After rebirth, the scumbags all favor me

"Da da da, da da da—"

The sound of the propeller was heard clearly in the cave, and everyone sitting around the fire couldn't help but look out. Everyone said happily, "Did the director give us something? It's so considerate to let the helicopter come over in such heavy rain!"

Gu Qing looked at Jin Yao subconsciously, but found that his face was buried in his knees, which was an extremely tired and insecure posture.

"Jin Yao," Gu Qing pushed him lightly, "Jin Yao?"

Jin Yao raised his head, his eyes flickered, and there was a very complicated expression on his face, Gu Qing couldn't help touching his face: "What's wrong Jin Yao?"

It turned out that this was the person who pressed the floor for himself several times in the elevator. It turned out that this was the person who got drunk and went to the wrong door, and finally managed to escape from death.

Jin Yao didn't blame Gu Qing, even if he wasn't there that day, Lai Su and the others would still set fire to him and wait for him to run out of the room, but if Gu Qing didn't go to the wrong door, given how drunk he was that day, It will definitely not be safe and sound.

No wonder he took care of him as soon as he saw him. Jin Yao couldn't help but think that there was God's will in the dark, and Gu Qing was instinctively repaying the favor.

And the little girl, Jin Yao looked at Chen Xiaoran again, he once gave that child a hand, that's why this child bought him milk tea every day?

Now this young and healthy body made Jin Yao sure that he was alive even though it was very unbelievable.

He was a very trustworthy person in his previous life, and after a rebirth, he was even more in awe of reincarnation.

There was the sound of hurried footsteps outside, one deep foot and one shallow foot stepped on the wet and potholed ground, a figure flashed into the cave, Xu Zeen looked up into the cave while stroking the wet hair on his forehead, thinking that the program team was here to see him off. The few guests who were supplying were extremely disappointed, but they did not forget to say hello to him: "Xu Dong."

Xu Zeen nodded slightly, his eyes lit up slightly when he fell on Jin Yao, he walked over, sat down beside Jin Yao, and called Jin Yao's name in a low voice.

The memory was completely restored, and love and hatred followed. The tragic breakup was like yesterday. Jin Yao's heartstrings tensed instantly, and he didn't know how to face Xu Zeen at all. He lowered his eyes and fiddled with the boiling fragrance. fish soup.

Xu Zeen got off the helicopter and ran all the way into the cave, his body was half wet from the beating. When someone asked him if he had had dinner, he just shook his head and turned to look at Jin Yao serving fish soup there, with a hint of desperation in his eyes. eager to come.

Jin Yao put a piece of compressed biscuit into the fish soup, but felt his elbow was gently shaken. He looked up and saw Xu Zeen smiling flatteringly at him: "I'll trade this with you, OK?"

Xu Zeen spread his palm upwards, and a piece of dark chocolate lay quietly on his palm.

That is Jin Yao's favorite brand.

"Foul," Jin Yao said lightly, "The program team doesn't allow it."

Xu Zeen put away the chocolate in disappointment, Jin Yao lowered his head to drink the fish soup, and he just watched without blinking.

The lively atmosphere around the bonfire before is gone now. Everyone can no longer gossip as they please. They just chat dryly about topics that don't hurt or itch, and their voices have become much quieter. Although his face was calm as usual, the roots of his ears were flushed red.

Jin Yao didn't realize it before, but now he suddenly realizes how much Xu Zeen has changed. If it was two years ago, it would be unimaginable to let a person like him with a serious cleanliness into the tropical rainforest. He has suffered so many cold eyes and beatings. , All face and face are underfoot.

Jin Yao felt a little bitter in his heart, from the root of his tongue to his heart, he remembered everything, it's better not to remember.

The memory came back, and those sour, helpless, sad and joyful feelings also came back. At the moment before he died, he had thought about how sad Xu Zeen would be, but thinking about the past two years, Xu Zeen was even more sad than he thought.

This is not a rebirth given by God, this is clearly another round of deadlock that repeats itself.

