This disease cannot be cured, it must be cured

Zhanxin Zhisi:

I thought for a long time how to say it.

A few years ago, I was frivolous and arrogant, and I didn't take anyone seriously. My father, queen and empress accused me many times of telling me to restrain myself. Do things according to your own preferences.

Although it has been a long time, I still deeply remember the situation of that day. I have memorized every movement and even every expression of yours, and I have thought about it many times.

That day, you begged me to save your father.

At that time, there was a big purge in the middle of the court. Although your father was wronged, the prime minister and I have always kept the water in the well, so there is really no need to intervene.You are panicked and helpless, kneeling in front of me alone, with your head down, looking like a kitten without human protection.

People can't help but want to touch it, but also want to tease it, to see what the kitten's anxious meow looks like.

I became malicious because of this.

Come to think of it, I really shouldn't have taken advantage of the fire to rob you, forced you to take off your clothes, and used all sorts of nasty means to torture your body and grind your dignity...

Speaking of it now, I can't even tell myself.

my fault.

I regret it.

I often saw you afterwards, and I often thought of your gritted teeth and refused to say a word. I found you interesting and wanted to make friends with you.

But no matter what you refuse, you always avoid me.It was only then that I realized my mistake, which was outrageous.

One should not take advantage of others, and two should not hurt you, whether it is emotional or physical.

After admitting my mistake sincerely, I would like to defend myself with two sentences.

Take your little apprentice, for example:

The reason why I keep him now is not to see you often in the future, nor is it because of any bullshit friendship, but because you are always alone and have few friends, so I have the right to be your companion.

If I look forward and backward, think twice beforehand, and always think about what will happen to him many years later, then I should kill him immediately.

Chun Jinger.

I know your temper. Once you have a grudge in your heart, you will never let it go.I originally thought that there is still time, so I will behave well and slowly ask you to let go of your prejudices and accept me.

Talking to you in the rain that day, I realized that you still remember clearly, not only remembering, but also holding your breath.

I was really reckless back then, but after several years of beatings by the censor, I realized my mistake myself, and now I have rectified myself.

You have a clear eye, and you should be able to see my progress.

I've had trouble sleeping and eating these days, and I'm going crazy thinking about you.

If I could go back in time, I even want to go back to the day and slap myself twice.

Tell Li Chen back then: You must protect this person well, and don't offend him. From now on, his sorrow will be your sorrow, and his joy and anger will be your joy and anger.

And most importantly, I have to explain clearly: At that time, I was frivolous and reckless, and I did countless evils. In fact, I am not that kind of person. Don't get me wrong, and don't be afraid.

In the end, I really don't have any particular quirks.

……

Shen Huan woke up from the dream.

The moon outside the window is half missing, hanging alone on the dark branch.

Thinking back to the words in the letter, especially the part where the crown prince wrote about Shamoren, those words seemed to come alive and fly around him.

Every word seemed to be alive, flying around and touching his body unsteadily, making people feel numb all over.

He moved his body and couldn't lie down for a moment.

Uncomfortably got up to take a shower.

On the second day, the general called him to come before him, and asked politely, "Does my son have a girl he likes?"

Shen Huan said "ah?", confused.

The general coughed pretendingly, "If not, is there anyone who is interested in serving your daughter-in-law every day? You can ask her to wait on her first, and when she gets married in the future, it doesn't matter if she becomes a concubine."

Chen Huan finally understood what he was talking about.

He blushed and waved his hands in embarrassment, "No, don't say it."

"There's nothing to be shy about." The general pulled his hand away, "All men have to do this once."

He sighed: "My son has grown up."

Shen Huan groaned, "You have never been married yourself, so you are urging me instead."

The general rolled up his sleeves and made a gesture to fight.

Shen Huan leaned forward by himself, took his hand and patted his chest, "I won't marry you even if you beat me."

The general had nothing to say for a while, thinking that he hadn't tasted fish and water, so he said so.

Thinking about taking him to find a little lady in the Red Mansion in Beijing someday, and asking him to experience it.

