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When he returned to the dormitory, Pei Yanyu's mind was still in a mess.

Sitting at the desk, he couldn't think of Han Li's face, but inexplicably thought of the boy who was with him frequently.Is that really his friend, or his guest?No matter which answer it was, Pei Yanyu felt that he was extremely ridiculous at this moment.

Not only is it ridiculous at this moment, but even myself watering the daisy shoots in the morning is equally ridiculous.

What's even more absurd is that in the last message Han Li sent him, he told him to go home first after get off work.

"go home"?Pei Yanyu felt that he was living in an absurd comedy story, he was amused like a clown, he seemed so unaware.

This was the second time he had met Han Li with other people on the street. No matter who those people were, Pei Yanyu only knew that when Han Li was with them, it was not much different from when he was with him.

If it were before they dated, Han Li would have been like that, but he is still like that now.Perhaps in a place other than "home", Han Li fell in love with countless and different people. From this point of view, the so-called "home" is really an ironic place and a dramatic stage.

Because of this matter, Pei Yanyu had a headache the whole night.

There seemed to be something wrong with the exhaust system in the public bathroom. When taking a shower, Pei Yanyu stayed in it for a long time, and felt difficult to breathe, and almost suffocated in the cubicle.

Back in the dormitory, he sat in a daze, completely unable to summon up energy to do anything.

He wanted to ask for a day off from the tutoring family, but he thought that he only got his tutor's salary this week, so it would be inappropriate to ask for leave just like that, so he decided to persevere.

Heart disease is not a disease, Pei Yanyu thought to himself, maybe he would not be so depressed if he found something else to do.

Maybe he had to talk to Han Li to confirm what was going on between the two of them.But no matter what kind of relationship it was, Pei Yanyu felt very tired and didn't want to continue anymore.

With Han Li, happiness and sadness are always so extreme, making him who has always been stable bumpy.Pei Yanyu even thought cruelly: Since it was because Han Li looked like Du Weiqiu that he had a good impression of him, now that he has let go of Du Weiqiu, naturally he doesn't need to seek comfort from Han Li anymore.Just let it go, he couldn't live a life like Han Li's.

Pei Yanyu pulled himself together, changed his clothes and was about to go out to work.

Before going out, the landline phone in the dormitory, which may not ring once a semester, rang, which surprised him and other roommates.

Pei Yanyu was the closest to the phone, and after picking it up, he asked, "Hello? Hello."

"Hello? Is it Yan Yu?" It was Du Weiqiu, he recognized Pei Yanyu's voice, "Called your cell phone and kept turning it off. Is it not charging?"

Pei Yanyu was taken aback for a moment, and it took him a while to come back to his senses. It turned out that he hadn't turned on his phone since he turned it off in the afternoon.He hurriedly said, "Well, I forgot. I'm about to go out to work, what's wrong?"

"Are you in a hurry? If you are not in a hurry, come to the department hall and take your certificate. I have written it for you and stamped it." Du Weiqiu said apologetically, "I think tomorrow is the weekend, but I won't be here. .If you come tomorrow, I’m afraid I can’t give it to you. If you don’t have time now, I’ll put it on the desk, and you can pick it up yourself when you come.”

Pei Yanyu was surprised that Du Weiqiu was still working overtime in the department hall at such a late hour.He looked at his watch and said after deliberation: "I'll go now."

It was approaching midnight, not only the department hall, but also many street lights leading to the department hall were extinguished.

Walking along the empty corridor, all Pei Yanyu heard was the echo of his footsteps.

At the end of the dark corridor is Du Weiqiu's office, the door is ajar, and white light leaks from the door.

Pei Yanyu knocked on the door, and when he heard Du Weiqiu's answer, he gently pushed the door open and said hello, "Brother Weiqiu."

Under the lamp, Du Weiqiu's face was pale, and his smile looked very tired.Pei Yanyu was astonished to see it, and fragments of uneasiness crept into his heart.

"Just wear this? It's starting to cool down in the early morning." Du Weiqiu waited for him to walk to the desk, gave a look to the hook behind him, and said, "Put that windbreaker on later."

Pei Yanyu quickly shook his head and declined, "It's okay, anyway, I stay indoors at night, so I won't be cold."

"But you have to ride a bike when you come back in the morning." Du Weiqiu cast a look of reproach at him, and insisted, "Go on, don't freeze. I don't want to see people catch a cold again."

