Golden Boy

After He Yiming left, Su Pei sat on the balcony for a while. He opened the window. The air in the summer night was hot and sticky.

Su Pei should take advantage of his spare time to change the script at this time, but now he only has He Yiming's words in his mind, so he can't calm down.

He wanted to call Dr. Xu, but Dr. Xu was no longer his doctor, and it was not working hours, so he couldn't occupy other people's rest time.

He flipped through his phone.Xiaoyan sent him a few messages, asking how he and Cookie were doing.Probably because she felt guilty, she didn't ask many questions.

His mother Wen Xinlan also sent him a message. Wen Xinlan asked Su Pei to send her more photos, and asked Su Pei why he didn't take a few photos with Xiaoyan.She didn't know that Xiaoyan didn't come, and she still had some expectations in her heart, thinking that the girl was nice, and she might have a scene with Su Pei.

Su Pei didn't explain to her mother, but just sent her a lot of pictures of cookies and said that she brought her some special gifts.

Finally, Su Pei called Yao Zhicheng.

Lao Yao is a mutual friend of him and He Yiming. The friendship has been from college to the present. Lao Yao knows him and He Yiming very well.Su Pei thought about some things, Lao Yao might be more transparent than him.

Lao Yao didn't know that He Yiming and Su Pei came to Shanghai together.

As soon as the call was connected, he teased Su Pei: "How are you and your little girlfriend? Is she and Cookie still getting along?"

Su Pei stroked his forehead and said, "No. She has something to do, so she didn't come."

Lao Yao noticed that Su Pei's tone was a bit low.He asked: "Then you are alone in Shanghai now with a little cookie, can you handle it?"

Su Pei said, "It's okay. He Yiming is also here."

Yao Zhicheng asked: "He also has something to go to Shanghai? That's a coincidence. What's the matter? Are you quarreling again?"

Su Pei paused, he couldn't throw the bomb to Lao Yao.He just wanted to find someone to talk to.

"It's about my new book... There was a bit of a quarrel. The preface of the new book I wrote myself was criticized by He Yiming."

Yao Zhicheng seemed to have heard something new, and laughed: "Would he not like what you wrote? This is too rare."

After listening to Su Pei's description, Yao Zhicheng said: "Don't take it to heart, you didn't write it for him, and he alone can't represent all the readers. He Yiming... It's scary to pursue perfection. .You should be well aware of that."

Su Pei said, "Maybe I don't know him well."

"Huh?" Of course Yao Zhicheng didn't understand the meaning of Su Pei's words.

Although he didn't tell the truth, Su Pei was able to distract him a bit.

That night, Su Pei still couldn't sleep. He turned on the computer and began to write something randomly.Maybe there are some words that cannot be said to He Yiming, but can be written.

But he wrote a few beginnings, but he couldn't continue.Because now he and He Yiming can't tell the truth, it's a muddled account.That day he told He Yiming that their "friendship" could not continue like this. He thought He Yiming understood his hint, but He Yiming still insisted on inserting himself into his life.

But how long can they last in this state?He couldn't bear it, and He Yiming shouldn't have to endure such suffering.

They are all avoiding, avoiding the frontal issues.

Su Pei closed the computer and tossed and turned on the bed.In the dead of night, he only had to face himself, and he finally felt wronged - faced with this situation, of course he wanted to escape.

He never thought that there would be emotional entanglements with a man, let alone this man is his good friend and brother.No matter how much he admired or even admired He Yiming in the past, it didn't mean that he thought about kissing, touching and having sex with He Yiming.

So when he suddenly found out that he was the object of He Yiming's sexual fantasy, he was too shocked and of course he would run away.He didn't completely break up with He Yiming in a panic, which is already extraordinary.

Su Pei imagined what would happen if this happened to Yao Zhicheng, and the conclusion was that he would explain to Lao Yao without hesitation and keep a polite distance.

Any same-sex friend would have the same result.Only with He Yiming here, he was at a loss.

It's perfectly normal for him to escape.

What Su Pei couldn't figure out was, what was He Yiming running from?

He kept thinking about this question.

He Yiming didn't fall asleep at this time.He doesn't sleep much, four or five hours a day is enough.But today there was another reason. After he returned to the hotel at night, he received a call from his mother.

He Yiming had been in Shanghai for a few days before Zou Yongmei found out.She didn't know about He Yiming's work and never asked. She just called to ask about his 30th birthday celebration arrangements.

She also told He Yiming good news: "Did you know that Yang Lun's youngest daughter is going back to China, and her mother wants to introduce you to her. I have already invited her to your birthday party."

The Yang family makes medical equipment and precision instruments, and has made a fortune for almost 20 years.The youngest daughter of his family, He Yiming has also heard about it before, it is said that she is very beautiful, and she is somewhat popular on the Internet.Before studying abroad, it was the object of pursuit of many international students. Many boys dreamed of marrying this top-notch Bai Fumei, and they could reach the sky in one step.

