Kawakami Mizuki

When Lin Li met Ji Xue, both of them were in their best years.As sung in the opera, they are really a man and a woman, a match made in heaven.When the two held hands and looked at each other, there was an indelible tenderness in their eyes.There have been soft words and soft words, and there have been vows of eternal love.

At that time, the elders of both parties did not agree to the marriage.But the two love each other very deeply, and they overcame all the pressure, and the lovers finally got married.And soon after they got married, they had a daughter, and the two became more and more affectionate.

Ji Xue's background is not low in the eyes of ordinary people, but it still cannot be compared with the Lin family.What's more, the old lady of the Lin family already has someone in mind for her future daughter-in-law.Qi Yuan, the second young lady of the Qi family, was born tall, well-bred, and liked Lin Li wholeheartedly, but Lin Li, who only had Ji Xue in his eyes, never noticed.How can the old lady who has lived most of her life fail to notice that she agreed to Qi Yuan's marriage in private.Unexpectedly, Ji Xue made a horizontal cut, and the old lady couldn't resist her son's stubbornness, so Ji Xue finally became her daughter-in-law.

Later Qi Yuan married Lin Li's elder brother Lin Zhi.The two families also settled Qin and Jin's friendship, but no one asked the opinion of the person concerned.On the wedding night, Qi Yuan wore a gorgeous wedding dress and sat on the new bed expressionlessly, feeling ashamed.

Qi Yuan hated Ji Xue for poisoning her, and when they met in private, he would inevitably sneer eccentrically and embarrass her.The old lady also felt that Ji Xue was annoying, and the daughter-in-law married by the Qi family was good in everything, and she felt guilty about her, so she wished she could build a temple to enshrine this great Buddha.The old lady was as clear as a mirror in Qi Yuan's tricks about Ji Xue, but she only pretended to be deaf and dumb, and sometimes even added fuel to the flames.

After marrying, Ji Xue didn't complain about her mother-in-law and sister-in-law's constant making things difficult and being mean all day long, but every night when she waited for her husband to come back, looking at Lin Li's apologetic but affectionate eyes, she suddenly felt that those things were nothing.

The Lin family was born as a merchant, and after so many years of hard work, they have somewhat of a foundation.Lin Li was always so busy with business affairs that he never saw anyone.

Ji Xue half-truthfully complained about Lin Li's late return: "I feel like a widow."

"My heart is with you, really."

Seeing Lin Li anxiously and clumsily expressing her feelings, Ji Xue couldn't help laughing out loud: "What a stupid piece of wood."

But sometimes Ji Xue was really anxious, and complained to Lin Li with red eyes about the increasingly unbearable difficulties of Mrs. Lin, and Lin Li just comforted Ji Xue to bear with it and be filial to the old man.

At the beginning, Ji Xue liked Lin Li's honesty, but sometimes she couldn't help complaining.Lin Li was so honest that he could even be called pedantic.Lin Li's honesty is especially dedicated to filial piety, and he can be called a model of 24 filial piety.From his point of view, his mother was right after all, Ji Xue played a petty temper against her mother when she was young, and it will be fine after a few years of running in.

Ji Xue was so wronged that she burst into tears. When she was serving tea, the old lady accidentally knocked the hot tea into her hand. She stopped in pain and the teacup shattered on the floor. It was right after all, so Ji Xue was wrong, and it was her carelessness.The old lady scolded Ji Xue and punished her to stand under the scorching heat for an hour - the reason why she was not punished for longer was because Ji Xue passed out due to heatstroke.But there is no way, the old lady is an elder, and she is right after all.So Ji Xue made the mistake of being pampered and lazy.

Lin Li is often not at home, not knowing whether what Ji Xue said is true or not, so he asks his mother.The old lady only mentioned it lightly, and Lin Li believed it too, thinking it was Ji Xue's petty temper.

But recently, Lin Li suddenly felt that something was wrong.

The servants looked at him strangely, but when he looked over, they all lowered their heads.Lin Li was completely puzzled.

