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The cell phone next to the bed rang without warning at seven o'clock in the morning, Han Ya's call.

Chen Xing sat up, quietly watching the screen turn black again, and then continue to brighten.

Chen Xing answered the phone and remained silent.

"Xiaoxing, mom is back, why aren't you at home?"

After a long time, Chen Xing spoke with a cold tone: "What are you doing back here?"

Han Ya was cautious over there, and there was a bit of flattery in her words: "Xiaoxing, my mother came back this time to take you to the United States. My mother is getting married and will settle in the United States in the future. I also have all the shares in the company. Planning to sell it, will you go to the United States with your mother?"

Chen Xing sneered: "You can do whatever you want, if I don't go, you will forget my son, and I will treat you as a mother without you. Sent to the nursing home, oh, happy newlyweds."

Chen Xing hung up the phone before Han Ya could speak, and stared blankly at the front. Behind him, Zhou Chen stretched out his hand and pulled Chen Xing into his arms, hugging Chen Xing's waist silently.

Chen Xing's eyes were still a little swollen, he buried his head on Zhou Chen's chest and took a deep breath, and said as calmly as possible: "My mother is getting married, and she will not come back in the United States."

Zhou Chen's voice was still hoarse after waking up: "Yes, I heard it."

Chen Xing bit Zhou Chen's Adam's apple, and said vaguely, "I'm hungry."

Zhou Chen smiled: "What do you want to eat?"

"Soymilk, deep-fried dough sticks, Hu spicy soup, Xiaolongbao."

"You sleep first, I'll go shopping."

"Zhou Chen, let's go shopping."

"Where do you want to go?"

"I don't know, I just want to go out for a walk."

"Then get up, pack up, and go out for a stroll."

The two went to the breakfast shop downstairs, and Zhou Chen ordered a basket of steamed buns, two servings of soy milk, one serving of hot and spicy soup, and two servings of deep-fried dough sticks.Chen Xing grabbed him: "What do you want so much for?"

Zhou Chen poked his forehead: "Don't you want to eat?"

Chen Xing smiled: "I just talk casually, I can't finish it."

"I'll eat the rest of your food." As soon as Zhou Chen came over with the buns, the door curtain was lifted from the outside, and it was Li Ting who came in. When she saw Zhou Chen, she was taken aback for a moment, then went up to say hello to Zhou Chen : "Zhou Chen?"

Chen Xing turned around and looked at Li Ting, feeling familiar, but couldn't remember where he saw it.Zhou Chen on the opposite side was also taken aback, Li Ting smiled: "I don't remember me, I am Li Ting, the granddaughter of Uncle Wang."

Zhou Chen nodded: "Hello." Chen Xing was drinking soy milk and looking at himself with a half-smile.

Li Ting went to sit next to Chen Xing, brushed her hair, and turned her head to greet Chen Xing, and Chen Xing responded indifferently.

"Zhou Chen, last time I left in a hurry, I didn't have time to exchange contact information with you."

Zhou Chen: When did I show my willingness to exchange contact information with you? What do you mean I left in a hurry last time?My boyfriend sits next to you and you just label me indiscriminately in front of him.

Before Zhou Chen could speak, Chen Xing smiled and said, "Let's go, don't make my aunt wait."

Li Ting turned to Chen Xing: "Your aunt?"

Chen Xing suddenly realized: "So you don't know, my uncle has a date."

Zhou Chen nodded: "Well, I have a partner."

Li Ting smiled awkwardly and stood up: "That's right."

Chen Xing waved cordially: "Goodbye, sister."

Zhou Chen:······

As soon as the two went out, Chen Xing looked around, hooked Zhou Chen's neck and kissed him, seeing the obvious strawberry marks on Zhou Chen's neck, he smiled triumphantly: "This way others will know that you have a date."

Zhou Chen touched his neck and asked helplessly, "How old are you?"

"Three years old, no more." Chen Xing stretched out three fingers and waved them in front of Zhou Chen.

Zhou Chen pinched Chen Xing's face: "Where do you want to go?"

"Let's go to the playground?"

"Let's go."

