Lianzhou

"You two are still together."

When Yu Lichu heard this, Monk Zhang Er couldn't figure it out. This sentence is only eight words in general, but it contains a huge amount of information. In addition, the tone of the person who said this is really not kind, but Yu Lichu It is easy to smell a few traces of explicit sourness from between the lines.

you two?who?Him and Yan Yan?

No matter how you listen to these words, there is an illusion of being provoked by your ex, but shouldn't the provocateur be at least a woman?Were you all so open and playful back then?At this moment, Yu Lichu's mind has already frantically swiped through ten pages of WTF barrage, which is still the roaring type.

Yu Lichu was stunned, and after thinking about it for a while, he still felt that the girl probably admitted the wrong person: "Girl, did you recognize the wrong person?"

The other party's face turned ugly in an instant, as if he had heard a joke: "I admit my mistake? Aren't you Yu Lichu? Aren't you and Yan Yan a couple? Why, the nobleman forgets things too much and doesn't remember me ?”

Yu Lichu frowned. He is not a person who suffers from malice, and he is not tolerant in this regard, regardless of whether the other party is a man or a woman: "It's a honor to say that I remember you, isn't it to refute your face."

"You...!" The girl probably didn't expect Yu Lichu to speak so aggressively when she opened her mouth, but she was interrupted by a distant voice: "Liang Ting?"

Yu Lichu and the girl turned their heads at the same time, and saw Yan Yan walking over with two cans of lemon soda.

Seeing Yan Yan approaching, the girl called Liang Ting quickly flashed embarrassment on her face, and called out in a low voice, "Senior brother."

Yan Yan had just seen her aggressive demeanor from a distance, and now he nodded emotionlessly as a response, then turned his head and saw Yu Lichu's out-of-the-ordinary expression, his expression suddenly became a little complicated.

"Brother, we haven't seen each other since I graduated, why don't we go out and have a cup of coffee together?" Liang Ting's attitude changed quickly, and at this moment her eyes seemed to be glued to Yan Yan's body and she didn't want to come off.

After Yan Yan heard it, he made a smile that was not a smile: "We only had a few friendships when we were in school, so I really can't afford your brother, it's normal that we haven't seen each other for so many years, and we probably won't see each other again in the future. He raised his hand and handed a can of lemonade to Yu Lichu, and when he saw him take it, he turned his head and continued, "I don't drink your coffee if I still have some water, we're going to leave now, Eat slowly, don't rush."

Yu Lichu was so embarrassed that he couldn't see it. What he said could break a girl's heart.He didn't want to get entangled with this girl anymore, so he got up and left the cafeteria with Yan Yan. Liang Ting hadn't recovered from being killed by Yan Yantong, so she didn't follow.

When the two of them left the cafeteria, Yu Lichu clearly felt Yan Yan's low pressure, but he couldn't figure it out for a while, and couldn't ask casually. He was a step behind Yan Yan, and he could see a small section of the man's neck from a sideways angle. It's a healthy white.

The two of them went back to Building A together in silence. Yu Lichu went up to pay back the meal card, holding the equivalent amount of cash used by swiping the card in his hand. He stuffed a box in his arms, saying that it was a mahogany bookmark customized by the school for the school celebration, as a souvenir.

Yu Lichu opened it and took a look. The thin metal handle was inlaid with a piece of mahogany on the top, and the school motto was engraved in cursive script, which was messy but moderate, and the edge was carved with traditional patterns, which was very delicate.

Yu Lichu subconsciously thought that Yan Yan might like this thing, so he changed his way and asked the professor for one, thanked the professor after he succeeded, and left.

When he got off the building, Yanyan's face had returned to normal, Yu Lichu saw it, and thought that the first part had been revealed.

Yan Yan really liked it when he got the bookmark: "The school is rare and generous, so I have to confess."

"You have a lot of books, you can use them when you go back."

Yan Yan seemed to have thought of something, and his tone was noncommittal: "I'm used to it before, but I don't think I'm used to it at first."

After hearing this, Yu Lichu didn't take it seriously, he pointed in a direction and said, "Let's go?"

Yan Yan nodded: "Okay, it's time to digest."

Both of them were busy with work after graduation, so they didn't come back very often. This land carried their eight years of time, and there was no big change when they came back.

The ivy at the base of the wall came back after being bald, leaving meandering marks on the white wall. The old sycamore branches in front of the teaching building have not been repaired for a long time. The freshman anatomy class can still be seen from the classroom window on the third floor. Catch its leaves.

