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It is actually not difficult for Pei Chongyuan to know which hospital Jiang Xi lives in. Qin Song or the new waiter will definitely go to see it at night, as long as he waits patiently and then secretly follows.

However, he has already told Jiang Xi that the matter of renting a house was the last time he was "shameless", and from now on he will exchange his sincerity for his real intentions.

Qin Song refused to say anything, Pei Chongyuan didn't ask any more questions, and went out after drinking and paying the bill.

He did something that may be exaggerated in the eyes of outsiders, but he was only touched by his own climax-looking for hospitals from hospital to hospital.

Starting from the hospital closest to Jiang Xi's home, I went to the inpatient department and asked if there was any patient named Jiang Xi.

Such a thing, the former Pei Chongyuan would never be able to do it.

At that time, he would think, since there is a more convenient way, why not take a shortcut?Why waste so much time on such pointless things?

But for him now, this is not meaningless.

During this search, Pei Chongyuan suddenly felt that he was not only looking for Jiang Xi, but also for himself.

The self who was abandoned by him early and was also sincere and pure.

Recently, Pei Chongyuan has been thinking about a question, why he met so many people, but Jiang Xi made him unforgettable, so unforgettable that he refused to let him go no matter what.

He could actually see that Jiang Xi's life had been completely rewritten in the past few years without him, and his name was no longer in the other party's life roster.

People have a good life, but he is not reconciled.

Pei Chongyuan walked into the gate of the inpatient department, and suddenly realized that he had once boasted to Jiang Xi that he would protect his idealism, but in fact, now, it was Jiang Xi who was keeping him from chasing fame and gain and cunning reality. Take out.

The two of them always seem to be pulling each other, and there is no definite number on who will win.

This is the third hospital he went to. With such a toss in the depths of winter, Pei Chong was far from feeling cold or tired, but also a little excited.

It seemed that he had regained the steaming faith he had when he was young and vigorous. He hadn't felt this way for a long time.

"Jiang Xi, right?" The nurse at the consultation desk of the inpatient department checked, "Well, there is one."

Pei Chongyuan looked at the corridor of the ward and smiled, so he said that Huangtian pays off. Although he was only moved by himself, he was indeed moved by himself.

After Pei Chongyuan asked for the ward number, he thanked him and walked lightly inside.

It was late at this time, and he was afraid of disturbing others.

The corridors of the hospital are very quiet. Occasionally, patients and their family members pass by. Everyone is quiet and respectful of the night.

Pei Chongyuan came to Jiang Xi's ward, which was a double room with a bed on the left and right sides.

He stood in the doorway, looking in through the window.

Facing him was a window, the curtains were drawn, and the moonlight could not be seen. On the right, a boy in his early twenties was lying there playing games on his mobile phone. The light-colored bed curtains were not drawn, and he On the opposite side of the room, the curtain was drawn tightly, and it was impossible to see what the people inside were doing.

Pei Chongyuan looked away, and stared at the patient's name by the door for a long time.

Jiang Xi.

He is very familiar with these two words, but he still feels his heart beat when he looks at them like this.

When you really fall in love with someone, even his name will be extra special.

He gently opened the door and walked in. The boy on the right side of the hospital bed glanced at him, and he nodded slightly to express his apology for disturbing him late at night.

Jiang Xi has been lying there watching a movie with headphones on, not knowing that someone came in, until the curtain in front of the window was opened a gap, he looked up, and then froze.

The movie seemed to be muted by someone suddenly, and he couldn't hear anything. He could only see the man in front of him walk in, draw the curtains again, take off his coat and hang it aside, and sit on the stool beside his bed.

Jiang Xi didn't react for a long time. When he came back to his senses, he immediately paused the movie, took off his earphones, and asked with a frown, "Why are you here?"

Pei Chongyuan gave a "shh" to signal him to keep his voice down.

"Don't disturb others." Pei Chongyuan said with a smile in a low voice, "Come and see you."

Jiang Xi frowned and put the phone aside.

"I heard you going out last night, and I was worried that you were going out on a date." Pei Chongyuan said, "Although it's not kind to say so, compared to you dating someone else, this result obviously makes me feel more at ease now."

"...Can you talk?" Jiang Xi was not in a good mood at first, and suddenly had his appendix cut, and he had to be hospitalized. No matter how he thought about it, he felt annoyed, but it turned out that Pei Chongyuan It's not good to talk, and he is angry at him in the middle of the night. If there are other patients living across the street, Jiang Xi really wants to swear.

"To be honest, I can't do it anymore?" Pei Chongyuan smiled, "But to be honest, I'm a little scared today."

He lowered his eyes, looked at Jiang Xi's hand by the window, wanted to hold it, but dared not.

