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Peng Xiaoman took the small medicine box that was on the top of the cabinet at home, let out a groan, and brought down a pile of chest X-rays, color ultrasound sheets, small things, and a popped quilt.There was a lot of noise, and people were smashed to pieces.Inside was a box of plastic snowflakes that were only used by kindergarten dolls. They fell open and scattered all over the floor. Li Yuan, a sick patient, squatted on the floor with him to pick them up for 10 minutes.

"What are you messing with?" Li Yuan also picked up a bunch of glass marbles, three or two gaudy plastic beads, a huge "rhinestone" that came from nowhere, and a head with a thigh missing. A little Barbie whose fur has been rumpled into a hen's coop.

That "rhinestone" was picked out by Peng Xiaoman from his mother's flower when he was a child. That flower was sold at the front line of fashion at that time. When money was still valuable more than ten years ago, it was clearly priced at 80 yuan, which was not cheap.Peng Xiaoman picked out the biggest and brightest one, and used it to play house with his friends, pretending to be the boss of Yungu No. [-] Group, with a net worth of over [-] million.As a result, Ge Xiuyin immediately found out, and he was caught and kicked, but he managed to avoid hanging up and beating him.Peng Xiaoman's eyes lit up, and he was quite nostalgic: "This is my childhood."

"You don't think so." Li Yuan drooped her eyes, looking at the pile of colorful things, "Did you have a bit of a motherhood in your childhood?"

"I was originally a mother, very mother! I was raised by my mother as a girl when I was a child. Before I became conscious of gender in the fourth grade, I always had a little girl with a one-size-fits-all bangs. Although I am a bit rough now." Peng Peng Xiaoman put his palms together and put them under his chin like a flower: "But don't you think I'm still pretty?"

"A question for you."

"Well, you said."

"The thickness of the mantle."

Peng Xiaoman was taken aback, "Huh? Liberal arts..."

"I don't know?" Li Yuan threw the last two flower pieces on the ground into the box, "Then remember to go to Baidu for the correct answer, because that's how thick your skin is."

Peng Xiaoman almost pushed him to the ground without reaching out.

Before taking the paracetamol, Peng Xiaoman asked him to take his temperature, took out an old mercury thermometer that looked like the Liberation Era, and let him hold it under his arm.Li Yuan and him stared at each other for 10 minutes, Peng Xiaoman took it out and raised his arm to look at the scale, "42?! I'll do it if it hits the head." It's just that I haven't passed out yet, and I'm going to be an adult, and I'm still eating shit Antipyretics, hurry up and dial 120!

"Did you not dump it?"

"What to throw away?" Peng Xiaoman asked him as if it should be: "Do you shake it before using it? How to shake it?"

"..." Li Yuan's head hurts, and she wants to beat him up, but doesn't want to talk.

"Okay, I was wrong, sorry, I retested."

Li Yuan clamped it back under his armpit for 10 minutes, took it out and looked at it again, "38 degrees two, is it considered moderately hot? It's really not good, I think you should hang a water bath?"

Li Yuan shook her head and smiled again.

"Then." Peng Xiaoman threw the paracetamol in his hand to him, "My bed is clean, you can go to sleep after taking the medicine...if you don't want to go home yet."

It's true that Li Yuan was a little angry, but it wasn't for the sake of being sad and hypocritical. What's more, she should still be at a loss and at a loss.

He understood very well that once Lin Yixiong and Li Xiaoxing's marriage ended, it was inevitable that they would each develop a new family relationship. He had been preparing for such a survival in the cracks, and he felt that he shouldn't really care.But when such a result was really foreshadowed and the outlines appeared, Li Yuan still felt very unpromising and especially uncomfortable.Even before Li Xiaoxing left Lin Yixiong, he accidentally caught a glimpse of the intimate intersection between her and Ma Zhouping that crossed the bottom line, and he didn't feel so uncomfortable.

He really thought that Lin Yixiong was a rotten person who didn't love women.

Peng Xiaoman went to the small patio in the house, and didn't know what he was tossing about, dingling, rattling, thumping, thumping, and thumping, probably detonating a nuclear bomb, Li Yuan thought so.He leaned back on his small single bed covered with mahjong mats, it was chilly, and felt a little awkward to put on Peng Xiaoman's pastoral floral pillow, only to smell the same transparent soap on his shoulders again. smell.

