presumptuous

Recently, there have been some faint rumors in the Department of Foreign Languages, about the instructor surnamed Xiao.

I heard that Miss Bao was bumped into by a student at the night show, and the scene was embarrassing and explosive.

Chu Xiayi sat on the seat with cold hands and feet. It was a summer, like the summer many years ago, when her skirt that didn't reach her knees was blown by the wind, and she was caught in a net again.

Someone sat down to talk to her, but she couldn't hear anything, her ears were dazed, and finally she could only ask dryly, "Huh?"

The speaker glanced at her, "What's wrong with you, you look so bad."

"I think, go to the bathroom." Chu Xiayi stood up quickly as she spoke, and the girl who spoke reminded her that a meeting was about to begin, and she responded that she would be back soon.

There was a mirror in front of the sink, she didn't dare to look at the person in the mirror, and immediately lowered her head after a hasty look.

Her fingers were so cold, stiff in the summer, she wondered why things became like this, and why things developed like this again.

##

On the night in the rumor, Chu Xiayi was also there. They, a group of restless students, could always find a way to get out of school, not to mention that it was a Saturday.

Because of his daughter, Xiao Pei had to consider quitting his current job and returning to his hometown to start a new life.Recently, I have frequently received messages from relatives, asking openly and secretly how long the child will live with me.

Xiao Pei was also worried. During the day, he lowered his head to face the mobile phone to deal with relatives' questions, and went out to buy wine in the middle of the night, wandering the streets alone.

The rent of the house in this area is cheap, but it is also close to the night market. There are all kinds of people mixed together. It is very noisy at night, and cats and dogs are often barking together.

Xiao Pei seldom came out so late before. First, he was unsafe and easy to be picked on. Second, he knew that there were some restless kids in the school who always appeared here, so he couldn't see them.

Xiao Pei lit a cigarette, took a drink, and walked aimlessly on the street, humming an out-of-key tune.

As soon as Chu Xiayi got off the taxi, she turned her head and saw the face of their guide, her whole body was numb, she hurriedly opened the door and hid in the nearest alley.

The girl who came with her peeked at each other, not knowing what happened and still calling: "Chu Xiayi, what are you doing, isn't the bar over there, you turned around?"

Chu Xiayi had no choice but to say in a breathy voice: "You guys go first, I'll be there in a while."

This group of people was known by Chu Xiayi at the bar, and some of them were already working. Naturally, they didn't know how much a student was afraid of the instructors, but they still left with a face.

Chu Xiayi finally mustered up the courage to stick her head out to look, but found that Xiao Pei had long since disappeared. Still worried, she took two steps forward cautiously, and heard a voice from another corner.

"Hey, those boys over there, where do you want to drag them? They are all my students."

Chu Xiayi was startled.

She knew she shouldn't go, but she couldn't help but walked to the place with the brightest lights to look at the darkest street at the moment.

The first few boys turned their heads and looked at Xiao Pei, as if they didn't intend to leave, but a girl timidly called out "Mr. Xiao".

They probably thought it was boring, pointed to the two boys opposite and said, "Okay, let's talk about it next time."

Xiao Pei rubbed his hair irritably.In fact, he only knew two of the people who were besieged, and both of them were girls. He couldn't help being a little annoyed. The fuck is making a fuss here? Are you in a hurry? How old do you need me to take care of? Go back quickly!"

Chu Xiayi has always known that Xiao Pei's words are ugly, this person is really unlikable, and he sued her with her father's money, he is foolish, glib, and he doesn't look like a teacher at all.

But he was far from scum.

She has seen a really sanctimonious teacher, as a member of mime in the summer many years ago, watching the butterfly emerge from the chrysalis, and the beautiful skin is decorated with the ugly body.

At that moment she suddenly couldn't move.

She has met two girls, one is from her class and the other is from the class next door. She has met them in school and in bars, but she is not familiar with them.

Xiao Pei stood there talking for a long time, Chu Xiayi could basically guess what he was talking about, it was nothing more than educating two girls, and the other boys stood beside him like cowards.If Xiao Pei didn't meddle in his own business today, they would probably get beaten up.

After Xiao Pei had said enough and felt comfortable, he let those people go away, lit a cigarette again, and slowly walked out from the dark place.

"Why are you still sticking here? Did I say they didn't talk about you?"

Xiao Pei opened his mouth without looking at Chu Xiayi.

