I've suffered so much, I want to look for it

Chapter eight

"I'll just say it! Looking at you like that, you are falling in love, struggling hard, like a fool..."

After buying a large bag of edamame and two bowls of meat porridge, Bai Feifan and Ji Rui went into the supermarket to carry a case of beer, and they returned with a full load.

Bo Feifan followed Ji Rui with his suitcase on his shoulders, and just as he walked downstairs, he found that Ji Rui's house was lit up early, but Ji Rui's face was not very good-looking.Holding his breath, Bai Feifan followed up the stairs. When he opened the door, a familiar gentle man greeted him. It was the one he had seen at the school gate before. When the other party saw Bai Feifan, his face turned pale.

"Ari, you are back... this is..."

Ji Rui ignored him at all, and the man seemed to be used to it. He took out the plush slippers placed in the entrance, and handed Bai Feifan a blue shoe cover, clearly distinguishing his closeness.The slippers were obviously a pair with his own feet, Bai Feifan saw through his little thoughts, smiled, and put on the shoe covers frankly and obediently.

"A Rui, I cooked...you...you and your friends can eat..." Seeing Ji Rui carrying edamame and porridge, the man Pei Songyuan frowned and said softly. "Those things are not nutritious, Ari..."

"Don't worry about it!—"

Ji Rui was very impatient with Pei Songyuan, he cursed and put on the slippers prepared by the man, while Bai Feifan was a little embarrassed, and was about to say something, when the bad-tempered Ji Ruila went to eat edamame in the room and closed the door Before that, Ji Rui held back his anger and let out a loud roar.

"It's a colleague! He's here to play games all night! Don't make any noise!——"

Bai Feifan found that before the door was closed, the tenderness and obedience on Pei Songyuan's face that had been explained by Ji Rui had reached its peak. Ji Rui's attitude was obviously not good, but the other party seemed to be highly valued, and he was extremely satisfied ... This kind of noisy and awkward happy accident made Bai Feifan a little envious.

Ji Rui, who entered the back room, turned on the TV in the room, took out the game handle he treasured, and greeted him: "Come here, Bai Feifan, play two games first to satisfy your hunger."

Bo Feifei basically has no experience in playing games, and this time he just found an excuse to vent his bitterness, and operated the game handle in a trance. Shot by Ji Rui, the blood tank emptied and died.

Even after playing a few games like this, Ji Rui looked disgusted.

"Okay, okay, let's eat porridge first, I'm bored... This time I'll treat you as if you have a cold and a headache, and your hands are slow!"

Bai Feifan rubbed his head, dismantled the beer box resentfully, took two beer cans and put them on the table, the two devoured the porridge, Ji Rui opened the edamame bag, and the two ate until their mouths were burning.

Bai Feifei ate a few edamame, then put down his chopsticks, quickly opened the can, and drank half a can of beer in one go, full of momentum.

Ji Rui on the side knocked on the bowl with chopsticks and booed: "Awesome!—"

After eating meat porridge and edamame to fill his stomach, Bai Feifei even drank a few cans of beer, his whole face turned red, his eyes were empty, and he became drunk.He put the beer can on the table vigorously, and the beer bubbles overflowed a lot. He said distressedly: "You said...why...there are always some broken stones...why...you can't warm it...like The dog and Lu Dongbin, the farmer and the snake... really hurt my heart!!—”

After drinking, Bai Feifan let go a lot and was a little outspoken, but it was better than continuing to be a boring gourd.He talked about Lu Ruqing, Ming Ce, his mother, his stepmother, and his father in a daze... Ji Rui listened carefully while eating edamame. Throwing away the edamame shells, I thought about it and prepared a few words of comfort.

"That's because your boyfriend is blind..."

"That's right!!...But!——I don't like him anymore!" Bai Feifei stood up with a flushed face, and he stretched out his fingers in a circle in the air, like a squirrel occupying the territory, which made Ji Rui laugh Before he could say anything, the drunk Bai Feifan staggered and sat down on the floor with a dazed expression.

"Haha... Come on, give me your hand, and I'll pull you up."

Ji Rui shook his head and stretched out his hand with a smile, but Bai Feifan, who had always been acting free and easy, avoided that hand. He raised his head and sat on the cold floor in a daze, his face, hands, neck, and eyes were all red , looking a little out of control.The other party's defensive posture made Ji Rui's smile restrained, and he stretched out his hand forcefully to pull Bai Feifan up.

"Don't you dislike others? You don't like shit like this!——" Ji Rui was a little irritable, he grabbed the beer on the table and drank it down, his whole chest was hot. "And no matter what you say or think now, if you break it, you break it, and if you don't have a chance, you don't have a chance! ——If you don't like it, you shouldn't like it!"

Bai Feifan, who was sitting back in his seat, was stunned, but when Ji Rui yelled at him, he became clearer, opened his mouth, and said, "...yes, I'm still a little bit unwilling."

