Live Like You [Entertainment]

"Two layers of masks..." Zhou Wenjin felt a little dazed after hearing Zhou Yuanzhi's words.It's not that he didn't know it at all, but he just didn't realize that the state of his life would have an impact on his work. "But, who doesn't wear a mask?" For a moment, Zhou Wenjin was a little unconvinced.

"Everyone will wear a mask, or should I say, adjust their state in different situations. When you face your boss, when you attend an important meeting, when you get along with your family, when you face strangers , everyone will come up with a different state, but the premise is," Zhou Yuanzhi paused, "you have to clearly know what state you are in. After leaving this environment, you will return to your most comfortable state , Those masks are like a piece of clothing, it doesn’t matter whether it’s a suit or casual clothes or even a bikini, the clothes are just clothes, it’s not your skin, it’s easy to peel off, it won’t stick to your flesh and hurt your muscles and bones!”

Zhou Yuanzhi's words pierced Zhou Wenjin's heart fiercely, tearing apart everything that he thought he had completely convinced himself for so many years and made it seamless and natural, revealing a heart full of scars underneath.

It turned out that this person could see it; it turned out that his disguise could still be seen.

Zhou Wenjin's ear-piercing screams and low growls seemed to ring out. The two voices, one high and the other low, pierced into his ears through years of time, like a sharp knife piercing into his crotch. Temple, it took a lot of effort for him not to let himself do something he shouldn't have done.

Zhou Yuanzhi looked at him, his eyes were full of love for the younger generation: "People in the creative industry are mostly sensitive, and the more talented they are, the more sensitive they become. Some people call it neurotic, but it's actually true. Many talented artists have been investigated. There is no other reason because he suffers from bipolar disorder, and the creator sees the world with his heart." Zhou Yuanzhi pointed to the position of his left chest.

"This is our heart, which is used as a metaphor. When ordinary people perceive the world, the heart is in the chest cavity, with ribs, muscle fat and skin on the outside, so this perception will go through several rounds of attenuation, which is not very accurate. Sometimes you can’t even receive information, it may be slow, but it’s safe enough. And our heart is outside the body.” Zhou Yuanzhi compared the posture of holding the heart in his hand, “Here, openly, directly contact this The world. Why are flowers red, why are grass green, where does the rain come from, and where does the wind go, because we are in direct contact with this world, our feelings are more direct and profound. This gift of feeling the world and understanding other things is the origin of our creators."

"Some people blame some creators for being sentimental, because they don't understand that without such sentimentality, the world in the eyes of creators is no different from that of ordinary people, and they cannot create the magnificent world in their minds. But," said Zhou Yuanzhi , "It must be noted that although this sensitivity is a gift from God, it is also a double-edged sword, because it determines that we are more likely to feel pain, anxiety, fear, panic and other negative emotions than ordinary people, and these negative emotions The effect on us is also bigger, deeper, and longer-term than ordinary people. Some methods send actors to feel these emotions as much as possible, amplify them, store them, so that the next time they encounter a character who needs to play these emotions Being able to directly extract emotions makes the roles they perform more real, while experiential actors even make themselves believe that they are living in such emotions.”

"Wen Jin, your emotions are too thick and accumulated for too long, like an abyss covered with thorns, the surface is only covered by a thin layer of ice, if you don't pay attention, you will fall and fall to pieces." Zhou Yuanzhi looked at Zhou Wenjin, his eyes were full of kindness, "Although I don't know your past, I can see it. As I said, you are very similar to Ah Che when he was young. I am very familiar with your state. So, What are you playing? Which layer of skin did you put on your own flesh and blood, so that now, that thing has been tightly glued to your real body, and it is difficult to tear off?"

"Who am I...playing...?" Zhou Wenjin thought blankly, and the voices of a man and a woman sounded again.

"Wrong, wrong, homework is always wrong, why are you so stupid, I don't need this kind of son!"

"Why are you crying? You are a boy, not a girl. Why cry! I'm so annoying, go to your mother!"

"Zhou Guoming, if you have the guts to find a mistress, then you have the guts to get a divorce!"

"Leave, leave, I don't want children!"

"Don't try to push it to me. I can give birth to the child alone? Look at your son, he is stupid and timid. It is the stinking behavior of your old Zhou family. Let me tell you, after divorce, the child belongs to you!"

"Smelly bitch, if you don't want the one you gave birth to, then throw it out, and whoever wants it will take it away!"

At that time, Zhou Wenjin, who was already ten years old, stood aside in panic, weeping silently and secretly.He didn't dare to speak out because his mother would think he was noisy, and he didn't dare to cry because his father would think he was cowardly. He tried his best to be a good boy and let himself get good grades in the exam. He thought that he was not stupid or stupid and obedient , his parents will treat him as well as before, he can still have parents, have a complete family, he is not an unwanted child.

The little Zhou Wenjin worked hard alone, introverted, he changed; his sports performance was not good, he gritted his teeth and practiced hard; every day he reviewed and previewed until late at night, just to get all A's; Housework, trying to suppress his uneasiness, only smiling at his parents and the people around him, because his parents said, this child looks depressed, who would dare to want it?Zhou Wenjin worked hard for a long time, but he couldn't save his parents' marriage.Adults have their own difficulties, parents have their parents' pursuits, who is more noble than whoever eats men and women, Zhou Wenjin was sentenced to his mother, but became an outcast.

