Golden Boy

The psychiatrist introduced by Dr. Zeng was very friendly, which somewhat made it easier for Su Pei to confide his sincerity.

"I have a friend..." As soon as Su Pei opened his mouth, he felt that this sentence was like the beginning of a story.

He added: "I do have such a friend, we have been friends for more than ten years."

The psychiatrist randomly scratched two strokes on the small notebook, "And then?"

He saw Su Pei's hesitation and encouraged Su Pei to continue.

Su Pei said, "We have always been good friends."

For the first time, it became so difficult for him to organize his language to tell a story.

"...Recently, I found out that he might have feelings for me other than friendship. I'm not 100% sure yet—I'm basically sure...but I'm still shocked when I think about it these days. Because I didn't expect He will hide it for more than ten years, and he hides it so deeply. I will repeatedly think in my heart, how is it possible, why. It may be too surprised, and I feel very sad when I even think about it."

The psychiatrist asked "Have you talked to her about this?"

Su Pei shook his head in denial.

The psychiatrist asked gently again, "Do you want to talk to her?"

Su Pei said "yes, I want to talk to him, I want to know what's on his mind. But I can't afford to confess. You think, it's like an operation with a 50.00% success rate. Do You may recover or you may die after the operation, but you can barely maintain your life without the operation."

"If a friendship is really deadly in your mind," says the psychiatrist, "you may want to consider whether the friendship may be unhealthy or may have deteriorated."

Su Pei rubbed his chin with his fingers unnaturally, and he smiled awkwardly, "This may be my professional habit - I'm a writer, maybe it's a bit exaggerated. But I really don't want to lose this friend. "

The psychiatrist said, "You're divorced now, aren't you? Why don't you try it with this old friend? Maybe you'll still have this friend and have a love at the same time."

Su Pei was silent for a moment, then said, "That's the problem... this friend of mine is not a friend of the opposite sex."

The doctor's hand holding the teacup paused, he looked at Su Pei and said, "I understand."

Su Pei chatted with the doctor for almost half an hour, and felt a lot more relaxed when he came out of the consulting room.He desperately needs someone to talk to.It is impossible to tell family members, tell friends, you will be found out immediately, and there is a danger of being picked up if you say it online. It is safest to talk to a professional psychologist, and you can get some guidance at the same time.

In addition to the "one friend" thing, Su Pei also talked about the impact of his career and marriage, of course, there are also some "one friend" things mixed in.

Doctors then gave him a battery of tests and diagnosed him with mild depression.Su Pei was not surprised by this result at all.

He even joked, "People of my age are more or less depressed, right? Mild is not bad. I thought I should be more serious."

The doctor looked at the computer and said, "This is not a funny thing. Because you are now taking heart medicine and your depression is relatively mild, I will not prescribe you medicine for now, but you have to come for regular follow-up visits, okay?"

Su Pei accepted.

At the beginning of June, Little Cookie's "The Little Prince" participated in the competition performance in the district.Su Pei went to watch the performance live.

Little Cookie is wearing a newly designed costume. It is a very beautiful dress. The skirt is layered with layers of yarn, like a rose with double petals, like a miniature version of a famous high-end brand.

Sitting under the stage, Su Pei was of course proud of her rose-like daughter.But this time he was also moved by the little fox in the story.

The little fox said to the little prince to tame me.

Su Pei thought, did he tame He Yiming unknowingly?A person like He Yiming... Although they had quarreled, He Yiming gave him more tenderness.

"Mr. Su?"

The mother of a classmate next to Little Cookie handed Su Pei a tissue.

"It's okay." Su Pei didn't even realize that he was crying, he hurriedly wiped his eyes with a paper.

He explained to the mother in a low voice, "It's because the kids acted so well."

In the end, the group of cookies won No.1.The students and parents were overjoyed. Several parents said that it was Su Pei's credit that the script was well adapted.Su Pei said that it was everyone's concerted efforts that made this drama a success.

After leaving the stage, Little Cookie was reluctant to take off her rose dress, and went to the mall in costumes—the parents of the children who participated in the performance went to a pizza restaurant for dinner together.

During the dinner party, Cookie also advertised with her classmates, "The TV series written by my father will be aired tomorrow night! It is starring Xu Xi and Fang Ziling!"

Children don't like to watch spy war dramas, but they will still give out a burst of admiration when they hear the names of stars.

Some children asked, "Teacher Su, have you met Qiu Ruoyang? He is so handsome, will you let him play the leading role?"

Su Pei smiled and said, "Next time I see him, I will ask him for you."

Now Su Pei has no idea about the crew of "Rongcheng Confidential". It has been more than half a year, and he doesn't want to recall that experience anymore, but he is still a little curious about how the TV series will be filmed.

So when the broadcast started the next day, Su Pei still turned on the TV and tuned to the station broadcasting "Rongcheng Confidential" to be the background sound for his new script, just to watch it.

The crew of "Rongcheng" gave him the right to authorship, but his name was listed together with the screenwriter who was later replaced.Su Pei has no objection, after all, the screenwriter who came later also worked hard for two months.

As soon as the show started, Su Pei's cell phone began to receive messages, most of which were from friends, congratulations on the launch of the new show and so on.

Su Pei was looking at the phone when He Yiming called.

Su Pei picked it up in a panic.

He Yiming cut straight to the point, "I watched the drama."

Su Pei blurted out, "You're so busy, you actually have time to watch dramas."

As soon as the words came out of his mouth, he knew it.Yes, He Yiming likes him, that's why he went to watch this kind of drama.

He Yiming on the other end of the phone paused, and said, "I sometimes adjust it a little bit. Besides, I'm also curious about how this show is going to be."

Su Pei asked cautiously, "How is it?"

He Yiming said, "It's actually better than I imagined. Of course it's due to your script. As for the actors, the male lead is terrible, and Fang Ziling is not that good either. It's your script that is leading people away."

Su Pei has lost the ability to judge now.He didn't know if He Yiming was telling the truth, or if he said these words because he liked him to make him happy.

"Really?" he asked.

He Yiming said, "Of course it's true. If you don't believe me, you can read the online reviews. Why should I lie to you."

At this time, Su Pei's heart would waver again and again.Because He Yiming's tone sounded too normal.

Maybe he was too narcissistic, or he misunderstood, that's why he thought He Yiming liked him.

A week later, Su Pei went to the psychiatrist again.

"It's still my friend. When I see his every action, I will think of whether he is secretly in love with me. But sometimes, I feel that maybe I think too much. Now I am going through his every word and every time. One action to analyze what he is thinking and what he wants.”

The psychiatrist said, "Then it puts a lot of pressure on you."

This is inevitable, and it must be a burden if one person studies another person's words and deeds as a puzzle, because he will never have a definite answer.

Su Pei said, "Should I have a showdown with him?"

The psychiatrist said, "I can't tell you how to do it, but I hope you will be fully prepared no matter what you do. As you said, you don't want to lose this friend, so can you be mentally prepared to lose him? "

Su Pei thought for a while, as if he had made up his mind, "Yes, if I want to talk to him, I must be prepared."

The doctor nodded.

Then Su Pei asked, "Doctor Xu, is homosexuality natural?"

The doctor's eyes flashed and he asked, "Why do you ask that?"

Su Pei whispered, "I want to know him better...that friend of mine. I always thought that I was the person who knew him best, knew him very well. As a result, I haven't seen his real side for so many years. Maybe It's the real side."

He didn't see He Yiming's truth, nor could he feel He Yiming's pain.

"I felt like I knew so little about homosexuality and wanted to know more so I could have a good talk with him."