maybe i miss you

2009, winter.

The first moderate snow fell in Seoul, Quan Zhilong leaned on the bench in the practice room, staring at his phone in a daze.

【Zhilong, why are you so preoccupied?You don't even know I'm here. 】Taeyang put his bag aside, and sat down beside Quan Zhilong.

【In the past few days, that girl has been too quiet, making me feel uncomfortable and paranoid. 】On the screen of Quan Zhilong's mobile phone is the text message that Chi Qiunuan sent him two weeks ago, which is very normal and nothing unusual.

[You mean your Chi Xiaonuan? 】

【Oh yes. 】

Sun thinks that Quan Zhilong is a typical vile mentality. In the past, when Chi Qiunuan chased and texted him every day, he got annoyed and didn't reply, and didn't answer the phone calls. A look of relief.Sun is also used to it, ever since he met Quan Zhilong, he has always carried this hair boy behind him, and Sun has long been used to the small fights between them.

[Maybe your family, Chi Xiaonuan, has fallen in love. When you were 17 years old, you changed several girlfriends. 】

[As far as her character and appearance are concerned, not many people dare to want her. 】Quan Zhilong can't finish talking about Chi Qiunuan for days and nights.

[Who said that, I look pretty good. 】

Sun Yang thinks that this younger sister is very close to the eyes, and she will not be arrogant like other children. In Sun Yang's perception, she always greets him politely.

[Don't think about it, isn't there an announcement in the afternoon, and my own affairs can't be bothered. 】The 2009 MAMA Awards Ceremony is coming soon, and with various activities at the end of the year, Quan Zhilong himself is also busy.

Although Quan Zhilong agreed to the sun in that way, Quan Zhilong still chose to rush to the high school where Chi Qiunuan was studying just after the recording of the show, because it was too abnormal.

Chi Qiunuan is wearing a bright red sweater today, Quan Zhilong rarely sees her wearing such a bright color, even in the crowd, she looks extraordinarily conspicuous, she goes around her neck to grab the hair on the other side, Under the sunlight, Quan Zhilong could still see the shining ring on her right index finger.

Subconsciously turned the ring on his right index finger, Quan Zhilong still remembered that this was his first pair of designs, he put the hat down a little lower, but obviously he couldn't stop the exquisite makeup from the TV station.Then he took out his phone and sent Chi Qiunuan a text message.

The phone in Chi Qiunuan's pocket rang twice, and then she took it out and saw a text message reminding her that the displayed name was Quan Zhilong. After hesitating for a while, she turned off the phone. This series of actions were all overwhelmed by Quan Zhilong. Received in the eyes.

That girl is really getting bolder and bolder. She has only been busy with work for a few months, and her temper is getting better and better.

[Chi Qiunuan, you like Quan Zhilong like crazy, why just change someone else's phone number to his. 】

【You think I'm like you. 】

[Then don't tell me you found someone with the same name? 】

[It's still the same, what's up with you. 】Chi Qiunuan's unforgiving mouth is probably cultivated by Quan Zhilong carefully.

[Then show me another day? 】

[Why are you meeting me, want to pick him up? ] Chi Qiunuan was slapped on the back of the head from the side just as Chi Qiunuan's words fell, and then

I realized that the tone that was no longer familiar sounded from beside me.

[Stinky girl, how old are you and you can't talk about it, brother, am I embarrassing you?What happened to bring your classmates to meet? 】

Chi Qiunuan's first reaction was to jump up and pat the back of the head back, but reality proved that she failed.Because Quan Zhilong's hand couldn't rest on her shoulder naturally, not to mention turning around, even raising it was a problem.

What followed immediately was endless annoyance, Quan Zhilong would never have just happened to appear and then just happened to hear her ending sentence, obviously none of her previous actions escaped his attention, relying on his narrow-mindedness It's strange if you don't fix yourself to death with your personality.

For Quan Zhilong, Chi Qiunuan doesn't think he cares about children at all, even if Chi Qiunuan is four years younger than him.