Yu Lichu stretched out his hand to caress the mottled trunk of the old sycamore tree, perhaps because the timing was too good, the suspicion just surfaced in his mind again, he didn't look back, he seemed to be thinking while talking: "Why did that person think we are a couple? I originally thought that the girl had identified the wrong person, but she knew my name."

Yan Yan had been talking to Li Chu all the way, but when he did speak, he didn't know how to answer.

At this moment, Yu Lichu turned his head and met Shang Yanyan's gaze. The other party didn't dodge, just met his gaze and looked at him for a long time. This gaze was so profound that no matter what words Yu Lichu used to describe it, he seemed unable to say goodbye. Express meaning.

"You don't remember anything, but what do you want to know from me?"

Once Yan Yan's expression became serious, even Yu Lichu would be taken aback.

His eyes are well formed, which carry a lot of emotions, cover his mouth and nose, and when others look at him, they can still get the information he wants to express from them.

That's what people often say, his eyes are playful - drooping under the eyelids is anger, eyes looking flat is idiocy, and the tail of the eyes is raised is anger.

Something flashed by, but the eyes suddenly closed in the next second, no longer oppressed, they looked loose and vivid, even the light-colored moles of tears under his eyes became active, his tone was teasing, and the It means that the vicissitudes of life are dying:

"Live to this age, and a person who is not relatives or relatives will meet unexpectedly several times, and you will be so involved that you will be too embarrassed not to say hello. In the end, you will never forget it, but the other party will not remember you at all. 30 years old The gentlemen can't stand this stimulation, don't you think, Director Yu?"

The degree of resentment in the three words at the end is self-evident, but Yu Lichu has no choice but to look at the sky at this moment. He can't pry his brain open to see the grooves in his brain. Wronged.

"Can this... contact be established? If the road collapses, we will build a new one. The future will be long, and I will accept criticism from the organization. I will reflect on it later, and I will definitely give this comrade an explanation."

Yu Lichu seldom overflows with guilt. He has used up all his life's supply at the moment, and he can't ignore the fact that he just saw a little bit of sadness in Yan Yan's eyes, but even Just a little bit was enough to startle him.

Yan Yan listened to this meeting and accepted it as soon as he saw it was good, because that sentence will last forever.

The two walked around the playground for a few laps. The plastic track had been repainted, and the lawn in the middle was green in color. There were catkins blown by the wind from the pond next door floating all over the field.

Both of them were forced to eat a mouthful of catkins. In the end, in order to survive, they chose to walk around the medical school. On the way, they complained about the teachers of various subjects when they were in school, and they talked until they went to graduate school and PhD. When seeing the cases and anecdotes encountered by the tutor, Yu Lichu suddenly turned around and asked, "Why did you choose to study medicine?"

Yan Yan didn't say anything immediately, but seemed to be thinking seriously, but Yu Lichu felt that no serious words could come out of that mouth.

After a while, Yan Yan took a deep breath and said, "My childhood dream was to be a hero who slays dragons in the future. Later, when I got older, I realized that a legal society does not need heroes, and there are no dragons in this world— ——Heroes have their own tragic color. They are not standing on the commanding heights to point out the country, but running counter to reality. You have to bear what others cannot do, and you have to achieve what others want you to do. Finally, you have to accept standing Judgment and questioning by people on the high ground of morality." He tilted his head with a naive gesture, "So my dream of being a hero is broken."

Seeing that Yu Lichu was listening seriously, he was suddenly amused by his seriousness just now: "Actually, it's just a boy's blood and brain in the second stage of middle school. After being whipped by my dad, he can't remember anything--in fact, how could he be so serious?" There are so many reasons, my parents are both medical practitioners, and I did well in the college entrance examination back then, and I can get into N University to take advantage of it for eight years, so why not do it.”

Yu Lichu knew that Yan Yan still had something to say, so he didn't say anything.

During this period of blankness, Yu Lichu's mind suddenly flashed. He felt that after so long, he was finally about to touch the core of Yan Yan's self-protection. , the real pain and struggle in my heart.

He thought of the little bit of fragility that the other party leaked under the street lamp after drinking that day, and actually told him that the other party was willing to confide something to him.

Just because people's hearts have always been closed, and they don't want to easily express their sufferings to others. There is a flood of irrelevant sympathy in this society. As long as it doesn't hinder one's own time, no one will let sympathy be short of weight. There is always no shortage of worthless things. What was lacking was touching, but now Yan Yan skipped over his parents, teachers and other friends, but chose to tell him everything about himself, which is enough to show his trust in himself.

