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Lian Ying frowned, and after thinking for a while, a boy with plain hair and a bad complexion but very cute appeared in his mind, he couldn't help opening his eyes slightly, and exclaimed: "That child is actually you ?!"

With a smile in the corner of Shi Yu's eyes, he took advantage of Lian Ying's shock and kissed him on the side of his ear and temple: "Yes, it was me, but luckily you still remember."

Lian Ying was still a little puzzled, didn't understand why he suddenly mentioned this, but when he thought of the scene when the two first met, he felt like laughing, no wonder there was always an inexplicable sense of familiarity in getting along with him later.

"Maybe it's just a dispensable childhood memory for you, but it's a rare treasure for me in this life. If it wasn't for meeting that little boy, if it wasn't for his naive but sincere heart I don’t know how I will be distorted by reality in the days to come.” Shi Yu paused here, and looked at his response in a daze, obviously the other party thought of what he told him back then. About his mother's story, "Ah Ying, that boy is a light in my life, let me see hope, feel warm, countless days and nights, just relying on that short memory can give me enough Face everything in the future with courage. It's a pity... At that time, I didn't know that it was a little boy, and I thought it was the daughter of Duanmu's family."

Lian Ying was silent, he seemed to be able to guess what Shi Yu was going to say next.

"When I grew up and gradually gained some power, I went to find out who the child was, but how could I find out the right person if I went in the wrong direction from the beginning? That's why I told your sister... Shi Yu was silent, even if he didn't finish speaking, he knew that Lian Ying would definitely understand what he meant.

"It turned out to be a misunderstanding..." Lian Ying sighed, no wonder Shi Yu said that he loved him from the beginning to the end, but is this love really pure?How many childhood memories are mixed in this? Is he in love with him or is he grateful and nostalgic?

"Maybe it's a bit corny for me to say that, but I really want to ask you," Lian Ying turned around, faced Shi Yu, and asked straight into his eyes, "If you haven't found out that I was What will you do then? Will you come to me? Are you sure that the heart you said is really so pure? "

Shi Yu, who seemed to have expected that Lian Ying would ask such a question, smiled calmly, looked back at Lian Ying without hesitation, and said calmly: "I'm sure. Ah Ying, my love for you will not increase because of childhood memories Or reduce one point, if I don't know, maybe I will come to you later, but it will not affect the final result. Now I tell you all this just to hope to untie the knot between you and me, although you Don't say it, but I know you still care about whether my affection for you is pure or not, and about how much I liked your sister."

"Aying, I like you from the beginning to the end, but I hate that I don't know you well enough, and the things I have done have hurt you, whether it is my previous misidentification or my self-righteous protection of you. Aying, I I came to look for you, besides apologizing and confessing my heart, I want to be with you more, I can give up everything for you."

After finishing speaking, this usually indifferent man actually had a tense look on his face, he had never said such a thing before, he didn't know what kind of reply he would get for his confession, he only knew that any subsequent response A single sentence can influence his emotions incomparably, making him either heaven or hell.

For a long time, even Ying didn't speak, and the silence spread between the two of them. Shi Yu felt his heart sinking gradually, and an astringent taste spread from his heart to his mouth, just when he was about to say something more. Lian Ying spoke up.

"Actually, I don't blame you for your misidentification." Lian Ying sighed, looked into the dark night outside the cave and said calmly: "I used to be just a bastard who was not recognized by the Duanmu family. There are very few people who treat me well, and my sister is one of them."

"Now that I think about it, my experience is very similar to yours. Maybe it's also a kind of fate." The corners of his mouth twitched, and even Ying wanted to smile but couldn't. He simply pursed his lips and continued, "My mother It's just Mrs. Jiang's dowry maid, who was misidentified by the drunk master when she was pregnant and..."

Even Ying paused at this point, as if he was thinking about how to word it reasonably, but in the end he could only vaguely say, "Mother and Madam grew up together and have a very good relationship. Madam treats her like a sister. She She is naturally loyal to Madam and has a deep affection, so she chooses to bury such things in her heart, lest such things will cause Madam and Master to lose peace. But she didn't expect to have me in just one night..."

"Originally, the mother planned to abort the child, but the incident was exposed by the maidservant who lived with her. The entire Duanmu Mansion knew about this...scandal, and the mother couldn't hide it even if she wanted to." Lian Ying smiled self-deprecatingly at this point, if this matter hadn't been revealed, maybe he wouldn't be the person he is now, "Master and Madam are certainly angry, but how could they allow their mother to hurt such an innocent child in their stomachs? What about my little life? In short, I was saved until the day I was born..."

