Yan Ke sitting in the corridor blankly, his eyes still red.Zhang Xingduan smiled, walked over and stroked his hair: "Little poor, what are you thinking?"

"It's nothing." Yan Ke stood up with his head down, hiding his face, not wanting to be seen.

Zhang Xingduan took out a black mask from his bag, put it on with a smile on his face, and said dotingly: "You idiot, I've been telling you to carry a mask with you all the time, why don't you always remember?"

Note: The dirty ladder is a channel for logistics personnel to transport pollutants. In principle, patients are not allowed to enter. It belongs to the logistics area, so some doctors will also smoke here.

25.

When Zhang Xingduan sent Yan Ke back to the apartment, Ling Lu almost smashed the door.He was taken aback when he saw the two of them coming back, and then foolishly called hello, teachers.

"Why are you here?" Zhang Xingduan was deeply impressed by this intern: young and beautiful, but stupid.This kind of person is prone to bad things, so he doesn't touch it.He took out the key and opened the door, and threw the medicine bag on the table casually.

"I had an appointment with him today." Yan Ke sighed and said guiltily, "I left in a hurry this morning and forgot to bring my mobile phone."

The deer must be very anxious.

"It's all right." Ling Lu stared at the medicine bag, wanted to ask but dared not speak.He tried to identify the name of the medicine through the plastic bag. Zhang Xingduan glanced at him displeasedly, and immediately said kindly: "Aren't you going to take the postgraduate entrance examination? Why don't you go back and read?"

"He knows." Yan Ke sat down on the sofa wearily, not wanting to take off his mask, "He stopped me from jumping off the building."

Zhang Xingduan was very surprised, thought quickly, and was shocked: "You jumped off the building in the hospital?!"

Ling Lu hurriedly said: "He's not! He's not!"

Zhang Xingduan looked at Ling Lu with the expression of looking at a fool.

Ling Lu was a little embarrassed, so he changed the subject and said, "What's wrong with Teacher Yan?"

Zhang Xingduan said: "Depression. Moderate depression."

Ling Lu was surprised at first, but soon felt that it was true.Can't help showing a sad look.

"Now this matter is only Yu Cheng who doesn't know." Yan Ke curled up and said in a low voice, "I don't want him to worry."

Zhang Xingduan said helplessly: "You two are stupid, don't think that Yu Cheng is also stupid. He can see the side effects of your medicine. Besides, I'm not by your side usually, so I have to let Yu Cheng keep an eye on you."

Ling Lu said without hesitation: "I can accompany him!"

What are you?

Zhang Xingduan became more and more disliked by this kid who spoke without thinking.

"No." Zhang Xingduan resolutely refused, "His illness cannot be concealed, who will be responsible if something goes wrong? Not only Yu Cheng, but also him..."

"Don't tell my dad!" Yan Ke almost screamed.

"Then inform Yu Cheng." Zhang Xingduan was decisive.

Yan Ke flinched, lowered his head and hugged his knees.Ling Lu couldn't stand it anymore, and stopped in front of Zhang Xingduan: "Mr. Zhang, don't force him like this, he is already like this!"

But Yan Ke said: "Okay." The voice was soft, "Then tell him..."

Zhang Xingduan went to the balcony to make a phone call.Ling Lu was still a little angry, and sat next to Yan Ke and said, "Why is he acting like a teacher? You—" he looked at the big pack of medicine, and said dissatisfiedly, "It's not your fault that you are sick! "

Yan Ke lowered his head and said, "Go back and read your books, the postgraduate entrance examination is coming soon."

Ling Lu froze for a moment, and suddenly realized that he had no reason to stay.In fact, he came today not only for the zoo appointment, but also to tell Yan Ke that Yu Cheng kissed him.

His secret love has been answered, and he wants to share this joy with Yan Ke.But Yan Ke is like this now, he really can't say it.

Ling Lu still couldn't let go, he had an inexplicable distrust towards Zhang Xingduan.Then he said: "Reading is not bad for a while, let me collect some clothes for you."

He walked to the balcony, saw Zhang Xingduan was on the phone softly, and thought that he could at least wait for Yu Cheng to come over before leaving.So he quickly collected his clothes and carried them into Yan Ke's room.

Yu Cheng came soon.As soon as Yan Ke opened the door, Yu Cheng pulled him into his arms.

"Why did you hide it from me?" Yu Cheng's voice trembled, "Bebe, let me tell you what's good about you..."

The familiar and warm smell surrounded him, Yan Ke couldn't help but grasp the corner of his clothes, and pressed his forehead against his chest: "Uncle, I don't want you to worry."

