Do nothing

It's Monday again.

Yan Ke actually woke up a long time ago, but he didn't have the motivation to get up.The thought of being on duty today made me even more resistant.He stared blankly at the time beating on his phone, and didn't get up to take a shower until there was nothing left to procrastinate.

Keep overtaking on the road to avoid being late.The elevator room was as crowded as ever, and today even the staff elevators were slow to come.Anxiety continued to ferment in his heart, and he even wanted to climb the stairs to the 22nd floor.

After finally coming to the office, he clicked on the medical record system and found that the beds were full.Six new patients were admitted on the weekend, and he had to read the medical records and doctor's orders before making the ward rounds.In the afternoon, 6 more will be released, and then the patients on the waiting list will be notified to be admitted to the hospital tomorrow.

……so boring.

The unchanging work made him very irritable today.

"Borrow a pen." Yu Cheng naturally took out a fountain pen from his chest, bowed his head and signed on the medical record.Yan Ke looked into his pocket dully and found that there was not a single pen in it.

It is very common for doctors to lose their pens. Colleagues borrowed from each other and never remember to return them.

Did you lose your pen too?Still haven't brought it out?

Yan Ke searched his memory, as if he had never seen him use that pen.I didn't feel anything in my heart, I just thought calmly: After all, the cricothyroid membrane has been inserted, so if I really want to use it, it will still be difficult to respond.

"To make rounds?" Yu Cheng put the pen back into Yan Ke's pocket, saw his blank expression, and asked with concern, "What's the matter? Didn't sleep well last night?"

Could it be a side effect of painkillers?But I didn't take medicine in the morning...I didn't take much yesterday...

Yan Ke didn't know how to answer, so he shook his head and got up to push the computer cart.

Yu Cheng went to the next door and called Ling Lu and He Xuanxuan.The two interns talked and laughed, full of energy.Yan Ke remembered that today is the last day of August, and they will go to another department tomorrow.I don't know what kind of students will come next month.

After a month of training in the respiratory department, both children have grown a lot.Whether it is reporting medical history or admitting new patients, they are already proficient.

Yu Cheng also praised them with emotion.Yan Ke leaned against the wall and listened silently, suddenly something snapped in his mind, and emotions poured out like a tide.

He didn't understand what happened, but felt that he couldn't hold back his tears, so he hurried into the duty room.

Hiding in the bathroom, there was already a tear-filled face in the mirror.His chest was so tight that he couldn't breathe, and he couldn't say why he was sad, he just wanted to cry.He even knelt down in grief and covered his mouth tightly.

Don't cry, you will be seen.

He tried his best to suppress his sobs, and kept asking himself in his heart: What's wrong?Why are you crying?

Obviously nothing happened...

Today's weather is also very good, my head doesn't hurt...the ward rounds are also going well...what's there to cry about?

But it just feels... gloomy.repressed.despair.It's like knocking over a jar of negative energy, and I can't control myself anymore.

Crying can't relieve it, but I start to hate my fragility.

Everything is fine, why are you crying?

Yan Ke went away for a long time and didn't come back.Yu Cheng was a little worried and asked Ling Lu to find him.Ling Lu searched the entire ward but did not see him, and finally came to the duty room, just in time to see Yan Ke coming out of the bathroom.

"..." Ling Lu met his gaze, and hurriedly said, "Mr. Yan, don't come out, wait for me here." Then he closed the door and ran out.

Yan Ke finally calmed down, and stood behind the door in a daze.When Ling Lu came back again, he had two ice packs in his hand.

"Your eyes are swollen..." Ling Lu said cautiously, and then put the gauze soaked in water on the ice pack, "Would it be better if you apply it?"

Yan Ke took it blankly.Ling Lu asked worriedly: "Are you going to call Teacher Yu?"

Yan Ke shook his head instinctively: "No!...don't tell him..."

"Okay, I won't tell him. Then you... rest for a while? I'll just say you have something to go away."

Yan Ke nodded gratefully.Ling Lu then left, and closed the door considerately.

...too bad to be seen by students.

But it doesn't matter, anyway, I am a bad person.

Yan Ke sat down and buried his face in the ice pack.

Tears turned into ice water and flowed down again.

Eyes are less swollen after ice application, but still red.For the next day, Yan Ke avoided making eye contact with others.Yu Cheng thought he was too tired, so he tried his best to take away the new patients.Yan Ke felt very guilty. Before leaving get off work, Yu Cheng asked him if he needed to accompany him at night, but Yan Ke refused without hesitation.

Fortunately, it was Ling Lu who took the shift tonight.Xiaolu is well-behaved and sensible, and never asked him why he cried in the morning, for which he was very grateful.