Shi Yu could hear Lian Ying's voice trembling slightly, and the corners of his eyes turned red, but he didn't interrupt him, because he knew that at this time, Lian Ying needed to vent more than to be comforted, to speak out, so he was willing to Be a listener, hold his hand tightly, and give him the strength to speak.

Lian Ying lowered his eyes and saw Shi Yu holding his hand tightly. At this moment, he felt that many things that he could not face before seemed to no longer make him resist so much at this moment, "After giving birth to me, my mother chose She committed suicide, did not listen to anyone's advice, and did not disturb anyone. She left on that morning with falling leaves full of guilt and pain, leaving this child who was not recognized by her alone in the world. A jade pendant with exquisite workmanship and a strange shape."

"Actually, I can understand my mother's decision. I don't resent her for leaving me alone. During the time she was pregnant with me, she saw too many bad times, whether it was because of her estranged master and wife, or in The servants of the Duanmu family who pointed at her behind her back, scolded her for being indiscreet, and revenged her kindness, perhaps death is really her relief."

"Maybe it's really because of my mother's willingness to die. The master and wife gradually reconciled, and the rumors of the world gradually dissipated. I grew up in such an environment that was neither recognized nor denied. It's just me I have been in poor health since I was a child. Later, the master and his wife couldn’t see it and raised me as a girl. Isn’t there such a way among the people? Then I stayed with my sister and became closer and closer, becoming a real couple. siblings, but outsiders don’t know about it.”

Lian Ying glanced at Shi Yu at this point, so it is understandable that he made a mistake at the beginning.

"When I grew up, I began to look forward to the outside world, so I made up my mind to travel all over the world. I didn't expect to get the nickname 'Mr. Tingyun' by chance. It was also more than a year ago when my sister got married and returned to Duanmu. It was only when I was at home that my father awkwardly admitted it. In fact, I don’t blame them. They were good enough to me, and they didn’t have a hard time during my tormented days. Now everything is reconciled and I am very satisfied. It's just that I, an unfilial son, did something that disappointed my father..."

Seeing Lian Ying who stopped talking, Shi Yu knew in his heart that what he said was to help him seize the throne?Unexpectedly, earlier...he hurt him.

"Ah Ying, I'm sorry." Shi Yu hugged the person in his arms tightly, knowing how weak these three words are, but that's all he could say.

"No, I never blamed you. I don't regret the choice I made. The only thing I'm glad is that my family didn't give up on me."

Lian Ying smiled, but the weak-looking smile was full of happiness and satisfaction. Shi Yu's heart moved, and he leaned forward and kissed his eyelashes. He felt the person in his arms tremble slightly, but he didn't move away. Can't help showing a smile, "Ah Ying, let me be your family too?"

There was silence between the two of them again, even Ying struggled, but couldn't break free, and finally he could only say in a helpless tone: "Shi Yu, how can you and I be together? You have your responsibility, You can't let go of your responsibility, and you can't let go."

Shi Yu was delighted to hear what Lian Ying said, at least it meant that Lian Ying himself didn't reject him, didn't it?

"If it's for you, I can let go of everything." Shi Yu held Lian Ying's face in his hands and said seriously, "The fight for the throne is just to prove my own strength. I don't have too much obsession with that seat. The responsibility of the family is the country. Yu Guo, now that the Northern Dynasty has basically settled down, Li Qing and the others will govern the country very well, even if I don’t have any problems, and your sister is a strange woman, she will teach Yan’er well, and in the future This throne still belongs to Yan'er, and to his descendants."

"As for the Yu family... Ah Ying, from now on, the place where you are is my home. I will stay by your side for the rest of my life, and I will never be able to drive you away. It is the luck of my life to accompany you to travel all over the world and see all the scenery. .”

"You..." Lian Ying was speechless, it was hard for him not to be moved by such words, but besides being moved, he felt that Shi Yu was a little too capricious, it was really, really child's play to drop everything to find him like this ah!

"Are you really not going back?!" Raising his eyebrows, Lian Ying felt a little headache looking at the attentive Shi Yu smiling at him, why didn't he know that this person could be so clingy before?

"I want to be with you for the rest of my life." Shi Yu just answered him with a smile.

"I, it's not worth it." Lian Ying lowered his eyes. At this moment, he believed in Shi Yu's love for him, but people in love always seem to be unconfident. Do you have any current feelings?

"It's worth it if I think it's worth it." Shi Yu tightened his arms holding the person in his arms, and leaned his head on his shoulder, "Ah Ying, we still have a long, long future, I'll let you believe it , you are worth letting go of everything."

The author has something to say:

Probably the next chapter will be over, emmmmm, I feel that the writing is not very good, my mind is very confused, I hope I didn’t write these confessions, hey...