Protagonist, wake up

Xie Lang knelt in the lobby for another half an hour.

Now the weather is cold, after kneeling, Xie Lang only felt that his legs had lost all feeling, and his whole body was bitingly cold.When he returned to his room, his knee was also slightly swollen.

Jian Zhu whispered distressedly: "I'm sorry, it's my fault today, I didn't see it."

Xie Lang shook his head.

"Go and get some medicine, or you won't be able to get out of bed tomorrow."

Xie Lang just slowly lay down on the table, pressing his unswollen face against the table, looking out the window with blank eyes.

In the silent night, there are only a few lights in the distance.Xie Lang stared blankly at the bright moon hanging high in the sky, and suddenly smiled. He said to Jian Zhu, "Fortunately, it's not Ziluo who suffers." Slowly said: "Lan Jue, I saw my father's gray hair. He is getting old, and he is so angry today, I'm afraid he will make another mistake."

"..."

"But if I don't fight with dad, where will I put Ziluo?"

"..."

"What should I do? What should I do?"

"Is it possible to disappoint someone no matter what?"

"How come there is no dual law in this world?"

……

Jian Zhu listened to Xie Lang talking a lot until he fell into a deep sleep.In the dream, his brows were also tightly frowned, with cold sweat dripping from his face.

Jian Zhu's heart was heavy, and the soreness was stuck in his throat.At this time, he couldn't even hug Xie Lang to comfort him and give him medicine.

He's stuck here and there's nothing he can do.

**

Father Xie restricted Xie Lang's actions and asked him to think about it.But the two always find a way to meet.

Yan Ziluo caressed Xie Lang's still swollen cheeks distressedly, and sighed: "Fool, you will be punished yourself, but you pushed me out quickly."

Xie Lang said in a low voice: "...I'm sorry."

"You're too honest. It's because I had something bad in my heart first, so you should just push it to me, and I will be punished."

"sorry."

"You don't have to say I'm sorry. I'm incompetent and can't protect you."

"No...not..."

Yan Ziluo let go of Xie Lang, lowered her head and gently kissed the side of his face.

"Chengsi, don't worry."

Three days later, Yanzi Luo came to visit.

Father Xie also didn't expect this guy to be so courageous and thick-skinned.He looked at the young man he once admired, but now his eyes were full of disgust.

Out of politeness, Father Xie held back his anger and brought him to the study.

Xie Lang was outside, listening in horror as the room went from the silence at the beginning to the clatter of thunder and bangs at the end, and finally it returned to calm again.

After Yan Ziluo came out, he couldn't believe it: "Your face... no, what's wrong with your legs?"

Yan Ziluo touched his slightly swollen face and looked at his lame legs, and said indifferently, "Let the elder calm down."

Xie Lang opened his eyes wide: "Father..."

"No, uncle won't agree, he just lifted your ban." Yan Ziluo looked at the dim eyes of the person in front of him, and recalled what Xie father said to him before he came out——

"...Don't ever think in your life that we can forgive you, and the Xie Mansion will never welcome you."

"……Yes."

"If it wasn't for my son's sake, you wouldn't want to keep this leg today."

He patted Xie Lang's head and smiled slightly.

"Chengsi, remember, no matter what, you are his child."

In the house——

"Master, is this really okay?" Mother Xie frowned.

Father Xie snorted coldly: "Are you really going to drive him out of the house? He is my child after all."

He sighed deeply: "He is my son."

**

After this incident, Xie Lang lifted the ban, but he rarely went out.

Until three weeks later, a servant slipped a letter to him, and a doctor's diagnosis was attached to the letter.

Xie Lang felt like a bolt from the blue after reading it, he staggered, turned around and rushed out the door.On the way, he bumped into brother Xie, but he hurriedly said sorry and ran away without looking back.Brother Xie was left standing there rubbing his shoulders in bewilderment.

"Hey kid..."

Jian Zhu remembered that Yan Ziluo was not in good health.

The disease came suddenly and quickly, by the time Xie Lang learned about it, Yan Ziluo was already too sick to get out of bed.

"It's me..." He tremblingly stood in front of Yanzi Luo's bed, "It's me..."

Full of disbelief.

Who would have thought that a person who was fine three weeks ago would start to get sick after returning from the Xie Mansion.

Yanziluo smiled wryly.

The person lying on the bed was no longer as handsome as before, and his whole body was entangled with a rotten sickness.His body is extremely weak, his lips are pale, but his eyes looking forward to him are still clear.

"Don't cry."

Xie Lang stretched out his hand to touch it, only to find that his face was covered with tears at some point.

"What is your illness? How, what did the doctor say?"

Yan Ziluo shook his head slightly: "It's fine." He looked at Xie Lang, slightly hooked the corner of his mouth, and said in a low voice, "Do you know why I like you?"

