after death strike

In particular, the live barrage seems to be young people who are not very old, and the remarks made are all in a joking tone, as if this is just a show and nothing else.No matter what the other party's original intention was, it has already had a negative impact.

If it is said that Li Zhizhi was only thinking of looking for "the same kind" before, but at this moment, he felt a strong sense of resistance for no reason, wishing that he had nothing to do with this person.

Dragons have reverse scales, and what Li Zhizhi hates the most in his life is none other than this.

When he didn't understand what death was, he experienced the sudden death of his parents.The successive deaths of his grandparents deepened his definition of death.

If possible, Li Zhizhi would not want any life in the world to disappear, but birth, old age, sickness and death are such a natural and heavy thing that no one can predict and no one can refuse.

It had been a long time since Li Zhizhi felt such a severe sense of depression.The more he thought about it, the angrier he became, his brows were furrowed, and there were even blue veins on the back of his hand that was holding the mouse tightly. He sat on the sofa as if facing an enemy, with his back straight.

"Know it?"

Ah Wang, who came out to pour water, glanced habitually at the figure on the sofa, and immediately sensed that his state was not right at the moment, put down the water glass, walked to him and sat down next to him. "What's wrong? It's okay, it's okay..."

Ah Wang coaxed in a warm voice, and at the same time gently embraced the man who was in a strange state into his arms.

"I'm so angry, but I can't do anything." Li Zhizhi buried his head on his shoulder, and his muffled voice came through the clothes.He wrung his hands together, clenched and relaxed constantly, looking very restless. "I can't do it, I can't do it, I can't do anything!"

His hand moved back and forth, Ah Wang naturally noticed it, and immediately stretched out his hand to restrain him, lest he hurt himself.He held Li Zhizhi's hand with two hands respectively, with gentle force but did not allow him to break free.Ah Wang looked at his somewhat empty eyes, and said softly: "What happened? Can you tell me?"

"..." Li Zhizhi glanced at him blankly, then began to mutter again, obviously caught in his own emotions, completely unable to understand what he said.

In fact, this person's illness has not relapsed for a long time.In retrospect, the last time this happened was when they were in junior high school.At that time, Li Zhizhi was even more difficult to deal with than now, and their relationship was not that good, but he kept trying to approach him proactively.He had severe depression, with severe anxiety and self-harm, and any little detail that was wrong could send him out of control.It's like a small dot on the glass, which will be magnified into an unfathomable black hole in his eyes.Every time when he loses control of his emotions, it is Ah Wang who holds him and coaxes him to prevent him from hurting himself.If Ah Wang hadn't taken him to see a doctor and take medicine in those three years, there might have been no such person as Li Zhizhi long ago.

A disease that has been cured obviously, why does it happen again?Ah Wang's thoughts were chaotic and complicated, but he didn't show any on his face, his calm and reliable gaze was watching Li Zhizhi gently, and at the same time he kept talking to attract his attention.

After a lot of effort, Li Zhizhi became calmer under his comfort, but his face was still paler than before, and his lips were trembling, looking at him made Ah Wang feel extremely distressed.

Li Zhizhi forced a smile, stretched out his finger and pointed under the TV cabinet. "... There is medicine there."

Although he didn't know if the medicine would still work on a dead person, he still had to try it.

After drinking water and taking the medicine, he leaned on the sofa and slowly calmed down his breathing.Ah Wang sat aside, with a trace of disbelief and sadness mixed in his serious expression.

"... When did Zhizhi start taking medicine?" He endured and endured, and finally he clenched his fists and asked.

Li Zhizhi held his forehead wearily.He kept this matter from the other party all the time, just not wanting him to know that he was too worried after his depression relapsed, but he still couldn't keep the secret from him. "Probably... three or four months ago." He struggled to recall, and it took him a while to answer. "Just mildly."

"Why didn't you tell me?!"

Well done again, Ah Wang.

Li Zhizhi smiled wryly, and didn't look at the person who was already trembling with anger.His eyes deliberately drifted to the other side: "I don't want you to worry." Although he said it with a guilty conscience, it was completely true.

This night, the two had an awkward fight again.Ah Wang was angry, but the guilty Li Zhizhi knew he was wronged, so he didn't dare to explain anything to him, and even hid in his room to avoid him.

He could understand Ah Wang's mood very well, it must be a deep regret like the sea.Because both he and Ah Wang knew that if Ah Wang had discovered that his depression had relapsed at that time, then he might still be alive in this world now, instead of "living" so uselessly.

But before Ah Wang went to work in the morning, he still came to knock on his door, stood outside the door and said "I'm leaving" before closing the door and leaving.

Li Zhizhi woke up early, huddled under the blanket and listened to his plain voice, followed by the sound of closing the door, as if it hit his heart hard.

Well, what can he do?He has never been a person who will take the initiative to give in, and he will never regret anything he has done, even death.From this point of view, he is almost no different from that idiot who self-proclaimed suicide.

