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The author has something to say: Lightning Avoidance Note: The story is explained from the personal perspective of Osamu Dazai, revealing to you the essence of black mud under the surface of Xiao Tianzai~

For Osamu Dazai, there are few people and things in this life that he cannot get.

But the tragedy is that people who are too smart look at life too thoroughly, and often see the distant future of losing each other at the moment they get it.

He can't feel the purest and ordinary happiness like ordinary people, and he can't be as stupid as those heartless guys who don't think about more futures and various possibilities.

To get means to lose.

To be happy means to be sad.

Such a contradiction, such a melancholy life.

So... the question is, in the long and short life of human beings, is it lucky to meet a flower that never fades?

He just met.

It was a rainy day. As an island country standing above the sea, continuous rainy weather is normal.

In order to avoid the rain, Osamu Dazai had to temporarily hide in front of a shop on the side of the road.I have to say that as expected of Tokyo, the bustling streets are quite different from those in Yokohama.

Only at this time did he realize that his body was icy cold. It turned out that the previous rain had wetted the fabric of the clothes and penetrated into the bandages on his body, resulting in bursts of chills.It happened that there was a drug store behind him, so he naturally pushed the door and entered without much hesitation.

The pharmacy is not big, but there are many products on display, from the ceiling to the feet... Customers have to turn sideways to walk in to see the whole picture of the store.

Several foreign tourists are choosing suitable health care products, a man wearing a mask is paying for two boxes of cold medicine, and two primary school students who seem to be accidentally scratched while playing football are standing on tiptoe to check which type of Band-Aid cheaper.However, Osamu Dazai's attention was not on them. As a person who always pays attention to the beauty of everything in the world, his gaze was immediately taken away by the young girl standing behind the people who lined up for settlement.

Thin and fragile beauty.That's the conclusion.

However, at the first glance, Dazai knew that this person's heart might be dead.

He was very understanding because he too had been the same person.

——But Osamu Dazai would never step forward and ask the other party why he showed such a desperate look.

No way, the world is so scary and life is so hard.Love, money, career...anything can break a fragile heart.

He didn't need to ask, and he couldn't ask, and he wouldn't send any untimely invitation to die for someone who was determined to die alone.

This is respect, respect for one... the same kind, is to respect one's past.

Sure enough, when it was the other party's turn, Osamu Dazai noticed that the girl took out a crumpled prescription from her pocket, pushed it to the doctor, and said softly, "I want the medicine above."

The doctor looked at the list and frowned: "Are you sure?"

"I'm sure."

The sound is really nice.Dazai turned his head to look at the rain outside the glass display cabinet like a passerby who didn't care about the matter, and remained silent.

But I'm afraid it's farewell forever.

Two strangers had such a meeting on a rainy day, one of them had the intention to observe but the other didn't notice at all... It was a fate that happened once in a while.

He watched how the back of the other party who left with a bag and an umbrella after paying the bill disappeared into the rain, lamented for three seconds for the flower that was about to break, then turned around and walked towards the counter with a smile: "Hello, I Need two rolls of medical bandages!"

But fate is very mysterious.

It didn't take him long to see the man again during his week in Tokyo.

The appearance of the person is still the same person, but - the eyes have changed.

She became dazed and vigilant, like a kitten with pointed ears sizing up an unfamiliar environment like an enemy.

Although he didn't want to admit it, Osamu Dazai was surprised to find that the other party had a completely different vitality from the previous one.

She wants to live.

I want to live no matter what.

Strange... why is this happening?

You are obviously someone who wants to die. The medicine you bought that day can easily lead to suicide as long as you mix it with overdose, but why did you suddenly change your mind?

So he deliberately stepped forward and pretended to be probing—after returning from the pharmacy, he roughly read all the information about the neighbors around him, only to find out that the other party lived next door—"Good evening, Yao-chan."

In fact, they didn't know each other at all at first, and they didn't even say a word, they just met each other in the pharmacy.If it is a normal person, most of them will think that he is a psychopath who snoops on other people's private information or a perverted man who wants to strike up a conversation.

But Osamu Dazai still followed his intuition, and I have to say...he was right.

Although the other party tried his best to conceal it, he still showed a slightly shaken and flustered expression for a moment.

Hey, look, isn't this just measured?

Osamu Dazai returned to his room, although he was still smiling, but he suddenly had a strange thought in his heart.

Although in the tea ceremony, the so-called "one period, one meeting" means that a person may only meet with each other once in his life, so he should treat each other in the best way.But that day he considered himself "doing something" with "doing nothing"...is it really good?

What happened in just a few days?

And had he—turned a blind eye to the possibility of a faint cry for help at the end of his life?What caused all these changes in the end?

This strange thought disturbed him, making him more curious to know this girl.

Of course, it is only limited to curiosity.

Everyone has their own life choices. Whether the other person chooses to give up their own life or rekindle their desire to survive, they must bear the consequences of each choice on their own.

Before the relationship between the two parties has made any substantial progress, it is very impolite to intervene in other people's lives rashly.

At least Osamu Dazai thought so at that time.