The beds in the ward are full, so there should be nothing to do at night.After dinner, the ward gradually quieted down.Yan Ke stood in front of the window, looking at the brightly lit street, feeling much better.

Although Ling Lu didn't ask, he was still a little worried.He took out the candy that Yu Cheng gave him yesterday from his pocket, and walked to Yan Ke's side: "Teacher, do you want candy?"

Yan Ke gladly took it and thanked him.

Seeing that Yan Ke was not interested in chatting, Ling Lu had no choice but to sit back on the chair and open the book.He is preparing for the postgraduate entrance examination in December, and there are only two months left to review, and he feels a little too late.

But now I still don't want to read the book.

The afternoon kept appearing in front of his eyes, he and Yu Cheng were sitting by the window, listening to the cicadas singing outside the window, reading a book separately.Although there is no conversation, but the mood is very happy, like back to high school.

And... that painting.

The cold light is chaotic, for whom does it shine?

Ling Lu sighed, and unconsciously looked out the window, wanting to see if there was a moon tonight.At the same time, he was surprised to find that he actually muttered this sentence.

It's not good if it goes on like this.

Ling Lu repeatedly read the sentences in the book, but couldn't understand them.

Head full of--

He lost his footing, so he slapped himself on the face hard, trying to get the bad thoughts out of him.

Yan Ke turned around in surprise when he heard the slap in the face.

"Sleepy? Go and rest, it's okay anyway."

Ling Lu shook his head quickly: "No, no, I'm not sleepy."

Yan Ke glanced at his "Diagnostics" spread out on the table: "You haven't turned the page for half an hour. If you can't read it, don't read it, let's play for a while."

Ling Lu felt very embarrassed, but he followed Yan Ke's suggestion and closed the book.He folded his arms on the table and sighed: "Teacher, how did you get here for the postgraduate entrance examination? Was it difficult?"

"I didn't take the exam."

Ling Lu exclaimed: "Wow, Baoyan? That's amazing!"

"The amazing thing is that my father is not me." Yan Ke laughed at himself, "Our principal is his friend, and the secretary is his high school classmate. Before the announcement of the postgraduate quota that year, one was directly deducted, and I reported it first. .When they asked me to sign, I was still reading stupidly, but I didn’t expect that I didn’t even have to take the exam.”

Ling Lu was a little embarrassed.As a commoner, he actually doesn't understand the troubles of this privileged class...

"By the way," Ling Lu changed the subject, "I saw your dad in the elevator last Friday...uh, Director Yan is here!"

Yan Ke: "Oh."

Ling Lu was stunned.After waiting for a while, Yan Ke didn't speak any more.

I can't talk today!

Ling Lu lay on the table sullenly, and had no choice but to scroll through Weibo.

Suddenly, I saw this one:

"Passing by the VIP room, I saw a pair of super loving CPs! The Chinese shou had a nightmare and cried! The foreign shou wanted to wipe his tears after waking him up! The shou just laughed! Xiao Gong is still shy! God I'm going to be so cute, why is it so sweet! Please give me three meals a day for this kind of dog food!"

...gay?

Ling Lu was not interested in this kind of thing at first, but for some reason today, he suddenly wanted to click on it.Unexpectedly, he was stunned as soon as the photo was swiped out.

this is not……

"Teacher Yan!" Ling Lu blurted out, "You were secretly photographed!"

Yan Ke didn't turn his head back: "Oh."

Seeing that his reaction was so flat, Ling Lu knew that he had misunderstood, and quickly raised the phone in front of him: "It's not about saving lives! It's this!"

Yan Ke glanced at it, his expression immediately changed.He took Ling Lu's phone and quickly browsed the comments.Fortunately, most of the people were reading "So Love", "Blessings" and so on, and some people found that he was the doctor who appeared on TV two days ago, but everyone just praised him for saving lives, and then praised him for his actions. Appearance and career continue to be crazy.

Fortunately... he is handsome.

Yan Ke looked at the original post, he is a danmei joker.The amount of forwarding is only more than 100, but there are thousands of likes.

Compared with the reports of his rescue, the attention this incident has attracted is too small.

Father...shouldn't have seen it, right?After all, he doesn't play Weibo, so no one should be bored enough to ask him about such things?

Thinking of his father, Yan Ke felt apprehensive.He immediately contacted the original post and asked to delete the article. The original post was very polite, quickly deleted the Weibo, and apologized to him.Yan Ke felt a little relieved, and suddenly remembered that Xiaolu was still standing beside him.

"You... rest early." Yan Ke was a little embarrassed.

Ling Lu was also very embarrassed, pointing to the mobile phone and saying, "Teacher... the mobile phone."