He didn't look forward and backward like this before, holding hands when he wanted to, kissing when he wanted to kiss, he was always confident that he could tame whoever he wanted.

But it’s gone now. It’s not that he doesn’t have that kind of self-confidence anymore, but that he has handed over a lot of power to Jiang Xi.

If in the past he was a scheming fishing master who would choose different baits according to different situations to lure Jiang Xi into the bait, then now he is a calm fisherman with even straight hooks.

He no longer used any so-called routines to deal with Jiang Xi, only waiting for the other party to be moved by his sincerity and come over willingly.

This must be the only way between them, otherwise there will be no future.

This process may take a long time, and Pei Chongyuan is ready for a protracted battle.

Jiang Xi looked at him without saying anything.

"I came back from get off work and saw that the lunch box and the note at the door were gone, and I was a little happy, thinking that you were finally moved by me." Pei Chongyuan smiled and said, "I saw Tong Ye and the others took your dog away Now, when I thought about it, something must have happened to you."

He looked up at Jiang Xi: "Did you come here by yourself last night?"

"Yes." Jiang Xi looked at him calmly.

"It's uncomfortable, right?" Pei Chongyuan said, "Why didn't you call me?"

Jiang Xi smiled: "Why did I call you?"

He said: "Even if I need help, Tong Ye, Teacher Rong, Qin Song, I can find many people."

A lot, but there is no Pei Chongyuan.

"Brother Pei, haven't you seen it yet?" Jiang Xi said softly, "The two of us are already over, completely over, and I don't need you anymore, I don't want you anymore."

It is rare for Jiang Xi to calmly say these things to Pei Chongyuan: "I used to love you very passionately, and I regarded you as my world, and I regarded this relationship as extremely important. I also thought about it, but in fact, I was sometimes very stubborn at that time , including our breakup."

He suddenly wanted to smoke, but at the moment he couldn't.

"I thought about it later, if at that time I was not so impulsive and directly separated from you, but was willing to sit down and chat with you calmly, would our results be different." Jiang Xi said, "But at that time I am like that, impulsive, dignity above all else, this may be too funny to understand in the eyes of some people."

"I can understand." Pei Chongyuan said, "I can understand."

He really understands.

Jiang Xi's so-called dignity is above everything else, but in fact it may not be greater than his love for him. It is precisely because he loves him too much and goes all out, so he can't tolerate the other party's deception.

A person who had a hard time trusting others finally opened himself up and spared no effort to love and dedicate love, only to be told suddenly that his trust was not worth mentioning to the other party.

No one will accept it.

Pei Chongyuan knew him, so he also understood him.

"I'm not saying this to justify my past behavior, nor to miss the past with you," Jiang Xi said, "I just want to say that no matter what happened before, the high fever has subsided, and my The disease is cured."

"But I don't have mine yet." Pei Chongyuan was still ruthless, and held his hand, "Xiaoxi, I'm not in a hurry, and neither are you."

He said: "I'm not in a hurry to ask you to come back, and you don't have to rush to reject me. The things between the two of us can't be changed just by turning the page, but you know it in your heart."

Jiang Xi was silent.

He looked down at the hand he was holding, and then pulled it out bit by bit.

"I really turned the page."

Pei Chongyuan looked at his withdrawn hand and sighed.

He was not surprised at Jiang Xi's words, because the other party was such a person.

Decisively, he said that he would not leave any room for separation.

Be cruel, both to yourself and to others.

"Okay, let's change the story." Pei Chongyuan said, "The past has been changed, so let's write a new story."

Pei Chongyuan stood up and put on his coat.

"A broken mirror can't be put together, no matter how carefully you glue it on, the cracks will still remain." Pei Chongyuan said, "In your heart, the mirror between the two of us is probably broken into powder, so it's okay to put it together It's possible."

He walked back to the bed again and looked down at Jiang Xi: "It's okay, let's not fight anymore, anyway, the days are still long, re-grind, brighter and cleaner than before, it can illuminate both of our hearts Clear and clear."

Jiang Xi looked up at him slightly, and couldn't tell what it was like listening to his words.

Yes, in Jiang Xi's heart, the broken mirror can never be reunited, the deep and shallow cracks will follow them for a lifetime, once the crack is touched, it is easy to break again.

Therefore, he refused and resisted Pei Chongyuan's approach.

However, he didn't expect that Pei Chongyuan would say something like this - to re-polish a mirror.

Pei Chongyuan said: "Anyway, my life is restarting now, everything starts from scratch, there is nothing wrong, just a little..."

He smiled, leaned over suddenly, and left a light kiss on Jiang Xi's lips: "I'm 35 this year, don't think I'm old."

After finishing speaking, he stroked Jiang Xi's face lightly, and took half a step back to leave.

"It's late, you have a good rest, I'll take care of you tomorrow morning."