Li Yuan met the aunt in the pink shirt. She is widowed and has a young daughter who is in elementary school. She works as a back office for household registration management and accounting at the Qingyi Street Police Station. She gave Li Yuan a hand-knitted four-flat stitch for the Chinese New Year last year. The blue sweater, because the sleeves were still a bit short, left a section of wrist exposed to the cold. Li Yuan never wore it, and tied it in a bag and stuffed it in the closet of Lin Yixiong's room.

The right time, the right place, and the right people are all taken care of. If she and Lin Yixiong get together one day, this combination will not only be free from any moral scrutiny, but even have a bit of true love style of "going around and going around, it's you", which can be made public. I can tell others that I have been looking for most of my life, and this is the missing half of my soul.

Even if you think about it with your corns, you can see what the two of them can do at home at this time and place.But as long as Li Yuan has such a consciousness of not being on stage, there is such a blurred image in her mind, as if seeing a friend she has known for many years in the starring role of an A movie, her temples throbbing, anxious, embarrassed , irritatedly wanted to stand up and scold my mother.Li Yuan turned over, putting her hot arms on her hot eyelids.

He really needs to start digesting this fact.Sooner or later, he has to face that he no longer has a pure, dedicated, exclusive family and parents.Not painful, but really heavy.

You Kaifeng sent a text message, and Li Yuan took it out to have a look—you didn’t give us a bunch of anxiety when you got home, it’s all right, I’ll go and see you after school, do you have anything you want to eat?

I was really in a hurry, I didn't type the punctuation marks, I'm afraid it was guarding the teacher while avoiding Zhao Jin, and secretly hiding it in the belly of the drawer.Li Yuan crackled back the text message - don't come, it's okay, I will go to class tomorrow morning, go to bed, and force a good night.

Throwing away the phone, he let out a sigh.

With half a bag of crushed ice in his pocket, Peng Xiaoman tiptoed close to Li Yuan's slender ankle.Li Yuan's whole body was shaken by the ice, she propped up her upper body, and subconsciously raised her foot to sweep across.

"I'll go." Peng Xiaoman held the ice bag and jumped to the left, "If I hide faster, you will pick me on the wall? Your reflexes are too-short."

Li Yuan withdrew her foot, "Everyone in our martial arts is so fast, what the hell?"

"I greet you, don't kick." Peng Xiaoman waved the things in his hand, came over to straighten Li Yuan's shoulders, pressed down, flattened, as if preparing to give him an electric shock, "Ice bag, I don't think it's okay to take medicine." Too much, you still have a bit of a burn, so help you physically cool down."

Li Yuan looked at Peng Xiaoman's approaching face from bottom to top, and saw the thin crimson bloodshots under the pale skin, which were very clear, and felt like natural lines in jade.Peng Xiaoman gently tugged at the collar of Li Yuan's school uniform, exposing a piece of skin from his shoulder blades to his collarbone, and slowly applied the ice pack, "Be patient a little bit, it won't be very cold, right? It's cool in summer, right?" Peng Xiaoman smiled at him, showing his canine teeth.

Li Yuan acquiesced the whole time, didn't speak, watched him walk to the bedside again, closed the oscillating fan, drew the curtains, covering Qingyi's bright golden sun at four o'clock in the afternoon.In his voice, Li Yuan heard a kind of gentle caress and indescribable tenderness, just like the song he sang that day "Song Not For Whom".

"Sleep, college bully."

This feeling was really heavy, heavier than someone swung a stick on the back of the head.It's like falling into the sea on your back, floating in the middle of the sea along the ocean current, drinking enough water, then sinking slowly, sinking incessantly, disappearing light and shadow, until you fall into the trench where even time has stopped turning around , as if that is the end of the deep blue of the world, if you don't wake up, you are dead.When I was young, the hypocritical reveries that were rich, extravagant and excessive were realized in dreams.

But things didn’t go his way, and halfway through, there were always some cute and weird sea fishes who came to kiss his limbs and bother him gently and harmlessly.Li Yuan was half asleep and half awake, and realized that Peng Xiaoman had at least three summer cool quilts on him, changed ice packs twice, retested his temperature once, and was forcibly pulled up and given water twice.

Peng Xiaoman actually heard that he was coughing a little later, and there seemed to be a rustling sound in the bronchi, so he went to take the loquat dew boiled by grandma and mixed it with a cup of warm white water, and fed him a few mouthfuls with a small iron spoon, thinking that it might relieve it If you have lung heat, don't burn and dehydrate.During the third feeding, Li Yuan moved her arms and woke up completely with her eyes open. She realized that the person sitting across from her was Grandma Xiaoman. She choked a mouthful into her lungs and then coughed violently.

