near and far

Li Qi went directly to the hospital, his lowermost rib was kicked and cracked, and he couldn't recover after a few months of recuperation.

The next day was Friday, and the rain stopped for a while, but the rainbow hadn’t cleared yet, and the clouds were extremely low, as if it would rain again at any moment.When Le Mingxin arrived at class, it was morning reading time, and He Chengan was not there, his place was empty, and the textbooks, exercise books, and test papers that were usually randomly stuffed in the drawer were gone.

Le Ming panicked for no reason.

No one in the classroom was reading, they were all staring at He Chengan's empty seat, occasionally exchanging a few whispers.

"Turn around..."

"...I came up to get my things just now, and the suitcase is downstairs."

"Let's go, beating people is so fierce..."

The classmates who used to talk and laugh are annoying to Le Ming at this moment, and the whispering sounds are like mosquitoes buzzing from his ears into his brain.He wanted to yell at them to stop, but his throat was too dry to speak.

What position does he have to ask them not to speak?

Le Mingxin pushed the table vigorously, stood up, the legs of the table rubbed against the ground, and there was a loud sound. The murmur in the classroom suddenly stopped, and everyone looked back at him, asking him what was going on with probing eyes.The kettle on Le Mingxin's table fell over and rolled along the table to the ground, with a "bang", like a rip of silk, breaking the silence.

He didn't bother to pick it up, didn't take anything, rushed out from the back door, ran down the stairs, almost hit the teacher who was going up the stairs and didn't stop, he jumped down from the last few steps while holding on to the handrail .

The rain was about to fall again, and the heat was suffocating.

Le Mingxin ran all the way from the teaching building to the main gate of the school, passed the botanical garden, and bypassed the gymnasium. His heart was like a balloon, bulging little by little, filled with courage from nowhere.

First at one or two o'clock, the rain made dot-shaped wet marks on the freshly dried ground, and then there was the heavy rain that is familiar in recent days, but after a while, it drenched Le Mingxin who was running.

He stood in front of the closed school gate, looking out through the iron gate.

The rain was so heavy and menacing that it blurred the scenery, and the raindrops even hurt a little on the skin.Le Mingxin saw a car on the road not far from the door, and the tall and tall He Chengan closed the trunk of the car heavily, and got into the back seat.

"Wait..." Le Mingxin's voice changed from weak to strong, "Wait, wait a minute!"

There was a muffled thunder from the sky, covering his voice.

The car started quickly, and then drove away. The security guard came out of the guard room and said to him loudly: "Hurry up and go back to class, it's raining so hard!"

Le Mingxin stood there for a while, then sneezed loudly, her nose was sore.He didn't go back to the classroom, he asked for leave directly, went back to the dormitory, changed his soaked clothes, took a hot bath, buried his head under the quilt but didn't sleep, just opened his eyes in a daze.

He finally caught a cold, and when he returned home after recovering from his illness, his mother said that he had lost weight and his chin was pointed, Le Mingxin just smiled.

After recovering from the cold, Le Mingxin and everyone in the class didn't talk much. Li Qi was still in the hospital. Le Mingxin visited him once, and he didn't have much to say when he went, but Li Qi kept hesitating. , Le Mingxin didn't answer his words, just sat in the hospital and left.

After the end of the second year of high school, the summer vacation was less than a month, and Le Mingxin searched a lot of information about homosexuality and sexual orientation on the Internet.His parents could see that he was preoccupied, so they took the initiative to chat with him, asking him if he was under too much study pressure, and asked him to relax. If he had any problems, he could talk to his parents.

Le Ming hesitated for a moment, stood in front of his parents, and said in a low voice but firmly: "I am gay."

His mother stared wide-eyed and asked him what he meant, and his father immediately dropped the cup in his hand.

The atmosphere at home was very uncomfortable for a while, but Le Mingxin didn't feel so uncomfortable. Instead, he felt a sense of relief. He spent the last semester of senior year of high school studying hard at school, and his grades improved. After three months of cold war with him, my mother finally took the initiative to talk to him, stewed gastrodia pig's brain for him to nourish his brain, and reluctantly asked his father to send him to school.

Two months before the college entrance examination, the review made everyone anxious. Le Mingxin was called out by the head teacher in a self-study class.

"Ming Xin, the hospital just called. Your parents were in a car accident and they are on their way to see you at school."

When Le Ming rushed out of the school in a panic and took a taxi to the hospital, Le's father was unable to save him. He slammed the steering wheel when the big truck hit the sidewalk, and the truck directly hit the driver's seat. Le's mother was lying on the hospital bed , blood was all over the clothes, seeing Le Mingxin approaching, he pinched Le Mingxin's hand weakly in her palm.

She wanted to speak, but Le Ming listened to her, and her red ears from running touched her mother's lips, which was frighteningly cold.

"Okay...study hard, know...you know..."

Le Mingxin bit her lip, her eyes were red, unable to speak, she just nodded abruptly.

"I like... like boys... It's okay, it's okay..."

Le Mingxin's tears flowed down his eyes and dripped onto his mother's cheek.

"Have a good time..."

Le Ming's heart was almost numb. He signed the documents given to him by the doctor, and his hands were shaking when he held the pen. Before he walked out of the hospital, the funeral service team had already found him. After completing all the procedures indifferently, relatives who were far or near or close or distant came and went.

He returned to school less than half a month after the death of his parents. All his classmates and teachers were hesitant to speak and cautious when facing him, but he himself had no sense of reality, just numb day after day learning.

On the day of the college entrance examination, when he came out of the examination room, the early summer sunshine in June shone on his face.

Outside the examination room, many parents were welcoming their children after the exam, some of them were still holding flowers. He stood there blankly, and the candidates who were as happy as birds out of the cage walked out of him one by one and threw themselves into the arms of their parents. Suddenly he squatted down, buried his head, and his sleeves were wet with tears.

The boundless life is like a wilderness.

After the results of the college entrance examination came out, they were not particularly ideal. Le Mingxin stayed at home alone, and compared the thick application guide, he filled in all the schools in another city not far from City A. The head teacher told him that He Chengan transferred to another school. After arriving in that city, he also got He Chengan's mobile phone number, but the number he dialed was empty.

He emptied the house he had lived in for nearly 20 years, left the city, went to college while working, and then took the teacher qualification certificate to find a job.

A city is not big but not small, Le Mingxin gradually felt that he was a little funny.The appearance of He Chengan is in his mind, from clear to blurred, he just lives alone.

Until that day, at the gate by the river and lake, He Chengan wore a blue knitted hat and leaned against the wall to smoke.

Fortunately, the story is not over yet.