I've suffered so much, I want to look for it

Chapter five

Wang Lin walked slowly across the street with the packing box in hand. He stood there for a while, then swiped his card and boarded a bus.

Not wanting to look out of place, Wang Lin took off his sunglasses. His peach blossom eyes were a bit frivolous, and he was full of sarcasm. However, he was dressed in a suit, making him look like an ordinary office worker, only his chest was slightly messed up by the cold wind. The black silk flowers added a bit of solemnity to him.Wang Lin grasped the handrail tag on the car, and swayed with the running of the car. When someone got out of the car, he sat in the window seat at the rear, and wrapped his hands around the fan in his hand, which was warm and a little hot.

Wang Lin got out of the bus until he sat at the terminal station. He stepped down the steps carefully and stopped for a while on the platform of the terminal station. The terminal station was located in a remote place. Head down, go straight up the mountain path.

This area is a cemetery. Wang Lin climbed up the mountain familiarly and found the tombstone belonging to his parents silently.It seemed that the closer he got, the more timid he became. He slowed down his steps and fell a few steps away for a while, not approaching casually.

Wang Lin took off his mask, and his whole face was a little pale by the wind. He looked at the empty situation in front of the tombstone, and at the bouquet of flowers in front of the cemetery next door, sneered, and walked forward slowly.

He looked down at the black-and-white photo of the couple on the tombstone. The two smiled happily and seemed not worried at all.Wang Lin put the sweet potato flour in front of the tombstone and sat straight on the ground.

"Hey, I'm here to see you." Wang Lin sat with his long legs spread out, his head raised, and there was a vast darkness in front of him. "...I didn't want to come this year, but you guys will be nagging, so I still came. Mom loves nagging, and she loves beauty. I must be very envious of the lily next door..."

"...But you are too selfish. If the two of you leave together, it will be settled, but I have a bad life...I am your son, and I am also selfish...I will not satisfy your wishes, never. "Wang Lin was in a daze. "But it's not good not to bring anything. This sweet potato flour tastes good. I like it very much. You can just take it for a while..."

He sat quietly, in a daze, talking to himself.

"I recently passed the exam. If you know, you must be very happy, but I'm not happy at all. This thing... What's the use of holding it... Dead people are dead, those hypocritical justice is not Re-existence... I have made up my mind long ago that I will not become a lawyer after graduation, so you don't have to regret it, it's all my own choice..."

After all, Wang Lin smiled sarcastically. "I said that myself, but just now I used my identity to help someone. Hey, dad, mom, do you think I'm cheap and hypocritical... What do you care about this kind of thing? Our family's business If there is no well-meaning person to take care of it, what do you say I should take care of it?!—”

Wang Lin stood up, kicked away the bowl of sweet potato flour, and the soup spilled on the grass. He scratched his hair and fell silent.

"I couldn't help it again, it was too rash."

Wang Lin took out the sunglasses in his pocket, and he put them on to cover half of his face, looking quite indifferent.

"...Let me tell you, that woman Fan Qiujing is asking for money again."

His lips pursed. "I will not forgive those people."

Wang Lin lowered his head, smelling the scent of fans in the air, but couldn't feel the warm feeling in his stomach at all.

He felt that Bai Feifan, who had just been framed and fired, was very pitiful, and that the boss of Malatang, whose business had been destroyed and broke up with his employees, was also very pitiful. There are so many poor people, each with their own grievances and sufferings... But, who will come again? pity yourself.

Wang Lin couldn't help laughing out loud, smiling, feeling a little self-loathing.

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After staying under the streetlight for a while, Bo Feifan held his cuff buttons tightly with one hand, got up slowly, and limped back to his rental room.

The weather was cold and heavy rain was about to come. Bo Feifan's swollen face was painfully blown. He grinned his teeth and used his palms to block the wind. However, the wind blew in thinly and densely. It was so painful to be blown.

"It sucks."

In order to keep warm, Bo Feifan put his hands into the pockets of his trousers, but between the tentacles were a few RMB. Looking human, he took a quick breath.

"...It's really unlucky now..."

Bo Feifan stomped his feet on the spot and moved a few times. His body felt a little hot after exercise. He forced a smile and drew a piece of RMB, and bought some instant bread at the small newsstand.

In his left hand was a piece of ham and bread, in his right hand was a piece of grilled sausage, and between his elbow was a piece of sweetened bean paste bread. Bo Feifan gnawed silently as he walked, obviously eating soft and warm food, but he was still unhappy. slumped.

Bo Feifan took a deep breath, shaking his whole body, for fear of choking the bread into his nasal cavity, his nose was a little red, and his eyes were also red, like a miserable puppy.

After struggling to finish the rest of the bread, Bai Feifan limped back to the newsstand to exchange some coins, then went into the phone booth angrily, and dialed Lu Ruqing's number over and over again.

Lu Ruqing bought that smartphone by himself, and even paid the phone bill for a year. Bai Feifei felt more and more uncomfortable when he thought about it. He pressed the number keys hard, but the phone was hung up one after another. It was quickly blocked, and I couldn't get through at all.

Bai Feifei went into another phone booth angrily, and did the same thing. The unbearable Lu Ruqing had no choice but to connect the phone, cursing all over his head and face: "Bo Feifei, can you calm down? Aren't we already out? You made me Very disturbing..."

Bo Feifei was like a barking puppy, feeling helpless and in pain, he said hoarsely, "Lu Ruqing, tell me, did I treat you badly?"

"you……"

"I will pay you to go to school, feed you, and wear clothes. I don't want you to feel tired. If you want a mobile phone, I will buy it for you. I will do my best for everything you want. I look at you silently, happy because you are happy, Annoyed because of your annoyance... Lu Ruqing, tell me, am I treating you badly?"

Bai Feifan took a deep breath, and he bit his arm, leaving a shallow tooth mark.

"But I don't like you, everything you do is my burden." Lu Ruqing said indifferently.

Bai Feifan was stunned, and he let out the stagnant air in his chest, feeling a little ridiculous.

"Yeah, it's all a burden..."

"Now that you have finally let go of this burden, you must feel very ashamed. You don't want to admit that you are being raised by this mud-legged person on the road. You, Lu Ruqing, should be matched with a rich young man like Ming Ce, right? ?...So you are satisfied? I was beaten up by Ming Ce and lost my job. Do you know that I was almost caught in the police...Frauded and beaten...Lu Ruqing, you Do you have the heart... Even if I am just a wishful admirer, you are so cruel, do you have the heart..."

Bai Feifei's eyes became wet.

"...I won't let you go."

"Hey - hello... Bo Feifei, you..."

The phone was hung up quickly, he bit his arm desperately, bent slightly, a little out of strength.

"Stomach... hungry again..."

Bo Feifan took a deep breath, he walked out of the telephone booth slowly, and bought another piece of bread. His throat was dry after eating, his eyes were lowered, and he was a little dazed. After a long time, a drop of water fell on the bread, and Bo Feifan hurriedly rubbed his eyes with his upper arm.

"Ah...it's raining..."

Holding his bag up to his head, Bai Feifan started to run in the rainless night without looking back.