Chu Xiayi was startled, she didn't know when Xiao Pei found out, maybe she knew where she was standing from the beginning to the end.

Standing under the street lamp, the shadow fell clearly on the soles of her feet, and she suddenly felt like a ridiculous moth.

Xiao Pei ignored her, stooped to pick up the wine on the ground and walked back, still biting his cigarette and humming.

After that day, there were rumors that he went to a nightclub to find a lady.

Chu Xiayi knew what was going on.

It was nothing more than those few students who thought that Xiao Pei was nosy, so they couldn't get over their face, so they sneaked back to the dormitory at night and said something to their roommates.

Rumors cost the least, they are cheap, ridiculous and terrifying.

Chu Xiayi wiped her face in front of the sink, and suddenly remembered that she had put on makeup, and suddenly looked into the mirror. The girl in the mirror had curly hair and a shawl, with a ridiculous expression on her face.

She felt it was ridiculous, her fingers were digging at the edge of the sink, her shoulders were trembling.

Today is the summary meeting, and the leaders and teachers will come. If she doesn't go back, she will be unlucky, so she walks back on high heels.

She heard that Xiao Pei would not take them with them next semester, and she saw more than three people applauding.

Everyone doesn't like this director very much.

Chu Xiayi came back and sat in the previous seat. The girl came over and said to her, "They said that our instructors usually stare at girls when we have nothing to do. Be careful."

Chu Xiayi turned her head with a dazed expression.

The girl thought she was distracted again, and asked repeatedly: "Did you hear that? Be careful."

"Who did you hear that from?" Chu Xiayi asked.

The girl was also stunned, "Everyone says so."

But Xiao Pei usually doesn't talk to the students at all. She begged Xiao Pei for going to the bar before, and asked him not to report to her father.

Chu Xiayi looked down at her hands, her fingertips were trembling, and she couldn't help shaking.

After the meeting, Chu Xiayi didn't get up from her seat. The girl thought her aunt had a stomachache when she came, so she took out her phone and swiped casually: "Then sit here for a while, and leave after you recover."

Apart from them, there were some other people who stayed in the multimedia classroom chatting, and the topic was always something that happened recently, and Xiao Pei was inevitably mentioned.

"Is it true that he went to find Miss?"

"I heard that he is divorced and his children are five years old. Maybe he is lonely."

Chu Xiayi felt that she couldn't make any sound. Everyone's words and laughter were twisted into pieces of paper in her ears, making a rustling sound.

Then someone asked her: "Chu Xiayi, what do you think?"

She knew that the boy didn't mean it, and just wanted to throw the topic to her.

The classroom suddenly fell silent.

The heat wave in the air surged, and everyone's eyes seemed to be focused on her.

Chu Xiayi knew that this was an illusion, and no one noticed what was wrong with her.

silence.

A suffocating silence.

……

"He didn't." His voice was hoarse and unpleasant, "He didn't go to the nightclub to find a lady, he just passed by to help someone out..."

Chu Xiayi knew that she was an idiot.

Nobody wanted to hear her defending a bad-behaved instructor.

In their eyes, Xiao Pei himself was not popular, so the rumors were taken seriously.

Like that summer many years ago, in a classroom full of students, no one dared to speak up to defend that reckless teenager.

They will die in silence, and will remain silent forever.

Chu Xiayi couldn't control her emotions, and saw the girl sitting next to her open her mouth and look at her.

I don't know where the courage came from, so I stood up and repeated: "I was there that day, and I saw that he was helping someone out of a siege, and there was no such thing as looking for a lady."

The boy who asked her the question responded dryly: "Ah, so..."

They don't care what the truth is at all.

she knows.

She always understood.

"I said, how long are you going to stay here? Hurry up and leave."

Xiao Pei's voice suddenly came from the door.

Chu Xiayi froze.

Xiao Pei said again: "Come out quickly, and Chu Xiayi, please stay."

##

When everyone had left, only the two of them were left in the corridor.

"They won't remember what you said, it's useless."

Xiao Pei said casually that he knew these students too well.

Chu Xiayi said: "I don't want to speak for you at all, I hate you very much."

Xiao Pei raised his eyebrows.

Chu Xiayi always pretended to be obedient in front of him, and kept a good attitude so that he would not tell his parents about her whereabouts.

But those are not really her.

Now it is.

