fight to the death

This place seems to be a suburb, and the surrounding mountains almost surround it, like a barrier. Yu Shen, holding the flowers bought from the city, walked ahead without looking sideways, and Jiang Huai followed behind him, looking left and right This cemetery.

The cemetery seems to have been abandoned for a long time, and there are weeds and wild flowers that grow to the height of a person's ankle everywhere. There is a small room next to the gate. Jiang Huai guessed that it was probably the place where the tomb watchers lived, but now The inside was already covered with dust and cobwebs everywhere, and there was a calendar on the window sill. The paper had begun to mold, and some of the characters on it were illegible. He couldn't help frowning, he covered his nose, and carefully looked at the blurred numbers on the calendar, the date on it could be vaguely seen, this is a calendar from more than ten years ago.

This is the destination of countless dead people, and the tombstones in the cemetery that should have been standing have almost collapsed now. If the relatives of these dead people were to identify them, it would be difficult to tell who belonged to which family.

Yu Shen walked straight along a road, he seemed to be familiar with this place, the sound of the wind blowing could be heard in the quiet surroundings, the bouquet of yellow flowers in Yu Shen's arms seemed to be crying some story Some are sad.Jiang Huai didn't speak in the back, he quietly looked at Yu Shen's back, the young man in front of him always had some emotions that didn't match his age, he felt that Yu Shen had experienced too much, even beyond his imagination, Yu Shen's body There are many secrets that Jiang Huai can't touch. He always wants to hide himself, but he can't hide it well. When Jiang Huai sees him, he will inevitably feel distressed.

Jiang Huai originally thought that he already knew Yu Shen well. He knew Yu Shen's temper and his hobbies.But at this moment, he suddenly understood that what he learned was only superficial.

Yu Shen stopped in his tracks, and Jiang Huai poked forward behind him, only to see a vertical tombstone in front of Yu Shen. There was no name on that tombstone, and it simply stood alone among the ruins. Yu squatted down and put the flowers in his arms in front of the tombstone, stretched out his hand and gently placed it on the tombstone, and then gently rubbed the surface of the tombstone with his fingertips. Didn't feel it, but Jiang Huai saw it.

He seemed to want to feel a different temperature from this cold stone, but Yu Shen didn't feel it in the end, and he smiled helplessly.Jiang Huai and Yu Shen squatted down together, biting their lower lip and frowning slightly, he silently stared at Yu Shen's side face, Yu Shen turned his head and looked at him, the two looked at each other silently, Jiang Huai wanted to start from there See the answer in a pair of beautiful eyes.

Yu Shen's eyes are very beautiful. This is what Jiang Huai told him from the inner voice when he saw him for the first time. Someone told him since he was a child that "the eyes are the windows of everyone's soul", so Jiang Huai thought, can we get rid of it? Yu Shen saw the secrets he had hidden in his eyes.But there was still no way, the dark eyes reflected Jiang Huai's figure, there seemed to be an abyss inside, Jiang Huai froze for a moment, then turned his head quickly.

He remembered that someone had said to him, "Loving someone is not something you say with your mouth, but the joy that overflows from your eyes." Jiang Huai was suddenly a little scared, afraid that Yu Shen would see through his eyes and see himself buried in the Feelings that I dare not express in my heart.

When Jiang Huai looked away, the flustered expression fell into Yu Shen's eyes, and he smiled, as if nothing had happened, and said calmly: "This cemetery has been abandoned for 12 years. It’s been a year, I have to come here every year at this time to have a look. The people who visited the cemetery in the past few years were still there, but they disappeared last year. Some people said that he quit. Yes, there is no benefit in guarding this piece of broken land. .” After speaking, Yu Shen turned his head to stare at the tombstone again, took a deep breath: “This is my mother.” Then he paused for a long time before he was willing to glance at the open space next to the tombstone, and said slowly , "This is my dad."

Only then did Jiang Huai notice that there were traces of burning paper money on the open space next to the tombstone. Yu Shen's words surprised him. He didn't expect that the two parents of the person who had been smiling in front of him had long since passed away. Jiang Huai felt that he As if his heart was being held tightly by someone, he couldn't help but feel sorry for this person, he wanted to rub Yu Shen into his arms, hug him tightly, and would not let go no matter what.

"They passed away when I was very young. I didn't remember anything at that time, and I still don't remember what they looked like. Even the photo posted under my desk was pointed to by Wang Po and told me that this It’s Dad, that’s Mom, that’s when I realized, oh, I didn’t jump out of the garbage dump.” Yu Shen was expressionless, as if he was telling what happened in someone else’s house, he turned his head and smiled at Jiang Huai, and asked, "Brother Dog, do you think I'm not very filial?"

Jiang Huai didn't answer, just stared at him quietly, the originally clear weather turned dark all of a sudden, the sun above his head was covered by a dark cloud, the place that wasn't covered was still sunny, and the flowers mixed in the weeds bloomed just right , Yu Shen said to himself, Jiang Huai listened silently, not wanting to disturb him: "When I used to get angry with Wang Po, she would always scold me and say 'those who are not filial will be struck by lightning' , and then I was discouraged. When it came to thunderstorms, I felt that my end was coming. I always thought that I was afraid of thunder because of this. I didn’t realize it until not long ago. It turned out that I was afraid of thunder because of another thing.. ...."

"The night my mother left, it happened to be thundering." Yu Shen raised his head, the dark clouds above his head gradually drifted away, and the sun that returned to the ground shrouded Jianghuai and Yu Shen. Today's sunshine is just right, neither hot nor dry, And in this just fine weather, a teenager told his unknown sad story, "She was killed by my dad."

Jiang Huai suddenly opened his eyes wide and looked at Yu Shen with disbelief, his heart kept beating violently, and he murmured in a low voice: "Your father..."