It was only then that Yan Ke realized that he had lost his head in a hurry just now, and actually used Ling Lu's Weibo account to private message the original po.He quickly apologized, but Ling Lu didn't mind this, instead he said considerately: "If the other party sends a message again, I will let you know."

Ling Lu didn't mean to gossip at all, he took his phone and was about to leave.Yan Ke remembered that he didn't ask himself why he was crying in the morning, but just silently helped him get the ice pack.My heart was suddenly very warm.

"Little deer." Yan Ke couldn't help calling him.

"Ok?"

"I don't know that foreigner, I just happened to be on the same plane as him."

Ling Lu thought he was afraid that he would go outside and talk nonsense, so he hurriedly said, "Teacher, don't worry, I won't..."

"But I'm gay."

Ling Lu was stunned.

Yan Ke smiled: "Don't worry, I tell you this has no other meaning, but I have held it in my heart for a long time...you can go."

For some reason, the image of Yu Cheng standing under the streetlight when he went to the bookstore for the first time appeared in Ling Lu's mind.

Ling Lu's heart suddenly became restless.

"Mr. Yan..." Suddenly, he walked back and looked at Yan Ke timidly, "Can you... listen to me too?"

Yan Ke thought for a while: "Let's go to the duty room and talk."

The two came to the duty room, closed the door, and the duty room immediately became a small safe and airtight space.

Ling Lu thought about it for a while, but asked, "Mr. Yan, how did you find out that you are gay?"

Yan Ke smiled: "Because I like men."

Ling Lu asked cautiously: "Then... have you ever had a girlfriend?"

"No. The first wet dream was because of him." Yan Ke suddenly remembered that Ling Lu was still a student, and immediately felt embarrassed, "Uh, can you accept this scale?"

Ling Lu smiled and said, "Teacher, I'm a medical student after all."

"It's true. What about you? How many girlfriends have you talked about?"

"two."

"The girl took the initiative?"

"Hey, how do you know?"

"Guess."

"Well, you guessed it right."

"and then?"

"We broke up."

Yan Ke thought for a while: "Is there a third girl chasing you now?"

"no……"

"That's the third one you're looking at?" Yan Ke spread his hands, "Xiaolu, you heard it too. Although I am gay, I am not a friend of women, and I have no experience in chasing girls, so I can't help you..."

Ling Lu blushed suddenly: "No, I didn't mean to say this..."

Yan Ke was taken aback: "Could it be that there are gay guys chasing you?"

Ling Lu was almost driven to death by him: "No! It's the other way around!"

Yan Ke turned pale with shock: "You want to chase gays?!"

"Teacher, no." Ling Lu lowered his head helplessly, and said in great frustration: "...I seem to be the gay guy."

Yan Ke was already stunned by him.

Ling Lu lowered his head, but the image of Yu Cheng saying to him, "For whom do you want to take a photo?" appeared in front of his eyes.His heart immediately became sweet and bitter, like a sugar melted into traditional Chinese medicine.

"Teacher, your first wet dream was because of a man, so you found out that you are gay. The first time I was upset was because of him, so I may... also like men."

"No, no, no." Yan Ke corrected, "You have had a girlfriend, at most they are bisexual."

Ling Lu smiled wryly: "Now I'm beginning to wonder if the love was true. After all, the girls have always taken the initiative. They are beautiful, with good figure and personality. I have no reason to refuse... When I was with them, I didn't. There have been conflicts, and the final breakup was also brought up by them. But every time I broke up, I was not sad, but seemed... relieved. They probably also found out that I don’t like them that much at all... That’s why would give up on me."

Yan Ke was speechless.After all, his emotional history is limited to his junior uncle, and he is still secretly in love.

The two fell silent at the same time.

And speak at the same time.

"Teacher, you..."

"Then he..."

Ling Lu smiled first: "You talk first."

Yan Ke also smiled and said, "Then what is his sexual orientation, have you inquired about it?"

"No." Ling Lu thought for a while, "But I think he should be a normal person."

Normal people?

...Yes, homosexuality is abnormal.

Yan Ke couldn't help but smiled wryly, but Xiao Lu asked, "What about you, teacher? Are you with him?"

"No. I think he's straight too."

"straight?"

"It's straight, normal people."

Ling Lu was a little surprised, then nodded.

The two looked at each other with a feeling of sympathy in their hearts.

"but……"

"but……"

Again in unison.The magical tacit understanding made both of them laugh.

Yan Ke said: "I don't want the relationship of so many years to end without a problem."

Ling Lu said: "I don't want to give up lightly either."

The two looked at each other and smiled, with courage in their hearts.

"Let's encourage each other." Yan Ke stretched out his hand happily.

"Teacher, this is so strange." Ling Lu couldn't stop laughing, but still shook hands with him.

This is how the wonderful secret love alliance was established.

congratulations.