…………

……

But when he came back to his senses, he was surprised to find that he was already standing in the mire that kept sinking.

If I had to say something different in this story about life and death, it would probably be... flowers.

He lowered his head and stared at the shimmering flower in the deepest mud in the darkness.

It still looks as easy to break as before, but the essence of the core has changed silently.

It is indeed extraordinary, but only a very few people can discover the beauty of her existence and soul.

So Osamu Dazai's face showed the tangled expression of longing and ecstasy, wanting to touch but retracting his hand.

It turned out to be... such a thing.

——I got stuck first.

——If I meet a flower that never fades, how can I turn her into a flower in my palm?

No one can covet it, no one can take it away, not even her own awareness of it.

Then try it.

If he fails, he will fail, but if he succeeds, he will have a flower that will never fade.

Now that he had made up his mind, Osamu Dazai began to make the plan with great interest and advance and implement it according to the plan.

Some people may think that the Avengers are difficult to deal with, but Dazai, who has been in the port mafia for many years, does not think so, because the group of Avengers is simply the most simple and easy-to-understand guy in the dark crowd-they have a clear purpose and a core Thoughts do not change and cannot be shaken.

It is also very simple to get involved in this kind of life, as long as you help the other party get revenge.That's what he thought at first.

As a result, not long after Osamu Dazai thought he had succeeded, he encountered an emotional Waterloo crisis—Yao Shibukawa simply did the opposite, pursued the lone wolf doctrine, and kicked away all those who were good to her. To complete the revenge action by himself.

……What's happening here?Normally speaking, isn't the stronger and more revenge power, the easier it is to achieve the goal!What does reverse operation mean?

Osamu Dazai felt that his dignity—whether it was his confidence as a man or as a troublemaker—had been underestimated.

No, not at all.he thought distressedly.I want to be more active and brave to deal with all this.

So he sneaked into the Sky Paradise at great risk and cooperated with those annoying ghosts.

But sometimes things and ideas are completely contrary to each other. The more you fear what will happen, the more likely that ending will happen.

... Fortunately, I am here.

At the moment when he hugged the girl's seriously injured and dying body, Osamu Dazai had only this thought in his head.

He forgot all the previous calculations and hints, forgot those confident plans, and all that was left was the panic and fear that he would never be able to hold that person's hand again.

Oda Saku once comforted him in his dream: "We will meet again."

But... when will the next reunion be?

Thinking about it now, if one person and another person never meet each other again, and cannot meet again, how many regrets are there that have not been told to the other person?

It's just a meeting with strangers.Then if it was him and the dying girl in his arms, how many stories and emotions would there be in it that he hadn't had time to tell?

Osamu Dazai is very clear about this.

Because this is not the first time he has lost an important person.

——I got stuck first.He reconfirmed this thought deep in his heart.

Sitting in the hospital, looking at the unconscious girl lying on the hospital bed, he thought about many things.

If the relationship between the two had been more sincere and communicative, wouldn't things have been like this?

If he had said anything about caring for that neighbor at the drugstore, would it have saved a different life?

If he had realized the tragedy in the dark and Mori Ogai's plan earlier, would Oda Sakunosuke not have died?

If... no if.

Even if society has entered the era of "individuality", there is still no medicine for regret in this world.

Thinking of this, Osamu Dazai's eyes suddenly sank.

So be it.

He can no longer tolerate the evil consequences of his hesitation and retreat in the face of those "ifs".

In any case, he will try to catch the prey again.

This time, he took the initiative to change his image in the eyes of the other party.

Shibukawa Yao likes to play games, so he bought a full set of equipment to play with her; she likes to look for food everywhere, so he collects and pays attention to special food from all over the world on weekdays, and takes people to eat, drink and have fun on weekends and holidays; He likes to say some suicidal remarks that are too frustrating, so he tries not to read "The Complete Suicide Manual" in front of the other party and try other suicide behaviors; she also likes changing clothes and driving... Wait, I like this too...

Sure enough, Osamu Dazai became cute, smart and worry-free in the eyes of his girlfriend.

Even the other party's elders think so.

Osamu Dazai is well aware of many of her abilities - of course, one of them is the arrogance of knowledge - so he pays special attention during the New Year, always talking and behaving with the assumption that "girlfriend will monitor me with a sense of arrogance". principle premise.

The most typical example is the conversation about marriage remarks with the other uncle in the study that day.

Regardless of whether the other party could really hear it, Osamu Dazai gave such a hint to the invisible third person in the field.

...Although he is indeed right to think so.

He completely repressed the dark and brooding qualities of his nature, revealing only a lovable, tender side that even he secretly marveled at.

As it turned out, his strategy worked.

When he looked at the documents and the small velvet box, Osamu Dazai unconsciously showed a gentle and happy smile.

——Actually, it is more of the victorious expression that the hunter will show when he hunts down a flower that is unique, never fades, and belongs to him alone.

Well, maybe outsiders may see him as the emotionally passive side, but who knows, how much effort he has put into it.

He hints and guides it all and will enjoy the story too.

At least for now, the flower belonged to him.