These words made Pei Yanyu startled.He waited for Du Weiqiu to find out the proof and materials and return them to himself, guessing and asking: "Master's wife has a cold?"

Du Weiqiu smiled helplessly, sighed and shook his head.

Seeing this, Pei Yanyu knew that he had guessed right.He hesitated for a while, then asked: "But I took the clothes away, how can I return them to you?"

"It's not that we don't see each other anymore. Besides, I don't have this piece of clothing too much." Du Weiqiu gave him a funny look, and then asked with concern, "Have you prepared all the materials for your internship? Last time I told you to apply for insurance research How are you getting ready?"

Pei Yanyu didn't think about it at all, but Du Weiqiu was always worried about his future.Hearing Du Weiqiu's question, Pei Yanyu couldn't help but feel sorry for him for not being motivated.He nodded perfunctorily, trying to put on an honest face, and said, "It's already being prepared."

"That's good. With your grades, it's not a problem to go to the hospital for an internship next year. When you get to the unit, you have to learn from the teachers and ask for advice." Du Weiqiu glanced at the time on the computer, "I won't delay you, go to work."

Pei Yanyu squeezed the materials in his hand, and said gratefully: "Thank you, teacher."

He nodded with a relieved smile, and reminded again: "Take your clothes."

Although Du Weiqiu is very strict occasionally, and he also likes to put on the majesty of an elder in front of Pei Yanyu, but he is always good for Pei Yanyu and always gentle.

Pei Yanyu knew that it was not unreasonable for him to be popular with students, colleagues, and leaders at school. If Pei Yanyu had to point out who was upright and kind in the world, the first thing he would think of would be Du Weiqiu.

Because he was wearing a thick woolen windbreaker, although it was drizzling on the way to work, Pei Yanyu didn't feel cold.

He was just a little worried that the raindrops would damage the material of the windbreaker, and when he came to the convenience store, he carefully wiped the rainwater off with a paper towel.

Du Weiqiu didn't use perfume, and the windbreaker only had the original smell of the material. Pei Yanyu took a closer look and smelled it, and suddenly hoped that Du Weiqiu could have a better life.

As for himself, he has already realized that the relationship between himself and Han Li was wrong from the beginning.

That's not a sin, but it's more than a sin—it's a mistake.

Since Han Li has no intention of staying with him, and he can't bear Han Li's life like this, it's better to settle this mistake as soon as possible and be easy on both of them.

Pei Yanyu thought to himself, maybe it was easy for Han Li from the beginning to the end, and he was the only one who carried the weight.

In the middle of the night, a few women in sexy clothes came to the convenience store. Their faces were covered with rough makeup, which seemed to have been painted in a hurry before going out, and their hair was also random and messy.

Even though it was a winter night, they all had their thighs bare and wore thin high-heeled shoes.

The deserted convenience store was bustling with their arrival in all their glory. Pei Yanyu added soup to their soup for a while, and helped them heat up their boxed lunches for a while. After being busy for a while, he was able to sit down again.

They sat in the dining area chatting cheerfully, talking about men and women, and wages.

Sitting behind the cash register and reading a book, Pei Yanyu already guessed where they came from.They are very knowledgeable, and from time to time, after a burst of laughter, they suddenly quiet down, silent, peeking towards the cashier, and then start talking again.

Pei Yanyu had a headache from their quarreling, so he could only silently hope in his heart that they would leave as soon as possible after eating, so that he could take a nap secretly after tidying up.Unexpectedly, he suddenly heard a harsh name from their mouths, and couldn't help frowning.

"It's really Han Li!" A woman shouted excitedly, "Han Li! Han Li!"

Hearing this, Pei Yanyu was taken aback, and when he looked up, he saw Han Li walking into the store.

Pei Yanyu didn't pay attention to the outside of the store just now, so he thought maybe Han Li just walked out of the hotel opposite.Thinking of this, Pei Yanyu looked at his eyes with a lot of indifference, and suddenly got up and said stiffly: "Welcome."

Those women all knew Han Li and waved to him happily.

Han Li glanced at them coldly, walked to the cash register, and whispered to Pei Yanyu, "Do you have time? Let's talk."

Pei Yanyu looked at him inexplicably, then looked at the group of female guests, and asked amusedly: "Do you think I have time now?"

Seeing his smile, Han Li's expression darkened again.He turned to the group of women and said, "Go out after you finish eating, I have something to tell him."