【Oh, when did you come? ] Play stupid, play stupid again.

[Don't worry, I've seen everything I should have seen and what I shouldn't have seen. 】

[Hehe, the phone is out of battery. 】

[Chi Qiunuan, do you want me to verify it myself? 】Quan Zhilong ignored the excitement and whispering of the girls around him, and seemed to be with Chi Qiu

Warmth is the most important thing for him at the moment.

【I just want to take a step down. ] Chi Qiunuan blushed, Quan Zhilong knew that usually when this kind of situation occurs, she is either shy or ashamed, obviously this does not belong to the former.

How Chi Qiunuan was carried back to Quan Zhilong's car was a very bumpy experience, but Quan Zhilong kept the artist's standard smile the whole time.It wasn't until the moment he locked the car door that the expression on his face returned to its original anger and bewilderment.

[Come on, what's the matter? 】

【I don't. 】Chi Qiunuan took the schoolbag off his back and put it on his chest to hold it, but kept his gaze straight ahead.

【Say. 】

[Really not. 】

Quan Zhilong turned to look at her, she lowered her head and put her chin on her schoolbag while editing text messages on her mobile phone.Quan Zhilong suddenly realized the seriousness of the matter, and then he remembered Taeyang's speculation in the practice room before, he looked serious for a moment, and then asked.

[Chi Xiaonuan, you don't really fall in love, do you? 】

Chi Qiunuan didn't get an answer to this sentence, but she stopped what she was doing with her head down all the time, then turned her head to look him in the eyes, with a blank expression, as if what Quan Zhilong just said was not this at all The language of the planet.

It lasted like this for 3 seconds, Quan Zhilong looked away.

【I also think what Yong Pei said is nonsense. ] Then he started the car and drove away from the stagnation point just now, while Chi Qiunuan continued to lower his head and edit the text message she had just written halfway.

[oppa, treat me to dinner, I'm hungry. ] Chi Qiunuan seemed to have spent a long time writing that text message, but in fact the phone screen

The words on the paper were only a few lines, she wrote, deleted and deleted, and finally decided to save it in the draft box.

[Not angry anymore? 】

[I was not angry at first. 】

【Hmph, just be stubborn.What to eat? ] Chi Qiunuan has always been very coaxing and easily moved. Quan Zhilong knew that he came to pick her up today, and just this one move could make her give up all her persistence and smile.

[Barbecue? 】

[It must be wrapped and eaten with vegetables. 】

【oppa~】

[It's useless to act like a baby, your recipe is completely horrible. 】Chi Qiunuan is a carnivorous animal, and there must be meat on the table to satisfy her, so Quan Zhilong will occasionally restrict her diet.

【All right. 】

Quan Zhilong saw that she seemed to be reluctant to agree but still smiled. Sometimes Chi Qiunuan is not like a sister, but like his best friend. No one knows where his limit is better than her. She can always Do it in moderation while being coquettish.

The car stopped at the barbecue restaurant they often went to, Quan Zhilong asked Chi Qiunuan to get off first, and then parked the car in the parking lot by himself. It was already very cold in South Korea in November. Chi Qiunuan buttoned up the open red cardigan sweater, then retracted his hands into the cuffs and never took them out again.

Quan Zhilong parked the car and ran over. From a distance, he saw Chi Qiunuan with a red nose in the wind, and suddenly felt warm in his heart, as if she had always stayed by his side like this, whether it was waiting or making noise .

[Oppa, some time ago I dreamed of you and sister Zhener. ] Halfway through the meal, Chi Qiunuan suddenly stopped his chopsticks.

【Then what?How to say? 】Quan Zhilong is very funny when he sees her serious look, he didn't see her, he just dreamed about it, so what.

【Do you still like your sister very much now? 】

【Chi Xiaonuan, what are you thinking? 】

[Suddenly I feel so sorry for you, always bothering you. 】

[Chi Qiunuan, are you okay, what are you talking about? This is it. 】Quan Zhilong put down his chopsticks unhappily. If Chi Qiunuan mentioned such a topic, Quan Zhilong would definitely make fun of her, but this series of things together made him faintly moved.