Xie Lang was in a hurry: "You still have the time to talk about this!"

Yan Ziluo just said: "Chang'an Avenue, Disabled." He looked at him, sighed slightly: "You really don't remember the past."

Xie Lang couldn't remember that he had seen him before.

He invited the best doctor in the whole city, but Yan Ziluo couldn't be left behind, and his body deteriorated rapidly for no reason.

"I have to leave you alone."

**

Jian Zhu will never forget that night, the night before the swallow Luo Lin left.

Yan Ziluo once said that he hoped to marry Xie Lang back home one day.

This is just a joke that everyone knows.

But Jian Zhu remembered.

Xie Lang also remembered.

That day Xie Lang locked himself inside the house for a whole day, and no one came and just told him to be quiet.

Jian Zhu sat with him in front of the bronze mirror for a whole day.He was a little worried, Xie Lang looked abnormal now, he didn't know what Xie Lang was going to do.

When the last ray of sunset light dissipated, Xie Lang stood up and lit a candle.In the shadow of the lights, he sat in front of the bronze mirror, and carefully painted his eyebrows in front of the mirror.

Jian Zhu looked at the human face reflected in the bronze mirror, and felt that he could hardly speak.

"Cheng, Chengsi, what are you doing..."

The remnant lamp flickered slightly, Xie Lang lowered his eyes, and his eyelashes cast a little shadow under his eyes.He didn't speak, but opened the small porcelain box, gently scooped up a little bit of bright red lipstick with his fingertips, and slowly applied it on his lips.

As the small bronze mirror he was staying in was taken down and placed on the table, Jian Zhu finally saw Xie Lang's current appearance clearly.In the dimly lit room, the young man's face was abnormally white, but his freshly painted lips were bright red, looking like a delicate paper doll.

Xie Lang looked at Jian Zhu's staring eyes, and smiled at him: "Lan Jue, do I look good?"

Jian Zhu's heart tightened.

He put down the copper mirror and lifted the cloth that had been covering the shelf.After the gray cloth fell, what appeared in front of Jian Zhu was a light red man's wedding dress.

Jian Zhu suddenly remembered the joke Yanzi Luo had made with Xie Lang, and was speechless for a moment.

"Chengsi..." He closed his eyes, "Those were just jokes..."

Xie Lang shook his head: "If I marry him, I will be able to find him even in the underworld."

I brought him a lot of pain, and I don't know how to pay it off in this life.

The sleeves embroidered with red background fluttered in the air, Xie Lang tied on another dark cloak, hung the small bronze mirror back on his chest and went out.

**

One can imagine Yan Ziluo's shock when he saw Xie Lang.

Because he is a man, Xie Lang actually didn't wear a lot of makeup.He lightly stroked his eyebrows, put on lip balm for girls, wore a colorful wedding dress, and smiled at Swallow Luo Zhanyan under the lamp.

"What you said, I promise you."

Yanzi Luo blushed: "Why do you..."

"In life, you should come back, and in death, you should love longing. As a married couple, I won't be afraid of you getting lost."

Yan Ziluo was already too sick to get up, Xie Lang ignored his struggle, gently picked him up and placed him on the prepared cushion.

"I'm sorry," Xie Lang caressed his face, "It's too hasty. When you get better, you have to give me a complete wedding."

Yan Ziluo shed tears for the first time in front of people.

With tears in his eyes, he showed his unrestrained smile again: "Chengsi, help me up. It's only once in my life, so I can't lose my manners."

"A bow to... heaven and earth."

"Second salute... Gao Tang."

He choked with sobs, his voice trembling: "Husband and wife...greeting to each other..."

The pale man on the opposite side shook his body, and finally bowed slowly.

After a long time, there was a small sound of cloth rubbing against each other.Xie Lang leaned over, grabbed the man's clothes and whispered: "It's time, you get up..."

The person he was waiting for didn't respond anymore.

He held the man's skirt tightly, and buried his face in the hollow of his shoulder: "Get up..."

The running water in the courtyard flowed gently, and there was a sound of bamboo tubes knocking outside the window.

The life of the person in his arms also fell between his fingers like flowing water.

The continuous tears melted away the greasy mouth, Xie Lang hugged his gradually cooling body, and sat withered all night.

In the air, someone was screaming over and over again.

—I can't keep my love.

In February of the 24th year of Tianqi, Yan Ziluo died of illness.

**

For a long time, Xie Lang could not get out of the feelings left by Yan Ziluo to him.

He was walking in the Yao Pavilion, remembering the trick he played the last time he brought Yan Ziluo here.

"fraud."

After that day, Yao Pavilion was closed for a long time.

The author has something to say: "When you are born, you should come back, and when you die, you should love longing." —— "Leave a Wife" Han Suwu

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