【Luanji】Dreamback

This is the man's apartment in Shinjuku. No matter how many times I read it, there is only one conclusion—simple; this is still a nice word. If I ask him to comment presumptuously, it will only be "cold, monotonous, and boring". They are all just plain white without patterns, and the pillows are not as soft as his studio when lying down. If there are not two photo frames with photos inside, they look like sample houses that can be sold at any time.

Why not print it in black and white?In his opinion, there is nothing better than that hypocritical guy.

The door was pushed open with a click, and he turned his head to look at the person who had returned to the room. He sat down on the edge of the bed with a plate in his hand, and could feel the bed sinking slightly due to his weight. The blue pupils were like colored glaze beads, and he laughed out loud.

"Are you pitying me with that expression? It's disgusting."

Unsurprisingly, the man frowned slightly when he heard his words. He had an undisguised joy on his face. He could smell the aroma when he sniffed. The slight sound of the electronic clock made him look away, and the white numbers changed into " 08:52", although he just woke up, his head turned on very quickly: "Ji Lei eats by himself, I don't eat."

"??Eat as much as you want, it's good for your body." Jinguji Jirei took the plate that was placed on the table just now. It contained freshly fried bacon, poached eggs, and a few cauliflowers. It was a healthy doctor's breakfast. .

"I remember what I said, Ji Lei is old and his memory is useless?" The man laughed unceremoniously, his eyes fell on the other's dismal face, he tried to support himself, and found that Without enough strength and support, I gave up wasting energy: "My body is almost broken, and it is difficult to turn food into nutrients even if I supplement it."

"??Sorry, I just want to help you. You have lost a lot of weight." Jinguji Jirei put the plate back on the table, and the man pulled away the quilt with one hand, and put the overlong shirt on his body. Seeing a dent in the abdomen, you can tell that the skin underneath must be attached to the bone without unbuttoning it.

"Huh? I never asked you to help me. Even picking me up was out of your own will, didn't you—you could just let me slowly break down in the rain."

"I didn't pity you, I just... I didn't mean that."

"Since Ji Lei wants to bring me back, you can't think I'm noisy! I'm going to be bored to death being locked up in this boring place—Ji Lei Ji Lei will play with me, play with me!"

The boy lying flat on the bed yelled like this, and deliberately patted the quilt with his right hand to make a lot of noise.The voice sounded high-pitched, but his face looked indifferent, Jinguji Jirei frowned, since he was soft-hearted and brought this person back, it was difficult for him to look good at home-but he couldn't refute that this was One's own self-inflicted.

"?? What are you playing? You are physically inconvenient."

"truth or Dare!"

"??You are inconvenient." The man looked at the thin body occupying his bed, and repeated the words just now in a low voice.

"Then just play the truth!" The man yelled louder instead, as if happy that he had found an alternative, he jumped on the bed a few times, waving the long sleeve on his left in the air.

But it is only the part of the sleeve.After the boy stopped moving, the long sleeve hung limply by his side, and the entire left arm was empty and non-existent.Jinguji Jilei couldn't help but look more at the place where his left hand should have been, and got a playful smile from the other side.

"??up to you."

"Then I'll ask Jirei first... Well, but can you get me up? It's hard to talk while lying down." He stretched out his right hand towards himself, Jinguji Jirei had no choice but to hold his arm, and the other hand supported his Leaning back against the wall, "Thank you Ji Lei!"

"Then let me think about what to ask the first question?" The boy put his fingers on his chin as if thinking, and turned his head slightly to look at the man sitting on the chair that was specially moved from the dining room beside the bed. Putting it on yourself is just waiting for yourself to speak.

【first question!What kind of person does Ji Lei think I am? 】

Jinguji Jirei turned to look at him, opened and closed her thin lips several times, trying to pick out less targeted words from a pile of words.I can't understand why the boy would choose this question that seems to have been answered long ago. They understand each other more deeply than anyone else-even Yamada Ichiro and Bikan Zomake, who were also former members of the team, don't have that much knowledge. get to know them.

The elder's respect for the elders and doting on the young (although the other party is only one year younger than Mr. Zuomake) prevented the two children from deliberately digging into their personalities.

But the Jinguji Ji Lei Club is not only because he was once severely interested by the other party, but also because he used to walk in the dark as a killer.You must pay attention to what others say and do, so that you can complete the task without showing your feet.

But this youth club, who was born in the Middle Kingdom area, has been disguising since forming TheDirtyDawg? even when he first approached him, so as not to let others see his purpose and thoughts clearly, and use the most suitable way to deal with them Among the three, when they left, they turned all the information they got into the sharpest words to make people dizzy.

Win the Battle, but lose the opponent.

He is an experienced adult, there should be more ways to stop it.