That night when I passed by the bamboo forest when I was returning to the yard, I suddenly felt that the contract signed today was not right. It was a big contract and there must be no mistakes.The impatient Lin Li simply stood still, opened the briefcase on the spot, took out the contract, and looked at it with the faint light of the street lamp.

But the sound of footsteps and voices immediately made Lin Li lose interest in the contract.

"I didn't expect that Ji Xue, who looks so virtuous, would do such a thing."

"Isn't it? People should not be judged by their appearance."

"Master is not at home all day long, Madam is like a widow, it's inevitable."

"That's not true, I heard that who and Mrs. Ji have known each other for a long time, maybe before they married the master... Hahaha..."

The two looked at each other, and burst into strange smiles in tacit understanding.

The two men carried paper lanterns and walked on another stone paved road. The sky was dark, and with the devotion they said, they walked far away in a gag, unaware that there was a person standing more than ten meters away.

Lin Li felt like thunder, and muttered to himself, "How is this possible?"

Yes, it must be those two servants talking nonsense. They should be stopped at that time and disciplined so that they will not dare to chew their tongues in the future.Lin Li thought bitterly, but he no longer had any interest in official business, so he hastily stuffed the contract into his briefcase, and hurried back to Zhulin Xiaoyuan.

Lin Li returned to the small garden, and as soon as he opened the door, he saw Ji Xue sitting at the dining table waiting for him to come back for dinner.Seeing him coming back, Ji Xue showed a gentle smile, and asked with concern: "What's wrong? You look so bad."

Lin Li looked at his married wife in front of him, feeling irritable for some reason, pushed Ji Xue away from him, and replied in a vicious voice, "It's none of your business."

Ji Xue froze on the spot, feeling extremely wronged, but she didn't say anything, and silently served the warm meal.

I can understand.She said to herself silently in her heart, he was just in a bad mood in business, so don't worry about such a trivial matter.

Lin Li picked up the bowl and chopsticks and ate two mouthfuls. For some reason, a feeling of suffocation stuck in his chest.He suddenly put down the bowl and chopsticks heavily, Wan Yuan collided with the table and made a dull sound: "Why is this meal so unpalatable today! Don't eat it!"

Ji Xue was startled by the sound, and saw Lin Li put the bowl in the dish, and the leftovers were mixed together, making a mess.Clay figurines still have a bit of anger, let alone living, flesh and blood people?As gentle as Ji Xue, she couldn't help getting angry, and when she was about to explode, she thought of her sleeping daughter in the inner room, so she forced herself to suppress her anger and said as calmly as possible: "Lin Li, I don't know what's going on with you today, business is not going well. If it’s not good, don’t use me as a punching bag. An’an fell asleep in the room, please keep your voice down.”

But Lin Li didn't care about Ji Xue's consideration at all. The more he looked at Ji Xue, the more disgusting she looked, "I do business very well! I'm ashamed to have this spare money to keep you at home for nothing!" With a hint of annoyance and guilt, he shouldn't hurt Ji Xue with these pretentious things.

"I'm ashamed? How did I embarrass you? You're insane, you don't know why!" But Ji Xue was sensitive to the meaning behind Lin Li's words, and what was beyond her bewilderment was the surging anger.What Lin Li said was a great humiliation to her.

Lin Liben was a little guilty, but when he saw Ji Xue's reaction, he couldn't help feeling a little doubtful: If it wasn't true, why did she react so violently?

Once the seeds of doubt are planted, they can take root and sprout into a big tree in an instant.His eyes became a little subtle, how keen a woman's sense is, she immediately saw the loneliness in Lin Li's eyes.

She looked at Lin Li in disbelief, her eyes turned red instantly.

The deeply hurt eyes hurt Lin Li deeply, as if he was such a despicable and hypocritical villain.But it wasn't his fault at all, was it?The culprit is the obviously skittish Ji Xue!

He sneered, and slapped Ji Xue on the face.The blood surged up, completely submerging the remaining guilt and reason.

"I never thought that marrying a wife can also marry a second-hand one!"

