rainy tonight

As the night deepened, the hustle and bustle slowly settled down. When it was close to midnight, the dense rain sounded outside the window glass, accompanied by the whistling winter wind, and played a nocturne together with the surface of the transparent glass.The humidity is heavy, seeping in through the wall, filling the room with the breath between heaven and earth.

Beside the bed, Yan Jun sat quietly, looking down at the cufflink in his palm.

Chang Zhenfeng handed it to himself today, saying that Chang Jiayu picked it up by mistake, and then asked if the two had met outside.

Yan Jun couldn't remember what he answered, but could only recall the biting cold when the cufflinks fell into his hands.

Chang Jiayu's intentions were obvious, even to return things, he had to do everything possible to avoid meeting him. During this period of time, he tried to get close to him a few times, but people were afraid to avoid him, and regarded him as a scourge. I am willing to take the initiative to say a word to myself.

Thinking of this, his eyes darkened a bit, like starlight falling, leaving only the endless night.

But the current situation is all caused by himself, so who can be blamed?

The past is vivid in his mind, and he still remembers when the two met for the first time.

In the eyes of most people, the bar is a place where money is spent, Fei Dong has managed it into a perfect industrial chain, and he occasionally goes to the bar under Fei Dong's name to relax.

He had a lot of entertainment, and his drinking capacity was not bad. He drank a few glasses, and his mind was still very clear.

"Hello."

When he heard the clear voice coming from his ears, his heart moved, he raised his head, and saw the face that looked like an old friend.

The boy in front of him was shy but coy, and boldly asked him if he could kiss him.At that time, all his thoughts were concentrated on that face, and his mind was blank.

His absence made the young man lose his patience, and he leaned over directly.He subconsciously wanted to push it away, but he didn't know if he was in a dream. After hesitating, the kiss had already landed on his lips.

With just a light touch, he withdrew without any extra movement.When Yan Jun came back to his senses, the other party had already run away.

When he came back to his senses, he recalled the incident a few times, and it was just a dream. It wasn't until he met Chang Jiayu at Chang's house that he realized that the other party was the son of Yan Jing's married man.

After all, he was young and didn't know how to hide his emotions. The child obviously remembered what happened in the bar, his eyes were wide open, full of shock.

Yan Jun recovered from his astonishment, his heart was also fluctuating, and he said that he would send Chang Jiayu out.

It is undeniable that everything after that was caused by that similar appearance, so when he was questioned, he couldn't say a word of rebuttal.

Because of his mother's fault, the accidental death of his first love was a big blow to Yan Jun.

At that time, he was very sad and angry, and he almost severed ties with his family. Although he didn't make it to that point later, the relationship with his parents couldn't return to before the incident happened.

The day when Guan Xun had an accident happened to be his birthday, and he heard the other party say happy birthday to him in the morning, and when he went out, it was too late when he went back.

So that day became the most painful day in Yan Jun's life. From that year until Chang Jiayu came to him, he never celebrated his birthday again.

But Chang Jiayu didn't know this. When he saw him looking at him with a smile in the study, and presented him with a cake and exquisite cufflinks, he couldn't say no to it, and finally accepted it all.

The next morning, when I locked the cuffs with the cuff buttons, something seemed to be trapped in my heart.

Later, he accidentally saw the search records on the computer, followed by Chang Jiayu's brave confession.He was caught off guard and immediately refused. Seeing the light in the other party's eyes disappear little by little, turning into embarrassment and loss, Yan Jun also felt his heart sinking.

When Chang Jiayu had an accident and was unconscious in the hospital, he began to fall into a long period of self-blame and regret.If he had promised at that time, maybe he would be fine at this time, and he would still be by his side with the sun shining, and he would be cute whatever he said or did.

At that time, Yan Jun thought that Jia Yu might only be attached to and liked him for a while.His life is still very long, and there are many possible futures, so his feelings for himself are too variable. It is almost impossible for the two of them to go on forever. He can do his best to give the child a completeness now.If Chang Jiayu really couldn't wake up again, the biggest regret in his life would be from him.Coupled with the matter about Xun first, Yan Jun didn't want to make himself feel sorry.

Only since then, he has completely embarked on a road of no return.

After being together, Jia Yu is a little clingy to him, and also likes to take the initiative to do intimate things between lovers, such as hugging and kissing.

He couldn't get used to it at first, but it took a while to get used to it.

Yan Jun slowly discovered that Chang Jiayu's enthusiasm in this relationship was hot enough, and he also responded to it to the maximum extent.

But there are some things that don't make sense, like his original intention was to be passive, but he gradually became active, lovingly hugging people in his arms and getting close to them, even going against his original idea, and on Chang Jiayu's birthday That night, they completely possessed each other.

In the midst of the lingering, the flushed face and the attitude of allowing him to ask made him a little out of control. When he woke up the next day, he saw the person sleeping peacefully in his arms, and he didn't feel any regrets in his heart.

But soon, their matter was exposed in front of Chang Zhenfeng. The moment he learned about it from Chang Jiayu, Yan Jun woke up from the previous illusion.

He knew how difficult this road was, and he didn't want Chang Jiayu to suffer everything he had experienced.If he broke the relationship between the father and son and everything had to go on, maybe one day Chang Jiayu would wake up and regret what he shouldn't have done at the beginning, and he would have nothing left.