It was a summer afternoon, the sun was shining brightly, he ran home happily with his schoolbag on his back, and wanted to show his parents his latest final exam results, which were number one in the district.Recently, his parents stopped quarreling and talked peacefully, and their attitude towards Zhou Wenjin was no longer as bad as before. They even bought him presents. His mother gave him a brand new water bottle, and his father gave him a new one. Nice big school bag.It must be because he worked hard to be a good boy, so the gods in the sky agreed to his request and returned his parents and happy family to him!Zhou Wenjin looked at the tree-lined road in front of him. On the empty road, what he saw was a little figure running happily. The little figure had a blue Japanese-style schoolbag on it, and a painting hanging on the schoolbag. The small water bottle full of cartoon dolls, the small figure is so happy, like a bird out of the cage, he didn't know that when he returned to his "home" that day, the house full of his good memories had already passed away. It was firmly locked, and no matter how hard he knocked on the door, it would never open again.

Zhou Wenjin was abandoned by her biological parents when she was ten years old.

Everything after that was like a gray dream.His parents each have someone they like, and no one wants to care about him. He circulates among relatives, like a piece of scrap that has been forgotten on the factory assembly line.People whispered or talked loudly in front of him, "Oh, what a crime", "nervous, if you don't raise your own children, do you expect your mother to raise them for him", such remarks made him so painful Unable to breathe, he lost his smile and vitality, like a sapling gradually withering.At one stage, Zhou Wenjin was even taken to an orphanage by his relatives. The relative who always liked to flaunt how caring he was tried to throw him into the care of the orphanage but was returned because the conditions did not meet.

"It's useless to lose money!" Zhou Wenjin remembered that relative scolding him like that.He thought he didn't understand, but in fact he knew everything.Because I understand, I dare not say anything.

His relatives hated him, saying that his sad face all day long was unlucky, so Zhou Wenjin tried to smile, but when he smiled, everyone said that his parents are divorced and he smiles heartlessly every day, he is an immature child Fickle white-eyed wolf. ——No matter what Zhou Wenjin does, it is wrong anyway.Just when Zhou Wenjin was taken out by relatives again and tried to abandon him, Zhou Wenjin's grandmother appeared.

The marriage of Zhou Wenjin's parents was not all smooth sailing. In the past, his grandparents strongly opposed their daughter marrying this poor and white man, but Zhou Wenjin's mother loved this good man who was "motivated and considerate" in her eyes.A young girl in her early twenties was so persistent that she resolutely broke up with her family and married her.Because of this incident, Zhou Wenjin's grandfather became very angry and fell ill, and his health has been poor since then. Zhou Wenjin passed away not long after he was born.Zhou Wenjin's grandmother lives in other places, but she didn't tell her about her daughter's divorce, so she didn't find out about it until more than half a year later.Although the old man was not in good health, the little old lady resolutely came to this strange city alone and took her grandson with her.

"This is my grandson, if you don't want me, I want it, if you don't want me to raise it!" The old man dropped these words, took Zhou Wenjin's hand, and led him away.That moment was the best memory of Zhou Wenjin's childhood.

The days of living with grandma are very difficult, but compared to the life of being displaced and likely to be abandoned at any time, it is like heaven.Zhou Wenjin cherishes this hard-won life very much, so he has higher demands on himself than before. He has developed the habit of always being the first in the exams in studies, always better than others in sports, always smiling and positive.He is a good cadre in the eyes of his classmates, a good student in the eyes of his teachers, and the "child next door" in the eyes of passers-by, because Zhou Wen wants to make his grandma happy, and he also wants to make the gods happy.He secretly made a wish, God, I will always be a good boy, study hard, exercise hard, and be willing to help others. Please allow my grandmother to accompany me for a few more years!

The gods gave Zhou Wenjin six years of happiness. Six years later, the old lady held Zhou Wenjin's hand and passed away with anxiety.Zhou Wenjin knelt before the old man collapsed, and promised in a low voice: "Grandma, don't worry, I will definitely be an outstanding person, and I will not embarrass you." When he said this, there was still a smile on his face, because his Grandma didn't like to see him cry. He often cried when he was brought back to his grandma's house when he was a child. Whenever he cried, his grandma would worry, so Zhou Wenjin stopped crying.

"I am a sunflower, standing facing the sun forever, no tears, only a fragrant smile." Zhou Wenjin's "Life in the Sun", which received great praise after his debut, was once evaluated by Yao Yuan in the program "I am an actor" The reason why the memorable character Xiang Ri can achieve such good results is precisely because it is Zhou Wenjin's true performance.

"Nothing can defeat me. No matter when and where, I insist on the principle that I promised God and grandma. I am fearless and go forward!" 16-year-old Zhou Wenjin returned to City A alone with a backpack on her back. Years later, I met that little monster who also had a dark childhood.

He Xizhang and Zhou Wenjin are like a pair of twins, wading through the same abyss of despair, one became a sunflower, and the other became a little monster. Two parallel lines that never seem to intersect, but because of Zhou Wenjin's almost "extreme" "The personal code of ", met suddenly on the road of life, like the polarities of Yin and Yang destined to attract, also like the "Pencil Box" or "Tai Chi" they once performed together, but not many people know it, always the shadow of Xiangri's heart Buildings, but they seem to be living brightly and openly in the dark!