Shen Huan has already gone far.

His back is straight, thin but not weak.

Between the sleeves facing the wind, it vaguely looks like a stretched bamboo.

The general looked at it, feeling lonely in his heart, and his eyes couldn't help sour.

The butler came in and handed him the veil.

The general took it and covered his eyes.

After a while, he showed half of his face and said dumbly: "You follow me into the palace."

The majesty of the palace remains the same.

The prosperity is not as good as in the past, because a funeral has just been held.

The housekeeper waited in front of the hall, and the general entered the Qinzheng Hall alone.

When the emperor heard that he was coming, he summoned him immediately, and put aside the book that was being approved by Zhu on the table.

As soon as he came in, he stopped him from saluting, asked people to move the chairs to the side, and then waved everyone back.

There are only two people left in the spacious hall.

"You don't go to the palace very often. When you came back last year, it was when it snowed heavily." The emperor counted the days, "It's been half a year."

The general sat on the chair, with his hands hanging down, respectfully said: "I'm not in good health, I'm afraid that the emperor will remember me when I see you."

"You," the emperor shook his head, "you are afraid of making the crown prince afraid."

The general had nothing to say and smiled.

"Back then, you and I fought together and drove Kan Molan back thousands of miles..." The emperor recalled the past in a daze, and couldn't help but miss the situation at the time. Shivering from the cold."

The general couldn't help but sigh: "The emperor's fellow ministers are all old."

The emperor was taken aback.

He was indeed old, and the people in the palace saw it, but they dared not say it.

"Other people just flatter me about my long life, but there is no one who can live forever." The emperor laughed, and moved his gray beard, "There is no one who is immortal, only you can say this to me."

"I'm overstepping," the general also laughed, "I always hold on to the little friendship I had with you back then, and talk about it endlessly. Huan'er often laughs at me."

The two smiled silently.

The emperor suddenly asked, "Jun Huan...is he alright?"

This name is very strange, and no one has called it for countless years.

The general immediately understood who he was asking.

"All good, all good."

He said clearly: "I don't know why the day before yesterday. I don't want to study medicine. No matter how I persuade you, I can't say anything."

The emperor smiled, looking into the distance, and let it go very long: "Usually easy-going, but when things happen, he has a temper, follow me."

"If you don't study, don't study, let him be free," he asked again: "Have you ever thought about what to do?"

"It's precisely for this matter." The general stopped laughing, and his expression became serious: "What I mean is that the two lives of Concubine Shu and the emperor's womb, no matter whether it is artificial or not, cannot be changed. My heart... I am very afraid, I want to send the farewell far away, but I don't know if you are willing to part with it."

He made the preparations for Concubine Shu first, and then said to send her away, for fear that the emperor would disagree.

After speaking, the two looked at each other, like two old cats with squinting eyes.

"Back then, the emperor favored the maid on duty, but once she became pregnant, she dared not speak out. Her belly grew bigger day by day, so she came to Hancui Palace and begged the queen to raise the child..."

The general's eyes flickered as he recalled the past.

The emperor stared blankly at the fluttering dust in the air, lost in thought, and said, "The empress made an exception and conferred the title of nobleman directly, saying that the harem's heirs are weak, and she was rewarded for her pregnancy."

"The nobleman became the target of public criticism. He was trembling every day, and he drank a bowl of anti-abortion decoction. After half a month, he developed abnormalities and abnormal lethargy. The imperial hospital used the pretext of being normal during pregnancy to perfuse the nobleman. After half a month, the nobleman was in a trance and spoke crazy words... ..."

The general paused, and said slowly: "The empress imprisoned her in the court of nights on the grounds that she had lost her royal dignity. In one month, the imperial hospital conspired. , kava root, black feather jade cactus powder and other medicinal materials that can cause hallucinations."

"Do you suspect that it was the queen's hands and feet?" asked the emperor.

"I don't dare to doubt," the general said excitedly, "I'm just really scared!"

