Kawakami Mizuki

Sometimes, Yi Linchuan would think of the landline ringing in the cabin, and no one would ever pick it up.And he didn't have the idea of ​​calling Ye Ming either.

He knew it was bad behavior to cut off contact like this without saying a word.But Lin Chuyi can do this, why can't he?

It's just, didn't I like him very much at the beginning?Why can you let go so easily?

why……

He knew that Lin Chuyi had always had someone he liked in his heart.

One late night, when he got up to go to the bathroom, he found Lin Chuyi lying asleep on the rocking chair in the living room, with a book of poetry covering her face.The cold night wind blew into the house, gently shaking the ends of her hair.

The wind blowing like this all night will definitely catch a cold, which is really not worrying.

Yi Linchuan walked over helplessly, trying to wake her up.However, under the moonlight, there was a glistening water mark on the half exposed cheek.

Yi Linchuan was stunned, silent for a moment, then turned and left with light steps.

If this is love, then does his so-called liking count for nothing?

do not know.

I don't even bother to think about it.

It's just living day by day, nothing good, nothing bad.

Later, when he went to university, he refused the money offered by Yi Chuwen, and instead used the money Lin Chuyi left him to pay for his tuition.On his birthday, he had a long talk with his brother all night, and then completely became independent from the Yi family.

"Linchuan, is it because you hate me that you don't want to stay here?" Yi Chuwen looked at his younger brother who was about to leave with a complicated expression, and asked.After finding out all the truth back then, he seemed to have no excuses to keep him.

"of course not."

Today's Yi Linchuan can already calmly look directly at all the right and wrong of that year.His mother was killed by Mrs. Yi. When he knew about it, this vicious woman had already died of illness.But at that time, he was just full of lonely anger, and all the hatred and hatred that could not be vented were transferred to Yi Chuwen, even though he knew that it had nothing to do with Yi Chuwen.

But all of this had been let go a long time ago, before he knew it.

Yi Linchuan looked up at the exquisite and beautiful building in front of him, surrounded by ancient trees in the sky, surrounded by lush shrubs on both sides, like a peach blossom garden, which was separated from the world.

"It's just that this is not my home."

Yi Chuwen understood what Yi Linchuan meant, so he didn't want to keep him anymore, and watched him go, knowing that he could only be trapped in this place for the rest of his life.

There are many club activities or other things in the university, but Yi Linchuan didn't participate in any of them.He prefers to be alone more and more, it makes him feel very relaxed.Such a character still leaves him with no friends around him, but he doesn't care at all.Although there was a roommate who was very friendly and had always been kind to him, he couldn't reciprocate with the same enthusiasm.

But once, Yi Linchuan suffered from a stomach problem, and his roommate took pains to help Linchuan to the infirmary and took good care of him.It made Yi Linchuan feel embarrassed to face each other coldly.

When I was eating in the dining hall, I suddenly had the desire to talk.He said: "I liked someone before, and then he went abroad. Later, I cut off contact with him for no reason. But I think that his life must be smooth and bright after that."

The way the two get along has always been that Yi Linchuan listens silently, while his roommate Taotao keeps talking.He suddenly heard so many words from Yi Linchuan, thinking that he finally got a response, he couldn't restrain the excitement in his heart: "Yes, yes, some people have money at home, and everything goes well when they go abroad... "

He was still talking, but Yi Linchuan suddenly lost his appetite.

Is that right?

Is it because I'm jealous of him, so I don't want to contact him anymore?

So it's not like you like it, so you can let it go easily, right?

Yi Linchuan followed his roommate back to the dormitory in a daze, and heard his roommate calling his name.

"Linchuan."

"Ok?"

"Do you have a girlfriend?"

"No." Some wondered why his roommate asked this, Yi Linchuan took a sip of water from a cup, the food just now was so salty.

"You don't have a girlfriend, and you've never paid attention to the girls in your class, not even those from other classes. Linchuan, are you?"

"What is it?" Yi Linchuan was confused, turned his head to think for a while, and understood. "Ah, I am."

Such a candid attitude made the roommate a little surprised, but it didn't matter.

"Linchuan, it's not as good as us..." He put his hand on Linchuan's shoulder, looked down at him sitting on the chair, lowered his body a little bit, and attached it to Linchuan's ear, and said softly, "Anyway, the two men are also Don't be responsible." After speaking, he blew into Linchuan's ear.

As a result of his body reacting too quickly, Lin Chuan pushed his roommate away and kicked him hard.

When the roommate got up from the ground in embarrassment and annoyance, another roommate suddenly came back to pick up the documents that had been left behind.That's the end of the matter.

That lingering feeling of nausea.