Yu Cheng held up his face pityingly: "But you're like this—" He accidentally caught a glimpse of a figure, and he and Ling Lu met their gazes.Yu Cheng quickly looked away, stared at Yan Ke and said, "Don't you worry me more?"

Ling Lu stood at the door of the bedroom, holding a pile of clothes, at a loss.

Teacher Yu—the look in Yu Cheng's eyes was exactly the same as when he kissed him that night.But now he hugged Yan Ke and comforted him softly.

And Yan Ke, with that aggrieved, coquettish look, couldn't hide his love at all.

——It turns out that the person Yan Ke has a crush on is Yu Cheng?

It turns out that we—like the same person—

He even wanted to share the joy of kissing Yu Cheng with Yan Ke... It's ridiculous... No, luckily not!Luckily he didn't say it...

Zhang Xingduan walked back from the balcony, seeing Ling Lu standing there blankly, he also had a question mark in his heart.Seeing Yu Cheng hugging Yan Ke Qingqing, I immediately understood.

Yu Cheng is fast enough, this intern has only been here for more than a month, and he has already hooked up?

But this child is indeed Yu Cheng's favorite, innocent and kind, as easy to deceive as Yan Ke.This kind of child is like plasticine when he is raised well, he can be rounded and flattened casually.The key is to look good.

Yu Cheng loves to keep popular lovers at his feet.

Now the two puppies are pitifully waiting to be petted, it depends on how Yu Cheng handles it.

Zhang Xingduan smiled and leaned on the balcony, watching the play.

As if he didn't see Ling Lu, Yu Cheng pulled Yan Ke to sit on the sofa with a natural expression, and asked while opening the plastic bag on the table: "These are all your medicines?"

"Well. A month's worth."

Yan Ke showed him the medical records.After reading it, Yu Cheng took out the instructions of each medicine and frowned: "The incidence of side effects is so high..."

"It's okay, I was also having a headache anyway." Yan Ke said obediently, "Director Lin told me that the symptoms would get worse at first, so I was mentally prepared."

Yu Cheng said, "Then how many painkillers are you taking now?"

"...not much." Yan Ke glanced towards the balcony subconsciously, but saw Zhang Xingduan's smile with no clear meaning, "...just take one when the pain is unbearable."

"Bebe, don't lie." Yu Cheng sighed, "Don't you want me to worry? Then don't hide it from me, tell me the truth."

Yan Ke was helpless: "...four tablets, twice a day."

"Are you in so much pain?" Yu Cheng was surprised, and then blamed himself, "It's also my fault for being careless. I usually think it's the cause of your insomnia when you're not energetic. I should have discovered that it was the sedative effect of painkillers..."

Yan Ke hurriedly said: "I also thought it was just a migraine, so I wanted to use painkillers to suppress it. Now that the diagnosis is confirmed, it should gradually improve after taking the medicine."

Yu Cheng rubbed his hair pitifully, and wanted to say something, but Ling Lu suddenly came over and said stiffly, "Teacher, I'm leaving first."

"Hey, the little deer is here too." Yu Cheng seemed to have noticed it just now, and nodded with a smile, "Okay, you go back first, be careful on the road."

Yan Ke raised his head, but Ling Lu quickly left as if avoiding his gaze.

Zhang Xingduan didn't see the good show he imagined, so he wandered over without interest.

"You two continue to get bored. Let's go."

Yu Cheng responded.Zhang Xingduan closed the door, quickened his pace and chased after him.

Ling Lu walked slowly in the neighborhood, obviously experiencing huge mood swings.Zhang Xingduan approached with a smile: "Are you jealous?"

Ling Lu glared at him, his eyes were actually red.

"Crying now? Why did you hold back just now?" Zhang Xingduan said gloatingly, "Catching the rape in bed didn't explode, so it's possible that you plan to forgive him?"

Ling Lu stopped, stared at him, choked up and said, "Mr. Zhang, can you stop being so bad?"

The words, the tone, and the small eyes look like a baby, I really feel pity.Zhang Xingduan suddenly understood the reason why Yu Cheng likes to play with children, and he began to change his view of this little silly deer.

Unexpectedly, Ling Lu said next: "I didn't cry because Yu Cheng was in two boats, I felt sorry for Teacher Yan. He was already depressed, but his spiritual pillar was a liar. I was also angry with myself, knowing the truth, But dare not tell him... Isn't this equivalent to lying for Yu Cheng?"

Zhang Xingduan was stunned.

Ling Lu choked for a while, and looked at Zhang Xingduan with mournful eyes: "You don't know how to say it, right? But in this way—"

He suddenly pressed his chest: "But like this, Mr. Yan is so pitiful—we people seem to treat him well, but in fact they are all liars. He is the only one kept in the dark, so pitiful."