Standing under the roller coaster, Chen Xing looked at Zhou Chen with sparkling eyes. The corners of Zhou Chen's mouth twitched, and he said with difficulty: "Play this?"

Chen Xing nodded earnestly: "Let's just play with this."

Zhou Chen's face turned red and turned white. Looking at the unknown object swooping down in front of him, and hearing the heart-piercing screams in the air, he closed his eyes and said calmly, "I Afraid of heights."

The air became quiet in an instant, and for a long time, Chen Xing's suppressed laughter spread into his ears intermittently, and finally Chen Xing couldn't stand up laughing, leaning on Zhou Chen's body and shaking from laughing.

Zhou Chen held his shoulders and said helplessly, "Is it funny?"

Chen Xing stopped and nodded seriously: "It's funny, then we won't play this, what do you want to play?"

Sitting on the merry-go-round, Chen Xing felt that his whole life was gloomy for a moment, and his 17-year embarrassment was lost under the gaze of the children and parents around him.Looking at Zhou Chen who was sitting next to the wooden horse with a bright smile on his face, Chen Xing took a deep breath, and asked Zhou Chen with a stiff smile, "Why do you want to play this?"

Zhou Chen lowered his head when he heard the words, and said with some frustration: "I didn't play it when I was young, it's a pity."

Oops, I accidentally forgot that my boyfriend lacks love, Chen Xing nodded immediately: "I actually like playing this game, it's very interesting."

Zhou Chen shook his head and said softly, "I don't think it's interesting, just like a mentally retarded person."

Chen Xing: "...Is it interesting to tease me?"

Zhou Chen smiled: "It's more interesting than sitting here."

The sun is just right today, and there are many young couples or a family of three in the playground. Chen Xing leans on Zhou Chen's shoulder and eats ice cream. Zhou Chen feels cold when he sees it, and stops him: "Don't eat it, It's too cold."

Chen Xing casually said: "I want to eat." As soon as the words fell into his hands, Zhou Chen took the things in his hands. Chen Xing was dumbfounded as he watched Zhou Chen eat half of the ice cream in two or three bites, and smiled at him with narrowed eyes : "It's pretty cool."

Chen Xing was stunned: "If you don't want me to eat it, you can just throw it away. Why do you eat it yourself?"

Zhou Chen wiped his mouth and looked calm: "I want to eat too."

The sunlight in front of him was suddenly blocked, and two shadows were pressed down. Chen Xing raised his eyes, and two slender girls stood in front of him with smiles on their faces. One of them looked at Chen Xing and said openly: "Handsome guy , can you leave a WeChat account?"

Chen Xing glanced at another girl, she was looking at Zhou Chen intentionally or unintentionally, Chen Xing raised his eyebrows and smiled, hooked Zhou Chen's neck, pulled away the scarf to show them the mark, and said softly, "Did you see, my dear."

"Sorry to bother you, I wish you happiness."

The two girls looked excited, their faces turned a little red, and after turning around, they suppressed their excitement and said all into Chen Xing's ears: "Look, I'll just say they are a couple, oh my god, they really match each other. "

Chen Xing smiled maliciously, and poked Zhou Chen's waist: "Did you hear that, we deserve good looks and vision."

Zhou Chen grabbed Chen Xing's hand, leaned over to Chen Xing's ear, his hot breath swept over Chen Xing's ear, and said in an ambiguous tone, "Your kidney is broken, what can I do to make you feel good?"

Chen Xing's face turned red, but he didn't know what to say. Zhou Chen, who is usually serious, could still deal with it, but when he spoke a yellow accent, he was at a loss, and couldn't even say a smooth, flirty word. come out.

Zhou Chen looked at him sideways, with affectionate brows and smiles on his lips, gentle and humble, with the appearance of a gentleman.

Chen Xing said word by word: "Zhou Chen, you have led me into trouble."

Zhou Chen laughed loudly and said, "Why is it broken, let's talk about it."

"It's getting more and more impure."

"That's it, I like it."

Chen Xing insisted on taking a roller coaster ride, but Zhou Chen couldn't say no to him, so he stood below and watched Chen Xing go up.The car swooped down from a high place, and then circled up again. It went back and forth several times, and Zhou Chen felt dizzy just looking at it from below.