He Yiming listened to Zou Yongmei's eloquence, introducing how good this girl is, and poured himself a glass of wine.

He sometimes felt that he had not inherited any of his mother's personality except his appearance.

His mother is a gentle and gloomy person without too strong a character, so she can live in peace with his father, and occasionally has the illusion of affection.

She's just a drifting survivor who finally finds peace and abundance in her later years.Now, like all old people with traditional thinking, she only hopes for one thing—her son gets married and has children.

He Yiming knew very well that if he yelled at her like his father, she would just swallow it silently and would never disobey him.But he didn't want to do that.His ordinary and lovely mother is his last trace of nostalgia.

He said: "It's okay to meet, but you don't have any hope. I don't like spoiled young ladies."

He drank a glass of wine while talking.

Zou Yongmei said: "You should meet first. I heard that the kid is very good! He is not comparable to any model or actor in the entertainment industry, but he is really educated and knowledgeable."

She asked carefully again: "Who are you with in Shanghai?"

He Yiming held the empty wine glass: "No one. How do you ask this?"

Zou Yongmei said: "I heard people said that I saw you in Shanghai Disneyland. I said I was wrong. Why did you go to Disneyland? Isn't that a place for children to play?"

He Yiming said: "It's the wrong person." He didn't want to say more, so he hung up the phone in a hurry.

A day later, He Yiming took Su Pei and Cookie to a Michelin restaurant for dinner.This restaurant's new Michelin rating is extremely popular, but He Yiming made a reservation for a box with just one phone call.

He Yiming invited Su Pei to a meal as an apology for his previous gaffe.

They didn't talk much during the meal, Su Pei asked He Yiming if he was going to fly back to Beijing today.He Yiming said, "Yes, tonight's flight."

Su Pei said, "Then I won't see you off."

He Yiming said: "No, I'll see you when you return to Beijing."

After dinner, they planned to go to an exhibition, but the weather was bad and it rained heavily. Su Pei lost his mood. He remembered that he hadn't touched his script for two days.So I have to take Cookie back to the apartment.

He Yiming drove them back, Su Pei got out of the car with Cookie, and thanked He Yiming: "With you these few days, Cookie had a great time."

He Yiming asked: "What about you?"

Su Pei held up the umbrella and said, "With you here, I feel much more relaxed."

He Yiming looked at him and said, "Go upstairs, the rain is too heavy."

Before Su Pei could finish saying "goodbye, slow down on the road" to him, the car window had already been raised.

Su Pei returned to the apartment with the little cookie.He let Little Cookie watch TV in the room, and he walked around the living room twice. Now he has a lot of things in his mind, and he feels that he must tell He Yiming.He has not been like this for a long time, reckless, intuitive, impulsive and reckless, he knows that his choice is on a very dangerous line, he is now that Schrödinger's cat, he may live or die, but he himself Do not know at all.

Su Pei walked around the living room again, he suddenly seemed to remember something, he rushed to the balcony, and saw He Yiming's car - He Yiming didn't leave, he just parked the car on the road in the community The location of his apartment can still be seen.

Su Pei's heart was beating, but he couldn't control himself. He opened his suitcase, and there lay a black gift box, which was his gift to He Yiming.Su Pei took out the gift box.Then I groped around in the trunk and found a pack of cigarettes.He tore open the cigarette case, took out a cigarette and went to the bathroom to light it.

He needs a cigarette to calm down now.

Maybe it was because he hadn't smoked for too long, maybe he was too nervous, and after taking a big puff, he was choked and coughed.He covered his mouth with one hand, pressed his chest with the other, and coughed for a while before subsiding.

He took two more slow puffs, then stubbed out the cigarette.

The heavy rain was still falling, and there was a faint roar of thunder from time to time.

Su Pei went to the balcony again, where He Yiming's car was still parked.He waited for 5 minutes, 10 minutes, but He Yiming still didn't leave.Su Pei finally called He Yiming.

He Yiming picked it up immediately: "What's the matter?"

Su Pei said: "I remembered that I forgot to give you something, just wait a moment."

He went downstairs with the gift box.

Sitting in the car, He Yiming saw Su Pei slowly approaching, opened the car door, and sat in the passenger seat.

He saw the gift box in Su Pei's hand and guessed what it was.

"This is a birthday present. I will give it to you in advance before the day is over." Su Pei said, and he handed the gift box to He Yiming.

He Yiming took it silently.

He didn't open it, just put it on his lap.

"This is a gift from me as a friend," Su Pei said, "because when I prepared a gift for you, I always thought of you as my best friend..."

He Yiming thought, Su Pei came to judge his fate.

The strange thing is that this scene is not unfamiliar to him at all.He seemed to have experienced this kind of conversation thousands of times—Su Pei was full of apologies, and looked at him with soft and compassionate eyes, but there was no room for words.

