my boy

Just do what you say, half a month has passed since Sun Muren's case was closed, and a small robbery case was quickly drowned in the new news that came in.I put down my backpack and changed the clothes I wore from Gu Huai's house, and threw them into the washing machine.

While washing clothes, I thought about going there today and tomorrow, took out my phone and looked through it, Duan Yue will definitely not come to see me today, just go today.

After I made up my mind, I packed up my things, picked up the washed clothes and hung them on the balcony, and went out directly with the keys in my pocket.Sitting on the bus, Gu Huai called me, and as usual asked me what I was doing and where I was waiting for shit.You're not my mother, so it's quite lenient.I muttered in my heart, "I'm at home, I'm going to go back to sleep."

As a result, as soon as I finished speaking, the name of the place of arrival was reported on the bus.

"..."

"Oh, how about making a bus at home?" Gu Huai asked me in a nonchalant manner.

"Yeah, I'm going to fly later." I retorted.After I finished speaking, I hung up the phone, but just after I hung up the phone, I suddenly felt very awkward, like a quarreling and angry woman.

"Tsk." Terrible.

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When I got to the place, I got off the car and walked for a while before arriving at this community, which still looked like a crumbling and dangerous building.At this time, it began to snow in the sky, but it was not big, and it melted immediately when it fell on my hands.I tightened the collar of my coat, and walked to the building where Sun Muren died with ease.

Pushing open the dilapidated wooden door, a thin layer of dust was raised.I tilted my head, waved my hand in front of my face, and walked up. When I reached the fourth floor, I heard faint gasps. I suddenly became in a trance, as if I had killed It was as if Sun Muren was dreaming.

I continued to walk up a little numbly, and the hallucinatory panting sound became more and more clear as I approached.I stood still at the door, staring straight at the ground with my eyes fixed on the ground, my hand in the pocket of my clothes was tightly clutching the door key in my hand, and my whole arm was trembling.

"Slow...slower." This was Duan Yue's voice, followed by heavy panting.

This sentence was like a slap on my face, and with a loud slap, all the whimsical and green throbbing in my heart these days were wiped away, leaving only purple palm prints.

I was standing blankly at the door, at this moment Duan Yue turned her head, and looked at me through the half-open door.There is nothing in those eyes, I can't see anything, it's like this is just an empty shell.

When I finally came to my senses, I was already sitting on the stairs in the basement, and the first reaction in my mind was to see the face of the person on Duan Yue for a while, at worst, and then kill him again.

I bent my legs, wrapped my arms around my legs and buried my head in my arms.In this way, I sat on the stairs in a daze until Duan Yue went downstairs and sat next to me, neither of us spoke.Finally Duan Yue said: "You have seen it all."

I opened my mouth and squeezed out a word from my dry throat, "What?"

"Seeing me get fucked by men like a bitch."

I slowly turned my head to look at Duan Yue, but Duan Yue lowered her eyes and didn't look at me, her mouth was still slightly swollen.

I don't even know how I feel right now, like a marathon runner who thinks he has seen the end, but finally finds that the road has no end.I was almost exhausted sitting on the stairs, and I didn't even have the strength to speak.

"Why do you..."

"Because I want to get the submission quota."

I looked at him in surprise, "Your house..."

Duan Yue looked up at me and said, "I'm an illegitimate child, no one will care about me, I lied to you before, I'm not even eligible to sit on the dining table during Chinese New Year, I can only wait for them to eat leftovers in the kitchen. "

I looked at Duan Yue in front of me, and saw unprecedented resentment in his eyes.He went on to say, "No one will care about me. I will be thrown out of this house after high school, like a bag of garbage."

Then Duan Yue grabbed my hand and put a gun on my hand, which I put in his schoolbag.Duan Yue smiled and said, "Thank you anyway, Sun Muren is really good at torturing people, now he is much gentler."

I rubbed the bug in my hand and didn't know what to say for a while, Duan Yue finished what I wanted to ask or say, so I asked, "When did you know?"

Duan Yue said, "At first."

I was speechless for a while, I lowered my head a little at a loss, and saw Duan Yue's bare feet, without thinking, I took off my shoes and put them by his feet, without saying a word, and I couldn't say a word.

In the end, I stood up leaning on the wall and prepared to go home. I looked down at Duan Yue, hoping that Duan Yue could say something to me, whatever.As a result, Duan Yue just lowered his head and didn't look up at me. From my angle, I could only see his slightly long hair and a fair neck.

I said with some Analects of Confucianism: "If you want people's hearts that day, I'm willing to dig them for you. You..."

"You are all for yourself."

Duan Yue raised her voice a bit, interrupted me and said, "You are the most selfish person, you are all for yourself."

I was suffocated by what he said, and I really had nothing to say.

After seeing him for the last time, I went upstairs and opened the door of the unit. The heavy snow in the sky filled my whole retina, and the night was filled with white all over the world, and my sudden black spot was like a superfluous existence of this night.

I walked out barefoot with one deep foot and one shallow foot. After a few steps, my feet hurt from the cold, but I didn’t have the energy to worry about my feet. Now my mind is full of just wanting to go home and sleep. Terribly tired.

I just walked out like this, and finally the piercing pain in my feet became blurred. At this time, I saw Gu Huai standing under the streetlight in this pale night.I turned my head sideways and continued to walk forward, Gu Huai grabbed my arm when I passed by Gu Huai.

"Where?"

I said nothing.

"What about you? Are you going to walk around the world barefoot?"

I looked up at him, trying to act nonchalantly, and said with a wooden face, "I was dumped."

I gritted my teeth and swallowed hard to suppress the soreness of my nose. My eyes were a little dry due to the reflection in the snowdrifts, but there were tears welling up from the bottom of my eyes. I looked more nonchalant, letting the moisture in my eyes evaporate, trying not to embarrass myself.

Gu Huai frowned seeing me like this.He didn't say anything, and finally sighed and said, "Then go home first."

There are also dishes cooked by Duan Yue at home.I didn't answer him, just looked at him straight.In the end, I kissed Gu Huai on the mouth, and then said to him, "Go to your house."

Just like that, I followed Gu Huai back home with my frostbitten heels and made love.And I was lying there all night like a corpse staring at the mirror on the roof, so it was hard for Gu Huai to continue the piston movement with great interest.

After finishing, Gu Huai lit a cigarette, and said slowly in his unbeatable tone: "Now you don't have to worry about it, I'm so happy." The meaning of the expression is whether you want to die or live, and your thoughts are on your own. It doesn't matter, I got what I wanted anyway.But after thinking about it, it really was the case, and I thought it made sense after hearing what he said, so I nodded in agreement.

Then Gu Huai took a puff of cigarette with his head sideways, and the cigarette butt was pressed into the ashtray beside him, I stared at the specks of Huoxin in a daze.Gu Huai turned to me and smiled at me, spit out the cigarette from his mouth unhurriedly, buried his expression in the cloud of smoke, and said in a more serious tone: "I don't care about the rest , this world is a garbage dump in an alley, we are all garbage and mice in this garbage dump, what are you expecting?"

I looked at Gu Huai's blurred face in silence, and finally nodded numbly, turned over and closed my eyes, preparing to go back to sleep.

Duan Yue shattered the only light in my head, I don't want to think about anything now, I just want to sleep well, and then fix my feet that seem to have frostbite.

In the end, I lived selfishly.

The author has something to say: smear the code words in class, and turn off the lights when I come to talk about ppt.