Yu Lichu couldn't help but ask himself, can he really afford this trust?

After the last paragraph was over, Yan Yan fell into a long silence. He paused for a long time this time, and finally seemed to have made up his mind, and continued the conversation: "But in the early days, occasionally, occasionally I would think about the sacredness of my profession. Sex, you should understand that everyone hopes that they can fall in love with their profession, so that they can have something to rely on when they are running around in the future, and doctors undoubtedly have this qualification - they are the recipients of this society, they can save lives and heal the wounded, and can turn the tide , You can even keep the foundation and happiness of tens of millions of families. When you break through a case and can give a feasible treatment plan, you can no longer deny your sense of identity with this profession. Medicine can’t make mistakes, except for the outside world. Regarding the questioning and incomprehension of the cause of the error, you personally cannot agree with the occurrence of the error. When you go to the hospital with your own illness, you are a helper, and when you stand in the position of a helper, you know what you are What did I undertake—I chose surgery at the beginning, and to be honest, I was ambitious. I wanted to change something with my hands. When you stand on the operating table, you can’t be afraid of your hands and feet, afraid of injury and dizziness. , but it needs to be straightforward, decisive, and hit with a knife. This is the greatest compassion and kindness for the patient, and this feeling will be addicted. As a doctor, the consciousness and sense of identity are mostly in the blood that symbolizes hope Gradually saturated, so I slowly began to put medicine at the top of my heart, I respect it, and even want to use my hands to dedicate my life to this industry, but when this desire is so strong that no one When you can stop it..." The words came to an abrupt end, but the omitted content was clearly revealed.

Yan Yan said that he was almost depressed at the end, but he hid it well, but Yu Lichu could still see it, he stopped, and Yan Yan also stopped, he turned around, lowered his eyes to untie Yan Yan. He put on a tie, his eyes did not contain pity, but they were enough to comfort people's hearts.

Yan Yan took a deep breath, and then exhaled slowly. He wanted to take the tie, but seeing that Yu Lichu had carefully folded it for him, he raised his hand and put it in his breast pocket.

How could there be no regrets? His career as a doctor was a vain just at the beginning. He couldn't hold a scalpel. One of the big and small medical troubles, even on a sunny day as usual, he passed the nursing station after checking the room, and when he was knocked sideways, he didn't even have time to feel the pain, and his wrist was bloody when he realized it.

Why him?But no one can ask him, natural disasters and man-made disasters, human power seems so ridiculous and insignificant under the push and push of force majeure.

Even if all relatives and friends saw his disguise, they still had to live like a sunflower in a calm and breezy way—there was no chance to start over. Since nothing can be changed, it is better to let it pass.

What a tender world it would be if vulnerability and softness were useful.

Yan Yan has rich experience in controlling emotions, and he will have packed up his emotions in a short time. He turned his head and asked Yu Lichu: "What about you, what is the reason for not going to the clinic?"

Yu Lichu answered the question almost at the same time: "I'm afraid of death." These words sounded like they were going to die, but the person who said these words seemed to be taking it for granted.

Yan Yan suddenly had the illusion of laughing through tears.

But Yu Lichu suddenly changed his expression, and raised his hand to brush the catkins off his shoulders, as if he wanted to uproot his secrets: "When I was young, it was written in the textbook—the fragrance of plum blossoms comes from the bitter cold. My mother used to like to watch the [-]:[-] p.m. show. The protagonist must have suffered repeated setbacks in life, and will continue to grow and become self-reliant in the midst of the blows. In the end, those who hurt her/him have become heroes. The protagonist Thank you for the suffering after the past, and think that all success is a gift of suffering, and then usher in a happy ending. But is life really worthless if there are no ups and downs? I don’t think so. Suffering is not necessary, but it can’t be overcome. There is suffering, don’t thank the suffering and the people who torment you, but you have survived, you have to thank yourself.”

"You are already what you expect in my heart."

Yan Yan felt that he had fulfilled one of his childhood wishes at this moment. He had really become a dragon slaying hero, but he didn't have to accept anyone's accusations and judgments. In front of him was only Yu Lichu, who was standing in front of April Sky. In the sun, she reached out her hand solemnly to him. Isn't this the salvation he wanted.

He felt tears in his eyes, he felt his thoughts flow, and he felt his heart throbbing at this moment.

For the first time in his life, a 30-year-old man has such a hypocritical idea.