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There are six full volumes, starting from April 1996 to July 2005, 7, which is the last one.It's mid-August.

Lin Sen was holding a box of diaries, and sat on the ground in a daze, without moving for a long time.

How are you feeling?Shock?no.To be honest, after reading these diaries of Si Lan, Lin Sen faintly felt that many things that confused him before had been explained, such as why he cried and refused to let him live in school when he graduated from junior high school, and why he was never allowed to touch him. Why did he change his address from Lin Sen to elder brother, and why his father was so kind and inexplicably agreed to his college entrance examination application.Regarding Si Lan's intentions, Lin Sen was not shocked when he knew about it, but instead heard a small voice shouting from a secret corner, which should have been like this in the first place.

But then, Lin Sen really felt distressed.

There are six thick diaries in his hand, with strokes of pen and ink. Si Lan's handwriting is elegant and elegant, with a hint of aloofness, but also very fragile, and it will break when folded.Lin Sen thought, what was Si Lan's mood when writing these diaries? Did his hands shake? Did he cry when he begged his father? Did your heart break into pieces at the time, and when you made up your mind to go to Sichuan, did you take out your mobile phone and expect someone's information before boarding the plane?

Didn't I already know that Si Lan next to me is a stubborn and proud person who is a bit stubborn, but in places where he can't see, he has forced himself to such a point.

The point where I can't take it anymore.

Lin Sen suddenly remembered that before he packed his luggage and went to Beijing, his father said: Don't regret it.

Lin Sen just sat there like this, flipping through the diary while thinking about the past, laughing out loud when he saw something funny, and sometimes Si Lan frowned in distress, and the sky gradually darkened.

In the end, Lin Sen suddenly remembered Si Lan's last diary entry, which seemed to say, I'm going to give up on you.

His heart sank heavily, and the diary in his hand slammed on the ground.

Si Lan didn't know at all that Lin Sen had read her diary from beginning to end within a month after she made up her mind to seal it up.Indeed, under normal circumstances, Lin Sen would never open a locked cabinet in the studio.

For two full months, Si Lan and his grandfather planted flowers and birds, and took the neighbor's younger sister over a small ridge to the town to go to the market every week.People in the country go to bed early, and after eight o'clock, there are not many houses in the whole village with lights. At this time, Si Lan sits by the well in the yard and looks at the sky, the earth, and the darkness. Don't think about Lin Sen anymore.

It turned out that after exhausting all his efforts, he only got such a result. He found out thoroughly that he could not forget him.Si Lan always felt a deep sense of powerlessness in his heart at this time, and depression and confusion would also emerge at the same time.

As the holiday draws to a close, Si Lan has booked a train ticket to go directly to school from her grandfather's house. By then, she will be in the same city as Lin Sen. She originally wanted to avoid it when she was taking the college entrance examination, but in front of her father, she couldn't give up the last good school and go elsewhere.

When Si Lan was packing his luggage that day, grandpa suddenly walked in and sat beside him, and asked him lukewarmly, "Si Lan, do you have other reasons for coming to grandpa's place besides improving your health?"

Si Lan was taken aback, and the matter in hand also stopped.

"Is it an emotional problem?" Grandpa continued to ask.

Si Lan was taken aback, and immediately calmed down again, thinking that he was so obvious.Facing the grandfather who didn't know the details, Si Lan didn't want to lie, and honestly admitted that he was.

Grandpa invited Si Lan to sit next to him, and the old god asked, "What's going on, please tell me roughly."

Si Lan thought, how can I put it roughly?So he opened his mouth and became: unrequited love for a person, he doesn't know, and this person, he knows, will definitely be opposed by his parents.Saying this way, it's not a lie, I didn't say that I fell in love with a woman.

Grandpa didn't go into details, just asked: "I've been thinking about it for two months, but I still haven't figured it out, can't let it go?"

Si Lan nodded, his face turned red for some reason.

Grandpa sighed, and said, "You are exactly the same as your mother. When you face this kind of problem, you lose all your wits. You just know how hard you are to get into a dead end, and you can see how miserable you are. Si Lan , Grandpa didn't persuade your mother back then, because he knew he couldn't persuade you, and grandpa doesn't persuade you now, but there is a saying, I told your mother back then, and I will tell you now, that is, look away, let go, and follow the fate The most rare thing in a person's life is nothing more than this."

After the grandfather finished speaking, he went out on his own, leaving Si Lan in a state of complete confusion.

As far as the six words "grandpa" are concerned, Si Lan pondered for several days, until the report was about to be made, and he barely figured it out.Look away, it's to admit my heart, honestly admit that I really fell in love with him, and no matter how I dodge, I can't escape my heart.Letting go means no longer taking your love as your burden. Falling in love with him is not a matter of who is right or who is wrong. You don’t have to live in shackles like a sinner. Give true love.And resignation, I know that I love him, this is a fact to me, but it is nothing to him, I will not tell him and I will not feel that he owes me anything, I hope he can do everything Go with your heart, get the happiness he wants, if this happiness is related to me, then I am happy, if it is only his and others' happiness, then fate is destined, I have no other choice but to bless.

With these few words, Si Lan started his college life and came to the city where Lin Sen had already arrived before him.

The author has something to say: I was hospitalized some time ago, and I have been speechless for a long time.

The article will be finished within three days, because I haven't been back to school for a long time now, and there are too many things to do, so I can't focus on it all.