"Even if there are deviations in behavior, the strength can be recognized, that's all."

"Hey, is the evaluation so short? The old man doesn't usually talk a lot—" The young man patted the bed with his sleeve in dissatisfaction, then stopped complaining as if thinking of something, and nodded thoughtfully: "But Ji Lei He is my student, and the Jirei I taught is so powerful, as a "teacher", I won't be far behind."

"??Really?" As a teacher, he did such an outrageous thing. Even if that person is kind to him, even if that person is now in a dilapidated state lying on the bed, it is still difficult for Ji Lei to feel sorry for him. With a trace of respect, "For you now, I don't need to preach? Besides, you won't listen, will you?"

The man dismissed those sky blue eyes lightly, the man blinked and smiled, and nodded vigorously.

It's your turn to ask, he said.

【?? Do you really like sugar? 】

"Almost every time I see you eating candy, I also wonder if you have symptoms of sugar addiction... But I don't think it should be that common."

"Haha, Ji Lei asked such a sharp question."

He always carries sugar.

No matter facing all kinds of sisters, his current team members or even his former team members, he always has a way to find a lot of colorful candies in the blink of an eye, although in the eyes of doctors, it is the sugar that needs to be paid attention to.Also related to the name, he is often seen as a sweet and dissatisfied child.

You will get tired of candy after eating it for a long time - someone often stuffs him with candy after fistful as a gift, and the boy always smiles and accepts those candies that represent various meanings: some are envy, some are children. Like admiration.Even Jinguji Jirei was not surprised. In the past, when facing each other, he always had candy in his pocket, and sometimes it was not difficult for a teenager to just block his mouth when he got into a fight.

Only once, after that person calmed down, he turned his head to look at the other person, his sky-blue eyes lost their warmth, and a shadow shrouded them. His head was a reminder of the coming storm, and the candy in his mouth was biting down. It must have been broken into pieces and then melted and absorbed by saliva.

Do you really like candy?He finally couldn't help asking.

"I like it? I don't like it." He said casually, staring at the electronic clock on the table as if interested, watching the white numbers beating regularly, without giving the questioner a look, "Sugar It can only bring me pleasure once in a while. If it is too much, it will only feel sweet and greasy? But this is my character design, as long as I still have and be called this name, I, I have to eat artificial coloring all the time And chemical spices, they have to exist like candy for everyone to see."

"??Feel sorry."

"Hey, why did Ji Lei apologize? This is part of the truth, so Ji Lei and others have to say it all, and you can't lie!"

In fact, this guy is not satisfied with his answer at all, is he?

The exterior of your candy is as fragile as human icing.

【Hey, does Ji Lei have a girl he likes! 】

The air instantly became quiet, the pink-haired boy looked at the gray-haired man, the sky-blue eyes sparkled with pure curiosity, without any malice—it was precisely because of this that Jinguji Jirei couldn't meet his gaze.It wasn't silence but embarrassment, the man sat on the bed and blinked his eyes waiting for his reply.

"??" Jinguji Jirei chose to remain silent.

"Ji Lei, 35 years old and no one should pay attention. Be careful that you are too old to become an old man that no one wants...and don't be too wordy, it will scare the girls away!"

He was wrong, what harmless?This young man is simply a collection of malice.

Although he already knew about it.

"You don't need to worry about it. It's not shameful to be single." After thinking for a long time, he squeezed out this sentence from between his teeth. Your experience may be ten times your own.

Of course, Jinguji Jirei, who is the base number, must have at least one experience to be able to compare.

Men's attention is never on this.When he was young, his profession that killed people did not allow him to separate his energy from this kind of situation. Later, as a doctor, he might not be able to agree to a patient or a nurse who showed his kindness to him—professional ethics are part of it, and it is impossible to determine who It's just because of a little too much tenderness that he has a strange heart, but this kind of strange heart can't be taken seriously, at least for Jinguji Jirei.

Maybe this is just a reason, he would have a "respect" attitude towards the kind of intelligent, elegant women or girls who are trying their best to survive in this society, but he could not arouse the slightest selfish desire

??A god and Buddha who has been cut off from lust, noncommittal, he is not that great, Jinguji Jirei knows that he is just a "human being", and the blood on his hands is not what a noble god should have.

The word "frigidity" is a topic that can be easily brought up, but it has been made so complicated by people unintentionally or intentionally, and men feel that it is not necessary.

"Respect is there, but women who have friends in the past have never thought of it." At least I can't find similar emotions in my memory, maybe I did have it in the past? It was just a dream before being shattered by reality .

"So, Ji Lei likes me?"

"??"

The young man turned his head grinningly, just as if he was asking casually, Jinguji Jirei couldn't judge whether the words were serious, and the other party didn't seem to want to know the meaning of the answer, so he finally gave up and chose to remain silent.

