Golden Boy

Su Pei returned to the apartment silently. When he opened the door, he realized that he had forgotten to open the umbrella. He was dripping from head to toe. When he opened the door and entered the living room, the air-conditioning blasted his face. In July, he felt cold all over his body.

Su Pei threw the umbrella on the ground, he was only surprised that he was able to come back and didn't fall to the ground in an instant and have a heart attack.

Little Cookie heard the noise, and she came out of the room, as if frightened by Su Pei's appearance.

"Dad, what's wrong with you?"

Su Pei said, "Dad just..."

He couldn't make up anything.

Little Cookie was stunned for a moment, then ran to fetch a dry towel for Su Pei.

"It's okay...it's okay." Su Pei didn't know whether to comfort Cookie, or to himself.

He brushed his hair carelessly and hid in the bathroom.He locked the door, turned on the hot water, and took off the wet clothes that were attached to his body. He stood in the shower room, under the hot water, and finally lost his strength, leaning on the wall and weeping silently.

The entanglement of more than two months has become a joke, he is like a clown.

"You don't have to think how painful it is for me."

"It's even more useless to use your writer's rich imagination to outline a long-term secret love and bitter love. It won't happen."

Su Pei closed his eyes, but He Yiming's voice was still in his ears.

"We can be closer than friends, but not too much."

"In the past ten years, I have not had any dissatisfaction."

Su Pei covered his face, he knew in his heart that he shouldn't think about it anymore, but he couldn't stop.

In the hot bath, his skin began to burn, and he finally calmed down a little.

He was not born gay, he never thought of being with a man, and the idea of ​​trying it out with He Yiming was too reckless.How will the people around you react, how will you deal with Cookie, your mother, and other relatives and friends?What kind of chain reaction will there be?Can he really stay in love with the same sex?He was not at all sure of these questions.

At least now, he doesn't have to face these problems.It's good that he doesn't have to be in his 30s and suddenly start groping for another life and mess himself up.

Before he could say "we can give it a try", He Yiming had already flatly refused.

It turned out that in He Yiming's eyes, he was no longer worth a try.

This is the most painful reality.

Yes, he was the one who deserved to be loved the most.He also prefers himself before the age of 25.If he could choose, he would choose to live forever in his twenties, and let his life stay at that moment. At that time, he was full of ambition and couldn't wait to rush to the future, thinking that the other side was covered with golden glory.

Here he stands now, with nothing but the hard, silent reality of it.

Su Pei turned off the water, he changed his clothes, stood in front of the mirror, wiped off the moisture on the mirror, and looked at the face of the person in the mirror.He wanted to find out if there was still the look on this pale face.

His heart hurts.At this moment, he really understood how appropriate this idiom is. He Yiming's words pierced his heart like a knife and gouged out a circle.

Su Pei didn't recover until that night.Little Cookie seemed to know that he was in a bad mood, and stayed with him quietly all the time.For dinner, he cooked a bowl of instant noodles and an egg for Cookie.He himself ate nothing.

"Is it okay to eat instant noodles?" Su Pei asked Little Cookie in a low voice.

Little Cookie said: "It's very delicious. The instant noodles cooked by Dad are even more delicious than the lunch dishes."

Su Pei forced a smile.

The Michelin restaurant where they ate with He Yiming at noon.But after just a few hours, it was already like a dream, as if half a lifetime had passed.

When he and Shen Lan divorced, there was no such shock.After all, the relationship with Shen Lan is fading day by day, and it is sliding towards divorce step by step.Today, He Yiming suddenly revealed the bloody truth to him.

"Father, aren't you hungry?" Little Cookie asked carefully while picking up the noodles.She wanted to feed Su Pei.

Su Pei shook his head, he really didn't feel hungry.It's better to say that he is more comfortable when he is hungry. He can't eat now.

In the middle of the night, Su Pei had a dream.

In the dream, he was back in college, taking classes with his classmates, and going to the library with Yao Zhicheng.Then he walked to the drama club alone, with a newly written script.

He wondered in his heart why he went back to school again, but there seemed to be a background voice telling him that time had flowed backwards, and he had another chance to start over.

He stood on the stage and saw He Yiming.They look at each other and smile.

In the blink of an eye they were on the dance floor of the auditorium again, in the crowd, they were dancing together.He Yiming held his hand and begged, "The first time I saw you, I wanted you. But I am too poor now, wait for me for ten years, when I succeed, I will come back to you and you together."

He doesn't speak.He Yiming raised his chin and kissed him lightly, his movements were extremely gentle: "Trust me, Su Pei, trust me, I will definitely wait for you. You will wait for me too, okay?"