Chu Xiayi raised her head, her eyes were red but she didn't cry: "I've always hated you, especially when you and my dad complained, but what they said was wrong, it wasn't like that, I knew it wasn't like that, I saw it with my own eyes... …I said those words not for you, but for myself. I have had enough, the silence is more terrible."

Of course she knew that the result of what she said would be treated as a joke and would not be taken seriously.

"I don't want to replay things every time I have a dream, blame myself or regret repeatedly."

She also wanted someone to come and save her.

Free her from her silent cage.

"So I'm going to say, I'm going to speak up, I'm going to speak up, I don't want to be the nightmare of that day forever, if I don't say anything today... I'm going to be like that again."

Turn into something you hate, into an ugly moth.

She doesn't want to go on like this.

If no one can save her.

So please save yourself.

"Ms. Xiao, I'm very selfish. I always have to do something for myself. It has nothing to do with you. You don't need to tell me the big truths. I understand everything."

Xiao Pei didn't say any more unnecessary words, but after thinking about it, he said, "Okay, then thank you."

Chu Xiayi was startled.

Xiao Pei added: "Thank you for speaking for me."

"I have a question." Chu Xiayi said, "Can I ask you?"

Xiao Pei said, "Say it."

"Why did you resign?"

Xiao Pei immediately understood: "There is something wrong at home, but it's not because of this shit."

Chu Xiayi's tense shoulders relaxed, "That's good. If there's nothing else, I'll leave first."

After she finished speaking, she went straight to the stairs, tears welling up in an instant.

Chu Xiayi came down from the third floor, and met the person she least wanted to meet on the last floor.

Feng Zhuwang stood in the hall with a stack of copy papers, lowered his head and put them all into the file bag.

Chu Xiayi stopped, and Feng Jiuwang raised his head.

Unable to escape, Chu Xiayi could only turn her tearful face and ask, "What are you doing here?"

Feng Jiuwang replied: "I will help the teacher to copy things, I will use them in a meeting later."

"Oh."

Chu Xiayi originally wanted to walk over directly, that's how it should be between them, just pass each other, and there should be no extra communication.

But the moment Feng Jiuwang passed by, she still stopped.

"Do you have tissues?" Chu Xiayi asked.

Feng Jiu glanced at her, took out a tissue from his trouser pocket and took out a tissue.

"Can you be more generous?"

"Two?"

Chu Xiayi: "...Three."

Feng Jiuwang took out three and handed them to her.

Tears poured out again, Chu Xiayi couldn't control the tears, wiped it with a tissue, and said indiscriminately, "Thank you."

Feng Juwang didn't say a word, he put away the tissue and went outside.

Chu Xiayi didn't feel embarrassed at all, it would be even more embarrassing if Feng Jiuwang asked her what was wrong.

Feng Juwang walked down the stairs of the building, Chu Xiayi chased him out and rushed down shouting: "Feng Juwang, thank you!"

She knew how stupid she was.

Feng Juwang didn't look back.

Chu Xiayi finally couldn't help but squatted on the steps and cried loudly in embarrassment.

She is not qualified to say sorry, but the evening was so cold that day, thank you for the tissue.

She hasn't thanked her yet.

At the end of the road, Yu was still waiting. Feng Jiuwang walked over, and Yu Huan asked, "Is that the pretty girl?"

Feng Jiuwang covered Yu Huan's eyes with some dissatisfaction: "Where is it beautiful? Don't look at it."

"No, she seems to be crying." Yu also tilted his head.

"I didn't make you cry."

"What happened to her?" Yu asked.

Feng Ju looked silent, "I don't know, don't worry about it, she will solve it herself."

Yu still looked at him, "Do you know something?"

"do not know."

"You fooled me."

"No... The teacher asked me to be a coolie, and I will get paid."

"I just asked you to copy something."

"It doesn't matter, you have to pay."

The two walked farther and farther, and Yu took one last look back. The girl had already stood up and wiped away her tears and walked away. The figure became more and more blurred, and he turned to look at Feng Jingwang.

Feng Jiuwang asked, "What's wrong?"

Yu also smiled: "It's nothing, the weather is too hot, hurry up."

Midsummer, cicadas chirping, turbulent heat waves and already empty classrooms.

The butterfly stays on the flower for a short time, the wings are stretched, and the texture is beautiful.

At this point, the silence was broken.