Feel uneasy.

[It's okay, let's eat. 】

[Do you think I can still eat properly after you said a series of nonsensical things? 】Quan Zhilong grabbed Chi Qiunuan's wrist and wanted to continue to move the chopsticks. He seemed to be completely irritated by such a weird atmosphere. Chi Qiunuan has never been like this, and even if there is an awkwardness, he will quickly reconcile.

[Say, what's the matter? 】

Chi Qiunuan didn't look at him, but just stared at the charred meat on the table.

[Chi Qiunuan, you know my patience is limited, if you think I'm idle and bored and ask me to play such a childish game, the consequences will be serious. 】

[I really don't intend to say it, do I?That's fine, you can figure it out yourself. 】Quan Zhilong waited for 5 minutes, then got up and left, he couldn't stand such an unclear atmosphere.

Chi Qiunuan looked out the window, as if snowflakes were about to fall again, she could see Quan Zhilong's car driving away from her sight, she said: Chi Qiunuan, you must be crazy.

Chi Qiunuan regretted angering him, but at the same time, she was glad that she angered him, because she seemed to be able to convince herself that she was nothing more than that in his heart.

Quan Zhilong's car started snowing halfway through, and he suddenly realized that Chi Qiunuan was still wearing very thin clothes, so he was making a series of thoughts.

After trying to struggle, he turned around.

[I want to ask where did the girl who was here just now go? 】

【You mean the one who often comes with you? 】Quan Zhilong is already a regular customer here, and because he is a star, there are naturally many shop assistants who know him.

[Well, yes, where is she? 】

[It's been a while since I left. 】

Quan Zhilong felt that he was about to be driven crazy by that girl, and the busyness of the day made him feel powerless, especially when he didn't know the reason at all.

He called and sent text messages, but they were all in Shicheng Dahai. Finally, he called Chi Qiunuan's father and wanted to ask him if Chi Qiunuan was home.

【Hey. 】

【Hey, Uncle, I'm Zhilong, has Xiaonuan gone back? 】

[Did Xiao Nuan not tell you? 】Quan Zhilong knew that Chi Qiunuan must have concealed something from him

【We have been moving to China for a while now. Xiaonuan's grandfather is not in good health. I don't know when he will be able to return to Korea. It will take two or three years if it is soon.I thought she told you that this girl can't do anything at all.You just called me and said that you are almost at the airport, and you said that you are about to board the plane. 】

Quan Zhilong didn't hear the very lengthy conversation on the other end of the phone clearly, his thoughts just stopped on those one-sided words at the airport, and then he reacted, just, Chi Qiunuan, you are so ruthless.

When she was about to arrive at the airport, Chi Qiunuan finally finished writing the text message that she had been writing since the beginning. She glanced at the recipient, and then pressed the send button.

She said: I didn't dream of you and Sister Zhen'er that day, but I met Sister Zhen'er. She said that maybe you would be happy without me.That day I listened to thislove for a long time, and I suddenly felt that I have never meant much to you, self-willed, coquettish, and arrogant.Brother Zhilong, I really want to fall in love with you selfishly, but I know that you only have feelings for me as a younger sister. Forgive me for not having the courage to confess to you. I promise, when I come back, I will never love you again. I will never hinder your happiness again.

That day, the snow fell all night, covering Seoul. That year, Quan Zhilong gilded MAMA with the most proud posture, and no one seemed to remember that there should be a girl standing beside him. , all smiles.It also seems that no one has mentioned the name Chi Qiunuan again, it seems that this is just a passerby, or a tacit understanding.

With such a tacit understanding, it doesn't take too long to forget. Maybe at the beginning, I can't forget, until later I can't remember who is who. On such days, Quan Zhilong forgot about Chi Qiunuan , Forgot the girl he had been with for 17 years day and night, and also forgot whether her return date was approaching or whether it had already passed.

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