While washing his ears bitterly, Yi Linchuan thought of Ye Ming again.

When Ye Ming whispered to him when he was a child, his breath blew into his ears, and his face instantly turned red.But that idiot Ye Ming asked him worriedly if he had a fever?Then he hit the head several times with a thick English book.

Yi Linchuan couldn't help pursing his lips and laughing, but froze when he realized it.No matter what, when he decided not to contact Ye Ming, he was no longer qualified to think about these things.

Yi Linchuan soon moved out of school.Then I started writing online articles to earn money, and gradually I was able to support myself.Little by little, he filled up the gaps in the passbook that Lin Chuyi had left for him, and then put it away and never used it again.

Sometimes he would stay in a daze for a long time without thinking about anything, but he was also very satisfied.

Yi Linchuan bought very thick curtains, and when the curtains were drawn, he couldn't even tell the difference between late night and early morning, noon and evening.Sleeping in a daze like this every day, the concept of time is getting more and more blurred.He even went out less and less, always bought a lot of vegetables and put them in the refrigerator, cooked them when he was hungry, and bought them when he was hungry, and cooked them casually without caring about the taste.

Days passed by in such a daze, until he received the notice of withdrawal from school, and realized that he hadn't been back to school for a long time, and felt a little melancholy at that moment.

What made him aware of the passage of time was the growing hair.

Looking at the broken hair hanging down to the chest, you can feel that you are not stuck in the same place and repeating yesterday.

An indescribable peace of mind.

Dark and boundless night.

Yi Linchuan closed his eyes, raised his head, and let the cool lips move up his neck, and then printed on his lips.

He knew it was a dream, and he knew who was pressing on him.

I have forgotten how many times I have had this dream.

He tried to see clearly the feelings between Ye Ming and him little by little, but after thinking about it, it seemed that it was no longer necessary.So he left it there in such a non-deep way, until later, he really understood Lin Chuyi's letter, and later, he inadvertently remembered it.

Not jealousy.

It's because I like it too much.Wishing him a happy life is already so devout that I don't even know it, so even blurting it out is in an affirmative tone.

It's not that I don't like it, it's not that I don't love it.

It was because he was too sensitive and vulnerable back then.Excessive lack of sense of security makes it difficult to show emotions easily.The unreliable situation in childhood made him a habit of facing difficulties alone, subconsciously rejecting anyone.This is true for Lin Chuyi, and it is also true for Ye Ming.

But all of this is too late.

At that time, he could no longer get through to Ye Ming.

Some people, once separated, will never meet again in this life.

Maybe there's nothing wrong with spending the rest of your life like this.

Yi Linchuan pulled out a hair band and tied his hair loosely behind his head.The man in the mirror who hadn't seen the light for a long time was pale. Under the slender eyelashes, a pair of indifferent eyes showed a trace of depression and laziness.

Lin Chuyi's bad habits in life have been completely learned by him. He knows it's not good, but it doesn't matter anymore.Then, inevitably, those little physical ailments follow.

Because there are examples to follow, Yi Linchuan logically applied Lin Chuyi's solution.

So he took out Lin Chuyi's hairband, thinking bitterly that if Lin Chuyi knew what he was like now, he might have the heart to kill him.

Later he wrote "The Old Man Is Back".

At first, I just wanted to construct a world selfishly, so that they in the story could live together for a long time.But I couldn't write any more.Until then, he didn't know that the miss of the two was not accidental.In the end, this article can only end in tragedy.

Later, he and Ye Ming reunited.

Yes.The man in front of him is no longer the Ye Ming in his memory.It's no longer that silly and naive young man, no longer only dedicated to enthusiasm and simplicity.But he himself is no longer the young man with vigor and arrogance.

Everything has long been different from before.

So, can we start over.

"Ye Ming." Yi Linchuan called him with a gentle tone.

"Huh?" Ye Ming looked at him suspiciously, seeing that he hadn't answered for a long time, he couldn't help nagging, "It's getting colder and colder outside, you see you sneezed several times just now, what if you catch a cold What to do? Let's hurry in."

Yi Linchuan smiled, and led Ye Ming into the house.

Ye Ming, since I was the one who let go first, now I will take the initiative to hold your hand.

The author has something to say: Ye Ming: She slipped away without saying a word, it was really bad.

Yi Linchuan (in a small voice): I learned from my sister...

Lin Chuyi: I won’t carry this pot Σ(っ°Д°;)っ

Ye Ling: Then you should take my blame →_→

Lin Chuyi (cold sweat): ...

When Lin Chuyi lived in seclusion, Lin Chuyi took Yi Linchuan's growth as the timeline; when Yi Linchuan lived alone, he took the growth of his hair as the timeline.