When Chang Jiayu asked, Yan Jun looked into those clear and calm eyes, but found that he couldn't hide it anymore, and everything after that was developing towards the worst direction, until all the good things were shattered, Yan Jun Finally, he understood that he had spent so much time planning this relationship for Chang Jiayu, and he was unwilling to take any wrong steps, but in fact, he had made many mistakes unknowingly, and the mistakes were so big that it was irreparable. situation.

After Chang Jiayu went abroad, Yan Jun also went there many times.

He wanted to make up for the mistakes he had made, but he hesitated because of the decisive words he heard when the relationship fell apart, until the white boy frequently appeared by Chang Jiayu's side, Yan Jun felt a little more uneasy.

Previously, he felt that the relationship between the two could not last long, and the important reason was that he and Chang Jiayu were many years apart.In the gap of many years, there are many things that are difficult to make up, such as growing up with each other at the same rhythm and pace, such as experiencing precious youth together, these are not things he can do, but with Chang Jiayu People of the same age can.

He didn't expect that person to come directly to the country. In the eyes of the other party, there is a vigorous love that cannot be ignored.

Should he continue to hesitate?

If this continues, will I really miss it?

In the turmoil of his thoughts, Yan Jun clenched his fists tightly, and the hard edges of the cuff buttons were pressed against his palms, but he was oblivious to the insignificant pain.

It's the end of the year again, and the Spring Festival is approaching.

On New Year's Eve, Chang Jiayu sat in his bedroom and played a few games online with Bai Song. After a few rounds, he lost more than he won and lost less.

Bai Song chatted with him for a while, but because he wanted to entertain guests, he went offline first, and Chang Jiayu was also called out by Chang Zhenfeng to watch the Spring Festival Gala.

He sent congratulatory messages to people he didn't know well, and then sent messages to friends he was close to. Yan Jun came over halfway through typing.

During this period of time, Chang Jiayu met more than once, and Chang Jiayu gradually stabilized his emotions. He no longer wanted to run away whenever he saw someone. He thought about it later, it was not necessary, and instead made himself very embarrassed.

He comforted himself thinking that it is impossible to change the relationship between the two of them, and they still have to meet no matter how unhappy they are.Chang Jiayu didn't want Chang Zhenfeng to see anything or feel embarrassed, as long as he could save face.

After Yan Jun came in, he untied his coat and sat down. Chang Jiayu resisted the urge to flee, and said hello with a straight face.

He didn't look aside at all, Chang Zhenfeng saw the boxy cardboard box in Yan Jun's hand at a glance, with a few holes pierced in it.

"What did Xiaojun bring here?"

Yan Jun looked at the people around him, and handed over the cardboard box with the handle: "A gift for Jia Yu."

Chang Zhenfeng laughed and said, "You really have a heart, thank you soon, and stop playing with your phone."

Chang Jiayu slandered a few words, thanked in a muffled voice, Yan Jun smiled gently, and put the thing at his feet: "Take it apart and see if you like it."

This gift seems to be inevitable, but it's never too late to throw it away afterwards.

Chang Jiayu's face was sullen, and he barely made a mental preparation in his heart, bent down and opened the cardboard box.

A cage was exposed inside, and a small thing was nestled inside.

The light shines in, the darkness is dispelled, and the group in the cage immediately screams.

Chang Jiayu took a closer look, it was a little milk dog.Brown red and white fur, wet eyes, staring at him from the cage.

Yan Jun said from the side: "I remember you like dogs. Alaska at my friend's place gave birth to a puppy, and I brought it here for you almost two months old."

Chang Jiayu was about to say something when his fingertips got wet.

Little Alaska was lying on the side of the cage, raised his head and licked his fingers, whining from time to time.

Chang Jiayu: "..."

He didn't expect that this gift was alive, and the plan of throwing it later would not work. He couldn't throw such a small dog into the ice and snow.

What's more, she is so cute, even if there is no expression on her face, Chang Jiayu really likes it in her heart.

He quickly carried the dog upstairs and played with it in the room.

Little Alaska was not afraid of strangers, and explored around Chang Jiayu's bedroom on four short legs, and finally ran back to his feet and rubbed him several times to hug him.

In the living room, Chang Zhenfeng took a sip of tea: "That dog is not expensive, is it?"

Yan Jun said, "I asked for it from a friend, and it didn't cost any money."

Chang Zhenfeng nodded and said: "Jiayu liked dogs when he was a child, but his mother was allergic to animal hair and never got what she wanted. He raised one in junior high school and died of canine distemper within a few days. Later, the child was sad. , so I won’t raise them anymore.”

Yan Jun nodded. Chang Jiayu had told him about this, but at that time the two of them had a strong relationship and could talk about anything, unlike now.

Fei Dong's text message came over.

[Is the dog delivered?Do people like it? 】

[I just gave it away, I can't tell if I like it or not, he didn't say anything, and he didn't smile. 】

[It's normal not to laugh, just like it without saying anything, don't worry.Oh, by the way, that little thing cost me tens of thousands of dollars to get here, remember to treat me to dinner. 】