my boy

The author has something to say: It is expected to be a short story, short and concise is my usual style.

And thank you very much for your support [moving runny nose]

2017.4.15: Added, I feel that a piece of braille is a bit perfunctory, and some chapters are simply merged, and the content will definitely increase.Try not to be the author of the journal [swearing gesture]

After doing my homework restlessly, I bit the penholder with my teeth and asked casually, "Why did Teacher Sun ask for leave suddenly?" Duan Yue's pen paused, and then continued to check the calculation on the paper, "When I go home He was hit by a car and had a slight fracture in his leg."

I wiped the saliva from the barrel of the pen onto the paper, "That's really bad luck."

Duan Yue didn't answer, I glanced at him calmly, but didn't see any emotion on his face.I looked at the book and thought, are you happy about this?Still unhappy?I can't figure it out, since Sun Muren didn't come to school, I didn't see any other emotions, neither relief nor gloating,

There is no negative emotion at all, just like when Sun Muren was in school.

I'm not sure.

In the end, I walked on the road in a daze, thinking wildly, and finally bumped into a tree by the roadside.

"Pfft." There was a chuckle from beside him.

I was a little embarrassed, but I still patted my clothes slowly on my face. When I lowered my head and patted the clothes, I pulled my mouth in pain.He straightened up and prepared to move on as if nothing had happened, but when he looked up, he saw Gu Huai grinning over there.

"..."

Just as I was deciding whether to go directly or go directly, Gu Huai said happily, "Little classmate, did you get double hundred in the exam today?"

I don't want to talk to him, I always think this person is sick.From head to toe, the word "nervous" appeared, and I raised the corners of my mouth to show a smile but didn't speak.Gu Huai was not affected at all, and continued to sing a one-man show, "I went to find my brother today, and I happened to be on the way with you."

After I finished speaking, I was ready to take a few steps, stopped and looked back at me, with the expression that you are following up all over my face, the corners of my eyes twitched, so I had to follow, and asked by the way: "You two don't live together ?”

"I can't stop, this kid will hate me when Si'er is dead."

The amount of information was a bit large, so I turned my head to look at him.Gu Huai is half a head taller than me. Every time I look at him, I have to tilt my head slightly. At this time, Gu Huai put a third of his face in his pocket and showed me the side view. I can only see his chin there. Up and down.

"It was the bass player before you came, who committed suicide a while ago."

Damn, when I heard this, I suddenly stood up, my mouth smacked, and I asked one more question, "Gu Chi likes him?"

Gu Huai turned his head and gave me a meaningful look, and said something.

"do not like."

I'm even more confused, don't you like to hate your fart?I don't like it when others speak with half-knowledge and make mysteries.Maybe my fucking expression was too obvious, Gu Huaiyou added: "I don't like me."

Me: "... what does not liking you have to do with you bass players?"

Gu Huai looked at me and sighed, "So I don't like it."

Then he added, "Your comprehension ability, Chinese reading is not too much."

"..."

The teacher who gave the questions is as good as you, and I don’t need the college entrance examination anymore. I can go home and grow cabbage.

Gu Huai said to himself again: "You don't like dogs, so why would you still like dog shit?"

I looked up at him, his expression was very righteous.

I am a person who likes to attack this kind of people, "When you like dogs, you also like their shit?"

Gu Huai stopped talking.

We walked for a while without saying a word, and he suddenly said, "You are more and more interested in me." I continued flatly, "Thank you."

That's it, I don't know why Gu Huai and I are inexplicably familiar, it should be said that Gu Huai treats me, so sometimes I can't help but be driven by him, it feels like we have known each other for a while.

It was inexplicably aggrieved.

Finally, we arrived at the intersection of the neighborhood where I lived, and I couldn't wait to say goodbye to Gu Huai.Gu Huai looked at me with a half-smile, didn't leave and didn't say goodbye to me, just looked at me like that.Finally I said, "I have someone I like."

Gu Huai still laughed, I was a little terrified by his smile, at this time Gu Huai finally spoke human words.

"Goodbye."

