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Chen Xing has been getting tattoos for two years in a row, on Zhou Chen's birthday.

Chen Xing went drinking for two years in a row, the day before his birthday.

So what is he doing on his birthday?After a whole day of class, he found a quiet park and sat there all night.

He thought, if Zhou Chen came back one day, he would definitely kick him a few times first, it's too fucking bullying.

However, if Zhou Chen is willing to come back, he will say nothing this time and don't let him go, it's too uncomfortable.

In the third year after Zhou Chen left, Chen Xing stood on the balcony of the dormitory that day and saw a layer of snow falling outside.It was the first snow again, he thought, Zhou Chen must have gone to a very mild city, there was no snow in winter, that's why Zhou Chen completely forgot about it.

Wang Yizhe is going to the United States to study graduate school after graduating from his undergraduate degree. Chen Xing originally had the quota, but Chen Xing was unwilling to go because he felt that the United States was too far away.

He Yanzhi and Wu Hongdu, like Chen Xing, continued to stay in school for postgraduate studies.

Sure enough, Qiao Yan came again in his senior year, and he will also study as a graduate student at Peking University.

The day before Chen Xing's birthday, the entire dormitory and Qiao Yan went to the bar.Chen Xing didn't take a sip of wine at first, but Wang Yizhe and He Yanzhi drank too much, so they began to pull him to pour him wine, Chen Xing couldn't escape, and drank half a glass.Qiao Yan smiled at the side: "You guys drink, I will find a car to take you back later."

Holding the wine glass, Wang Yizhe muttered, "Chen Xing, you are an idiot."

Chen Xing drank in a daze, nodded for a long time: "Well, I'm an idiot."

Wang Yizhe put his face on the bar counter and raised his eyelids to look at Chen Xing: "After graduating from graduate school, I won't be able to see your date anymore. When I come back, I will slap you with a dog's head, do you believe it?"

Chen Xing rested his chin on his arm, closed his eyes and said, "Well, as long as you are happy."

Wang Yizhe put his arm on Chen Xing's shoulder, pulled Chen Xing and shook it a few times, and asked a little depressed: "Why, why?"

Chen Xing smiled: "Because of love."

Zhou Chen stood across the road and watched Chen Xing and the others enter the bar. Chen Xing would come every year and send him a message every year: "Zhou Chen, I'm at the bar outside the school."

Chen Xing may have been waiting for him every year, waiting for him to find him.

But he is such a jerk, he disappoints Chen Xing every year.

This time I said nothing and left.

Zhou Chen stood outside wrapped in a scarf for more than an hour, Wang Yizhe staggered out of the bar, and then Wu Hong came out holding He Yanzhi's arm, Zhou Chen exhaled, and Chen Xing came out, being held by his shoulders , being held by a boy he had never seen before.

Qiao Yan hugged Chen Xing's shoulders to keep him from slipping on the ground. Chen Xing didn't recognize anyone when he was drunk and wouldn't let anyone touch him.Qiao Yan put his hand on it, but was pushed away by Chen Xing, put on it again, and was pushed away by Chen Xing again.Just walking awkwardly to the side of the road, the few people around me who were talking nonsense just now suddenly became quiet.Qiao Yan raised his eyes, and there was a man standing four or five meters in front of him. The man's eyes were all on Chen Xing. Qiao Yan had seen the clothes that man was wearing, and Chen Xing also had one.

Chen Xing stared blankly at Zhou Chen, bent his eyes and smiled after watching for a while, pushed Qiao Yan's hand away, and walked without shaking.Qiao Yan watched him walk straight in front of Zhou Chen, wrapped his arms around Zhou Chen's neck, and put his head on Zhou Chen's shoulder.

The distance was too far, Qiao Yan didn't hear Chen Xing's aggrieved "hug", he only saw Zhou Chen's hands hugging Chen Xing's waist.The wind blew for a while, and the people next to him were awake. Wang Yizhe looked at it for a while, then turned his head and said to Qiao Yan, "Let's go, the Lord is back."

Wu Hong reached out to stop a taxi, pulled Qiao Yan in and stuffed him into the back seat.Qiao Yan turned around and looked back, but Wang Yizhe broke his shoulders: "It's even embarrassing for me. I was thinking that you and Chen Xing would be together, but now it's over."

Qiao Yan lowered his head and smiled: "As long as he is doing well, I'm still a little late."

Chen Xing's voice was full of grievances, just one word made Zhou Chen's eyes red.He hugged Chen Xing's waist and felt that Chen Xing was thinner than when he was a freshman.

Chen Xing's head rested on Zhou Chen's shoulder, heaving slightly, as if falling asleep.Zhou Chen gently pulled away Chen Xing's hand holding his neck, bent down and let Chen Xing lie on his back.

Zhou Chen carried Chen Xing on his back, the tip of his nose lingered with a faint smell of alcohol.The city of Beijing in the middle of the night is still too lively.It was very quiet behind him, and after walking a long way, Zhou Chen heard a faint voice, Chen Xing was calling him: "Zhou Chen."

Zhou Chen stopped walking, tilted his head, and replied in a low voice, "I'm here."

Chen Xing buried his face in the scarf and said sullenly, "You're not here."

"I'm here."

Zhou Chen carried Chen Xing back to his rented house, Er Gou jumped off the sofa, Zhou Chen put Chen Xing on the sofa, Chen Xing closed his eyes, his cheeks were a little red.He was indeed thinner, maybe he had grown up, and his outline became more and more clear, from a boy to a man.

Zhou Chen bent down and kissed the corner of Chen Xing's mouth, and said softly against Chen Xing's lips, "I'm sorry."