"Yes, my dad. Surprised, aren't you?" Yu Shen couldn't squat anymore, his numb legs protested silently, he stood up and rubbed his legs, and found a clean space Sitting down, Jiang Huai sat next to him, Yu Shen took off a small grass next to his shoe, and played with it in his hand, "I didn't believe this ridiculous statement at first, but... I don't want to I don't believe it, because it is indeed true. My dad has a serious mental illness. I don't know when he got it. During the day, he doesn't look like a psychopath at all, but at night, he changes. Originally Under the doctor's treatment, he was able to control his condition with drugs, but who knew that my father had an attack that night, and the medicine was useless. My mother sent me and Yu Xi to the Wang Po's house next door, and told Wang Po What, and then went back by myself..."

"I don't know what happened. I just remember that I stood at the door of Mrs. Wang's house for a long time. My mother's screams were heard outside the door. I wanted to go out to help her, but I couldn't open that door at all. I was I heard with my own ears that my mother's voice was getting smaller and smaller... until it disappeared completely." Yu Shen snorted softly, and when he looked up at Jiang Huai, his eyes were already red like rabbits, "No one Thinking that she was eventually deprived of her life by the person she had entrusted her whole life to, and she could never leave the home she once felt very happy with. Perhaps, the moment she entered the door, she knew that she... could not live It is." After finishing speaking, Yu Shen bent his legs to his chest, hugged them with his hands, buried his head in the crook of his arms, and shrugged his shoulders slightly. Recalling this memory is like repeating his newly healed scars. When exposed to the air, countless bacteria got in, causing heart-piercing pain.

But this is him again, he has to face it.

Jiang Huai's frown got deeper and deeper, he couldn't think of any comforting words, it was the first time he felt that his vocabulary was so lacking, Jiang Huai thought for a while, and finally raised a hand, and gently embraced Yu Shen's He patted his shoulder lightly, as if he was stroking his most beloved thing, he was reluctant to use force, for fear of hurting him again.

Yu Shen was slightly taken aback, let go of the hands holding his legs, turned around and raised both hands, and put them in front of Jiang Huai, his eyes were still red, and there were still tears in the corners of his eyes, he looked like A wronged child who didn't eat candy: "Brother Dog, hug me."

The moment Yu Shen's words fell, he was pulled by Jiang Huai and bumped into Jiang Huai's chest. The other party's body temperature came continuously, and the hands holding him tightly trembled slightly. Yu Shen was stunned for a moment. , and then wrapped his arms around Jiang Huai's waist.The sound of each other's breathing is next to the ear, and the skin is touching each other. Neither of them spoke, they hugged each other quietly like this, and they did not separate as quickly as last time. This time neither of them said anything. Willing to let go first.

Jiang Huai's hands tightened tighter and tighter, and dense sweat emerged from his forehead. He kept this posture motionless, because the person lying on his shoulders was crying silently, and he felt that his clothes were already wet , Jiang Huai had a sore nose at this moment, and felt that he wanted to cry too.

He was feeling sorry for Yu Shen, the person he had a crush on.

After a long time, Yu Shen raised his head slowly, leaned close to Jiang Huai's ear, and said, "Brother Dog, I'm hot." There was a strong nasal voice in his tone, which sounded like he was acting like a baby.

Jiang Huai couldn't help laughing when he heard it, he let go of Yu Shen, it was quite hot, the sun had already risen above his head, after he let go of Yu Shen, Jiang Huai didn't feel that hot feeling, he suddenly felt that his sensory nerves were out of order question.The person next to him looked at him sweating profusely with a "hehehe" smirk, Jiang Huai patted him, and then he laughed too.

"Crying and laughing, you're so stupid." Jiang Huai glanced at him, stood up first, stomped his feet on the spot, he stretched out his hand in front of Yu Shen, Yu Shen put his hand on it, and then Jiang Huai Using force, Yu Shen was pulled up from the ground.

The latter leaned on Jiang Huai as soon as he stood firmly, and muttered like a loser: "Oh, it's over, I just sat down so hard that I twisted my foot... hiss—it hurts... Or, Brother Gou, carry me on your back." As he spoke, his whole body hung on Jiang Huai's body.

Jiang Huai raised his eyebrows, and tilted his body to the right: "Fuck, don't push yourself too hard, start moving." He deliberately took a few steps forward.

"Brother Dog, Brother Dog, Brother Dog, Brother Dog, Brother Dog!" Yu Shen stood on the spot, watching Jiang Huai's back that was gradually receding, "Brother Dog, Brother Brother!"

"Soul calling!!" Jiang Huai turned around, shouted at the people behind him, ran back resignedly, and squatted in front of Yu Shen with a triumphant expression, "You should be thrown here to feed the wolves. "

"There are no wolves here." Yu Shen grinned and lay on Jiang Huai's back.

"You're really heavy." Unexpectedly, Yu Shen didn't look like a few catties or two ounces of flesh, and when he was picked up, he was a handful of bones, but Jiang Huai almost lost his footing when he stood up.

Yu Shen gently placed his head on Jiang Huai's back, feeling the beating of the heart, the air around him seemed to stop flowing, Yu Shen's heart and Jiang Huai's heart beat at the same frequency.

thump.thump.thump.

"Brother Dog." Yu Shen moved his head and placed it on Jiang Huai's shoulder, "Am I very pitiful?"

"Yes." Jiang Huai's voice was amplified several times in Yu Shen's ears, "I feel sorry for my poor brother."

Yu Shen turned his head and stared at the blue sky. The sun was dazzling. He squinted his eyes and said, "Then you have to be nice to me."

After speaking, there was no movement.

"Okay." Jiang Huai nodded, "I'll treat you better."

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