"Oh, are you okay!" Grandma Xiaoman hurriedly put down the water cup and spoon in her hand, reached out and patted Li Yuan on the back, while turning her head towards the door: "Xiaoman, quickly bring a dry towel."

Peng Xiaoman looked like a two-person actor on Liu Laogen's big stage, turning a towel into the room like a handkerchief, with a dried duck foot in his mouth, "I'll tell you that he will scare you if you don't believe me, you two look like Wu Dalang now." and Wang Po."

The old lady stood up and took a hand knife on Peng Xiaoman's forehead, "Yes, I'm just a poisonous old lady! You wipe him, and I'll go and see if the stewed elbows in the pot are cooked." He walked out of the room.

Li Yuan almost coughed out half of her lungs, but finally stopped, "What do you mean?"

"I like you, I feel sorry for you. She said that I couldn't feed her with careless hands and feet, so she had to come, but she got off and ran away." Peng Xiaoman chewed the brittle bones in the duck's paw, and opened his right palm to him. Look, "Come and check, there is no oil in your hands."

He leaned over and put the palm of his hand completely on Li Yuan's forehead, pressed it for a while, then turned his palm over and put the back of his hand on it.Li Yuan's eyes wandered to the window, the curtains were half opened, the sky was dark, and the resident birds returned to their nests.

"Congratulations, young man." Peng Xiaoman retracted his hands and clasped his fists, "He has recovered."

Peng Xiaoman's house is filled with the smell of tenderness and fireworks. His family still uses old-fashioned hanging button lamps with extremely low wattage, which illuminate people's whole body with warm colors and scattered long and narrow shadows.Stuck in Li Yuan's mind for a day, the trivial and disorderly things like cotton wool were half washed away by a sudden sleep, and the first reaction after regaining her keen external perception was to be hungry, so fucking hungry, feeling able to Eat a big old cow.

Li Yuan obviously made money, and Grandma Xiaoman made rock candy elbows.

Peng Xiaoman's family prefers to set up a square table with low feet under the patio for dinner in summer, with a few small horses around it, and order a plate of black cat mosquito coils with the remaining daylight.Li Yuan walked in and looked up, only to find that there was actually a Chinese toon bud with pinnate compound leaves planted in this narrow space of less than four or five square meters.The adult is tall, the top is tender and reddish, slightly fragrant, and grows restrainedly like being tamed.Peng Xiaoman came out from the dimly lit small kitchen on the opposite side with a plate, as if he had come out of a dream that could be passed away, leaving traces that could be traced back.

"Come on, Xiaoyuan, taste the saltiness." Grandma Xiaoman disassembled the elbow, picked up the skin and flesh, and put the big, shiny red-brown piece into Li Yuan's bowl, and instantly filled the bowl with rice. "My old lady is from Qingbei, and the knuckles are sweet, with a lot of rock sugar, I wonder if you are used to it?"

Peng Xiaoman rested his elbows on the square table, resting his chin, holding the ends of the chopsticks in his mouth. Seeing him holding the chopsticks in his left hand, he put half of his mouth into his mouth gracefully, and said to himself that he was pretending to be elegant and reserved.

"How is it?" Grandma Xiaoman scooped up another half bowl of mushroom soup for him alone.

"It's delicious." Sweet and salty, it melts in your mouth without being greasy at all.Li Yuan nodded, and gave a concise compliment without exaggeration, which always sounded very sincere, "Nothing I have eaten before is as delicious as yours."

The old lady was very helpful, and immediately became a Duoluoyang peony.

For Li Yuan, the three meals in summer are extremely easy to pass. At school, pancakes and fruits and the cafeteria take turns. At home, half a pot of clear water and half a tube of dried noodles, throwing a few shanghai greens, and cooking twice is enough; quick-frozen things are also good. It's very convenient. Wonton dumpling noodle slices and glutinous rice balls, just take out a small half bag, throw it in and cook it; or simply take it out.Without Li Xiaoxing, living with Lin Yixiong, he can no longer consider the quality and temperature of the food, the life is rough, and the laborious survival of the gods is eliminated, and the needs become simple and single.