He felt he couldn't lie, and he said honestly, "When I'm in my 30s, you won't want me anymore."

"How do you know?" He Yiming asked, his face became angry.

"Because...because..."

Su Pei suddenly opened his eyes and woke up from the dream.

There was a dull pain in his ribs, and he didn't know if it was his stomach or his heart.He turned sideways and wiped his eyes with the palm of his hand.It was four in the morning and he couldn't sleep anymore.

In the next few days, Su Pei took Little Cookie to visit several places, and then prepared for the book fair.If it wasn't for the book fair, he would have wished to leave here sooner.Because every day in and out of the community, he would pass by the place where He Yiming parked that day.

That scene played in his mind over and over again.

The day before He Yiming's birthday, Yao Zhicheng called him.

Yao Zhicheng would go to He Yiming's birthday party, and he asked Su Pei if there was anything he wanted him to bring to He Yiming.

Su Pei said, "No need. I've already given it to him in advance."

Yao Zhicheng said: "Unfortunately, you and Xiao Cookie travel plus book fair are arranged at this time this year, so you can't go to Xiao He's party, it's very big and very lively."

Su Pei thought, it's better for him to tell Yao Zhicheng.

"I broke up with He Yiming."

Yao Zhicheng raised a question mark on his forehead: "It's broken? What do you mean? For that preface?"

Su Pei said: "Not all. Almost. This time it's a real breakup. I don't think he will tell you, let me tell you, this time we can't even be friends. You don't have to bother to help us make up. .”

Yao Zhicheng was even more confused: "Is it a big deal? It's impossible, no matter how much you two quarrel, you won't break up."

Su Pei said: "Old Yao, nothing is impossible in this world."

Yao Zhicheng finally believed what he said seriously and solemnly.But he still sighed a few times: "I thought that no matter how much He Yiming changed, he would keep his true heart, but I didn't expect him to change anyway."

Su Pei said: "The matter is already like this, so don't ask him about it. I can't be friends with him anymore. You are still his friend. Now the people around him have too many plans for him, like you There aren't many old friends like that."

Yao Zhicheng felt a little sad when he heard it, and just said, "Okay, you can settle your own affairs."

He Yiming's birthday is just one day away from his company's anniversary.It happened to coincide with his 30th birthday this time, so the anniversary celebration and birthday party were very grand.

The highlight of the birthday party is the party at his villa in the evening.It's not the farm in the suburbs, but the mansion in the wealthy area. He Yiming hasn't lived in this place a few times since it was renovated, and it's only used for vacations or parties occasionally, just because the place is big and luxurious. Can fill guests and show his financial resources.

More than 1000 bottles of various famous wines were prepared for the party, a long bar was built, and the bartenders kept providing cocktails.Tianwangtian was invited to sing later, and various supermodels and idols came to warm up the scene. They were all popular figures in the entertainment industry.

Of course Yang Lun's youngest daughter Yang Ying came, and someone introduced her to He Yiming.

Yang Ying's first impression of He Yiming was not good. At such a big party, He Yiming wore a cultural shirt with the company logo and flip-flops on his feet.He looked handsome, with a thin face, lounging on the sofa drinking, not wanting to dance or move around.

The introducer said that he "loves sports very much" and "doesn't look like that kind of science and engineering dead house at all", and Ms. Yang felt cheated.

Yang Ying had a casual chat with He Yiming, but felt that he was like a pool of stagnant water.She quickly left and went dancing with the others.

Yao Zhicheng finally found He Yiming.He didn't know how many glasses of gin and tonic he had had.

Yao Zhicheng also drank two glasses of cocktails. When he saw He Yiming, he asked, "How much did this party cost? It's too fucking extravagant."

He Yiming said: "Don't tell me about the poor students in your school, I have donated money to you."

Yao Zhicheng put his arms around He Yiming's shoulders and shook: "Yiming, ah Yiming...I'm happy for you. Really. Don't men long for this kind of success, spend money like water, be chic, and be bold! Do it!"

He Yiming clinked glasses with him.

Yao Zhicheng took a sip of his wine and continued, "But why do I feel that everyone at this party is very happy, except you, the birthday star?"

He Yiming said: "I am very happy. I am 30 years old. With my personality, it is not easy to live to 30 years old without being beaten to death."

He told a bad joke.

Yao Zhicheng stopped talking around and said, "Su Pei said you broke up with him."

When He Yiming heard the word "Su Pei", a light seemed to light up in his eyes for an instant, and then he heard Yao Zhicheng's words clearly, and the light slowly dimmed again.

"He said that..." he said, "What else did Su Pei say?"