I've suffered so much, I want to look for it

Chapter 24

In the library, the second hand of the wall clock was ticking. Bai Feifan and Wang Lin were sitting opposite each other in the self-study area. When it was quiet, one hand suddenly pushed away the water glass in the middle of the table.

"...Wang Lin, and this sentence, I... I don't quite understand..."

Pushing the book in front of Wang Lin, Bai Feifan slid his fingertips along the line of small characters. "Absolutist moral reasoning...it says that morality has absolute moral principles, which define rights and responsibilities, and no matter what the consequences are..."

Seeing Wang Lin lowering his head to read the book carefully, Bo Feifan stared at the top of his head with round eyes, looking at the hair spinner, his eyes were bright... He smiled uncontrollably and murmured repeatedly.

"Really... Wang Lin, I don't understand this."

Wang Lin pushed the glasses that had slid down to the tip of his nose, and he explained concisely. Seeing Bai Feifan's expression of clearing the clouds and seeming to understand, he thought about it for a while. "Actually, it doesn't matter if you don't understand, and you don't have to force yourself to read these books that make you troubled. With this time, you can make more delicious cakes, or live a more desirable life, right?"

Bai Feifan didn't respond, he silently retracted the book, and when Wang Lin bowed his head again, he reached out and grabbed Wang Lin's wrist.

Bai Feifan's fingers were cold, but Wang Lin's wrist was dry and warm. The sudden warmth made Bai Feifan's fingertips twitch, and he grasped him even more firmly.

"and many more--"

Wang Lin looked at the grasped wrist, lowered his eyes, didn't know what he was thinking, and didn't break free.

"Wang Lin...Mr. Wang Lin, I want to ask you one last question."

Bai Feifan exhaled. "...May I ask you...what did you mean by what you said earlier?"

"Find me, take me to sit here dignifiedly, and don't laugh at the stupid questions I ask, you must want to see the reason for my appearance." Bai Feifei's eyes were moist, and there seemed to be water. "...Is what you said just now true? If you say the feeling of liking in front of you, will you accept it? Or is it just to make me who is like a coward... retreat in spite of difficulties... I... ...I'm not a smart person, there are many things I can't understand, and I can't understand..."

"After you said something like that, you sat here as if nothing had happened. You can be at ease, but I am restless and worried about gains and losses... I really want to know, I want to know Mr. Wang Lin's current mood. "The hand holding the wrist loosened suddenly, and then actively wrapped Wang Lin's hand.

Bo Feifan raised his head cautiously. "Is... the same as me?"

Wang Lin looked at him calmly.

The atmosphere of silence gradually spread, Wang Lin looked down at the watch on his wrist, and said suddenly. "half an hour."

"Ok?"

"...It's been half an hour since I waited for you to ask." Wang Lin took off his glasses, and the discomfort made him squint his eyes. "Before I answer you, do you know what you're doing?"

"We have only known each other for less than half a month. We should be strangers who don't talk to each other. You look down on me, and I won't have any interaction with you... Bai Feifan, although you took the initiative to help me occupy a seat , giving me something, watching me silently behind my back, these things really moved me, and they were very novel, but are you sure what you are doing? Do you know me...some things are not like what you see It's as simple as that... I'm not the kind of good person you imagined, maybe I'm a more scumbag than your ex-boyfriend Lu Ruqing, what you're looking forward to may be full of shards of glass, and you will regret it even more after touching it... ...Don't be surprised, how could you and Lu Ruqing from the Department of Literature keep it from me."

Bo Feifei suddenly stood up.

"Wang Lin...you really said that before."

He reached out to pick up Wang Lin's things, and without waiting for the other party's reaction, he suddenly pulled him out of the self-study area.

The two went down the stairs, and when they reached the empty stairwell, Bai Feifei suddenly turned his head and spoke firmly.

"Mr. Wang Lin, I have the consciousness to like you. Maybe you think you are like carrion with many shortcomings, but in my eyes, you are not a scum." Bai Feifei walked forward, his round eyes moved slightly, and he stretched out his hand Covering Wang Lin's eyes, "Maybe you, as a high-achieving student of B University, have studied psychology and law, understand the psychology of many ordinary people, can guess the reactions of many people, have fairness and justice in your heart, and can stand at the highest level of evaluation." Judging others. But you shouldn’t slander Mr. Wang Lin, who I like in my heart—kindness, good-looking smile, good-looking hair, good-looking eyes, knowing a lot but not arrogant, smart and not at a disadvantage, looks like a vegetarian, He's actually a very principled person."

"... He is here, very good." Bai Feifei smiled, and suddenly took a deep breath, his nose was red, and his cool hands fell on Wang Lin's eyelids, and Bai Feifan's words were full of seriousness. "Besides, if you want to talk about shortcomings and secrets, who doesn't have them. No one is perfect and indispensable. Even if you swear now that you are flawless and have no stains, then I will really be depressed. I I don't want to be a stain on you."

Wang Lin's eyes flashed, and he said hoarsely. "...Bai Feifan."

"Isn't it enough to get better together? If you don't believe or understand, you can use time to study, listen carefully, and think carefully. Mr. Wang Lin, you also know that I chose the wrong person for the first time. If you want to say that you like other people's successful experience, I’m afraid there is nothing left. When I appeared here before, apart from the encouragement of my friends, I was also very frightened. I knew that after you rejected me, you still stalked me... This kind of behavior will make you very troubled, but... I came here without hesitation.”

"I seem to be..." Bo Feifan made a little gesture, showing his canine teeth. "I seem to see a little crack in your heart, I don't want to give up, I want to work hard to enter your world along this crack."

"Aren't you going to see me soon..."

As Bo Feifan spoke, Wang Lin, who had been silent all this time, suddenly pulled him up and rushed out of the library. Wang Lin ran much faster than him. The wind hit his face, and Bai Feifan's throat stabbed at once. Lara is in pain.

"You are really... the intuition of a small animal."

Wang Lin looked at Bai Feifan, who was much shorter than him, his hair was messed up by the wind, but they were unexpectedly ironing each other's hearts.

"Can you ride a bicycle?"

"what?"

"...You haven't seen University B well, right? Wouldn't it be a pity to go back like this?"

"But your schedule says that you should be doing self-study at this time..."

Wang Lin skillfully drove two small yellow cars on campus, with a serious tone. "...I've changed my plan now. Bo Feifan, do you want to come with me?"

Bo Feifan pressed the back seat of the bicycle.

"with!"