Li Yuan always thought that she didn't have much interest in eating, but after thinking about it, she felt that it was impossible to pretend—who wouldn't like delicious food?At most, there is no need to eat.In fact, the only thing is whether the food in front of you has such a deliverable emotional storage, and whether it has that kind of constant temperature in a non-literal sense.

During the dinner, Peng Xiaoman tried to pinch his elbows repeatedly, but Grandma Xiaoman ruthlessly knocked them off with a chopstick. After a meal, Peng Xiaoman almost lost his right hand by her old man.When he failed to pick it up for the fourth time, Peng Xiaoman put down his chopsticks and immediately fell into dismay: "Is it okay if I just take a bite? Throw it away, just throw it away, don't be fat, just be thin."

"Isn't it enough for you to eat all five bad duck feet? You can't lose half of them. What's the matter if you don't listen to the doctor's advice?" He said while holding it to Li Yuan, "Eat all that Xiao Yuan can eat, don't give it to him. Stay, let me see if I become a glutton."

"It's not good for him to eat too much meat!"

Grandma Xiaoman didn't care, as if she had heard a joke: "Who said it? Which old Chinese doctor said it? It's bullshit. Xiaoyuan, who is so strong and tall, has to eat meat." Alright, like you are sickly, Crimson Pearl Immortal Grass Lin Daiyu? Hang a fishing line around your waist, can it be used as a kite when the wind is strong?"

Peng Xiaoman immediately suspected the issue of blood, and frowned: "Am I your grandson?"

"Ask your dad. Anyway, your dad is my own son." The old lady shrugged with a smile.

Peng Xiaoman confessed, bowed his head and said, "All right, pretend I didn't ask."

Li Yuan sipped the soup and laughed, but Peng Xiaoman overheard her.

"Are you happy?"

"Unhappy." Li Yuan shook her head.

"Is it funny?"

"good."

Peng Xiaoman stuck out his tongue at him.

After the meal, Li Yuan helped clean up the dishes, but Grandma Xiaoman refused to give up, and drove the two of them into the house with a stack of dirty rice bowls: "Go, go, wash your hands and stay in the house, either read a book or chat , don’t just take up space here, go, I’ll wash peaches for you two later, the crispy peaches from Qingbei are very sweet.”

There was no way to give up, the room was still stuffy after all, so Peng Xiaoman walked under the tree, waving to Li Yuan.Li Yuan didn't know what he meant, so she didn't speak or move. Seeing him groping on the toon tree, he seemed to touch some hidden small switch. Decorative lamps in the tops of toon trees.Countless star-shaped small light bulbs are connected in a long string, not very bright, and the significance of decoration is greater than that of lighting.

"Let me just say you have a Disney princess dream."

"No, I just happened to think that the bare tree is not very good-looking, so I bought one." Peng Xiaoman looked up at the toon branches and leaves, "It's quite magical, staring at these lights for a while when it's dark , I still feel very warm in my heart, with a festive atmosphere, and it feels like Christmas every day. How do you think?"

Li Yuan walked over and touched one of the little stars.I don't know the quality of the wholesale market, but after such a short moment of lighting, the bulb is a little hot, "I think it's quite dazzling."

"Hiss." Peng Xiaoman shook his head, mourning his misfortune, "You are so boring, I love you for three seconds."

Li Yuan laughed and did not deny it.

"Me today.", "You today."

The two of them were almost at the same time, and the words suddenly bumped into each other, both of them stopped suddenly and looked at each other.

"You're taller, you should talk about it first." Peng Xiaoman made some incomprehensible excuses.

"I just happened to let you see it today. In fact, there is no need to explain it, because it is a private matter of my family. But if I don't say it, I'm afraid that you will think about it and make up some ghosts. It's not good." Li Yuan Putting his right hand in his pocket, biting the index finger joint of his left hand, "My parents divorced a long time ago, this is the main premise."

"Yeah." Peng Xiaoman nodded, not surprised that this matter was commonplace.

"I don't know what you thought at the beginning, but I guess it's definitely not very good, at least it's a bloody family ethics." Li Yuan went around aimlessly, "I shouldn't have done it today. There was that reaction in front of you, but in the end... I'm still relatively young, and I can't control my emotions as well as an adult. In fact, what you read is not wrong, it's because I have a psychological problem. "

Peng Xiaoman reached out his hand out of nowhere, and touched Li Yuan's head, which was much taller than him, the smooth but slightly hard touch of the fluffy hair spread along the palm of his hand.Li Yuan was stunned, and Peng Xiaoman was also stunned.