After the new rain in the empty mountains, there is a fresh smell of mud and green grass floating in the air.

Jin Yao was standing outside the cave smoking a cigarette, and the ripples in the lake of his heart were hard to calm down. The duckweeds representing emotions were intertwined/entangled, swaying and noisy, and all the roots were buried in his heart. Extremely uncomfortable.

The 27 years that seemed illusory were like a dream that could be broken at the touch of a touch. He loved like a moth to the flame, hated until his death, walked through swords and swords, wandered through ups and downs, enjoyed the world, and experienced Survived.

Fate is cruel and treacherous, rolling over and over again like a wheel, giving you faint hope, and then giving you heart-piercing despair. The memories are so deep that reality cannot be shaken off.

Jin Yao looked up at the dark blue sky. There were no stars, no moon, no light. He couldn't help cursing: "Is it so fun?"

It's so fun, do you have to play me like this?

"What's so fun?" Xu Zeen came over, followed him and looked up at the sky, and asked again in doubt, "What's so fun?"

Jin Yao frowned: "Aren't you going to sleep?"

"I'm not sleepy," Xu Zeen saw that the cigarette in Jin Yao's hand was almost burnt to the end, and he also took out the cigarette case from his pocket, he bit the cigarette and approached Jin Yao, "Bring me a fire."

The two cigarette butts were facing each other, the red starlight flickered on and off, and the white smoke curled up. Jin Yao twitched the corners of his mouth: "When did you start smoking?"

The voice was clear and clear, with a touch of coldness. It was obviously the same tone as usual, but Xu Zeen could hear the difference.

Xu Zeen straightened up slowly. In the dark night, only the cigarette he was biting on his lips gave off a dark red light. He stared fixedly at Jin Yao, his fingers trembling slightly.

"I won't hide it from you," Jin Yao said in a low voice, "I remembered everything."

"Xu Zeen, long time no see." The voice was hoarse, almost sighing.

The night and Xu Zeen's breathing froze together, and the emptiness of the dark night condensed into substance and squeezed his lungs. He could not speak or move for a long time.

With a "snap", the lighter turned on, cutting through the dark night, and with the faint light, Xu Zeen held his breath and looked at Jin Yao's face.

The warm yellow light spread like a layer of gold powder. Standing in the depth of the warm light, Jin Yao's eyebrows were like folded swords, and his eyes were like autumn water. He was handsome and handsome as before, but Xu Zeen knew that Jin Yao was different.

The aura tempered by the wind, frost, sword and snow, the bones tempered by thousands of twists and turns, the indifference and calmness precipitated by the long years and many hardships, before could only be like shadows looming around him. Yi, but now it seems that the skin wraps his whole body, merging with him as one.

Years flow back crazily, time goes back and forth, juvenile, flamboyant, pure, sad, vicissitudes, stubborn, fragile, desperate, tenacious, resolute...all Jin Yao coincides at this moment up.

Xu Zeen approached Jin Yao step by step, but the distance was so long that it spanned a whole cycle, the crumbling flames flickered on his trembling fingertips, as if he was holding a bloody heart.

The extremely suppressed weeping penetrated the heavy night, and the wind whistling through the forest was filled with mournful tunes. Jin Yao saw Xu Zeen's tears flooding his entire face.

After the reunion, this man cried many times. This kind of cowardice once made Jin Yao feel very bored and contemptuous, but at this moment, he suddenly realized that he was a person who had died. Only now did he understand Xu Zeen's kind of nowhere to rest. Where did the despair and the frenzy of turning a corner come from.

No matter what is right or wrong in the past, those feelings cannot be faked, no matter how sincere they are, Jin Yao can at least be sure that he is unique among Xu Zeen.

So Jin Yao didn't stop Xu Zeen from hugging him, he patted the man's back lightly, and silently comforted the man's violent trembling that was almost convulsive, he took the lighter from Xu Zeen's hand, the fuselage was hot, Jin Yao But he didn't feel it was scorching. In the fierce firelight, he could see the veins floating from Xu Zeen's chin to his neck from one side of his head, showing a thrilling ferocity.

