Kawakami Mizuki

Lin Chuyi nestled lazily in the rocking chair, looking up at this handsome young man. At the age of 17, he naturally exudes a vigorous and upward vigor, but he does not appear rash and impulsive because of his long-term accumulation of restraint and introversion.The delicate eyebrows are exactly the same as his mother's, and the clear and bright eyes are like a pool of still water.

She smiled and said to the boy: "Look, Linchuan, you are already taller than me."

The young man standing on the side was holding a small wooden basin to water the clusters of flowers and plants on the balcony, and he turned around and said, "Sister took good care of it."

Lin Chuyi knew that he was sensible, so he just smiled and shook his head.

Consciousness gradually became drowsy, and Lin Chuyi, who had long been used to it, found a comfortable position, closed her eyes and fell asleep.

When Lin Chuyi woke up, she felt dizzy as if the world had turned upside down, and the dim yellow color made her think it was evening.

Yi Linchuan, who was sitting on the side, looked at her quietly, with dry tears on his face.His voice was hoarse, and his eyes were bloodshot.

The sense of color gradually recovered, and the surrounding colors gradually became clearer.At this time, she was lying on a pure white single bed, and the familiar and long-lost smell of disinfectant made her easily recognize that this was a hospital room.The crisp birdsong outside the window broke through the morning wind and reached her ears.A budding white pear next to it poked into the window, revealing infinite vitality.

"What's the matter?" Lin Chuyi raised his hand to comfort Lin Chuan, but found that her whole body was stiff and cold, and there was no discomfort in any place, even her voice was hoarse and dry, as dry as an old woman's.

"You've been asleep for two days." Yi Linchuan looked at her, as if he had just realized that Lin Chuyi had woken up at this moment.There was a lost and found look on his face, and there was still a vague uneasiness that had not completely faded away.

When he came back from school, he saw Lin Chuyi sleeping in the rocking chair, so he walked lightly into the room to do his homework.After finishing writing, he cooked noodle soup to wake up Lin Chuyi, but failed.This kind of thing happened once or twice before, and Lin Chuyi would naturally wake up the next day.So he didn't care too much, and hugged Lin Chuyi to the bed so that she could sleep more peacefully.At this time, Lin Chuyi was already very thin due to illness, and the weight in her arms was unexpectedly light.

When I went to school the next morning, I didn't dare to disturb, so I just left home quietly.

But when he came back again in the evening, he finally felt that something was wrong.Lin Chuyi An Tian's sleeping face seemed to show no sign of waking up at all, and the trace of forcibly suppressed uneasiness in his heart was infinitely magnified. He tried in a panic to wake up the sleeping person, but ended in failure time and time again.

He put his unstoppably trembling fingertips under her nose, as if there was a slight airflow passing by, but it didn't seem to exist.He turned his head to listen to her heartbeat, there seemed to be a beating sound, but there seemed to be no sound.After repeating this several times, I couldn't tell whether she was alive or...

He squatted on the ground slowly, slowly, and couldn't help curling up into a ball like a child.

It turns out that life is something that can be lost so easily.

"Later, I called my brother. That's when I sent you to the hospital."

Although there was still a sense of drowsiness in his head, facing the frightened child, Lin Chuyi tried his best to pretend to be relaxed, trying to comfort him, "Okay, it's okay, I'm awake now."

"I'm not a child anymore." The voice was muffled.

Lin Chuyi was taken aback for a moment, then smiled.

"Okay, okay, can you pass me a glass of water?"

In her eyes, Linchuan has always been the child who timidly pulled the corner of her clothes.But time never stops for her to indulge in the past.

Yi Linchuan was sent outside the ward, he didn't know what Yi Chuwen and Lin Chuyi were talking about, he was only vaguely uneasy.

He sat on a chair and scratched a handful of hair irritably.

There happened to be a mother and daughter passing by in the corridor.

The mother is holding the child's hand, her waist and abdomen are slightly plump.She looked down at the child and said with a smile: "Ami, you are about to have a younger brother or younger sister, and you must be a good older sister in the future."

The little girl looked up at her mother, her face was confused for a moment, but she soon became happy again, "Will there be another little Ami?"

