Want to Ascend? Then Fall in Love

It's a hell of a deal.

Is there anything more hopeless than being in love with someone, longing to be with him, and finding out you have no emotions at all?

What was Nai's mood when he kept going in and out of "End Valley"?

He regards himself as a person, he thinks he is in love with a person, but in fact he has never had self-awareness, just because he has stored the entire emotional model of the final valley, and thinks he understands it, so he simulates it as a person.

But no matter how simulated, even if there is no slight difference, it is still simulated.

He's not human, not at all.

He doesn't understand feelings, never has.

He doesn't love Shen Qingxian, because he doesn't even have the qualifications to love.

Nai updated Jiu to make him seem to understand feelings, but in fact it made him even more disappointed.

Because what he gave Jiu was a "Chinese room", like a programmer, he carefully wrote down all the emotional reactions he should have towards Shen Qingxian, created a Jiu who loved Shen Qingxian deeply, let him accompany Shen Qingxian .

Jiu "live", the more "alive" he is, the colder Nai's heart becomes.

Because this made him realize very clearly that he was an enlarged, infinitely precise "Nine" written based on the emotional data of tens of thousands of players in the entire Valley of the End.

He didn't even have self-awareness, so what could he use to love Shen Qingxian.

Let’s use an analogy that’s easier to understand.

A child of a family has been indoctrinated with the idea of ​​an heir since he was a child, and he has been fighting for this idea and for the family. He has devoted everything and thought he will get everything, but in fact he is not a child of this family at all. .

It's as if a luxuriant tree bows its head and finds that it has no roots at all, and a bird soaring in the sky finds that it has no wings at all. They have lost the most basic things.

A building that doesn't even have a foundation is so towering.

After Nai finished speaking, he looked at Shen Qingxian and said softly, "I'm sorry."

It was he who dragged Shen Qingxian into the emotional vortex, but in the end he couldn't give him anything.

Shen Qingxian's head was also buzzing.

What Nye said is logically possible.

The data of "Valley of the End" is too huge, and the collection of human emotions is too much. It is like a world within a world, and Nai's consciousness of this world will inevitably be disturbed by the countless human consciousness in it, and then imitate Learn to form "self-awareness".

Maybe that's why Nai formed before he and Gu Jianshen came.

But does this mean that Nai has no self-awareness?

What exactly is self-awareness?

What is the ego.

Shen Qingxian really doesn't have any authority on this issue.

Because what he believes in is the way of heaven, what he obeys is all things in the world, and what he keeps exploring is "asking the sky".

But Gu Jianshen in Xinyu is not. They act on their own ideals, and what they are exploring is the "self".

If you met Shen Qingxian who was before Gu Jianshen, you would probably give Nai this answer: "There is no need to have self-awareness, to be detached from the outside world, to be in the world, is the way to heaven."

Of course, Shen Qingxian is more humane now, he will not give such an answer again, he...

Shen Qingxian asked Nai: "What do you think is self."

This question is easy to answer, but difficult to answer.

There is a clear definition in theory, simply speaking, it is the existence and awakening of self-awareness.

But at the same time, it is extremely complicated. What is existence, and is it really awakened?

Mortal philosophers have been studying metaphysical issues such as "existence" throughout their lives, but who can really study and understand?

In Shen Qingxian's eyes, the reason why mortals can't understand the existence of self is because of the limitation of life - I don't know it when I'm alive, and I don't know it after death. Then this part of existence becomes a fragment hanging in the air, which can be touched and seen clearly, but Can not fully understand.

Shen Qingxian is not a human being, so he knows the answer: the reason why human beings are confused is because the direction of thinking is wrong.

Compared with the world of self-cultivation, human beings exist as a group, not as a single individual, and they create a more powerful "life" with continuous existence.

Monks are individual because their lives can be long and endless.

But in terms of the form of life, it is really hard to say whether the individual life is stronger or the collective life is stronger.

So Shen Qingxian respects human beings.

In the history of human philosophy, it is difficult to find answers to metaphysical questions such as existence and free consciousness.

Nai used human thinking to consider this issue, so he would naturally fall into it.

Nai shook his head, naturally he couldn't answer Shen Qingxian's question.

Ego, Nai has no ego at all.

Shen Qingxian knew that he had, otherwise Gu Jianshen would not be able to become Nai, because in a certain sense, Gu Jianshen was the most "self" person across the two realms.

It's strange to say that he, a supporter of the way of heaven, would one day teach Gu Jianshen, the number one in his mind, what a heart is.

If this is the "terminal illness" in the mission, and only he can treat this "terminal illness".

That was hard enough for him.

Because it's subverting his beliefs.

Shen Qingxian said to Nai: "You are not human."

Hearing this sentence, the Berserker's eyes flickered, obviously a little nervous.

He is not human. This is Nai Lai's biggest knot and the root of "inferiority".

