The unlucky life of a medical student

"This way of naming reminds me of Mu Nianci changing the name of Yang Kang's son Yang Guo to the word." Zhong Wuchuan said, "By the way, Yang Guo is my favorite character in Jin Yong's fourteen novels. He has The capital of the harem can only love one person wholeheartedly, and understands the truth."

"Yang Guo is really good," Xu Guangcheng said, "but what I want to say is——"

He sighed.

"After the Yongjia Rebellion, the whole north fell into endless bloodshed and killings. My mother had no ambition for fame and fortune. She just wanted to use her last strength to protect me so that I could grow up safely and live a long life. But that The times are too chaotic to accommodate a woman's petty wish. Do you know what a 'two-legged sheep' is?"

When talking about "two-legged sheep", anger appeared on Xu Guangcheng's face that should have been humiliated after thousands of years, and it was obviously the most painful memory brought up by this word.

"I have vaguely heard of it," Zhong Wuchuan said cautiously, "It is said that it is the darkest... the darkest word in Chinese history... Could your mother be..."

"She's not that miserable yet," Xu Guangcheng said.

"Anyway, she is also the blood of the Langya Linyi Wang family, and she is also the side princess of the East China Sea Palace. Among the chaos, she has her own loyal and dead soldiers to protect her. But other people at the same time were not so lucky. She brought I have been in exile all the way, and I have seen too much... similar to the bloody 'two-legged sheep'..."

"The blood and blood along the road irritated her, who was weak-hearted and pursued mystery, and lived in nightmares day and night, thinking that all this was the fault of her uncle Wang Yan and her company, Ma Yue, and her own fault... time and time again. Seeing the innocent people die tragically but she was helpless, relying on the sacrifice of the dead to gain a moment of respite, the spiritual torture made her quickly wither like a flower exposed to the sun. By the time I was five years old, I was already lingering on the bed, Dying..."

"Using current medical terms, she is suffering from PTSD and severe depression," Zhong Wuchuan said, "and may also have mild malnutrition... But in such troubled times, it is a very lucky thing to survive, and there is no way to pay attention to life. quality, not to mention mental health."

"I was already six years old when she died," Xu Guangcheng said. "Do you still remember Emperor Hui of Jin's phrase 'Why don't you eat minced meat'?"

"remember."

"When I was five years old, Uncle Zhao who lived next door to my house—I later found out that he was the dead man of Donghai Palace—brought me a bowl of meat porridge. That was the first time I ate meat porridge, and it was also my last Eat meat porridge once."

"why?"

"Because that piece of meat is human flesh," Xu Guangcheng said, "Uncle Zhao saw that I was still thin and pale when I was five years old, and suspected that I was sick because I didn't have meat to eat, so he—"

He didn't continue talking, but Zhong Wuchuan guessed it.

"Unexpectedly, there are people in the world who are willing to cut off the flesh of their bodies... I thought the story of Jie Zitui was just a legend..."

"You can't use modern people's standards to measure the weight of the word 'loyalty' in the hearts of people in the past. For historical researchers, Sima Yue was a failed power minister. His wrong decision directly led to the Yongjia Rebellion, and the subsequent Clothed Nandu and Wuhuhuahua. But for those who witnessed that period of history, he may not be a stupid person. For the generals of the East China Sea Palace, he is the lord they are willing to serve wholeheartedly. The 'confidant' who dies'."

"I understand that even a person who is stamped full of evil may be regarded as a good man or a hero by some people, not to mention...the more Sima can become a powerful minister, he must have his excellence...someone who supports him and is willing to serve him. It's not surprising that his subordinates died."

"When I was six years old, my mother finally passed away, and the situation in the north became worse and worse. At this time, the Sima royal family who had fled to the south had established a new regime called the Eastern Jin Dynasty in history books with the support of the royal family. Shi Le finally became emperor. For me and the people around me, survival is the only goal."

"Live..."

"Yeah, live on," Xu Guangcheng said. "Death is actually very easy. Close your eyes, hit hard or jump hard, and you can die. If you don't succeed, then try a few more times. But living is a challenge." This is not an easy thing. People 700 years ago, in order to survive, did things unimaginable in future generations. Facing the most primitive need of survival, all morality and ethics are..."

"So you want me to live?"

"For 700 years, I have always 'lived' in order to 'survive', and I have long been obsessed with the word 'survive'."

"I can understand your idea, but I can't accept it."

"I know that it is very difficult for you, who are in a peaceful age and pursuing a dignified and quality life, to understand the obsession of people in troubled times with the word 'survive'," Xu Guangcheng said, "just like I can't understand Suicide."

"Those difficulties that make them feel that the sky is falling apart, in my opinion, are moaning without disease! They don't know the weight of life, how easy it is to die and how difficult it is to live! They are too cowardly, too delicate, and they will collapse when they encounter a little setback , I just want to use death to escape!"