When Chen Xing came over, he had messy hair on his head. Zhou Chen looked at him amusedly, and stretched out his hands to help him to press down the curled strands of hair. Chen Xing let him brush his hair, standing in front of Zhou Chen and laughing. Bending his eyes: "Did you hear what I just yelled above?"

Zhou Chen: "What do you think, so many people are crying and howling, and they are so far apart, do you think I can hear you?"

Chen Xing looked into his eyes intently, and said solemnly, "Zhou Chen, I like you."

Zhou Chen was taken aback for a moment, then laughed softly: "I know."

"But they don't know."

"Ok?"

"The people sitting next to me don't know, the people who walk in front of you don't know, and the people who pass by in our lives, they don't know."

Chen Xing put his chin on Zhou Chen's shoulder and said softly, "But I want them to know, Zhou Chen, will you marry me?"

Chen Xing couldn't wait for Zhou Chen's response, so he stretched out his hand to pull Zhou Chen's sleeve, pondered for a while, and said, "Then you marry me?"

This time Zhou Chen finally laughed lightly, turned his head and kissed his hair, and said in a low voice, "Okay."

No matter marry you or marry you, as long as it is you.I like you too, I like the kind I like very much, good you, bad you, I will take it all, thinking that all you will be printed with my mark, marking that this person is mine, it is Zhou Chen Chen Xing's, not someone else's.

It was twelve o'clock when we left the playground, and Chen Xing dragged Zhou Chen to the shopping mall again, with such earnestness as if he wanted to go to all the places he hadn't been to for more than ten years.

"Zhou Chen, let's buy couple clothes." Chen Xing asked Zhou Chen with a dark blue coat in his hand.

Zhou Chen bent his lips and smiled: "Okay."

"Buy two more scarves."

"it is good."

In the end, Chen Xing stopped in front of the watch counter, tilted his head and asked Zhou Chen, "Let's buy a pair of watches, they're not expensive."

Zhou Chen still nodded with a smile.

While walking on the road with his things, Chen Xing asked Zhou Chen: "Why do you agree to buy whatever I say?"

Zhou Chen replied to him seriously: "Didn't you ask me to marry you, this is a bride price."

Chen Xing said with some regret: "If I had known earlier, I would have brought more things."

"I'll have plenty of time in the future, so I can say whatever I like, anyway, I probably can't afford it. Your husband is too poor, so take care of it in the future."

Chen Xing smiled slyly, grabbed Zhou Chen's neck and whispered softly in his ear: "Mr.

Zhou Chen hurriedly covered his mouth, the roots of his ears were already red, and said in a low voice, "Call me when you go home."

Chen Xing, who had succeeded in his tricks, rolled his eyes and stuck out the tip of his tongue to lick Zhou Chen's palm. Zhou Chen shook involuntarily, but didn't let go of his hand. He asked Chen Xing: "Do you know what I'm doing now?" Which line did you remember?" Before Chen Xing could react, he squinted his eyes and suppressed the bright smile in his eyes, but his voice was full of laughter: "You smug monkey."

"Whose family?"

"My family."

An Audi A6L was parked at the gate of the school, and the students coming and going looked into the window intentionally or unintentionally.When Chen Xing walked in front of the Audi, the car door opened. Han Ya was wearing a bright red windbreaker with hem down to her ankles and curly hair. She looked like she was in her early 30s.

Han Ya hurriedly called Chen Xing: "Xiao Xing, please stop."

Chen Xing paused. He really didn't expect his mother to be in the car. The students next to him consciously walked around the car, and some even stopped to watch the movement.

Chen Xing put his hands in his trouser pockets, and turned around slowly to look at Han Ya. Han Ya hurriedly stepped forward to hold Chen Xing's hand: "Xiaoxing, mom is here to talk to your teacher about your going abroad."

Chen Xing looked at his mother who lowered his head, and smiled with the corners of his mouth: "Then go talk, why are you waiting for me here?"

