Golden Boy

Su Pei came down from the second floor and walked slowly to the stairs.Standing at the stairs, he could see He Yiming's back.

It was only a few steps away, but he didn't seem to know how to get there.

He Yiming seemed to have heard his footsteps, turned to look at him, "Didn't find it?"

Su Pei immediately smiled, "I found it, it's not the right drawer you mentioned, it's the left drawer."

He walked over and handed it to He Yiming.

Su Pei gave him the certificate, and continued to sit down and write his own script.He was so shocked for a moment that he could only pretend that nothing happened.The lines typed out on the computer don't match the horse's mouth.

After a while, He Yiming received a call from a secretary, and he was explaining his work to the secretary.Su Pei gestured to him a few times, and said in a low voice, "I won't bother you anymore, go and see the little cookie. Good night."

He Yiming nodded to him and said silently, "Good night."

Su Pei almost ran away with his notebook in his hands.

Little Cookie is already asleep, and Su Pei sleeps in the room next to her.As soon as he entered the room, he threw the notebook on the bed, and lay down on the bed, his mind was full of Zou Yongmei's words just now.

"He said the watch was given to him by a girl he liked before..."

"Give a gift, not with him, married someone else..."

He Yiming will never remember wrongly, remembering the watch as a gift from another person.He would not admit his mistake, it was indeed the one he bought for He Yiming after spending a long time in the shopping mall that year.

Su Pei felt a little regretful.

He should have asked when he came downstairs, "When I was looking for something just now, I saw the watch I gave you before. Hahaha, you still have it."

He Yiming would probably say, "You gave it as a gift, of course I keep it."

Then he can jokingly say, "Then how did your mother say it was given by the girl you like?"

What would He Yiming say?

Maybe it's "My mom remembers wrong."

Possibly "I'm kidding."

Or "Really? Impossible? Her mind is full of marriage urging, and she made it up."

But the key is not what He Yiming said, but what he will believe.

Now there is only one idea in Su Pei's mind, and this idea seems to expand into the entire universe.The idea is - He Yiming likes him.The person He Yiming likes is him.

but why?how come?For so many years, he and He Yiming have been good friends.

The more Su Pei asked this in his heart, more and more pictures appeared in his mind——

After not seeing each other for a year, He Yiming suddenly reappeared in his film crew. The look in his eyes when they reunited was indifferent and deep, with unfathomable pain.

He Yiming urged his new novel again and again, and after trying it out at his home, he said, "I don't like this heroine, and it was written based on Shen Lan."

Explaining over and over again, "I have nothing to do with Chen Xing."

When they returned to the drama club during the school celebration, He Yiming said, "You remember wrongly, we met for the first time more than ten years ago."

And when the ambulance came that night, he could hear He Yiming's almost choked voice in a daze, "Su Pei, Su Pei, hold on."

Memories of earlier times are still vivid.

When he graduated, he and He Yiming had a carnival all night, and then told He Yiming on the road of self-driving tour that he was getting married.

He Yiming didn't say anything, just looked at him and said, "This is your life."

When he read novels to He Yiming for the first time, He Yiming said, "No problem, it's absolutely fine."

They stayed in the activity room of the drama club, and the students around were snoring everywhere, but they were the only ones still talking at night.

They climbed to the roof together, sometimes talking all night.

These images are intertwined. In all his youthful memories, He Yiming occupies the most special position, but he has always been his good friend.

Su Pei still remembers that when He Yiming came to the drama club for the first time, he stood on the stage and read his lines, and He Yiming sat by the back window, with his head down, as if he didn't look at him, but after a while Only then did He Yiming look towards the stage and meet his eyes.

At that time, he thought, this boy is too handsome and special.Such a person should be the protagonist in the story, this is the temperament and face that the protagonist should have, and there should be an unforgettable story to be worthy of him.

Now, Su Pei finally seems to have removed that layer of veil, seeing all the truth clearly.

He Yiming likes him.No doubt, at least liked him.

Su Pei turned over, he didn't know why he had the urge to cry.He wasn't sad or panicked, it was just that the truth was too shocking, like the shock of suddenly seeing colorful colors after being blind for more than ten years.

All real things have the most powerful force.The truth changes everything.

For a moment, Su Pei wanted to rush downstairs and ask He Yiming.

Why never say it?Why not tell him?

But he understood right away.This is He Yiming's secret love for him.It's because he has always regarded He Yiming as a good friend, even a younger brother who is closer than a blood relationship.

So He Yiming would rather keep this secret hidden.

He inadvertently smashed through this secret and got a glimpse of He Yiming's privacy, which was not He Yiming's wish.

Su Pei turned two more times on the bed.He couldn't help covering his chest, where it was still beating steadily, but a little restless.

How can he be safe knowing this secret?

Su Pei suddenly thought of Shen Lan, Shen Lan's neurotic attitude towards He Yiming, as well as her hostility and groundless accusations towards He Yiming.It all seems to have an explanation now.

He actually understood it later than Shen Lan!

Just because He Yiming is also a man.Because I'm a man, I didn't think so much.If He Yiming was a woman, and if he substituted everything he had done, Su Pei would have noticed it long ago.

If He Yiming is a woman, maybe they are already married...

Su Pei couldn't help but smile wryly, now he really wants to smoke a cigarette.

It wasn't until midnight that Su Pei gradually calmed down from the turbulent waves.He forced himself to fall asleep, and he fell asleep in a daze after two o'clock in the morning.But he was still restless in his sleep, He Yiming's shadow was always in front of his eyes.