"Treat me like a child?" Li Yuan forgave him for making a fuss and behaving out of bounds, but she didn't avoid it. Instead, she lowered her head and smiled at him, watching the fluffy displeasure cast on his face by the string of lights. Regular spot.

"Don't dare, it was on a whim." Peng Xiaoman withdrew his hand a little resentfully, and folded his arms, "So, how do you want me to treat you, what do you want me to think, I will think."

Li Yuan paused, "I hope you treat me like a normal person."

"Say it as if you're abnormal." Peng Xiaoman couldn't laugh or cry, thinking he was overcorrecting.

"Maybe, it's an exaggeration, but that's what it means." Li Yuan blinked, "I don't know if you understand."

"Understood." Peng Xiaoman snapped his fingers, "Don't worry, I really understand."

Li Yuan doesn't think about it for the time being, because he understands characters with a certain degree of irritability and a certain degree of sincere credibility.Often when a question is asked, what is sought is a comforting approval. There is no need to think about the cascading meanings behind it, and the purpose is only the answer itself.He hoped, hoped that somewhere in his heart, he and Peng Xiaoman had a miraculous commonality and empathy, no matter why.

Li Yuan looked at Peng Xiaoman at the corner of the courtyard, and said, "You don't ride a bicycle at all?"

"It depends." Peng Xiaoman looked into the corner, "I can still ride if it's too late, but my grandma basically asks me to take the bus now, and it can force me to get up early, so I won't be too lazy."

"I'll wait for you at the alley tomorrow at [-]:[-], okay?"

Peng Xiaoman stared at him, "Huh?"

Waking up early the next day, Grandma Xiaoman was tired, and hurriedly rinsed her mouth, put on a headband, put on a floral waistcoat over her pajamas, and squatted in the small kitchen to prepare a quick breakfast for Peng Xiaoman.Sometimes Peng Xiaoman felt very sorry, but seeing how happy she was willing to get up early to accompany her, he was reluctant to speak, and told her, I can actually do it, you don't need it.He guessed that what grandma was most afraid of must be to be denied her value.

Due to the humidity, the Zhujiatang in summer is occasionally foggy, and the hazy gray is dyed into a cloudy soft yellow by hanging lamps.As soon as Peng Xiaoman walked out of the inner alley, he saw Li Yuan waiting at the intersection, riding his bicycle with his left foot propped up, looking at the acacia tree with a huge crown above his head.He is tall and good-looking, so this can be counted as a scene, and the delineation is pleasing to the eye.

The thing that made Peng Xiaoman's jaw drop was that Li Yuan installed a back seat for his show bag Hong.

"Are you going the way of the idyllic little fresh?" Peng Xiaoman raised his eyebrows, "There's a feeling of... being stunned to tie Iron Man's tail into a pony."

"I'm a Marvel fan and I didn't cut it. You count me as a classmate." Li Yuan turned the car, her body heat turned into lung fever, although she didn't have a fever, but she coughed a little, "Come on, old class Watch morning reading today."

"Do you really want a car to pick you up?" Peng Xiaoman smiled at him incredulously, standing still.

"If you don't get on, you can take the No. 12 road. Anyway, it will come once a while." Li Yuan turned her head, "But I have to tell you, Linquan Road will be closed next week, and I guess the traffic bureau will have to redesignate it. The route, the mountain is long and the water is long, and you have to go around a long way, maybe you have to start at four o'clock."

"..."

Li Yuan rang the bell, and there was a series of clear and crisp sounds, and cleared her dry and itchy throat, "I'll give you three seconds, and I'll leave if I don't, one or two—"

"three!"

Peng Xiaoman spoke for him, jumped onto the back seat with his schoolbag on his back and hugged him around his waist, and whispered "drive".Li Yuan was too lazy to argue with him, she smiled, straightened the faucet, stooped and stepped on the pedal with force, saw the car shake twice, and then drove forward steadily.In fact, it wasn't until Peng Xiaoman gently grabbed the hem of his school uniform that Li Yuan suddenly became aware of the cycle of the seasons, and the short journey he always had to walk alone was suddenly joined by another person.

Things that were originally meaningless suddenly became different because of this.Li Yuan heard that he seemed to be humming again, so she couldn't help listening to it, and she figured out that it was Jay Chou's "Sunny Day".