These words are really heartbreaking.

"Lin Li, are you crazy?" Ji Xue was furious, covering her swollen cheeks, tears fell down, "Who do you think I am? You say that, and you put me in the wrong place by doing this." Where, where do you place An?"

"An'an?" He smirked, "I don't know whose seed it is?"

Lin Li looked at Ji Xue with contempt and disdain, and he took a sip, "Bitch!"

The harsh words pierced her heart one after another, and she clutched her chest tightly, as if a hole had been dug there.The pain was so real that she couldn't help but lower her head to see if she was really dripping with blood.Her eyes glanced at the white joints of her clenched fists, and she suddenly woke up a little bit. She wiped her tears fiercely: "When I came to your Lin's house, there was not a day when I was not angry, but I endured it just because I liked you. If you don't If you like me, just tell me directly, use these dirty tricks, Lin Li, I really look down on you."

Her words were choked with sobs, as if she wanted to use all her strength to speak these few words clearly.

Then he turned around and went to the inner room, trying to take An An away, but found An An who was supposed to be asleep was hiding behind the door, a pair of bright big eyes looked at her blankly and confusedly, then quickly glanced at Lin Li, and flinched back. small step.

An An is still so young...

She felt a stabbing pain in her heart, wiped away the tears all over her face, and pretended to be relaxed, "An'an, will mom take you away?"

She tried her best to retain the dignity of a mother in front of her children.

"Where are we going?" The one-and-a-half-year-old child anxiously grabbed the hem of his clothes and asked in a childish voice, ignorant and ignorant.

"Go home, let's go home!" Thinking of the warm word home, Ji Xue's nose sores, and the tears she had just stopped almost fell again.Like a wounded little animal, she subconsciously burrowed into the place she was most familiar with.

This is no longer her home.

An An looked at Ji Xue anxiously and nodded.

After getting this response, Ji Xue immediately picked up the child and walked outside, Lin Li didn't stop her, and a servant who didn't know the situation came to report the news in panic, but he just sneered, "Let her go, it's best to die outside."

Lin Ji's family was a few streets away, and it was so dark that it was impossible to hail a car.Ji Xue hugged An An alone in the dark, running wildly, and it was already midnight when she stumbled and ran home.Fortunately, on such a dangerous night, they did not encounter robbers.

Ji's father and mother, who were awakened in the middle of the night, hurriedly opened the door to let Ji Xue in.

When Ji Xue saw her sleepy parents, the grievances in her heart welled up all of a sudden, and her tears couldn't stop falling down.Seeing this, Ji's mother hurriedly hugged An'an down and coaxed her to sleep. In the familiar home, Ji Xueqiang's nerves could not help but relax, and threw herself into his father's arms, crying for a while.Ji's father carefully patted his daughter's back, listening to Ji Xue choked up what happened tonight.

Ji Xue was sobbing, but said decisively that she wanted to divorce and go home.

Ji's father and Ji's mother looked at each other.

Ji's father touched the top of Ji Xue's head comfortingly, and led Ji Xue to the stool to sit down.

But Ji's mother frowned and reproached: "I'm not talking about you, as a woman, you should do your duty when you marry." Ji's mother's tone was a bit harsh, but she slowed down after speaking, "He also just misunderstood for a while. , It's so late now, go to sleep, I'll send someone to take you back tomorrow."

Ji Xue looked at Ji's mother in astonishment, as if standing in front of her was someone she had never known before.

Ji Xue turned to look at Ji's father again, Ji's father looked guilty, turned his head to avoid her gaze, and said to Ji's mother: "Xiaoxue is like this, can't you say something nice? If you want to sleep, you sleep first. I have to talk to Xiaoxue."

Ji's mother shook her head, opened her mouth and said nothing after all, turned around and left.

"Dad! It's not my fault, Lin Li is just an asshole." Ji Xue looked straight at her father, with a pair of wet and red eyes showing stubbornness, "I want to go home."

Ji's father didn't say whether it was good or bad, but talked about other things in a rambling manner: "Xiaoxue, your brother learned how to do business a few days ago... I said he is not good for business, but what about him, Just don't listen..."