【How do you feel about your current team members, that is, Mengye-kun and Arisugawa-kun? 】

Hey, are you curious?Slightly long hair on the temples hangs down on his chest, and the falling bangs cover one eye, the pink and purple blue eyes that have lost their light lose their warmth, and the other eye is flickering playfully, Jinguji Ji Lei suppressed his head and turned away from looking at his expression Impulse, nodded.

"We are the most united and steadfast Posse." With a smile, he continued: "We won't be broken just because someone defeats us, and we won't be separated because of a little thing like before. Gentaro and Tai Tong They're all kids I've worked so hard to find, and they're the best! Can't deny it!"

"Gantarou is very powerful. He had contact with Zhongwang District and even took care of private detectives, but I found out. Hmm? It's kind of annoying that he asked me about my information. He was unhappy. He was not happy with Jirei and It’s the same when I’m arguing! Wouldn’t it be easier to ignore all the sense of discord if possible—ah, but it’s also quite interesting, so I won’t blame Gentaro!”

"Ditong is also very cute. He pursues what he wants passionately—well, just don't accidentally lose your organs. We also played board games before, but the board games between the three of us are much better than that. It's hard to find all four of them!"

Covering his mouth with his right hand, he seemed to think of something and let out a chuckle, his eyes narrowed into a crescent shape.When I saw the expressions of the people around me, I couldn't help but let the high-pitched laughter burst out between my fingers. In exchange for being hard to breathe, I coughed violently a few times, and my thin body trembled under the quilt. Jinguji Jirei hesitated He reached out and patted his back.

The man stopped suddenly, but slowly turned his head to stare at him, then took his arm and pushed him away.

[Is the TDD era fun? 】

"?? It's not good for you or me to mention this matter, you know it." The fingers of the pushing hand were soaked in the air-conditioned room for a long time, which is not like the freezing temperature of human beings. They unconsciously stroked the touched place, and the man hung down. Eye.

"Speak the truth, Ji Lei."

He squinted his eyes with some displeasure, turned his body slightly and stretched out his right hand, his skinny fingers pressed against his cheeks bringing a chill, the man looked up slightly at the young man who was very close to him.

"The center of gravity is unstable like this, it's very dangerous." Then he pushed the man back to the bed.

The boy snorted, bent his legs tentatively, and hugged it with his weak right hand. He could almost hear the clicking sound of his joints as if they were lacking lubrication. He buried his face in it and only exposed a pair of eyes.

"?? It's like a dream I don't want to wake up from."

There's no denying that he thought the prosperity would last until everything changed--until there was no more war.

Yamada Ichiro can return to normal student life, Bikan Zuomake can use his power to rectify law and order, Amemura Luanshu can use his contacts to manage clothing brands in the urban area, and he can also open a small clinic to help people heal.

The good times the four of them had had cannot be erased. Even if they have new teammates now, they cannot deny that when they saw their former companions, they felt like needles were pricking their hearts, and there was a vague pain in their hearts. Then face up to the battle behind.

"What I once trusted in you...indulging you has failed my trust."

"It seems like the bad guy is me!" He stuck out his tongue at the other party, narrowed his eyes unceremoniously, and even changed the tone of his voice, which was his unfamiliar but most authentic tone: "It seems that you have been talking about it since the beginning." Trust me, Jinguji Jirei. Don't make people laugh, it's not too difficult for me to do such drastic movements now."

There is no denying what he said.

He opened his lips slightly as if preparing to rebut, but he couldn't squeeze out any favorable rebuttal.It is undeniable that the first time the other party came to him, he faced him with wariness. If the boy with the microphone had any outrageous behavior, he would swing the sharp scissors in his hand; Rest assured, untimely phone calls, unconscious indifference and sharpness, teammates should trust each other??

But everyone can keep their own secrets - Jinguji Jirei tried to convince himself, just like his predecessors who lived in darkness in the past.But it was really me who broke the delicate balance of TDD? What if I could be more patient?He is the oldest member in it, so he should be able to think of a more suitable method.

How could the boy not understand the reason for Jinguji Jirei's silence now?What he likes is to see that person's indifference being shattered by guilt, turning into pieces of embarrassment, the powerlessness of the noble god in his mouth falling into hell.

Let's scream louder when you fall to the bottom of the valley. Looking at the other person's appearance, he feels that his incompleteness is nothing.

——Even if his chest is also aching from the past that is not worth remembering, he can still outline a mask-like smile.He knew that Jinguji Jirei could tell whether his smile was sincere, but it seemed that he didn't need to bother to pretend to be an angel in front of the other party.

Hurt others and hurt yourself, anyway, this person looks more painful?? Worth it.

