Surrender III

Deep sleep is a safe haven for the tired body against the harsh reality.

And dreams are hallucinations given by the brain that stubbornly refuses to sleep.

There are spiral stairs in the dream, leading to the deep bottom round and round.Standing on the steps, Chu Yunhan raised his head in confusion, but he couldn't see where he came from. Above his head was a circular sky surrounded by gray, as if it was going to rain heavily.He stood in a daze for a while, then took the first step down.The steps were a little cold, and he found himself barefoot.This spiral staircase was very long, and when he was about to lose his patience and stop, he realized that he had reached the bottom.

At the end of the stairs is a door.The gray wooden door, with green moss growing on the door frame, stood alone in the middle of the circular field on the ground floor.The door was not closed tightly, and white light shone through the crack.He stretched out his hand to push it, but the door suddenly disappeared, and the oncoming light made him squint his eyes.

There was the sound of gurgling and gurgling when boiling water.

It was a familiar sight.In the kitchen, a middle-aged woman is cooking soup.She picked up a little with a spoon, blew on it, tasted it, and smiled with satisfaction.Turn off the fire, filled two bowls full, and walked to the study carefully carrying them.

The tall man who was leaning over the desk raised his head and smiled at the people who came in, and the boy who was reading a book at the side also raised his head.

"I made sweet soup, one bowl per person."

The boy stuck out his tongue: "...Mom, do you want to poison me and me?"

"Little white-eyed wolf, do you want to drink?" She feigned anger, "This time it's really delicious."

"Don't drink...give it to my dad."

"One bowl for each person, if you don't drink, don't go out tonight." The man said.

"Dad! I have something to do tonight!"

"Then drink the soup."

"But I want to live..."

"Not negotiable."

"Is there any reason?" He reluctantly took the bowl, smelled it, picked up a spoonful and tentatively licked it with his tongue, and thought it was okay, took a big gulp and immediately spit it out. "Mom, how much sugar did you put in, it's dead!"

"Is it very sweet? Those rock sugars are lumpy, and I can't get them apart. I wanted to put them in the soup to dissolve a little and then take them out, but the whole piece fell off after shaking my hand, and it was too late to pick it up again." She curled her lips. , "I took a sip just now, and it's okay. It's not as exaggerated as you said."

"It's so sweet that I almost vomit!"

She turned to the man in frustration: "Is it really not good?"

"It's delicious." The man drank it all night without changing his face, and said solemnly, "Everything you make is delicious."

"...Dad, did you lose your sense of taste after being tortured by her?" The boy looked at him in disbelief.

The man ignored him, and continued: "But let the cook do these things in the future, and I will worry about what to do if everything is in hand."

"Husband is still the best..." She was so moved that she rushed forward like a puppy.

"Hey, I'm still here. Can you show your love to a place where no one is around?" The boy shook his head unbearably, put down the bowl and sneaked out.

"Where are you going? No bar."

"Hey, it's Yichen's birthday today, I'm going to prepare a surprise for him." The captured boy grinned.

"Come back before ten o'clock in the evening, or your pocket money for next month will be gone."

"Got it, it's so annoying." He pouted and walked out of the study room, passing Chu Yunhan who was standing by the door, his eyes were bright and clear, with the vigorous spirit of a young man.

He can't see him.

Because it's all just fiction.In this way, the brain reenacted a long-forgotten memory for him.Let him become a bystander at this moment.

Father, mother, young self.

The once unremarkable scene became the deepest thought in his memory, making him burst into tears in his dream.He looked at his father and mother in the study, unable to get closer.Can't move, can't talk.I could only watch helplessly as everything turned into a fuzzy cloud of smoke, and watched their outlines gradually blur until they disappeared.

The door appeared again.

He eagerly pushed away, but his father and mother were gone.

The slanting wind drizzled, and the raindrops fell on the pond, forming tiny water ripples, which were pushed away round and round.Under the long corridor of the old house, the young man was sitting on the floor, staring at the chessboard with his brows furrowed.After a long time, he sighed annoyedly, threw the white pieces in his hand back into the rattan chess jar, rubbed his hands together, "I knew I wouldn't teach you Go, but now I can't beat you."

"You two?" The handsome young man sitting across from the chessboard smiled.

"No, a man can afford to lose." He leaned back on the cushion and said, "I prepared a grand birthday party for you, but you didn't show your face and hid here with the old man. It's really... You always don't like to be lively, what will you do in the future?"

"So fine."

"Okay, what birthday present do you want, I'll go and prepare it for you."

The man smiled: "No need, just play a few rounds with me."

"...You're so easy to pass. I'm too lazy to go back at night, and my dad will definitely not be bothered living here. Play games together later?"

"it is good."

It is him that is contained in this door.