"I know you are sad," Jin Yao said softly, "Don't cry, don't cry."

Jin Yao split a tree trunk, cut off the wet/wet part outside, and cut the rest into wooden strips, and lit another fire outside the cave. The firewood crackled and the pot was still on top.

Xu Zeen hugged Jin Yao and cried until there was a sound in his stomach, and Jin Yao burst out laughing.

"The emperor is big when eating, so fill your stomach first."

Xu Ze'en can make small mistakes, his backpack is full of food, Jin Yao found out a bag of noodles, then dug into it, and found a bottle of Laoganma, he glanced over with a half-smile.

"This... is for you, you like it..." Xu Zeen stammered and explained.

Jin Yao threw the noodles into the pot, and repeated the same old tune: "The program team is not allowed to hide food in private."

Xu Zeen just looked at him eagerly and wiped his eyes from time to time.

The fire was so hot that the noodles would come out of the pot just by dipping them in water. Jin Yao took out the noodles and handed the bowl to Xu Zeen: "Eat it as soon as you can. It's better than trying to force yourself if you don't like fish."

He didn't give him the fish soup before, but he knew that Xu Zeen didn't like to drink this kind of fish soup that couldn't get rid of the fishy smell.

Xu Zeen took the bowl, his long eyelashes trembled slightly, and his voice choked up: "You are nice to me again."

His flattered and cautious appearance made Jin Yao's heart ache, Jin Yao nodded his chin and urged: "Eat."

Jin Yao stood up and stretched his limbs. The forest was empty and the sky was high and the earth was wide. He placed his palm above the bonfire and felt the warm temperature under his palm. It was only at this moment that he really felt the breath of resurrection. He regained his sight after losing his sight. Reborn from severed limbs, he walked from the sea of ​​flames, every tendon and every drop of blood in his body was drained and reshaped.

This is the jungle he is familiar with, where he once stained his black clothes with blood, and the wind in the forest blows away all the gunpowder smoke, but the blood buried deep in this land will not dry up.

He suddenly figured out a point, as if enlightened and enlightened, he was reborn, this was not a trick of God, but an act of God, this was not a reversal of the wheel, but nirvana from the ashes, all those who died because of him, He shouldn't have died in vain. Since he came back alive, he couldn't live in vain.

His hatred, his regrets, his unresolved feelings, his powerlessness... He wants to erase them one by one, and the way of rebirth is definitely not to destroy himself again.

As a human being in the next life, as a human being in the next life, he should live a bright, free and happy life.

Xu Zeen looked up at him in a daze, just for a moment, he immediately caught the different look on Jin Yao's brows, as if he had let go of all his worries, his whole body revealed a scorching light from inside, full of vitality, radiant and beautiful It's hopeless.

The bonfire became more and more intense, and Jin Yao and Xu Zeen sat in a straight line, at both ends of the flame.

"Jin Yao."

"Ok?"

Jin Yao crossed his fingers and rested on his chin, and looked up at the person opposite: "What?"

Xu Zeen thought about the wording: "When the show is over, will you go home with me?"

After the turbulent emotions of the initial acquaintance settled down, Xu Zeen's heart was full of panic. The calmer Jin Yao was, the more frightened he felt. Since Jin Yao remembered everything, he didn't ask anything, as if everything was wrong. He was indifferent, and his friendliness to Xu Zeen was like a barrier as thin as paper and as thick as iron, so gentle and indifferent, as if Xu Zeen was just an old friend for many years, and those heavy and twisted grievances and hatreds were deliberately avoided.

"You will come home with me," Xu Zeen said eagerly, "You are back intact, we will be the same as before, we will go back easily, won't we?"

"Go home..." Jin Yao whispered these two words lightly, and he smiled, "Nanhu Manor has never been my home."

"It doesn't matter if you don't go back to Nanhu Manor. I will stay with you wherever you want. Actually, I don't like Nanhu either. It's just that we have the most memories there. That room is the place we have lived in for the longest time, and I have always lived there."