"It's not little Ami, it's Ami's brother or sister."

The little girl didn't know if she understood, but she stopped asking.

The two gradually walked away.

When Yi Linchuan returned to the ward, Lin Chuyi had already changed out of her hospital gown, and she was wearing a set of black clothes that Yi Chuwen asked someone to buy.She stood in front of the hospital bed, and when she saw him coming in, she smiled and said, "We are going home."

Lin Chuyi's long hair hung limply to her ankles, and when she moved, the ends of her hair would flicker and tap the smooth tiles.

Yi Linchuan was a little worried, "Is there no problem? Do you want to stay for two more days to observe the condition?"

"It's a waste of time to stay here." Lin Chuyi casually pulled out the gift box glitter belt that was loose on the cabinet, and tied up her long hair. "Okay, let's go."

I don't know if it was because she always slept with her hair wet, Lin Chuyi would feel dizzy when she tied her hair with a rubber band. The hair band was a little better, but she still felt dizzy after a long time.But such long hair is still tied up with hairpins or headbands when I go out occasionally.

Finally, Yi Chuwen's people sent them back.

When the two of them were having dinner, Lin Chuyi suddenly grabbed his arm and took a closer look, "Oh, for some reason, I suddenly remembered that I dropped the medicine bowl before. Fortunately, there was no scar, otherwise it would be ugly."

Yi Linchuan was suddenly startled by her actions, and he couldn't laugh or cry after hearing this: "Didn't I say that at the time? The medicine didn't splash on me at all."

"Really? I don't remember."

People who are ill generally have difficulty controlling their emotions, especially those who are chronically ill.Rao Lin Chuyi, who is so easy-going and easy-going, has had several unexplained fires.

The kind of long-term sickness and discomfort wrapped her up, aggrieved and powerless, and sometimes she even wondered why it was me?More and more negative emotions are accumulated in my heart, which cannot be resolved and has nowhere to vent.Finally, one day, I couldn't bear it any longer, and slammed down the medicine bowl, and a bowl of boiling hot medicine splashed everywhere, but I didn't expect that Yi Linchuan just pushed the door out of the study at this time, and was frightened by the loud noise. Staying where he was, broken pieces of porcelain flew to his feet.

Lin Chuyi was startled, but it was too late to stop, the restlessness in her heart suddenly turned into remorse and fear.She hurried to Yi Linchuan and asked him anxiously if he was burned.Seeing Yi Linchuan shaking his head, his heart was barely put back, but he was still uneasy, rolled up his sleeves and trousers to take a closer look, and after confirming that it was all right, he laid his forehead back on the bench.

Lin Chuyi waved to him, "You go back to the room first, I'll sweep up the debris on the ground later." She covered her hands behind her eyes, but she couldn't hide her depression and depression.

That was also the first time he knew that Lin Chuyi was actually not as free and easy as he appeared on the surface.

"Linchuan?" Lin Chuyi knocked on his head, and said angrily, "I'm talking to you, why are you in a daze?"

"Oh……"

"I'm going to Huanggang to find Xia Tian, ​​do you know that you are staying at Yi's house these few days?"

Yi Linchuan responded in a low voice, but for some reason, he felt a little uneasy.

The next day, Yi Linchuan pushed open the wooden door of the bedroom, and a faint scent of sandalwood came in.As he walked down the stairs, he looked at Lin Chuyi who was sitting in the living room on the first floor.

A remnant candle and a small hollowed-out cauldron were placed on the table, wisps of green smoke overflowed from the lotus cover and drifted away.

She supported her chin with one hand, played with the hosta in her other hand, and stared at the dancing candlelight in front of her eyes.The dark pupils of the eyes flow faintly, with flickering light spots falling inside.Her long hair dragged to the ground, twisting and winding.

"Are you awake?" Lin Chuyi heard the footsteps, turned her head and smiled at Yi Linchuan, "Come here."

Yi Linchuan noticed that there was a neat strand of broken hair in her hair, which should have been cut by scissors.

Lin Chuyi handed him a small wooden box, "This is for you, be careful not to lose it."

Very light weight to start with.