"I know it's too embarrassing, but I've been here for the past few years, and I'm not used to it for a while... After all, I'm still very sad now, and the wound from the breakup hasn't healed yet..." Bai Feifei joked He drank another half glass of beer. He smelled the wine in his hand and smiled wryly. "There are some truths that are easy to say and understand, but hard to do. Sadness is still sad. No matter how you retaliate or how you don't care about it verbally, it's hard to get out of this vicious circle..."

"I once gave my heart, and if I dig out my heart, it will be very empty."

Seeing Bo Feifan bottle after bottle of beer, Ji Rui, who couldn't stand it anymore, stopped his hand and took the initiative to drink beer. The two competed to grab the beer cans. In the end, the two drunks almost fought on the spot.

Slumped on the chair, Ji Rui hiccupped: "Bo...Bai Fanfan!...You treat my buddy like a brother, and I don't stand against you. You are exactly the same as I was...!!— — In my opinion, it's all asking for trouble! . . . "

"Did you see that man just now? That's my boyfriend, Pei Songyuan." Ji Rui said in a daze. "I used to be the same as you... I took great care of this kind of white-eyed wolf. At that time, we were stupid and thought that if we loved others, we should treat them well, but some people were not worthy of such kindness at all! They It’s just cheap... Don’t believe those novels, they are all lies... Those who are selfish and cheap, they should be scumbags!—”

Ji Rui's speech was broken and disorganized, and Bai Feifan's mind was in a mess. He shook his head and tried to listen to Ji Rui's words.

It turned out that Ji Rui had a relationship with Pei Songyuan in the past, and he was even more considerate and obedient to him, making him an enviable couple.At that time, Pei Songyuan chose to study abroad with him, and the two stayed together in a foreign country, but for some unknown reason, Pei Songyuan broke up with Ji Rui on his own initiative, climbed another high branch, married someone else and got a green card...

As a result, Ji Rui collapsed. At first he was dying, but then he stopped, gave up his studies abroad, returned to China and transferred to a private West Point school, and got to know Bai Feifan.However, Pei Songyuan, who had never heard from him, came back a year later and moved into Ji Rui's house voluntarily.

After hearing Ji Rui's words, Bai Feifan felt a little sad. "...But you still..." You still care, right?

Ji Rui threw the edamame shells over, unwilling to face this problem directly, he waved his hands pretending to be relaxed. "Bai Feifei, look at me now... I live like an emperor at home, Pei Songyuan has no right and can't control me anymore. You listen to me, that Lu Ruqing left as soon as he left, there is no grass anywhere in the world! Don't take those people too seriously. For those of us who have been frustrated in love, we should find a very obedient scumbag, only scumbags can be HE..."

Bai Feifei laughed, disapproving, and took another sip of the beer can, but there were only a few drops of beer at the bottom of the can. Bai Feifei lifted the can and poured it vigorously, but the wine could not be poured out for a long time, but made him see various halos in front of him, and he was already a little lost .

"You are quite experienced..."

"Bah, bah, it's better to end a relationship than to start a new one. Bai Feifan, would you like me to introduce you to some boyfriends? When you get along with them in the future, don't be so careless. Find someone who is single-minded and will kneel and lick all kinds of things." You can bear your cheapness!...Don't look at it, those who suffer, just like the scumbag, they don't know the preciousness of honest people like us..." Ji Rui snorted. "As long as you nod, I'll contact you right away!"

Bo Feifan kicked him, and he was a little overwhelmed. "...I don't want to be in love anymore now."

"Bai Feifan, don't you dare? Or are you simply incapable of finding a cheap victim? This painful memory has ruined your entire life?——Do you still want to continue to be useless? Stand up and hunt Yan!" Ji Rui cursed, grabbed the edamame on the table, and ate one by one. "Okay! You can continue to be so decadent, after all, you just don't have the guts..."

Bai Feifan, who was on his head with alcohol, slapped the table, his round eyes were angry. "Ji Rui, you boy, who said that I have no courage!"

He flicked his footsteps, "Isn't it just to find a slut to fall in love with?...Ji Rui, you wait, I just want to find someone to keep an eye on you when the time comes!... Let my new boyfriend... hiccup... I am the only one!! All kinds of obedience...I say things and he doesn't go anywhere...huh..."

Ji Rui applauded. "Hahaha - well done, you have to think like this!"

Bai Feifan smiled, stretched out his hand and hit Ji Rui on the head, the edamame fell from the opponent's hand, and they fought again.

The more drunk they became, the more dizzy they became, and one fell asleep lying on the table. Before closing his eyes, Ji Rui looked at the edamame shells on the table, a little dazed.

"Bai Feifei, you...don't be like me...you must be a scumbag..."

Fight for the game world, invulnerable, don't be tempted.

The author has something to say: Bo Feifan: Set up a flag, I have to finish playing _(:з」∠)_

Wang Lin: ... a cheap subject?I? excuse me?