Speaking of this, the general's hands trembled a little, but he looked at the emperor with firm but painful eyes.

"Huan... is because of being poisoned in the womb, so that he was only the size of a hand when he was born. Yes, the kitten can hardly smell his breath, and his body is black and blue. I hugged him..."

The general choked up, took a few deep breaths, and then calmed down, and continued: "My minister raised him so carefully, in case he disappeared, he would be harmed...The minister is old, old, light When I think about it like this, it hurts like a knife, and I can't restrain myself."

The emperor had already passed the initial grief, when he heard it suddenly, he was only taken aback for a moment, his eyes felt foggy and he couldn't see clearly.

He looked at the general hazily.

"Old cunning," said the Emperor.

He asked again, "How far?"

The general finally calmed down from his excitement and wiped his nose.

Hearing this, he scratched the forehead scratched by the hair indifferently.

"The imperial guards who have been sent out to make meritorious deeds are probably established in the west. They are sent out from Beijing, and they are not as difficult as soldiers from other armies." After the general analyzed, he began to invite The purpose is, "It's better to send him there, he will adapt to it, and it will be easier to accept him there."

Apparently it was planned.

This father is always considerate for him, much better than himself.

The emperor sighed and thought for a while, then asked: "The current royal guards, who is in charge of the frontier camp?"

"It's still Lin Jian."

The emperor nodded and asked, "When are we going?"

"The sooner the better," the general replied without hesitation, "before the crown prince returns to Beijing."

"Do you suspect that the crown prince did this?" the emperor asked.

The general didn't answer, but said: "Huan was worried the night before that his master was worried about sleeping and eating, and suddenly said the next day that he didn't want to study medicine. The old minister thought about it for a long time but he didn't understand it. This is unreasonable."

"Have you seen anyone before?" asked the emperor.

"I met He Sixing, the son of Dali Temple Minister. The two are both classmates and good friends." The general paused for a moment, and continued: "It's just that Dali Temple Minister is the prince's person. He has been walking closely recently. I don't know if there is any connection."

These words seemed to give the emperor an answer. He closed his eyes and his chest heaved violently, as if suppressing a burst of anger.

The prince, who was thousands of miles away, didn't know that he had been blamed.

At this time, the convoy of the prince heading south has been hurrying slowly for four days.

We finally arrived at Heishui Bay, where the floods are the worst every year.

The local magistrate led the second and third county magistrates, walking beside the prince, all with a heavy and worried expression.

Zhizhou walked beside the prince, reaching out his hand from time to time to ask him to turn.

"Last year, the water depth in several villages was as deep as four feet. The yellow water descended mercilessly like a beast. Survivors climbed branches or rafts and were displaced, without clothes and food..."

He seemed to be thinking about the scene at that time, and the more he talked, the hoarse his voice became, like the desperate breathing of an asthmatic patient, "I can hear children crying, mothers barking, dogs biting, and cocks crowing every night. The official can't sleep every night..."

The county magistrate behind continued: "Looking up, there is a dirty ocean, and there are clothes, furniture, cattle and sheep, and corpses of someone's family floating on the water. I really dare not look at it. It took three months to slow down. The season is coming again..."

For a moment, all the accompanying people sighed.

The prince asked: "Is it too late to start pouring the dam?"

"It's too late. I was just worried about the lack of supplies. I was afraid that half of the construction would be shelved. I did a useless effort." Zhizhou's old face was lined with smiles, and he bowed respectfully. It should be too late to start loading sand.”

The county magistrates also said together: "Your Highness is really like the timely rain!"

The road under the feet is rough, and the road up the mountain has twists and turns and no end in sight.

The prince forgot to glance at the top of the mountain.

Zhizhou thought he was tired, and explained: "The weather has been weird in recent years, and I'm afraid that there will be a sudden flood when I live at the foot of the mountain, so I live high together, and there is also a reaction time."

The crown prince nodded casually and asked, "If there is a sudden flood, wouldn't everyone be trapped on the mountain?"