Yi Linchuan noticed that the box was sealed with wax, so he didn't ask her what was in it.

When the two came out of the house, they realized that it was raining lightly.The drizzle flying all over the sky silently fell on every place, and then soaked into it without a trace.A cool and cold breath rushed towards his face, unknowingly contaminated his whole body.

It was Qingming and light rain.

Lin Chuyi liked the weather very much, and couldn't help reaching out to pick it up, but felt that it was too childish, so she subconsciously glanced at Yi Linchuan, and withdrew her hand a little embarrassed.

Yi Linchuan only handed her an umbrella and said, "Be careful of catching a cold."

Such a plain white umbrella matched her clothes just right.The ankle-length light-colored jumpsuits with fluttering skirts create beautiful ripples when the wind blows.The plain white long sleeves were clean without any embroidered patterns, and the cuffs revealed thin hands holding the handle of the umbrella with distinct knuckles.Under the umbrella was a sickly pale face, inadvertently revealing a little tiredness.

Her long hair was untied, and it was casually scattered behind her back. She looked at him with extremely gentle eyes, "Linchuan, you must live every day well in the future, you know?"

……what?

Yi Linchuan looked at the Yi family in a daze, forgetting how he came here.All eyes are full of Lin Chuyi's appearance.

But Lin Chuyi didn't seem to be nostalgic anymore, turned around and left.The plain white back and flying long hair melted into the rain curtain one by one, and the skirt and hair tail gradually got wet.

Yi Linchuan suddenly realized something.Xia Tian graduated five years ago and left Huanggang to go elsewhere.

But Lin Chuyi was no longer in sight.

The rain is getting heavier.

Later, Yi Linchuan used a knife to cut the layer of wax on the joints of the wooden box, and opened the box.The space inside the box is very shallow, only occupying half of the box.

There were two envelopes inside, one of which was written with the words "Qin Linchuan".

Unfolding the letter inside, it was indeed Lin Chuyi's handwriting.

Linchuan:

When you open this letter, you should already understand everything.

I'm sorry that I didn't have the courage to say goodbye to you face to face, so I made this decision.I don't even want to forgive myself for such a bad behavior, so I don't ask for your forgiveness.

Linchuan, I am very glad to have such a period of time with you, and I can watch you grow up little by little and become the teenager you are today.You have always been sensible and never made me worry.On the other hand, I have never been a competent elder.

Linchuan, I am very guilty.

Over the years, I have been obsessed with the past, but I have forgotten that there is a child growing up beside me who needs someone to preach and clear up his doubts.When you are at a loss for the way ahead, when you are frustrated and struggling, when you are hesitant and hesitant, I have not been able to detect your situation and give you help and guidance.And you were afraid of increasing my burden, so you never took the initiative to tell me, you just hid it silently in your heart.

By the time I realize my fault, you've grown up.No matter how much regret I have, it is irreparable.

Besides, my negative attitude towards life affects you a lot.I have always been used to being loose, and I don't think there is anything wrong with it.But Linchuan, I don't want you to be like me.You still have a very long future, in which joys, sorrows, joys, and all the tastes of life are waiting for you to understand one by one.

Linchuan, you have lost your mother since you were a child, and you have never felt the love of your father.What this world presents to you is a deserted, barren, and unreliable appearance, which leads to your extreme lack of sense of security.Later you met me, and although I would do my best to treat you well, the sense of security you have been missing is not what I, a sick woman, can give you, but it makes you even more uneasy.

However, Linchuan, no one in this world can give you a sense of security forever.

Only by yourself, growing continuously, growing strong enough to be independent and not attached to anyone, can you live freely and fearlessly.

This may be a very painful process, but you are the child I watched grow up after all, I know you can do it.

It's a pity that I can't accompany you in the future. I wish you all the best in the future and everything goes smoothly.

Another: The second envelope contains the passbook and password, if you want to do anything in the future, you can do it freely.

——Lin Chuyi

The author has something to say: I feel dizzy when I tie my hair, and I feel very resentful about it. . . . .

summer is so hot

I don't know if it's because of sleeping with wet hair, but I think this is the only bad thing I have (in terms of hair problems)