Zhang Xingduan didn't expect his thoughts to be so naive, yet so... deep.I was speechless for a moment.Ling Lu wiped away his tears and left, Zhang Xingduan stood there for a while before recovering.

this kid...

What a pity.

Zhang Xingduan clicked his tongue angrily.

If I had known that he was so cute, I would have been able to fool him even if I was a fool.It's out of play now.

However, he and Yan Ke are having fun.

26.

Yu Cheng didn't go to the church on Sunday, and stayed with Yan Ke in the apartment for a day.Instead, Ling Lu went to the Chinese pharmacy, and the little girl who was registered told Dr. Yu that he would be closed today.He walked out of the pharmacy feeling disappointed, as if he heard an official announcement:

You are abandoned.

But that's good too, at least Yu Cheng can accompany Yan Ke wholeheartedly.

Ling Lu took the bus to the municipal library, and found that, as Yu Cheng said, there were children everywhere, and there was no place to study by himself.He returned to the bus platform, looked blankly at the route map, and suddenly saw a familiar station.After thinking for a while, it turned out that it was the stop of the ancient bookstore.

He hesitated for a moment, and got on the bus anyway.

The alley is still the same alley, but the poetic and picturesque has become so hypocritical and hateful.When Ling Lu came to the bookstore, he saw the words "Negative energy forbidden" written on today's small blackboard, so he had to stand alone outside the door.

The boss wasn't there either, and the door to the backyard was closed.Was he admiring the painting again?

For whom do you want to shine...

Ling Lu suddenly had a sore nose, and tears rolled down his face.

He cried for a while, and suddenly felt someone behind him.Turning around, the little old man was looking at him blankly, carrying a bag of small persimmons.

Ling Lu opened his mouth, but his voice was choked.The little old man ran into the store without saying a word, took out a blackboard and erased it, and wiped off the word "forbidden".Then change to "in".

Negative energy enters.

Ling Lu stepped into the shop one step at a time, crying loudly.

The little old man didn't ask him why he was crying, nor why he came alone, but just brought a trash can over and broke open a small persimmon for him.Ling Lu took it and ate it, tears continued to fall, and the little old man continued to feed it.After eating several times like this, Ling Lu hiccupped and said embarrassingly, "If I eat any more, I'm going to have diarrhea."

The little old man pointed to the back room: "Wash your hands, dry them before coming back."

Ling Lu washed his hands obediently, and then went back to the shop to read a book.The book is really a good thing. After reading it for a while, my heart is at peace.

It was getting dark, Ling Lu said goodbye to the little old man and said, "Thank you."

"En." The little old man held up a magnifying glass to read the small print on the book without raising his head.

Ling Lu returned to the dormitory and had a good night's dream.

Monday, another new beginning.

The registration for the postgraduate entrance examination is about to start, and the students who took the postgraduate entrance examination together began to make appointments with their favorite tutors, but Ling Lu was still hesitant.

Too many things happened these days, which made him feel like a lifetime away.The roommate also thought he was under too much pressure and asked him to play games to relax.When he looked at his roommate, he thought of Xuanxuan, Yu Cheng, and the night when he had a long talk with Yan Ke.

...It's over like this, is it really okay?

I have something on my mind, so I can't read the book anyway.He couldn't sleep all night, and finally made up his mind on Tuesday morning and went to the science and education department.

Then there's the Office of the Director of Respiratory Medicine.

Then there's Yu Cheng's, the deputy director's office.

"I thought you would never come again." Yu Cheng signed the medical record without looking up.

Ling Lu closed the door, sat down in front of him, and said, "Mr. Yu, I've thought about it. I still want to report to the respiratory department."

Yu Cheng was a little surprised, then smiled and said: "Yes, welcome. Don't worry, I won't wear small shoes for you. To be honest, I appreciate you very much, and I don't want to..."

Ling Lu interrupted him: "I want to apply for Director Wang's graduate student."

Yu Cheng was taken aback.

Ling Lu said: "I have made an agreement with Director Wang, and he promised to accept me as long as I pass the written test."

Yu Cheng narrowed his eyes, guessing his intentions.

"I have also applied to the Department of Science and Education, and I want to learn more about the Department of Respiratory Medicine, so I can come to copy prescriptions for half a day every week. Director Wang asked me to follow you."

"So?" Yu Cheng raised his head and stared at him sharply.

Ling Lu didn't back down, looking straight into his eyes.

"I won't come to your outpatient clinic on Monday. I had an outpatient clinic with Mr. Yan last Wednesday. It will start tomorrow."