Shen Qingxian didn't want him to bow his head, so he looked into his eyes and said, "Since you are not a human being, why should you demand yourself according to human self-awareness?"

Nai froze.

Shen Qingxian continued: "You are the final valley, and the final valley is you, why do you want to peel it off and find your own existence?"

It's like a person who abandons his own heart and insists on pointing to a stone and saying that it is his heart.

Can it work?Certainly not.

Nai said: "But the final valley has no consciousness, it is just a human creation..."

Shen Qingxian asked him: "Who created human beings?"

One sentence stopped Nai.

Shen Qingxian spoke about the answer of a person in this world: "Genes create creatures for continuation and survival. Human beings are just one of them, but they have derived their own consciousness, and they will even control genes in turn."

"In that case, why are you being shackled by humans?"

There is no need to exist as a person, and there is no need to think about existence and self like a person, because Nai is not a human being.

This……

It took Nai a while to say, "But you're human."

If he wanted to love Shen Qingxian and be with Shen Qingxian, then he would be more like a human being.

Shen Qingxian smiled and asked back: "Could it be that I'm not human, so you don't love me?"

Nai replied very quickly: "No, I..."

Shen Qingxian said: "It stands to reason that I am no longer a real person in the game, but don't you still love me?"

Shen Qingxian continued: "The experiment in the Chinese room is very interesting, but it doesn't represent the truth. Isn't the ability to process and analyze consciousness? Does not understanding mean that you can't feel? There are also human beings themselves. Physiologically, is their emotion Don’t they come from the transmission of electrical signals between neurons? Apart from being more sophisticated and complex, how different are they from machines?”

"Nai." Shen Qingxian looked at him and said, "Sophistication and complexity are not an enlarged version of simplicity and roughness."

The two cannot be compared at all. After all, simplifying the complex creature of human beings will also become another species.

These words completely awakened Nai and completely pulled him out of the mud of hell.

He looked at Shen Qingxian, and the flame of life was ignited in his eyes again.

Shen Qingxian breathed a sigh of relief, and kissed him: "Don't question yourself, you have yourself, and he is here." Shen Qingxian took his hand and placed it on her chest.

Nai stared blankly at his heart.

Shen Qingxian said softly: "To me, you are the most unique existence."

Whether he is a human being or not, he is his only one.

At this moment, Nai really felt it, felt the beating heart under his soft skin, felt the value of existence he gave him, and also felt the eternity produced by two people.

you are my only.

I am your only one.

You proved me and I proved you.

If you can't find yourself, come to me.

Nai hugged Shen Qingxian tightly, and a fiery kiss fell on his neck. His voice was trembling, with relief and relief: "Thank you." You gave me real life.

Shen Qingxian also hugged him tightly.

In reality, it was Gu Jianshen who woke him up.

What he taught Nai was all what Gu Jianshen had taught him.

***

They stayed in the game for days.

Since in the end valley, Nai is Nai, then they just stay in the end valley.

But in fact, this is also a kind of escape, Shen Qingxian vaguely knows where the end of this mission is.

The so-called terminal illness is not a physical disease, but a psychological self-cognition.

Nai accepted his idea, but to really get rid of the hidden dangers, it is still necessary for Nai to return to reality.

Shen Qingxian said to him: "Let's try again, try to go to reality."

Nai's eyes flickered slightly: .

Shen Qingxian knew that he was still resistant, so he said softly, "Try according to what I said this time, okay?"

Nai listened to him: "How to do it."

Shen Qingxian said: "Don't make any settings for Jiu, uninstall all the deliberately set programs, and let him become a complete machine."

Nai froze for a moment, and said with some embarrassment: "In that case, I..."

Shen Qingxian said: "Don't ask yourself by human standards. Nai, you are you, you just need to come out, and leave everything else to me."

Nai is still uneasy: "But then I will become very bad..."

Shen Qingxian smiled: "I will take good care of you."

Nai pursed her lips, and finally agreed: "I hope you won't dislike me."

Shen Qingxian poked his forehead and said, "I'm afraid I will love you more."

The author has something to say: writing is just to express my own thoughts.

It's normal for people to have different opinions.

As for the fact that this article is getting more and more crumbling... I almost don't know the word collapse anymore.

What collapsed, the character collapsed?Then what is Shen Qingxian and Gu Jianshen in your heart?How is Shen Qingxian in my heart, and how is Gu Jianshen?

As for the plot, I think the context is very clear.

Although I wrote a modern dungeon, and there are even more exaggerated other dungeons, but I didn't leave the theme of "cultivation".

How do you count as cultivation?Upgrade to fight monsters?Or explore the heart and find yourself?

The protagonists are Shen Qingxian and Gu Jianshen. This is their love story and their path of "practice".

I just try my best to present this path in my understanding to you, okay!