He interrupted Su Pei and asked, "Su Pei, when did you know?"

Su Pei thought, it would be too hypocritical to ask "Know what?" at this time. He said, "Your foot was injured. I went to the farm to see you. Your mother also went. I saw that I sent you off before." A sports watch... Your mother said that it was given by someone you like. I just found out..."

He Yiming closed his eyes, he thought, so it is.Indeed, since that time, Su Pei's attitude has been a little strange.It was difficult for him to dodge and struggle for more than two months.

He doesn't want to talk at all right now.

Su Pei said: "This incident is beyond my expectation, I even feel that you have become very strange. It is no longer the He Yiming whom I have known for more than ten years... I try to recall when we first met, that What were you like then, and what am I like."

He Yiming said: "Have you ever thought about it, maybe I haven't let you know for so many years, because I don't want you to know?"

Su Pei felt bitter in his heart, he said, "I thought about it."

There was a moment of silence in the carriage, only the sound of rain outside the carriage.

After a few seconds, Su Pei said: "Yiming, but now I know. Then none of us can escape, we can only face it. I have not only thought about it, I have been thinking about it. Your character is like this , you are still He Yiming. You can't bear failure, let alone pity..."

He Yiming said: "Then why did you tell me these things?"

Su Pei looked at him, he could feel his hands trembling, but he had to continue: "Because this matter can't go on like this, there should be a conclusion, and I don't want to see you get hurt..."

He Yiming turned sideways forward, and suddenly stretched out his hand. He stretched out his hand to caress Su Pei's forehead, face, and hair, and then pressed the back of his head.Su Pei's voice disappeared, and he stopped talking.

He Yiming pressed his head, and the two faces were close together.He kissed Su Pei's lips.

"I don't want to see you hurt either."He Yiming thought that he could no longer listen to what Su Pei said. "I don't want to see you hurt either", the next half of this sentence must be "but...".

"I don't want to see you get hurt, but I still can't accept this unhealthy love."

"I don't want to see you get hurt, but short-term pain is worse than long-term pain."

He can't let Su Pei talk anymore, he wants to tell Su Pei that the matter is not as simple as he imagined, and the problem can be solved in a few words.

Su Pei was fixed by this kiss.He never thought that He Yiming's lips were so warm.The kiss was soft for only the first second, but it instantly turned into a strong intrusion, robbing him of all his breath, but the touch felt better than he imagined, and a long kiss ended, and he almost strangled Can't hold back the body.

He unconsciously wiped his lips with his fingers, and looked at He Yiming in confusion.

He originally wanted to say: "I don't want to see you hurt, so I want to give it a try. Maybe we can give it a try. Although your personality is more suitable for a friend than a couple, I don't know why, but I just can't make up my mind to reject you..."

It seemed that he didn't have to say these words.

He looked at He Yiming, but He Yiming's expression was not as excited as he imagined.

He Yiming still had a grim and sad expression.

He opened his mouth: "Su Pei, you don't have to think about how painful I am, let alone use your rich imagination as a writer to outline a long and bitter love. It's not possible. Maybe I do have something for you... Fantasy. But I respect myself, and I respect you. Because I know your obsession with women. We can maintain a relationship that is a little closer than friends, but not too much, so I have not had any dissatisfaction in the past ten years. "

Su Pei murmured, "What are you talking about?"

He couldn't believe He Yiming said this after kissing him just now.He was in a mess.

He Yiming went on to say: "I have always kept the gift you gave me for the first time, the sports watch. It is true, and it is a kind of nostalgia. If I have any regrets, it is the regret that I was with you when I was in college. Nothing happened. After all, you were the most beautiful at that time. No one can compare with you at that time, and neither can you now."

He reached out and brushed Su Pei's lips lightly with his fingers, and said, "Look, I just proved it."

Su Pei's face was pale: "Prove what?"

He Yiming said: "As long as I want, I can get anything I want. I didn't come to get it, but I didn't want to."

Su Pei couldn't feel the trembling anymore.The lingering warmth on the lips disappeared.The sound of the rain fell silent.He can't feel anything.He only saw He Yiming's lips opening and closing, and just a few words shattered everything.

After a while, Su Pei heard himself asking: "Don't you really want to?"

He is like an ignorant teenager standing on the street, trying to squeeze out a smile, weak and hopeless.

He Yiming said: "Do you think I've seen you when you were the most energetic, would you still think about it now? I take care of you only because of the habit of so many years, maybe there is still a little bit of ambiguity, but think about it carefully. , that's why I can't bear to see you become the mess you are now. It's probably... pity."

Su Pei couldn't listen anymore, he said, "I see."

He hurriedly opened the car door and rushed out.

"Su Pei!" He Yiming called him.

Su Pei turned around and looked at him. He was soaked in the pouring rain for a few seconds.But he didn't notice it: "What?"

He Yiming handed him the umbrella: "Your umbrella."