Chu Yunhan looked at the young Chu Yichen and himself with pity in his eyes.Which one is more hurtful, the past that cannot be returned or the unsightly present?

The clock on the wall stopped swinging, and the indicator slowly circled counterclockwise.The flowers on the tree change from decadent to full bloom, and then into small buds and buds.The shadow of the sun changed direction and gradually fell toward the east.The raindrops flew into the sky and disappeared.

Snow fell aimlessly.

The boy in the down jacket took the woman's hand and walked forward. His foot slipped, and the Transformer in his hand broke his arm.He lost his temper angrily: "I can't say, but I want to come. What's the value of the wild boy picked up by the second uncle!"

The man who helped him said angrily, "Bastard, how can you talk like that!"

"I don't want this bastard to be my younger brother!" the boy shouted, and ran away angrily.I almost bumped into someone on the courtyard arch bridge.

He raised his eyes, just in time to meet the other person's gaze.

another boy.

Black hair, fair face, wearing a small suit.With a calm expression, he looked at himself with sizing eyes.Those eyes were very dark, and there seemed to be an indistinct streamer in them, like the gems he received on his birthday.

very beautiful.

He was stunned.

Mother touched his head and said: "Fool, this is your brother, go over and say hello."

He didn't know why he was a little nervous, walked over slowly, and asked after holding back for a long time: "Well...do you like Transformers?"

The other party was slightly taken aback and smiled.The brows and eyes are gentle, like a soft wind, which makes people feel beautiful.

"like."

……

The world spins, falls, and crumbles, as if it has turned into a huge music box, and the white snow flutters all over the sky, making people unable to open their eyes.

Chu Yunhan woke up.

There is still a wet feeling in the eye sockets, and a small water stain is left on the pillow.A needle of nutrient solution was stuck on the back of the hand, and the room was filled with the cool smell of ointment.As soon as I moved a little, I woke up from the pain in my back, my waist and abdomen were sore and weak, and my lower body had an unspeakable dull pain.He felt like a doll that had been torn apart and put back together again, all the parts on his body were tossed out of order.

He curled up and buried his head between his knees.

The safest position, but still fearful.

The house he lived in for a long time has now become a cage, trapping him inside, unable to escape.The person who used to laugh at Yanyan with him has now turned into a cruel existence that frightens him.

Master, slave.In the shackles of this identity, he will no longer be an independent person in the future.

Chu Yichen did not break his promise.

He finally got a taste of "nothing".He lost his identity, his freedom, his happiness, and ultimately himself.

If everything is gone, what is the meaning of living?

Chu Yunhan raised his head and looked out the window.

The sky was gray, probably just after rain, shrouded in a thin layer of mist.

He pulled out the needle and got up, struggling to support his body with his legs. The dizziness and pain made him support the bed for a while before he recovered.He walked to the window and pushed it away, the strong wind rushed in like a wave, blowing the soft hair on his forehead.

A bird twittered across the sky, Chu Yunhan kept looking at it until he could no longer see it.He stepped on the stool and stood on the window sill, staring fixedly at the direction where the bird disappeared.

There were some noises behind him.

Chu Yunhan turned his head to look, his gaze met the person who walked in, and he trembled slightly.Then, for the first time in his life, he saw the expression of panic on that still face.

"Chu Yunhan..." Chu Yichen stood stiffly on the spot, his voice seemed to tremble, "What are you going to do..."

He looked at him, his lips moved as if he wanted to say something, but in the end he didn't say anything, just smiled faintly.Turning back to look at the distant sky, eyelashes drooped and closed eyes, let go of the hand holding the window, and fell straight down.Like a bird that has no return date after leaving the nest, there is absolutely no trace of memory.

At that moment, Chu Yichen, who jumped to the window and almost fell all at once, was hugged by the housekeeper who rushed up at the same time.

That "Master!" screamed almost shrill, and the bodyguards and Heiyu outside the door hurried over.Du Chuan hugged the man tightly, and shouted, "Call Dr. Zhang quickly, the young master... is below."

Hei Yu was also stunned, and when he came to his senses, he hurriedly sent his men down to look for Zhang Jun, while he stayed upstairs, looking at Chu Yichen anxiously, not knowing what to say for a while, so he called softly: "Master... "

Chu Yichen was hugged tightly by Du Chuan, like a body that had lost its soul, and sat on the ground staring blankly at the window.In the rush just now, he grabbed onto the window frame so hard that his fingertips were covered in blood.

In his state, Hei Yu and Du Chuan didn't dare to do anything, and could only wait anxiously for news.They have followed Chu Yichen for many years and know his obsession with Chu Yunhan, so they understand better what it means to him if he loses Chu Yunhan.

The two looked at each other, each seeing anxiety in the other's eyes.

If that person dies...

Then, the person in front of me is probably also...