The women looked at each other in blank amazement.One of them burst into laughter and asked, "Han Li, is he your little boyfriend?"

Han Li said bluntly, "Stop talking so much nonsense, just go out after eating."

"The number one card is amazing, because brother Shitou likes men." The other woman muttered with her small mouth curled up, picked up her handbag and got up.

With her taking the lead, the others packed up their things and left one after another.

When they passed the cash register, they either blew kisses to Pei Yanyu, or verbally teased him, or even took away the chewing gum from the shelf.

Pei Yanyu hurriedly tried to stop them, but Han Li said: "How much is missing, I will pay later."

Hearing his tone, Pei Yanyu couldn't help but sneer, and after seeing Han Li frowning, he also became expressionless.

Han Li sighed, and said, "Can we talk now?"

"I don't want to talk anymore." Pei Yanyu turned the revolving shelf in front of him, counted the chewing gum and small boxes of condoms that had been taken away from it, and said without raising his head, "I'm afraid I owe you a lot of money this month, so take time to check it out." , I will return it to you as soon as possible."

Han Li's heart twitched violently, and he blurted out, "Pei Yanyu!"

Facing Han Li's anger, Pei Yanyu realized that all the psychological work he had done since seeing him in the evening was in vain.He still couldn't calm down, and there was always some inexplicable persistence that made him also be overwhelmed by anger at this moment, and his mind was full of reasons.

Pei Yanyu tried his best to restrain himself, his body trembled because of restraint, and said disappointedly: "I thought we were already dating, didn't we?"

Han Li turned pale, and said slowly but surely, "Yes."

Trembling all over, Pei Yanyu raised his voice and asked, "Then why are you still doing it with others?!"

"I didn't do it with him." Seeing that he had misunderstood, Han Li explained, "I just played with him."

Pei Yanyu was stunned, and almost laughed at this ridiculous explanation.Han Li's figure seemed to dim in front of his eyes for a moment. Pei Yanyu stood firm with his hands on the table, and raised the corners of his mouth mockingly, but couldn't laugh.

"It's a date? Why are you going on a date if you're not a couple?" For a moment, Pei Yanyu couldn't tell whether it was Han Li or himself who was absurd. Waiting for you at home. Who is your boyfriend? Is it me? Why can you perfunctory me and date someone else with peace of mind?!"

Looking at his red eyes, Han Li felt like a lump in his throat.He pursed his lips, his mind went blank, and he could hardly remember what else he could say.He couldn't answer Pei Yanyu's question. Pei Yanyu's questioning was not wrong, he was right, but Han Li couldn't admit that he was wrong.

Pei Yanyu waited for a long time, but Han Li couldn't reply or justify.He sat down dejectedly, and wearily admitted that all this was in vain, the gap between him and Han Li was too deep, no matter which of them took a step forward, it would be an abyss.

"Remember that chair you saw on my phone last time?" Han Li said in a hoarse voice, "It costs 5 yuan. The house I live in, before Han Xiaolian's death, was sold to the present with drug funds. The person who connected me. I want to buy the house back from him, and it will cost a lot of money."

Pei Yanyu had thought of these things a long time ago, but he couldn't figure them out.He couldn't figure out why Han Li insisted on living in it, and why he insisted on restoring the furnishings inside. What's the point of such exhaustion?For the excess self-esteem, or the memory of Han Xiaolian?How much can he miss his mother?However, until now, Han Li was the first person Pei Yanyu had ever met who called his mother by her name directly.

If you can't figure it out, it's not suitable, but Pei Yanyu finds it uncomfortable that he can't let Han Li go for a while.He felt that Han Li's obsession was driving him crazy.

What should he do?Follow Han Li to fill that bottomless pit?Han Li didn't say anything, neither coaxed him nor wooed him, just threw the problem to him like this, as if letting him handle it.

"I understand." Pei Yanyu didn't understand at all. He counted the missing goods and said listlessly, "You go first, let me think about it. I will contact you again, don't worry. I will keep the money , you go, leave me alone."

He sat dejectedly, reminding Han Li of the pot of daisies that had withered for many years.However, the seeds they planted not so long ago have only just sprouted.

Han Li's eyes suddenly became hot, and his nose became sore. He clenched his teeth, and his hands on the table trembled uncontrollably.But Pei Yanyu kept his head down, unwilling to look at him again. Han Li opened his mouth, but nothing came to his lips.