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Even the past, piles of piles, are concise and concise, but there are no omissions, and they are all presented to Peng Xiaoman.The narration itself is a process of relief, and it is unloaded after speaking, which is often the case.

Like this "Friends", it is still a finely edited version.

Here is Peng Xiaoman's first idea of ​​"you will be beaten if you speak out".Press down on this thought, and what follows is full of heartache, pity, and indescribable anger.In Li Yuan's slow and calm narration, he tried to find the starting point of his words, deeds and character step by step.

The family is really a transparent mold, transparent and clean, buckled upside down on top of the children.It does not affect the sun spreading and the moistening of the soil, and even to a certain extent, it has indeed achieved the degree of shelter from wind and rain, and is meticulous.But being confined in such a narrow space of various colors, going round and round for years, no matter what the shape of the mold is, the fruit has to subtly grow along this shape.

"You probably hate them, right?" Peng Xiaoman rested his chin on his shoulder, hugging Li Yuan's forearm.

"I rarely hate people."

"At least I hate your cousin." Peng Xiaoman is sure, "When you say that his expression is like drinking toilet water, you probably can't feel it."

"He can only say... repulsion?" Li Yuan turned to look at him, "I don't hate them, but I repel them, and not all the time. I don't know when it started."

"They're just relatives."

"But they affect my life." Li Yuan paused, "Affecting my parents, affecting my own wishes."

"So your idea of ​​taking the exam outside the province is because of them."

"A lot of it, but not all of it."

"I understand."

Li Yuan froze for a moment, then smiled: "What do you understand?"

"It's boring to say it." Peng Xiaoman shook his head: "This is a feeling, do you understand? It's just like...seeing through but not revealing. This is an artistic conception."

Li Yuan looked straight at him.

Peng Xiaoman was too lazy to explain so much, so he leaned over and kissed him on the mouth.

I understand your struggle and longing all the time.To be honest, it's very hypocritical and naive, so I'm not really understanding, it's me, and I have a lot of reasons to refute it for you.Just because the object is you, I can put myself in the shoes, and I can empathize with you.

No one dared to open their mouths and say "retire, I'm not in the mood". Money is the master, and money is the mood. Today, even if you knock on wooden fish and meditate in a hotel all night, you still have to earn money. return.He lowered the height of the seat cushion and wronged Li Yuan's two long legs. Peng Xiaoman slowly pedaled Sao Baohong against the night, and drove him back to the hotel, humming the fairy stick all the way.

It's a pity that there was a little girl at the front desk who stared suspiciously at the two of them entering the elevator.

It's all right.

Li Yuan came back with arms and legs intact, his father worked overtime, so he wouldn't reveal his secrets; Peng Xiaoman took a shower again, feeling refreshed, and he and Li Yuan made perfect arrangements with his grandma.The bed was at one side; the cover and lubricant were unpacked; the curtains were drawn, and there was no sound.

When I was in junior high school, I took a physiology and hygiene class. In a thin booklet, the illustrations on the page of female genitalia were extraordinarily gorgeous and lifelike. I flipped through them quickly. Then he teased loudly; switching to the male genitalia is more intimate than seeing his own mother. Damn, why does my little brother pay so much attention to so many names?Smiling, he bent his elbow at the same table, and pointed at the word "testi", hey, what do you read?

Before this kind of awareness, one would not feel unfamiliar with the organs that one also owns, and would not have such bursting excitement and fear.Peng Xiaoman felt that this was different from him speaking to Li Yuan without any psychological barriers. This was a passive acceptance, and this was a physiological behavior that completely ascended to the physical relationship, with a sense of eternity and ritual.

A lazy donkey grinds a lot of excrement and urine, and the most cranky thoughts are when things are about to happen.

Think, in fact, you can wait for a while, calm down and prepare.

Thinking, if we are not together, our face will be torn apart, and we still want to meet a girl, fall in love, get married and have children, then tonight we will definitely want to permanently delete the dark history with one click.

I thought, if you have no experience, you may make the scene very awkward, and you will not be able to get in or get an erection, then it will be very embarrassing.

Think, can I actually accept this step?

think……

If it is useful, advertisements for painless flow of people will not be posted all over the gates of colleges and universities, and a big stop sign advertisement will be erected on the sidewalk.Because their outsourced advertising company was very clear when planning the brand promotion plan. For children of this age, thinking basically has no real effect. Wrong or good behavior is just a preset retreat.

Li Yuan was unfamiliar with the movements of putting on a condom.

Peng Xiaoman was even less proficient, and he didn't even know that this thing was slippery and self-lubricating.But four hands are better than two hands, they actively help him, their fingers are intertwined from time to time, and their breathing is also together, which makes Li Yuan shy and unbearably shy once in a thousand years, almost bowing her head and being rude.

Entering from the back is more convenient than entering from the front, just like the cap of a pen has been positioned correctly and clicked, and the land deed fits perfectly.But that's not the point, the point is that you don't have to look at each other in this posture, you don't have to squeeze out energy to think about how to caress and kiss tenderly at this moment, and you can focus more on the green movements themselves, expansion, in and out, breathing, and don't give him meaning of excess.

When they entered, Peng Xiaoman and Li Yuan felt ashamed despite the warm, moist and dull pain in their senses.With one action, one betrays the ethical concepts that have been taught over the years and rooted in the subconscious.Stopped and breathed slowly, without saying a word, but all of a sudden it was in my mind, I thought of my family, parents, teachers and friends, I thought of the intertwined network of human beings, embarrassment and sadness are inseparable The joy of each other seems to be watched and bound everywhere except each other.After the bits and pieces collided with no skill or frequency at all, the short and sharp pleasure gradually accumulated, kneaded into a ball, spread everywhere, and then slowly squeezed out this layer of psychological discomfort .

I became your first, and we, miraculously, incorrectly, joined.

This kind of thought is like a lotus bud, slowly pushed out of the water, rippling.