Han Ya was speechless for a while, and could only look at Chen Xing in a daze. Chen Xing bent down, looked at Han Ya at the same level, looked at the woman in front of him indifferently, and said lightly for a long time, "Because you don't know what grade I am in this year. You don't know what class I'm in, you don't know who my head teacher is, am I right?"

Han Ya also felt ashamed in her heart, and hurriedly argued: "Mom used to be too busy with work, now you and mom are going abroad, okay, mom will accompany you in the future."

Chen Xing tilted his head and smiled: "Then what if I want you to stay here with me?"

Han Ya faltered: "Why do you want to stay here, can't you go with your mother, there is nothing good here."

Chen Xing's face turned cold in an instant: "I just don't want to stay with you, I feel uncomfortable, you go, the farther the better, I don't want to see you again, really."

Chen Xing looked at Han Ya's astonished face, looked at the tears in the crumbling eye sockets, this was his biological mother, but it was strange, he didn't feel distressed at all, and even had a trembling excitement and pleasure, transmitted from his brain Limbs and bones all over.

Why do people have to be so selfish? Han Ya is, and so is she. Han Ya is unwilling to abandon her partner and her comfortable life, but she is unwilling to abandon Zhou Chen and the love he loves like life. love.People are like this. It is human instinct to think about themselves. Even if we know it clearly, why do we still feel so uncomfortable? It seems that we have never been firmly chosen, but we have always been given up by others for various reasons. This feeling is really terrible, so I told Zhou Chen over and over again not to want me, otherwise, no one in this world would really want me.

Chen Xing looked coldly at Han Ya's tears, which could no longer be held back, and big tears fell down.

You should cry, because this time, I don't want you.

Han Ya slowly squatted down against the car door, and hurriedly grabbed Chen Xing's sleeve, sobbing badly: "Xiaoxing, don't, don't do this, mom, it will be very difficult."

Chen Xing lowered his head and looked at the woman's trembling shoulders. He suddenly remembered that when the kindergarten was over, Han Ya would wait outside the school gate with her bicycle like other parents, and would smile gently at herself when she came out. , I drove myself through the old streets, and I would grab Han Ya's clothes on the back of the bicycle and watch her back be coated with warm gold by the setting sun. At that time, she also called herself Xiaoxing. Her dress is not as fashionable as it is now, but why does he seem to like her more at that time? He misses the conscientious mother in his memory.

Chen Xing knelt down and wiped away Han Ya's tears carefully. Han Ya stared at him with wide eyes, but his eyes did not meet Han Ya's eyes. He just talked to himself in a voice that Han Ya had never heard before. past tenderness:

"When you go to the United States, you have to live a good life. You have to take a good look at the person you marry. Don't look like your ex-husband. He wants to treat you well and make you happy. You have another child. Then you don't have to be so busy. You Teach him to sing nursery rhymes, tell him stories, and be with him well. Not every child is as disobedient as me. You must educate him well, give him all your love, and learn to be a child. Good mother. Don't come to see me anymore, I won't see you, because I hate you, please, don't bother me in the future. "

After Chen Xing finished speaking, he stood up, and the last trace of blood on Han Ya's face disappeared. He just looked up at his son blankly. How could he say such heartbreaking words in such a calm manner?

Chen Xing's warm voice sounded above Han Ya's head: "Mom, I'm leaving."

The things in her hands disappeared, Han Ya watched Chen Xing's back gradually shrink, and finally squeezed into the crowd, and could not be found again.Han Ya grabbed the car door and stood up slowly, lowering her head weakly. She owed Chen Xing, owed him a good mother, and owed him a happy family. She was absent from Chen Xing's entire youth. Now, Chen Xing does not give a chance Well, she seemed to have disappointed Chen Xing too many times.

Chen Xing straightened his back and strode into the school gate.His face was calm, but his mind was in a mess. He pushed Han Ya out of his life with his own hands. With such a firm attitude, only he knew how scared and reluctant he was.But he can no longer hold on to hope, he doesn't want to hurt himself anymore, he has enough disappointment, and it's time to leave.

The author has something to say: I am a single dog, and I have endured the unbearable sweetness of life...

Why is my brother Chen so distressing?