"That's actually..." Zhizhou hissed and took a deep breath. He thought for a moment and said, "It's better than drowning people. For a while, this is the only way."

He is upright, maybe he has seen a lot, so he doesn't regard life and death as a taboo word.

The prince didn't care about these 'taboos' at all, he looked at the front with a blank expression, and slowed down a little, "I can make a few big rafts in a hurry, put them on the canopy, and place them on the ground close to the mountain. Once there is water, I can take advantage of them." Floating up, you can also put some supplies on it in advance, in case of emergencies.”

"I did some before, but I didn't expect to store the materials on the raft..." Zhizhou groaned, as if he was considering the feasibility.

Although he was old, he climbed up the mountain without any effort.

"If the water comes and floats everywhere, the victims will inevitably rush to it, what should we do?" Zhizhou asked.

"You don't need to be held accountable if you are hungry, if someone steals it while taking advantage of the troubled times, just kill him." The prince said.

Wu Da and a few bodyguards who were beside him were used to it, and their faces remained unchanged, but the Zhizhou and the locals were a little hesitant to speak, as if they felt that he was a bit decisive and didn't take human life seriously.

The prince walked ahead and moved forward steadily.

Zhizhou was still hesitating, his brows raised high.

"When necessary, it is most effective to kill chickens to warn monkeys," said the prince.

Zhizhou finally let out a sigh of relief, nodded in admiration and said, "Your Highness has a great plan."

Everyone nodded together.

The prince listened too much to compliments, and didn't take it to heart, still showing no joy or anger.

Halfway through the journey, he suddenly turned his head and glanced at Uda.

Uda thought for a while, and seemed to understand.

Quickly went back.

Song Chunjing carried the medicine box on his back, looked around slowly, and Wu Da approached fiercely from the front, and walked up to him in a few steps.

Before anyone could react, he snatched the medicine box and put it on his shoulder, "Doctor Song hasn't healed yet. If he is tired, his subordinates can carry it up to the top of the mountain with you."

"..."

Song Chunjing: "No need."

Although he was given the medicine box on his back, his speed did not increase much.

Uda patiently walked beside him, stopped after a few quick steps and waited for him.

He stopped and walked, making people dizzy. Song Chunjing walked on his own, without saying much, and without raising his eyelids.

The mountain has arrived.

It is a few small houses with pointed roofs.

Although it is not big, it is novel and cute, and the surrounding area is very clean.

The prince stood on the side of the mountain, his whole body was as stable as Mount Tai. The wind blew the hem of his clothes fluttering, flying around, and there was a sound of hunting among the clothes.

Like a lion aloft, patrolling its territory.

Song Chunjing walked over and looked down, feeling dizzy.

"Stand farther away." The prince reminded.

Sure enough, Song Chunjing took two steps back, raised his head, and looked into the distance with him.

The mountains in the distance are majestic, surrounded by layers of layers, and the distance and near are well arranged, forming a painting by itself.

The cloud surrounded by fairy spirit seems to be within reach, which is rare to see in the north, and Song Chunjing was stunned for a moment.

The prince turned his head to look at him, and found that his eyelids were raised, and his eyelashes were clearly raised upwards, with a rare arc.The whole face was carved like nephrite jade, soaked in water vapor, making it look wet.

The hair tied at the back of the head was blown up by the wind, sweeping across the white face, like the lines buried in the top-quality jade, with a thrilling beauty.

This dynamic and static contrast constitutes a rare painting.

The prince was also stunned for a moment.

After a while, Song Chunjing turned his head and glanced at the prince.

The prince removed the eyes locked on him, looked into the distance and cleared his throat.

Wu Da, who was afraid of heights and dared not go forward, stood not far away, and said proudly: "Song Imperial Physician, look, this is the country that His Royal Highness will inherit."

Prince: "..."

What the crown prince wanted to say caused him to choke and go back.

Song Chunjing didn't move, and the corner of his mouth twitched slightly, "...Then the official congratulated Your Highness in advance."