When I woke up, the sky was bright.

Su Pei grabbed the phone and looked, it was already past nine o'clock.He quickly got up, took medicine and washed.

Little Cookie woke up much earlier than him, had already had breakfast, and was playing with cats and rabbits in the yard.

He Yiming was sitting in the dining room staring at the computer, saw him come down, and immediately said, "I left you breakfast. Eat quickly."

Su Pei gave a stiff "hmm", and asked He Yiming, "Has Aunt Zou gone out?"

He didn't expect that he went to bed late all of a sudden, and didn't even say hello to He Yiming's mother in the morning.

He Yiming said, "Don't worry about it. She is old and wakes up at four or five in the morning. I have nothing to do in the morning and go to the nearby village to play."

Su Pei stopped talking.

Breakfast was multigrain porridge, eggs, steamed buns, and a few side dishes. He ate breakfast in silence.

It was one thing to discover the truth yesterday, but another to confront He Yiming today.

What Su Pei tentatively decided yesterday was not to challenge He Yiming.How can he get along with He Yiming calmly after making it clear?

It is difficult for men and women to be friends if they cannot be a couple.It will only be more embarrassing between men and men.He thought that He Yiming might also think the same way, so he never told him.He knew how proud He Yiming was.

And after he woke up, Su Pei had some doubts again, maybe this thing was really wrong?

At night, people's minds are always not so clear.Cranky, random shopping, are prone to happen in the middle of the night.Last night he was so sure that He Yiming liked him, but during the day, this idea became not so firm again.

Maybe He Yiming really liked him a little bit at the beginning, but after so many years, maybe this secret love has become a thing of the past.Isn't it often the case?

Moreover, He Yiming himself said homophobic things to him, and asked him to throw away the rainbow flag, so as not to be misunderstood.It may be because they think liking a man is a ridiculous thing for young people, so they will never go further.

He Yiming must think that maintaining the current relationship is enough, and there is no need for a more intimate relationship.

When Su Pei thought about intimacy, he couldn't help being a little distracted, and suddenly choked on the porridge, he quickly took out a piece of toilet paper and coughed violently.

He Yiming was startled by him, and immediately rubbed his back, "You can still choke if you eat so slowly, I'm convinced."

"It's okay, it's okay..." Su Pei calmed down, he turned his body slightly, and pushed He Yiming's hand away as if he had no intention of doing so.

He Yiming put down his hand naturally.

Su Pei seems to see He Yiming from a new angle now.He Yiming is still the same He Yiming, but he looks more handsome than ever.

Today He Yiming wore a camel work shirt, casual and unruly.The objecting voice in Su Pei's heart said again, "Look, how could He Yiming be gay, he must be straight. How many women would fall for him!"

Thinking of this, Su Pei asked He Yiming, "After you broke up with Chen Xing... haven't you dated anyone else?"

He Yiming glanced at Su Pei, "No, what's the matter."

Su Pei tried his best to say naturally, "It's nothing. I just remembered that you said that Xiaoyan might just use me as a spare tire..."

"I didn't say spare tire." He Yiming said.

"What I mean is, there is no hope for me for the time being. How are you? Haven't you seen anyone recently?" Su Pei wanted to be concerned as usual.

He Yiming felt that Su Pei seemed to be a little unhappy about Xiaoyan's affairs, and looked a little awkward.

He said, "If you care about my comments about Xiaoyan, I apologize to you."

Su Pei immediately said, "No..."

Now the matter of Xiaoyan is completely unimportant.

He Yiming changed the subject, "Let me make it up to you. Let's go out to play after you finish writing this script. My birthday is in July, so you should have time. Where do you want to go?"

Su Pei thought, why it was Xiaoyan who asked him to accompany him to Thailand for his birthday, but now it is He Yiming?

If he denies it again, isn't it too self-deceiving?

"It's hard to say what will happen when the time comes, the crew...anything can happen," Su Pei said vaguely, "Besides, July is also the summer vacation for Little Cookie. It will depend on the situation then."

He Yiming didn't force it, there was still some time before his birthday.

Su Pei didn't say anything to death.

Su Pei's mood became sad again, but at this moment, Little Cookie ran back from the yard.Su Pei immediately asked her if she had done her homework and wanted to help her with her homework.Cookie saves him temporarily.

After returning from the farm, as soon as Su Pei met Xiaoyan, he told her that he didn't have time and couldn't go abroad with her.

Xiaoyan said, "That's okay, we can also play in China. As long as it's the two of us together..."

Su Pei said euphemistically, "If I have a vacation, I want to spend more time with Little Cookie."

Xiaoyan's face turned red, and she didn't say any more.

Su Pei thought, that's fine.Why should he play love games with young girls.Whatever she liked about him, she didn't like that he had a difficult ex-wife, a daughter he had to raise, and all the burdens in life.

Then why does He Yiming like him?

He was, of course, likable when they were young.what about now?Is his various cares the residual warmth of a secret love, or is it really such a long-lasting affection?

Su Pei found some time and went to Dr. Zeng again.

He made a follow-up visit and asked Dr. Zeng to recommend a psychiatrist.

Dr. Zeng asked, "Is it because of illness and a heavy psychological burden?"

Su Pei said, "There is a little factor in this aspect..."

Dr. Zeng said, "That's fine too. Talk to a psychiatrist, it will help relieve mental stress, and it will be good for your body."

He recommended an experienced psychiatrist.

Su Pei didn't know how He Yiming kept the secret for more than ten years.He only knew about it for a week, and he already felt that he was about to get sick.