Ji Xue wanted to interrupt several times, but in the end she didn't.She looked at her father with gray temples, only to realize that she had only been married for less than two years, and her father had aged so much and was no longer as vigorous as before.

"Your brother does business with his cronies. I told him that his friends are not good people, but he still doesn't listen... His business lost money, and all his friends ran away, leaving him alone. It's a mess... I've lost the whole family..." Ji's father said here, his eyes were moist.

Ji Xue didn't expect these things to happen at home after she left for such a short time. She looked at her father blankly and didn't know what to say for a while.

"Lin Li is an honest man. He helped the Ji family pay all the indemnities, redeemed the house, and brought your brother's unsatisfactory prodigal son with him to teach him how to do business... Ji Xue, we really appreciate the great kindness of the Lin family. It's not up yet..." From the beginning to the end, Ji's father never looked directly into Ji Xue's eyes.

Ji Xue sat there as if she lost her soul.

Ji's father didn't agree with Ji Xue's return until the end, but Ji Xue already understood.

Just after dawn, she was stuffed into the car that Ji's mother had prepared for her.Ji Xue looked back at Ji's house blankly, and suddenly felt that the house where she lived for so many years was nothing more than a cold house.

In fact, neither Lin Li nor Ji Xue knew that it was Qi Yuan who first spread the rumors. Although she had the heart to slander Ji Xue, she, a young lady from a noble family, couldn't say anything too nasty. It's cheap, skittish, and nothing new.But it couldn't reach the spread of word of mouth, and those words became even more unbearable.

Mrs. Lin has lived most of her life, so how can she not know this like a human being, but she feels ashamed of Miss Qi Er in her heart, and she is afraid of the Qi family behind Miss Qi Er, and she doesn't have the slightest affection for Ji Xue, a foxy girl, He just pretended that he was deaf and couldn't hear those gossips.

People who spread rumors are talkative, and they can't help but add a word or two to what they hear before telling others.The rumor became more and more true, until later, it was even more exciting than the story told by the storyteller, and the details were described vividly, as if he had witnessed the whole process of Ji Xue's shameless flirting with wild men.

Lin Li, an honest businessman, seemed to have suddenly become enlightened, and frequently went in and out of brothels and Chu halls, never returning home at night.On the table, he familiarly pushes and changes glasses with the drinkers, scolding and joking, just like a veteran.

The more drunk, the more sober.

He looked at it coldly, the cups were staggered, and the cups were full of prosperity.The tall glass is shining brightly under the light, and the cold liquid in the glass shakes slightly, reflecting the drunkenness and ugly state of all beings.

He suddenly smirked.Everyone looked back, it turned out that it was a drunkard who stumbled, cried and laughed, obviously drunk.

Later, Lin Li had someone he liked outside.

Ji Xue once sneaked a look at that person. His eyes were like sparkling clear water. When looking at someone, there was always gentle kindness, and he was intoxicated without words.And when she returned home, she sat blankly in front of the dressing table mirror, looking at the pale and haggard person in the mirror, the resentment in her eyes made her unable to believe that it was herself.

She covered her face and smiled lowly.

Suddenly remembered the days when the two loved each other the deepest.At that time, the autumn wind swept away, and the golden leaves fell all over the ground, and his kiss fell on her forehead, soft and gentle.

is that love

If so, why did everything change overnight?It was like falling to the ground from a high altitude, falling hard and mercilessly.Those words pierced sharply and crazily into the softest place, and even recalling it still brings warm blood and pain.Is it because I don't feel pain when I say those words, so I hurt others unscrupulously, every word, and blood seals my throat.

There was not even room for maneuver.

Was it just a water moon mirror flower?Why bother to perform to the fullest and leave her alone in the play.

When she was lingering on the sick bed in a daze, she swallowed a bowl of extremely bitter medicine, smiled in a trance, her hands drooped weakly, and gradually fell into an eternal dream.

After that, there will be no more separation.