We can only wait for Ah Wang to calm down.

Li Zhizhi irresponsibly dumped all the blame on another person, while he heartlessly put aside these troubles and sat up to play with his mobile phone.

In this era of Internet marketing, information dissemination is almost explosively fast.Even if the existence is consciously erased, there will still be a trace of it.Just as Li Zhizhi thought, one plus one is greater than two. After that idiot forced himself to broadcast suicide so many times, he was finally mentioned again by a marketing account with more fans.

This time it wasn't just a few thousand retweets. The hashtag "Self-Broadcasted Suicide" immediately jumped to the top of the hot search list. Although it was forcibly taken down within half an hour, the discussion among netizens seemed to explode, and it couldn't be stopped no matter what.In addition to scarves, there are also many discussion posts on various forums, and everyone knows about it in just one night.

Li Zhizhi fell asleep after taking the medicine last night, and missed the opportunity of everyone's hot discussion.When he woke up in the morning, many of these sensitive discussions were deleted, leaving only some less damaging ones.

He hastily read a few and didn't want to read any more.Netizens' comments on this person were almost the same as those in the barrage. Some watched the show curiously, some thought it was a hype, some insulted him, and some, as Li Zhizhi thought, whitewashed him.

"Why didn't you call the police?"

"Watching the live broadcast, many of the bullet screens were scolding him to die quickly. At that time, I was frightened by the indifference of these people, and I had no sympathy at all."

"If a person has not experienced great pain, it is impossible for him to choose to commit suicide. Since he chose to live broadcast, he is asking us for help, so we should not scold him, but save him!"

"A living human life! Why didn't you persuade him then?"

Li Zhizhi frowned at the Holy Mother's answer like this, and the irritability in his heart burst out all of a sudden.There are even some teenagers and girls in the second grade who post self-harm photos to support each other, which is incredible.He deliberately ignored these remarks and only focused on the controversial points of netizens.

It seems that most people don't know that this person has committed suicide many times, and the controversy is mostly about whether to save a person who wants to commit suicide.There is also a small group of netizens who have sorted out the ins and outs of the whole incident, trying to pick up the flesh of the suicidal anchor, but found nothing.

The live broadcast account used by the other party was blocked by the website, and only a public ID was left, which was worthless; and he kept covering his face during the live broadcast, and even wore the same clothes every time, which really could not provide any benefits clues.

Li Zhizhi didn't care much about this.

If that person is out for fame, then his purpose has been achieved.Regardless of whether he died or not, he will definitely appear again later.

Heh, Li Zhizhi raised the corners of his mouth with a bland smile, what to do, he doesn't want to pay attention to this matter at all now, if he gets mad again, it will be his own fault.

He was about to delete the two unwatched recorded videos saved in the hard disk, when the phone rang suddenly, and the vibration caught his attention.

The caller ID is "a bark".Li Zhizhi looked at these words with complicated emotions, they were his remarks to Ah Wang.Didn't we quarrel?Why did I call him after only a short walk, my mood was not settled yet, I was a little embarrassed, what should I do if I didn't want to answer.

No matter how fluctuating in his heart, Li Zhizhi finally pressed the call button.

"Hello? What's wrong?"

"Do you know what's going on at noon?"

Listening to the other party's normal tone, it seemed to be a secret signal to remind him to close the matter, but Li Zhizhi, who was guilty, didn't dare to speak, and only hesitated in response.

"If you have nothing to do, come to my place at noon. I just asked someone about the matter Zhizhi asked yesterday, and the other party said they could help."

Hearing this, Li Zhizhi's spirit was lifted, and his tone became excited. "Yeah?"

"Ah."

"Then I'll go find you at noon." As expected of Ah Wang, his ability to do things really beats ten of himself.Li Zhizhi couldn't hide his excitement, and regardless of the small awkwardness in his heart, he praised him happily on the phone. "Awang is amazing!"

"--as long as you are happy."

There was a slight smile in the familiar voice, and for some reason, Li Zhizhi's heart throbbed.He only attributed this to the fact that the other party's voice was softer than usual, and he didn't take it to heart.

"Do you know the way? If you don't, I'll go back and pick you up."

Li Zhizhi quickly refused. "No, no, didn't I go there last time?" He was referring to a time when he happened to be on vacation and Ah Wang worked overtime. It was rare that Ah Wang left the documents at home, so he kindly sent them to the other party.

Their family's company is really big, with dozens of floors, Li Zhizhi can't forget the top even if he looks up in front of the magnificent door.It was only at that time that he had the real feeling that the friends around him were the rich second generation.

Mingming has always been by her side like a good wife and mother.

The author has something to say: Li Zhizhi: Is it okay for me to have so many problems? ?How can this let me go out to flirt with girls? ?

Ah Wang: (seriously) Don’t flirt with girls

Li Zhizhi: If you don't flirt with a girl, who will you flirt with?

Ah Wang: (nods seriously)