Jin Yao gazed through the jumping flames and stared at the hills in the distance. In the dark night, he could only see a gigantic figure standing there silently and majestically. His eyes were dazed and it was difficult to distinguish his emotions.

"Jin Yao," Xu Zeen moved his seat and sat next to Jin Yao at some point, "Zhong Ran said that once your memories are all restored, your feelings will also come back. I will see how you treat me today." Understood, when you... left, the rumors of my engagement, your life experience, the death of our two mothers..."

Xu Zeen bent his back as he spoke, the heavy past weighed heavily on his neck like a lead weight, making him unable to lift his head, "You left me at that time, I wanted to give you time to buffer, but I Just let it go for a while, and you're gone..."

"What Zhong Ran said is wrong," Jin Yao interrupted Xu Ze'en softly, "I have recovered all my memories, but my feelings for you will never come back."

Xu Zeen's eager expression froze, and his whole figure seemed to be frozen into a sculpture in an instant.

"This is not the first time we've talked about this topic," Jin Yao turned his head away, "My conclusion remains the same. In fact, in my last life, I never understood the relationship between us. You and I met too early, too early and too late. Early, we have always been the closest people to each other, so it is difficult for others to intervene. You said that we want to be together. At that time, I didn’t understand at all. I only knew that I couldn’t lose you, because you have always been the only one in my life. "

"At that time, I was afraid of breaking up with you." Jin Yao's tone was still flat, as if he was just stating other people's stories objectively, "But the days without you have passed for so many years, and I have lived a good life. Well, I don't need to take care of you and accommodate you anymore, I'm self-sufficient, I won't let you decide and compromise everywhere, I've already given up the habit of submissive to you. "

"After leaving you, after I went to Mianbei, after I went to Hong Kong City, many people appeared around me, and I actually lived a very good life. The two years of losing my memory were just the most relaxing and carefree in my life. Two years, until I remembered it all today, I didn't realize..."

Jin Yao sighed, "You are not irreplaceable."

"Jiang Yingzhe back then, Brother Gu now, everything I have done for you, I have also done for them, I have fought for you, and I have fought for others.

And only by your side, I am the hardest. "

Xu Zeen blinked. He understood everything Jin Yao said. He was so flustered that he spoke incoherently: "I, I won't make you hard anymore. I've taken care of everything. Do you like me? It doesn't matter if you only like me or not, it doesn't matter if you don't want to be as good as I was before..."

He almost begged, "I just want to watch you, to see you live well every day, to see you eat and sleep well, to see you achieve success and fame, to see you happy and happy, to make up for all the hardships you suffered in the past... "

"Don't you understand, Xu Zeen?" Jin Yao's voice was so soft that it could be blown away by the wind, but every word fell on Xu Zeen's heart like a knife, and the knife pierced into the bone, "I can treat you like this now, I don't hate you , I don't hate your Xu family, it's just because I don't love you anymore."

Xu Zeen's body shook heavily, his eyes were filled with mist, his thick eyelashes trembled, like the remnant wings of a butterfly trapped in a spider web, and he stared stubbornly, gloomyly, and almost angrily. Looking at Jin Yao, it seems that Jin Yao has said such cruel words, as if Jin Yao is not talking, but killing him, cutting him, tearing him, and destroying him.

The accusatory gaze made all the blood in Jin Yao's whole body rush into his brain. He suddenly got up, but Xu Zeen hugged him from behind.

Jin Yao could almost hear Xu Zeen's throat crackling due to difficulty in breathing. His whole body was trembling uncontrollably, his throat was full of hot breath, and the smell of blood overflowed from his lips and teeth when he spoke:

"Don't do this, okay? We've missed each other for too many years, you don't need to love me, I accept that you don't love me, but don't disappear from my life, you and I never have much, even if we are friends , as a brother, you can do anything..."

"Give me a little leeway, okay?"

"Let me see you, okay?"

"Give me a chance to love you well, okay?"

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