sunflower man

(10), hindsight

The two were strangers at school. At first Wan Shun'er ran into Yi Jingping and thought that they could not be buddies, so they could still be ordinary friends.He would pretend that nothing had happened and say hello, just to say hello, but Yi Jingping's response was always to turn his head away and walk away silently with a serious face.

Wan Shun'er thought that if she continued like this, she might be too cheap, so stop it.Wan Shun'er withdrew his greeting hand, instead of chasing after her, and instead of stopping in place, she chose to leave in the opposite direction.

***

phone rings

"Hello? You are? Well, I am. What's wrong with my grandma? Okay, I'll go back right away." Wan Shun'er received a call from her grandmother who was critically ill, and hurried home. In order to take care of her grandma, Wan Shun'er had to choose leave school.

In a big hospital in his hometown, when Wan Shun'er saw her grandmother, she was already terminally ill and dying, almost in the state of saying goodbye.

"Grandma, why don't you say anything when you are so sick." Wan Shun'er held her grandma's hand and cried bitterly.

"Grandma is dying, Shun'er, I want to leave you something, come, open your hand."

Wan Shun'er stretched out her hand, and grandma put a sunflower chain made of gold into Wan Shunri's hand: "Shun'er, do I still remember that you are a sunflower elf?"

"remember."

"Don't forget, protect it with the ability to smile, it will point to the light for you." Grandma wrapped Wan Shun'er's hand holding the necklace: "Don't forget, be optimistic and smile from the heart. This is the most important thing for grandma. wanted to see."

"grandmother."

"promise me."

"Well, wow—" With Wan Shun'er's cry, grandma left this world forever.

Wan Shun'er knew that her grandmother was ill, firstly because she was afraid that she would not be able to finish her studies well, and secondly, she didn't want to drag anyone down.The more grandma thought this way, the more Wan Shun'er felt guilty that she was not careful enough to not realize that grandma was sick.

Wan Shun'er held the necklace and wanted to cry bitterly, but when she saw the necklace, she thought of the picture of her grandmother telling herself, so he stopped crying suddenly, and put the necklace around his neck. Before his grandmother was alive, he could not take good care of her. After grandma left, he must fulfill her wish well.

After Wan Shun'er sent her grandma away, her mother also disappeared from the world. She changed her phone and never revealed her new home address. It seems that her grandma's huge medical expenses scared her away. Children's college tuition is gone.

Anyway, I and my mother are already strangers, and I am an adult, so I will support myself with my own hands in the future.

***

After a long time, Yi Jingping realized that it seemed like he hadn't met Wan Shun'er on campus for a long time. He didn't even come to the big class he was taking, and he really disappeared from his eyes like this. So thorough?

"Jing Ping, let's have dinner together."

"Jing Ping, let's go to the bathhouse to take a bath together."

"Jing Ping, let's go to a movie and have dinner together."

"Jing Ping, let's play together."

Some memories about being in college with Wan Shun'er appeared in Yi Jingping's mind, and Yi Jingping tried hard to forget them, but when he looked back, he was also a good friend he had been with for more than ten years. Knowing everything, how could he be someone who messed around outside?However, it is also true that he is on two boats. He is obviously in a relationship with Mu Qian, so it is wrong to kiss me.

Thinking of this, Yi Jingping became unacceptably angry.

On this day, Yi Jingping saw Mu Qian chatting passionately with other men, felt wronged for Wan Shun'er, went up and asked, "Are you still in touch with Shun'er?"

"You and Shun'er had a fight, right?" Mu Qian asked back.

"Ah."

"He said that there is no need to pretend to be a couple with me. After that, I haven't met him very much or contacted him."

"Is that so? Oh, wait, pretending to be a couple?" Shun'er was not on two sides: "Why did he pretend to be a couple with you?"

"Since you've said it all, it's fine if I say it. He was afraid that you would alienate him because he was afraid that he would miss you, so he deliberately found a boyfriend to reassure you."

"Huh?" Strange, why aren't you angry?Feel a lot more comfortable all of a sudden?Shun'er didn't step on two boats, wait, wasn't he angry at the beginning because he was gay, and he was afraid that he would pester him?

Could it be that I don't resent him for being gay, nor do I resent him for pestering me, what I resent is...he is in two boats.

I also like Wan Shun'er!

Yi Jingping was surprised to find that I was jealous of Wan Shun'er, no wonder I couldn't get along with any girl, and I didn't feel sad when we broke up, but felt relaxed.

Why am I so belated.

Yi Jingping's head was in a mess, feeling that the whole world was spinning, he squatted on the ground...

"Are you okay? If it's okay, I have to go first." Mu Qian patted Yi Jingping on the shoulder.

"Oh." Yi Jingping responded soullessly.

***

There are not many opportunities to meet at school, and those who go home to the same village during the holidays should see each other without looking up or down.Yi Jingping deliberately pretended to pass by Wan Shun'er's house, but found that the door of his house was closed, as if something had happened.He hurried back and asked his mother, "Mom, what happened to Shun'er's house?"

"Did Shun'er not tell you about such a big thing? Shun'er's grandmother passed away."

"Ah..., what about Shun'er?"

"He has lost contact with his biological mother and has no source of living expenses. He seems to have left school to work in another city, so he probably won't come back. What happened to you and Shun'er? He didn't tell you about such a big matter." Yi The mother looked at her son strangely: "Are you quarreling? Hey, hey, talk."

Yi Jingping froze in place, he knew Wan Shun'er had a stubborn temper, and this time he might not be able to get back, so he hurriedly made a call, but Shun'er blacklisted his number.

Yi Jingping asked Wan Shun'er's teacher again and learned that Shun'er had really dropped out of school.

"Shun'er." Yi Jingping called out worriedly, his most important grandmother passed away, he must be very sad, he must be hiding somewhere secretly crying, but, Shun'er, where are you?Tell me, let me go to accompany you.