[BTS] In the Mood for Love in Pink

My name is Bian Tianshu, I'm 183 cm tall, 68 kg in weight, 19 years old, and currently the head of the "BoysMeetEvil" dance troupe, with Weibo ID "BME——June".

If Ranran's Mood for Love is pink, then mine is blue.

Because since ancient times, pink and blue have produced cp.

...Cough, sorry, I'm not very good at joking in front of outsiders.

In the first year of high school, it was 2014, and my life was at a low point.

Because of my superior family background, most of what I wanted was within my reach.

I lived carefree like this, until I was 16 years old, I didn't know what I wanted, what I wanted to do, and I didn't know what the meaning of my life was.

Every day's work is to eat and wait to die.

It's like watching the sand in an hourglass slowly flow down, but you can't do anything about it.

Until later, by chance, when I was traveling abroad, I saw a boy group on the side of the road.

Because I had a translator with me, I understood it without much effort.

It probably means to say what kind of boy group I am, and to show everyone who I am.

Even the translators don’t know how to translate the group name. Firstly, it’s not well-known, and secondly, it’s very strange.

Fat carbon sour?

This is a vague pronunciation translated to me at the time.

It was a golden road section, and the crowds were constantly flowing, but few people were willing to stop and take a look.

Because I had nothing to do, I leaned against the trunk of a tree and watched the whole performance.

My overall impression is that the song is not bad, the dance is very neat, the rap is very handsome, and the treble is amazing.

But the disadvantage is that, from the inside out, the whole group gave me a feeling of the second disease.

But these are not shortcomings after I saw one of the small details.

Towards the end, there was a movement in which a boy supported another child, stepped on the backs of the players from right to left in the air and then landed.

With their backs to us, the five boys who were waiting to be trampled held hands together, even interlocking their fingers.

I thought I would find it very strange, after all, they are all young and vigorous, so it's fine to hold hands, but the fingers are still intertwined.

But not.

I, who have been alone all year round, suddenly felt admiration for this kind of friendship in my heart.

After returning to China, I was bored one day, and I thought of this group.

I wanted to search, but found that I had no idea what it was called.

Fat carbon sour?

I bit the bullet and posted this transliteration on the Internet for help.

In the end, I got the information amidst the laughter of others.

BTS.

...this is a defense force...

This is my first reaction to the group name.

Feeling ashamed, I watched the MV of "nomoredream".

Even with Chinese subtitles.

I have a feeling after watching it.

It's like being scolded for a song :)

I even applauded when I was watching the show, but today I found out that the lyrics are scolding me :)

At that time, I was so angry that I almost ran away, and my computer was almost turned over by me.

But after calming down and thinking about it, I found it funny again.

I, a calm person like me, suddenly got so angry because I was poked at my pride.

People scolded the scum of this society without dreams, and I, a rich second-generation schoolmaster, was scolded.

Just because I don't know what I want to do, what I want.

That afternoon, I sat quietly for a long time.

At that time, I realized for the first time that my life had passed 16 years in vain.

In the evening, I watched some of their small programs again.

That was another first time.

For the first time, I knew that it took so much time and energy to watch such a neat dance.

...the dance seems to be pretty cool too.

Since then, I have tried to start a different lifestyle, and I have also signed up for a dance class.

It seems that because of my size, I am clumsy at learning, but after thinking about it, no matter what, I can't dance worse than Kim Namjoon.

[Kim Namjoon: Believe it or not, you knelt down and apologized for singing a rap :)]

In this way, relying on a group, I entered a new chapter in my life.

In the second year of high school, following the teacher's suggestion, I danced one of their dances with the rest of the dance class and uploaded it.

At that time, it was not considered a dance troupe.

At first, it was just for fun.

After a long time, I found that it became a habit for everyone to dance together and post videos, so I thought of building a dance troupe.

Because it was an activity initiated by me, they unanimously asked me to be the team leader.

Out of curiosity, I said yes.

When I was still thinking about the group name, my peaceful life was suddenly broken.

There was a person who claimed to be a fan, he couldn't understand that I only danced bulletproof dances and didn't look at other people's performances, and chased me, from the first video to the latest video, probably just "look down on other Korean groups".

This statement even got the support of many people.

Dance practice is more than fine.

Others have learned longer than me, so they can practice a new dance faster than me, and with the burden of my studies, it would be nice to be able to practice BTS, let alone other groups.

I thought, if I don't explain, this matter will be over, and I even posted a few words of ridicule.

But things intensified.

Gradually, under the dance videos of other groups danced by other members, there were also abuses directed at me.

At that time, I was 18 years old and in the third year of high school.

For the first time, I felt cyberbullying.

I'm still pretty scared.

But it seems that because of that teasing Weibo, no one thinks I care about it.

The fans also think the same way. The nervous members really think that I can hold on when they see me trying to be brave.

The insults continued, and everyone ignored them.

I began to suffer from insomnia, startled, and even hallucinated.

Just when I was thinking about whether to see a psychiatrist, one day, I received a private message on my mobile phone.

At that time, I hadn’t read private messages for a long time.

Because it's all nonsense remarks and abuse.

But I don't know why, maybe I was thinking about seeing a psychiatrist the next day, so I opened that private letter.

There is only one link to the song.

"Tomorrow".

That night, accompanied by this song, I fell asleep for the first time in the past six months.

Every day after that, this person will send me a song.

The songs seemed to follow her mood.

When it's good it's "missright", when it's melancholy it's "rain", when it's bad it's "nomoredream", and once sent me the Chinese version of "boyinluv" like crazy.

My life gradually began to miraculously return to peace with those songs.

I started to face up to those abuses.

Weibo, which has been silent for half a year, was suddenly updated by me.

I sent a very long statement, explaining in detail the reasons why I didn't review other groups, and also announced the name of the group by the way.

Boysmeetevil.

It symbolizes this incident, as if I met a ghost :)

Most of the people who knew the reason apologized to me, and a small number of extreme people still insisted on their own words.

And I don't care that much anymore.

Not everyone has brains :)

The night after the statement was issued, I received another private letter.

It was still from that girl, and she only sent me one sentence.

"After the sun rises, it pierces the darkness of dawn."

All of a sudden I reacted.

This corresponds to the lyrics of "tomorrow".

"The dawn is darkest before the sun rises."

I knew she wasn't the first person to notice that I wasn't feeling right, and she certainly wasn't the first person to encourage me.

But it just so happened that I only saw her.

I clicked on this girl's homepage, her Weibo is very simple, chasing stars, occasionally mixed with a few pictures of her own life.

There appears to be a selfie.

It's still very correct, the kind of selfie taken by someone who knows that they can't take selfies at a glance.

I sneered, changed my trumpet, and paid attention to her.

anran.

Seems like a very interesting girl.

Later, I started to pay attention to her.

She occasionally posts landscape photos of M City, so she should be from M City.

What a coincidence...

Also because of this, I participated in Ami's offline activities several times for the first time.

There are so many people :)

But why not have her :)

At that time, I wanted to get to know her very much, and for nothing else, I just wanted to say thank you to her face to face.

Later, while waiting at the bus stop, I saw her.

Regardless of Zhang Nian's repeated "we don't take this bus", I resolutely got on the bus and put coins.

I kept staring at her.

Finally, under the reminder of her peers, she raised her head.

At that moment, I knew that it should be solved by more than just saying "thank you".

The author has something to say: Zhang Nian: Why did I follow this idiot into the car :)