【You? Why did you betray the Zhongwang District? 】

Puchi laughter, the pink-haired boy looked at him like a fool, mocking him nakedly.

"Sakurai, betrayal must be based on the premise of being convinced—if that's the case, then there is no condition for 'betrayal'."

"Besides, I don't want to submit to those women who treat me like a consumable. I can't kill them with my own hands. No, happy, happy."

His eyebrows and eyes reveal the real killing intent, he doesn't seem to see that the other party is so obsessed with destroying a person, but also a group.According to what the other party said, taking their lives may not be able to appease his hatred. It is enough to make them feel the deepest humiliation.

?? Fortunately, this person did not have time to keep up with the overthrow of Zhongwang District.

Jinguji Jirei is not a guy who can make irresponsible remarks behind others, but at this moment he lights a candle for the crippled regime in the Zhongwang District, and the cancer they left behind is still chattering endlessly in his house and on his bed.

"Hey, let's stop talking about such annoying things—! Next question, Jirei must answer seriously!"

【If I die, how will Ji Lei feel? 】

"??"

"Why are you quiet, Ji Lei? This is a very, very important question!"

"...Don't, please don't bring up this kind of thing." The man stared at himself with great interest, the light in his eyes flickered, like a child waiting for an answer - he was obviously talking about his own death but He didn't care, he couldn't understand why he took such an important thing so seriously.

Death is something that they can't touch and don't know. Jinguji Jirei did not escape death. If it is for the sake of the overall situation, he can sacrifice calmly, but he can't judge things that are beyond his control at will... Of course, we can't disrespect this The ending that everyone will face in the end.

"Your ending may be different from ordinary people, eternal darkness... But please don't talk about death so casually."

"Oh, Jinguji Jirei, are you feeling sorry for me?"

No matter how many inhumane and unforgivable things the other party has done in the past, Jinguji Jirei still cannot completely abandon the other party—maybe because he is his teacher, or because he was once his teammate, even if he stands on On the contrary, he cannot regard him as a complete enemy.

It is even more impossible to ignore the broken him.

What is the inexplicable feeling in my heart, I don’t know, I don’t understand—and I don’t want to understand.That's not something that should be excavated now. The unknown is interesting, but crossing that line is destruction. Jinguji Jirei has no plans to let everything collapse again.

"?? Yes. You are not as unforgivable as you said. Although I don't know why, you are still on our side in the end."

Neither of them is pure black and white, each deviates in different directions, but finally for once they are standing in the same position.

Although it may be the last time.

He still couldn't understand why the pink-haired boy did what he did, didn't he do it for the Zhongwang District? There should be a more suitable and simpler way.

It seems that this scene is not about to end with the collapse of the Zhongwang District. Ji Lei has never really figured out what the young man wants to do from the past to the present. What is he still thinking about? The gears in his head are constantly spinning Turning, obviously devoted to this farce and became like this, but never tired of it.

What exactly are you trying to do?

"Hey, it's so pretentious? That's just because I think it's interesting, so I got involved! As for your lives... Well, I only care about Ji Lei's life and death now. You are really strange and interesting, I also want to see how Jirei, who is a human being, will behave that I can't predict!"

"?? Can we really not understand each other?"

"I can't, because it's completely - different! Okay, I'm tired after talking so much, let Ji Lei ask one last question."

【In your eyes, what do I look like? 】

The young man suddenly smiled, as if he knew that he would ask this question a long time ago, Jinguji Jirei suddenly wanted to leave this person and his side, even if this person is just a person without a microphone or even without a left hand, it is completely impossible Beat his boy.

Like a ghost entangled in the dark night alone, talking whispers that he would entangle for a lifetime, but when he looked back, there was nothing, like an imprint engraved in his head that could never be erased.

——It’s a sad genius.

With a muffled sound, he opened his eyes in the darkness, unable to adapt to the room without lights for a while, and could only hear the regular ticking of the cuckoo clock in his ears.The chasing of the nightmare in the past made him a little out of breath, he pulled down his collar and sat up, taking a few breaths before returning to the normal frequency.

When he put down his hand, he touched something soft and was stunned for a moment. After a little adaptation to the darkness, he saw that it was the small hand of his bedmate. Jinguji Jirei held that hand instead, nestled in the quilt and felt a little warm, although Still colder than him, but with an inexplicable sense of solidity.

The man's eyelashes fluttered with his breathing, and he slept soundly, without any dreams about memories to disturb him.Ji Lei felt relieved, lay back on the pillow and stared at the boy's face, there was no gloomy expression, no sharp questions, just a cute and ordinary child.

Not going to follow suit?? Absolutely.

Your prophecy will never come true.

The man murmured to the memories that had become the past and still entangled him, and slowly closed his eyes.