"Do you think it's a sign of cowardice that I'm angry with you and don't accept myself who has fused the monster gene?"

"I don't mean that. Different experiences lead to different ideas. Your life is so smooth that you can spend time thinking about 'why people live' and 'how people should live', which seems to me very vague. But I... I... In the first half of my life, except for 'living' or 'living', everything I did was for 'living'. Alive'!"

"But……"

Zhong Wuchuan wanted to say that in your era, there were indeed many people who thought like you, "living" was the highest goal, and in order to "live", they dared to do anything.But I'm different, I was born in a time of peace, I have never experienced wars and famines, I have no chance to experience the devastation of human nature in troubled times, naturally I can't understand your...

But when he met Xu Guangcheng's eyes, he swallowed the words that rushed to his throat.

"Maybe you're right," he said, "but I need to calm down first."

"It's okay, I can afford to wait."

Xu Guangcheng walked out of the room.

Zhong Wuchuan lay on the bed, looking at Bai Shengsheng's ceiling.

……

……

"How did it go? Did he forgive you?"

As soon as Qi Ling saw Xu Guangcheng come out, he hurried up to ask gossip.

Di Ku sneered and said, "If Xiao Zhong forgives him, can he come out so soon? Why don't you hurry up and have a wet..."

"Don't think of me as nasty as you!"

Xu Guangcheng interrupted Di Ku's rant.

Di Ku was not angry either, and said mockingly: "Don't be too absolute, as if you will never do that thing in your life! Feelings come from the soul, and the soul and body are bound together. No matter how far you cultivate, you can't do it." Only the spirit does not have the body. In a word, strike while the iron is hot, don't wait for the relationship to cool down before trying to make up for it. This is all, you should understand it, I'm going home and sucking cats!"

After speaking, Di Ku disappeared.

Qi Ling looked at Zhuyin: "You can go too."

"But you and Xiaobao..."

"I will never go back to Netherworld with you," Qi Ling said, "I like the human world, and new things happen every day."

"That's right," Xiaobao chimed in, "A place like Nether that hasn't changed a bit for 1000 years, whoever wants to go can go! I want to stay in the human world like Dad!"

"But I can't leave Netherworld for a long time... there will be trouble!"

"Then why don't you go back quickly! No one here cares about you staying!"

Qi Ling complained and drove away Zhuyin.

Afterwards, Qilin and his son looked at Xu Guangcheng together.

Xu Guangcheng was stunned: "Why are you looking at me like that! It's as if you have paid the rent!"

"We haven't paid the rent, but the person in the house allowed us to stay," Qi Ling said confidently, "On the contrary, it was you who forcibly turned him into the inhuman and non-monster form he is now without his permission, and Stay here and continue to be annoying! Go away! Don't let me see you again!"

"You are not qualified to deport me." Xu Guangcheng said, "I am—"

"He is not qualified, I must be qualified!"

Zhong Wuchuan stood by the door frame and ordered Xu Guangcheng to leave immediately.

"Let's go! You are not welcome here!"

Xu Guangcheng was immediately discouraged and said, "Okay, I'll go! But I don't admit that I made a wrong decision!"

"Don't worry, I won't press your neck to force you to admit your mistakes, I just... just can't accept myself now... I need time to think slowly..."

He brushed his hair casually, and said, "I don't even want to see you until I figure it out."

"In that case, I'll go first."

Xu Guangcheng turned around and disappeared on the balcony.

Qi Ling looked at Zhong Wuchuan with concern, and said, "Are those words from your heart?"

"So what? If not?" Zhong Wuchuan said, "I really hate who I am now, neither human nor demon, weak and incompetent... I picked up a big cake of longevity out of thin air, but I didn't even have the courage to face it. Without... tied up with me like this, he will be dragged down endlessly..."

"so--"

"I hate the decision he made for me, but I hate my incompetent self even more!"

The author has something to say:

There are very few historical records about Sima Pi, and there is no record of his father Sima Yue's birth year, so we can only assume the reverse.

Sima Yue is the eldest son of Sima Tai (who also has no detailed record of birth time), and Sima Tai's elder brother is Sima Quan.

The historical record of Sima Quan is that he was born in 220 and had two younger brothers. Sima Tai is Sima Quan's second younger brother. It can be seen that Sima Tai was born 230 years ago.

Sima Tai has four sons, who are relatively strong in fertility. From this, it can be concluded that Sima Yue's birth time should not be later than 260 years, plus the record of being named the King of the East China Sea in 291 for his meritorious service in killing Yang Jun, that is to say, In 291 AD, Sima Yue was already an adult in charge, and finally it was revealed that his only son, Sima Pi, was already an adult when he died in 311 AD, or had minor children alive.