Chen Xing opened his mouth slightly, and Zhou Chen bent over to look at it for a long time, and finally squeezed Chen Xing's chin gently with two fingers, covering Chen Xing's lower lip.

He helped Chen Xing up and sat down, took off Chen Xing's coat, sweater, and finally unbuttoned his shirt.

After the bathtub was filled with water, Zhou Chen hugged Chen Xing and put it in. He lowered his head and saw the lines of blue and black words on Bai Jing's back.

"Fengxi Fengxi returns to her hometown, and travels all over the world to seek her phoenix."

"The phoenix and the phoenix come from my habitat, and I am entrusted with breeding tails to be the king forever."

Zhou Chen grabbed the edge of the bathtub and squatted down slowly. Big tears fell on the ground. He cried for the second time. The first time, he was wronged for himself. This time, it was because of Chen Xing.

If he could wipe away Chen Xing's grievances over the past few years by crying himself, then it would be fine for him to cry hoarsely, but no, such a good person should be loved hard, and should not be hurt by him.

Zhou Chen was crying and dazed. After taking a bath for Chen Xing, he carried him to the bed. Finally, after hesitating for a while, he lifted the bed and carefully burrowed in.Chen Xing suddenly opened his eyes, his eyes were clear and bright, and he tilted his head to look at him.Zhou Chen propped his arms on the bed, his movements froze, he couldn't sit or lie down, it was so awkward for a long time, Chen Xing stretched out his hand from the bed, slowly lifted it up, and stopped beside Zhou Chen's face. Chen waited for his palm to touch it, but after waiting for a long time there was no movement, he slowly moved his face closer.

Chen Xing moved his thumb on his face and said hoarsely, "I miss you so much."

The eye sockets that had just cried began to heat up again. Zhou Chen brushed the broken hair on Chen Xing's forehead and said, "I miss you too."

Chen Xing smiled: "If only I could see you tomorrow morning, then I can kick you a few times."

Zhou Chen lay down, wrapped Chen Xing's waist into his arms, kissed Chen Xing's forehead and said, "Well, it should."

The next morning when Zhou Chen woke up, Chen Xing was still asleep. He cried for a long time last night. He put ice cubes on his eyes for a long time in the bathroom this morning, and the eyes were not so swollen.When he came out of the bathroom, Chen Xing sat on the bed in a daze and stared at him.

After a long time, Chen Xing rubbed his eyes, half-closed his eyes and asked him: "I'm back."

Zhou Chen nodded slightly: "I'm back."

Chen Xing slowly opened his arms towards him: "You hug me."

These few steps were so long that Zhou Chen didn't even have the strength to walk.When he hugged Chen Xing, the weight of his upper body was completely on Chen Xing.

Chen Xing hugged his shoulder so hard that his fingertips were trembling slightly.

"Zhou Chen, you lied to me."

Say you don't go, or go.Said you would not want me, or left me behind.

Zhou Chen was silent, and Chen Xing said again: "Zhou Chen, you bullied me."

You just see that I love you so much that I really dare to leave me for three years.

"Zhou Chen, if you want to leave in the future, then go. Don't look back, I won't wait for you for another three years."

"But I will be reluctant, without you, I will die."

Chen Xing turned his head to Zhou Chen's ear, his posture was so low that it was almost pious: "So, don't leave, okay?"

Zhou Chen buried his head in Chen Xing's shoulder, his soft tone made him breathless, what should he say, he won't leave in the future?He said, does Chen Xing still believe it?

Chen Xing held Zhou Chen's hand and asked him, "I'm not leaving, okay?"

"it is good."

A tear fell across Chen Xing's collarbone, it was icy cold.Chen Xing smiled: "Where have you been these few years?"

Zhou Chen said, "In Beijing, here."

"What are you doing?"

"I'm studying, taking postgraduate entrance examinations, and taking architectural examinations."

"The results of it?"

Zhou Chen raised his head: "Should have passed the exam, Department of Architecture, Tsinghua University."

Chen Xing said: "Bring me a drink, I want to drink."

On his birthday, he mixed a glass of wine for him. The wine was very bitter, astringent, and spicy. He only took a sip before tears fell.

Chen Xing didn't go back to school at night, but stayed in Zhou Chen's rented house.Zhou Chen said that he knew how to cook, and he would cook for Chen Xing.

Chen Xing was sitting on the sofa teasing the cat, and listening to Zhou Chen cooking in the small kitchen, he thought, how could Zhou Chen know how to cook.In the end, he really smelled the aroma of the rice. He dropped the cat, washed his hands and squeezed into the kitchen. Chen Xing stood behind Zhou Chen and watched him carefully bring out the steamed fish and put it on the table.The kitchen was very small, Zhou Chen took a step back and bumped into Chen Xing's chest.Chen Xing stretched out his arms to stop Zhou Chen's stomach, and leaned his head lightly on his shoulder.

Zhou Chen smiled and asked, "Why did you come in?"

Chen Xing pointed to the living room: "In the past few years, I have not been as happy as that cat. It can see you every day, but I can't."

Zhou Chen put his hand on the back of Chen Xing's hand, lowered his head and said, "I'm sorry."

"Tell me, what happened at that time?"

Zhou Chen patted Chen Xing's hand: "Let's finish eating, and I'll tell you after eating."

The author has something to say: "The phoenix returns to its hometown, and travels all over the world to seek its phoenix."

"Huang Xi Huang Xi lives from me, and I have to entrust her tail to be a concubine forever." Note that the original poem says "concubine", which has been changed in the text.This is still a sentence in "Phoenix Seeking the Phoenix".

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