After finishing speaking, I turned around and slapped my buttocks to leave. I stood at the intersection and choked speechlessly.

I really don't understand him very well. Every time Gu Huai smiles and looks at him like this, there is always a feeling of being squeezed in his hands like mud and rubbing casually. From the very beginning, he vaguely conveyed to me that he wanted to fuck /my messages.

Don't ask why, it's called the gay hormone in gay.

Although I died down for a while when I found out that I was underage, it was only for a while. No, I ran to boil the frog again.

Scratch it and run away, not to mention the yin and yang, it's especially itchy, what a bear!

Although I didn't know the reason why he did these things from the beginning to the end, I was somewhat wary of this person, so sometimes I would be led by the nose by him.Very annoying.

I rubbed the soil on my shoes on the steps at the head of the stairs and went upstairs.I went into the room and took out the book at the bottom of the desk, flipped through it, and finally stopped at the last few pages. The date when I went to find Sun Muren with a schoolbag on my back was marked out with a red pen.

Might be going again on Wednesday.

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After school was over on Wednesday, I said goodbye to Duan Yue and walked home for a while. I turned a corner and walked to the residential building from the alley. The community may have been independent for a long time. I don't know what this dilapidated residential building is called.

I strolled in with ease, and walked upstairs with light steps.

When I got to the fourth floor, I heard the sound of objects colliding, and when I went up, I heard things waving in the air and making a "swoosh".

Immediately afterwards, there was a "snap!" being hit on the body, accompanied by Duan Yue's muffled groan.

At that time, my blood rushed to my forehead non-stop, without stopping for a moment.With a bang, an ugly mushroom exploded in my mind, mixed with the regret that I didn't stab that bastard Sun Muren to death.

I bent down and took a deep breath, then straightened up and continued to walk up, and stopped at the door of the unit on the right side of the fifth floor. I supported the ground with one hand, leaned on my trembling arm, and landed on my buttocks.

"You hired that kid!" Sun Muren yelled inside.

"Son of a bitch, you won't recognize anyone if you lift your pants up after being fucked! You still fucking look for someone!" Sun Muren's voice changed into a different tone.

Duan Yue didn't say a word, only the sound of the belt twitching on her body accompanied Sun Muren's obscenities.

While sitting outside, I looked down at the cracks in the marble stairs at my feet for various reasons. The corners of the stairs seemed to be accidentally smashed by the moving workers, and a piece was knocked off. Maybe there was a slight earthquake here. Now the piece that was knocked off has small cracks spreading all around, scattered and arranged in a criss-cross pattern.

No matter which crack you follow, you can follow them into the black gap in the end.

Guided by the crack, I fixed my eyes on the gap, and the thoughts in my head slipped in along with my eyes, and slowly sank into the darkness where I couldn't see my fingers.

I just stared at the gap until Sun Muren cursed and packed up his things and prepared to pull up his pants and leave. I looked at the rusty anti-theft door, stood up and went downstairs.

Standing in the basement, this time Duan Yue didn't come out with Sun Muren, I just waited below, about four to ten minutes later Duan Yue staggered down with the help of the wall, the boy stood on the stairs and straightened his clothes, tight He tightened his coat, opened the door and stepped out.

After waiting for a while, I followed until Duan Yue reached the intersection where I usually separated.

After that, I went home and took out the short knife and put it in my backpack, and went to the kitchen for a night to make instant noodles.Then I entered the room with a fruit knife, closed the curtains and turned on the audio, and sat on the edge of the bed with my knees crossed.

Listening to every word of Duan Yue, the self-blame in my heart will double and bury me. I blame myself for not killing Sun Muren. I blame Duan Yue for being treated like a beast. I blame myself for what I did that day. everything.

There were deep and shallow cuts on the inner thighs, and a small patch of bright red condensed on the ground.

The guilt and self-blame in my heart is getting higher and higher, using my throat, blocking me to suffocate

My eyes were red, I was holding my breath, and blinked in vain.

The person I like is always surrounded by thorns

I can't touch.

And he was bloody.

——YL